The Child I Let Go

I looked at her, the corners of my lips curling into a mocking smile. "Do you take me for that fool River? Do you think I can't see through your little schemes? Don't forget, we were once roommates in college. You hated kids back then. And now, all of a sudden, you're overflowing with maternal love?"

Seeing that I had called her bluff, Yvonne dropped the pretense. "You're right, I do hate kids. But I don't hate River. I saved his life, and because of that, I lost the chance to ever be a mother. He'll owe me forever. Once the baby is born, do you really think he'll choose you over me?"

Her words made me laugh outright. "Yvonne, if I remember correctly, your hysterectomy wasn't because you saved him—it was because of multiple miscarriages. You had no choice but to have that surgery, isn't that right?"

She shot to her feet, her face full of shock. However, he quickly smoothed her expression and said evenly, "And who would believe you now? Do you have any proof? If you really had evidence, you would've shown it long ago. Why wait until today?"

She fixed me with her steady gaze, but before I could respond, River rushed in, immediately pulling Yvonne behind him. He glared at me coldly. "I already explained everything to you at home. Why are you still harassing her?"

Watching the man who claimed to love me throw himself in front of another woman, my last shred of hope crumbled to dust.

Yvonne stood behind him, a smug smile playing at her lips.

The baby inside me seemed to sense my emotions and stirred. I pressed a hand gently to my belly, fighting the urge to tear apart her mask of hypocrisy.

"How exactly am I harassing her? We were just talking about her last hospital stay."

River frowned in confusion. "Her last hospital stay?"

Yvonne, who had been hiding behind him, suddenly let out a pitiful sob. "Joanne, I know you resent me. I can understand that you don't want River and my mother to have a child through IVF. But you don't need to keep insulting me for not having a uterus, or saying I don't deserve to be a woman!"

River's expression darkened instantly. He turned his anger on me. "How could you say something like that? She lost her uterus saving my life! I owe her a debt for life—and so do you!"

The sight of him desperately defending her crushed the last bit of strength in me. After a long silence, I said quietly, "River Grayson, you'd better hope you'll never regret this."

With that, I picked up my bag, turned on my heel, and went straight to the hospital. That very day, I gave up our baby.

…

From the joy of discovering I was pregnant to the agony of losing my baby, barely more than a month had passed. But deep down, I knew I couldn't bring him into the world. A child who wasn't wanted never should have been born at all.

Weak and drained after the procedure, I returned home only to find the house dark and empty.

Just then, my long-silent phone lit up with a message from Yvonne. It was a video.

In it, at the city's most luxurious maternity retreat, River hovered at Yvonne's mother's side, doting on her every need. His hands rested protectively against her slightly rounded belly, his face glowing with joy and anticipation.

The Last Gift

Watching that video left me sick to my stomach and made me think how they could be so brazen.

Still, I couldn't help but wonder—when the man who swore he loved me looked forward to another woman giving birth to his child, when he remembered the vows he had made to me, did he ever feel guilt? Or was he only thrilled, proud, and secretly satisfied?

Late at night, I finally finished packing my bags. I had barely sat down to catch my breath when River rushed back home. The moment he saw me on the couch, guilt clouded his face. He strode over, wrapped me tightly in his arms, and held me as though that could erase everything.

Seeing that I remained silent, he pressed his lips together and whispered, "Baby, believe me, this will be the last time. From now on, I'll stay by your side and never upset you again."

I drew in a deep breath and slowly picked up the divorce papers I had prepared long ago. "River, let's get divorced."

The tenderness drained from his face in an instant. He grabbed the papers and tore them to pieces without hesitation. "You think threatening me with divorce will make me give up Yvonne's child? You know I hate being threatened. You can't bear a progeny, and after walking away from me, what other man would stay loyal to you and never look down on you? Joanne, your threats won't work. That child will be born!"

But by then, I no longer cared about him or Yvonne's baby. All I wanted was to escape this marriage that had destroyed me. "Think whatever you want. I'll say it again—I want a divorce."

River shot me a cold glance before turning and walking away. I touched my pale face, lifted my suitcase, and left without looking back.

Before I stepped out, I sent him a text. 'If you refuse to sign the divorce papers, I'll have my lawyer file for it directly. At the same time, I compiled Yvonne's secret about losing her uterus along with the proof of my abortion into an email and sent it to his phone. My final gift before the divorce. May we never meet again.'

…

On the way to the maternity retreat with Yvonne, River passed by a bridal shop. He stopped in front of a display, eyes drawn to the delicate white gown inside.

"This wedding dress is beautiful. If only I could wear it one day," she said, clinging sweetly to his arm.

"Sure," he replied absentmindedly. "Joanne would look stunning in it. I spoke too harshly just now and made her angry. I should pick up something she likes to eat and make it up to her." As he spoke, he reached for his phone, intending to ask me what I wanted.

But Yvonne's smile faltered instantly, and she murmured in wounded tones, "It's all my fault… I shouldn't have insisted you give me a child."

River frowned and answered solemnly, "None of this is your fault. You lost your ability to have children by saving me. I owe you a great deal. She's just too jealous, too immature."

At that, he pulled out my chat with him—only to see the unread notification waiting on the screen.