Chapter 1
I was tying my five-year-old daughter's hair when she threw a tantrum and smashed the new hair clip I'd just bought her.
"It's ugly! I want the butterfly clip Clara's mom got me."
Clara's mom was my daughter's new kindergarten teacher, Mildred James.
School had only been in session for a week, and already Ms. James had gone from "Ms. James" to "Clara's mom."
My husband, Toby Simmons, scooped our daughter up and pinned the butterfly clip into her hair, tossing me a casual reassurance. "Honey, she's just a kid. It's normal for her to like pretty things. Don't take it to heart. I'll drop her off at school."
I looked at him. My smile didn't reach my eyes. "Is it the pretty things she likes, or the pretty person?"
Toby's expression froze for a split second before he turned to play with our daughter. "Uh-oh, Mommy's making a scary face! She's gonna eat you up!"
Clara Simmons played right along, shrieking, "Run! The ugly monster is so scary!"
The door shut. The house fell silent.
My phone chimed. A notification from my assistant: the DNA test results.
I scrolled straight to the bottom.
There it was in black and white. The results do not support a biological mother-daughter relationship between Louisa Matthews and Clara Simmons.
I stared at those words until my hands and feet went numb with cold.
The little girl I'd cherished like a princess for five years wasn't mine.
Then where was the baby I'd spent three days and nights in agonizing labor to deliver? The one I'd nearly died bringing into the world when the amniotic fluid embolism hit?
……
My fingertip hovered over the screen.
The phone went dark, and my own reflection stared back at me, white as a sheet.
Five years. Not five days. Not five months. Five full years.
I had poured every ounce of my energy, my time, my money into raising a child whose origins I knew nothing about.
And my real child? Boy or girl, alive or dead, I had no idea.
My mind pulled me back five years.
Eight months pregnant, I'd been rear-ended in a deliberate hit. By the time they got me to the hospital, the amniotic fluid embolism had nearly killed me.
When I woke up, a baby girl was lying beside me.
Toby was kneeling at my bedside, eyes rimmed red.
He told me he'd taken care of everything. Including the driver who'd rammed me on purpose, who'd been handed over to the police for prosecution.
For five years, I'd trusted him without question. I'd given everything I had, loved that little girl like she was the most precious thing in the world.
If it hadn't been for that car accident on the Fourth of July, when Toby took Clara to the fireworks show and they ended up in the ER, I might never have known.
The doctor who treated Clara happened to be a college friend of mine. She'd pulled me aside afterward and hinted, carefully, that my type O blood and Toby's type A blood couldn't produce a child with Clara's type B.
After we left the hospital, I didn't tell a soul. I arranged the DNA test as fast as I could.
While I waited for the results, school started back up.
A new teacher arrived.
Overnight, I became the unfavorable comparison in my daughter's eyes, the woman who could never measure up to Mildred James.
And Toby, who had never once bothered with school drop-offs or pickups, suddenly volunteered for the job.
Every morning, the two of them waltzed out the door dressed to the nines. They rarely came home before dark.
The excuse was always the same: the kid was having too much fun and didn't want to leave.
I held my breath, my gaze fixed on the name Clara Simmons.
When we'd chosen her name, Toby had insisted on a middle connection to mine. He'd wanted Clara Louisa Simmons, he said, to prove his devotion.
But when the birth certificate was filed, Louisa had quietly become something else. The middle name on record didn't reference me at all. It referenced Mildred.
He'd laughed it off. "It sounds almost the same. Doesn't change how I feel."
Clara. Mildred.
I laughed.
It certainly didn't change how he felt.
Because his feelings had always been with another woman.
I closed the screen and hired a private investigator. Top dollar.
That evening, Mildred James's entire history, from childhood to present, landed on my phone.
I was reading the last page when I heard the front door.
"Daddy, I hid a dead fly in the cake for the ugly monster's dinner. She won't find it, right?"
Chapter 2
"The fly was hidden in the blueberry jam. She's too stupid to notice."
The words had barely left her mouth before I appeared in the doorway.
Father and daughter exchanged a quick glance.
Clara was the first to move, grabbing the blueberry cake and running toward me.
"Mommy, Clara picked out your favorite blueberry cake just for you! I'm sorry I threw away the hair clip you bought me. Daddy already scolded me. Can you forgive me?"
The girl hung her head, but her eyes were sneaking furtive glances up at me.
Sharp little eyes. Testing the waters.
It wasn't like I'd never had doubts. She looked nothing like me, and nothing like Toby either.
And it wasn't just her appearance. Her preferences, her allergies.
Everything was the polar opposite of mine.
Now I knew who she took after.
Those eyes, barely able to contain their eagerness to watch me eat the tampered cake.
They were identical to the ones I'd seen on my phone screen ten minutes ago. Mildred's eyes.
I crouched down. She was only five, after all. When she saw me reaching for the cake, she couldn't keep the mischief off her face anymore. She even pulled out a spoon, popped open the box, and scooped a generous piece from the corner with the most blueberry jam, holding it right up to my lips.
"Mommy, let Clara feed you. Eat up!"
I leaned in. Smiled.
Then I flipped the cake over right in front of her, smashing it onto her favorite white patent shoes.
The girl froze for two full seconds before erupting into a wail. "You ruined the cake I worked so hard on! You ugly freak! You big fat pig! Clara's mommy is definitely not going to be happy with me now—"
Toby lunged forward and clamped a hand over her mouth. The guilt in his eyes lasted barely a second before he wheeled on me. "Have you lost your mind, Louisa? Your daughter picked this cake out especially for you! If you're angry, take it out on me. Why are you bullying a child?"
I stared at the dead fly stuck in the blueberry jam and let out a cold, mocking laugh. "A cake with a dead fly hidden inside. That really is special."
I didn't bother looking at the frozen expressions on their faces.
I stepped over the mess on the floor and walked into the study alone.
The next morning, Toby had a full breakfast spread laid out on the table.
When he saw me come out, he shot Clara a look.
She immediately latched onto the hem of my shirt, eyes brimming with pitiful tears.
"Mommy, I'm sorry. Clara was wrong yesterday. Please don't be mad. Please don't ignore me, okay?"
Before all this, seeing her like that would have shattered every wall I had. She wouldn't have even needed to ask. I'd have melted on the spot and handed her the whole world on a silver platter.
But now, staring at that face overlapping with Mildred's, all I could think about was the child I had never once laid eyes on.
Was she cold? Was she hungry?
Was she even… alive?
My nails dug into my palms. I clenched my fists so tight the knuckles went white. Something inside me was burning, a fire that seared through every nerve, every organ, agony so deep it threatened to split me apart. But I couldn't scream.
My child was still out there.
I couldn't afford to fall apart. Not yet.
I drew a slow breath, reached out, and ruffled Clara's hair.
"It's okay. Mommy forgives you."
Seeing my expression soften, Toby exhaled in visible relief and pulled out my chair with exaggerated attentiveness.
"I knew it. You talk tough, but you're soft as butter inside. You nearly died bringing her into this world. No way you'd stay mad at her for real."
I said nothing. I lowered my head and took a sip of oatmeal.
"Oh, by the way, babe. Clara's preschool is organizing a study trip to Austin tomorrow. I figured I'd tag along and spend a few days with her. The family credit card's running low. Can you transfer another thirty thousand into it?"
I looked up. My gaze settled on him.
When I first met Toby Simmons, he was an orphan riding a beat-up secondhand scooter, delivering food for a living, sleeping in a three-hundred-dollar-a-month apartment with a leaking ceiling.
Chapter 3
I ran a five-star hotel with excellent returns.
I never cared that my husband didn't have money. The whole reason I'd chosen Toby as a live-in husband was because he seemed honest, family-oriented, and capable of managing the household. No in-law drama to worry about. I'd even let the children take his last name, out of consideration for his pride.
When we first got married, I bought him a shirt that cost over a thousand dollars. He tried to return it three times.
Now, barely five years later, he could ask me for thirty thousand without so much as blinking.
I curved my lips into something that wasn't quite a smile. "I deposit a million dollars into the family credit card every year. Since Clara was born, that's five million total. You've spent it all?"
Toby didn't flinch. Didn't even have the decency to look embarrassed. "Getting Clara into that international preschool cost a fortune in connections. You know the teachers there are all people of status. Can't afford to offend a single one of them."
"Including Mildred James?"
His expression froze. Before he could respond, Clara piped up.
"Duh! Clara's mommy is pretty and amazing, so obviously she gets the biggest presents!"
She raised her little pinky and pointed it right at my nose, chin tilted up like she was scolding a disobedient dog.
"You have to give Clara's mommy presents, and buy her purses, and a car, and a house. You're just our nanny and our ATM. All your money belongs to Clara's mommy. And if you don't behave, I'll push you into the street and let a car run you over!"
"Clara!" Toby snapped, panic flashing across his face before he could hide it.
He glanced at me, then forced out a weak laugh. "Honey, kids say the darndest things. She didn't mean it. I'll have a talk with her later, I promise. Don't take it to heart."
Kids say the darndest things. Sure. But words that vicious didn't come from nowhere. Without someone teaching her, a five-year-old couldn't have strung together sentences like that.
Nanny.
ATM.
Push me into the street to get run over by a car.
Just like five years ago, when a car killed my child.
I tugged faintly at the corners of my mouth. Beneath the surface, cold seeped through me, all the way to the bone.
"Of course I won't blame her. Clara is my own flesh and blood. I nearly died bringing her into this world. How could I ever hold anything against her?"
"Not only that, but for her fifth birthday next week, I'm planning to transfer all my hotel shares to my little girl. When she comes of age, the hotel will be hers."
Toby's eyes lit up. He grabbed my hands, practically vibrating with excitement.
"Honey, Clara is so lucky to have a mother like you. And I'm so lucky to have a wife like you. We really hit the jackpot."
I pulled my hands free. Swallowing the nausea, I smiled. "Clara has such delicate skin, and she's so picky about food. Only the best for her, in every way. I'll have my assistant load fifty thousand onto the family card. You two go enjoy yourselves."
Toby was beside himself with joy. He leaned in and pressed a kiss to my forehead. "Then I'll leave the birthday party planning to you, honey. When we get back from the trip, the whole family can celebrate together."
He stood, quickly dragged out a suitcase that had clearly been packed and waiting by the door, said something about scouting the location ahead of time, scooped Clara into his arms, and left.
The eagerness to run off and share the good news with Mildred was practically written across his face.
The door swung open and shut. Through the narrowing gap, I caught one last glimpse of Clara's mocking grimace before it disappeared.
Silence filled the room. Dead, hollow silence, matching the cavity in my chest.
I let the smile fall. Set down my spoon. Wiped my mouth with quiet precision.
Then I grabbed my car keys and followed them out.
Kingswood Villa. A hundred thousand dollars per square foot. In a city like this, it was the kind of property ordinary people couldn't even dream of affording.
I parked beneath the shade of a tree not far from the villa and waited ten minutes.
Toby had just stepped out of the car with Clara in his arms when Mildred James came trotting out of the villa in the latest Chanel couture, throwing herself straight into his embrace.