Chapter 1
The heavy door of the Neon Club resisted Gwendolyn Morrison's push, the muffled thud of the bass vibrating through the wood and into her bones. She leaned her weight into it, the hinges groaning in protest before finally giving way.
A wall of sound hit her. A physical force of deep, pulsing bass that hammered against her chest, making it hard to breathe. The air was thick with the smell of sweat, spilled liquor, and a dozen competing perfumes.
Gwen squeezed her eyes shut for a second, rubbing her temples. The dull ache that had been building behind her eyes for the last seventy-two hours of tax season preparations sharpened into a piercing throb. She had spent three straight days staring at spreadsheets, the numbers blurring into a meaningless dance. Two quick shots of tequila at the bar next door had seemed like a good idea to take the edge off. Now, they were just making the room spin.
The floor seemed to tilt beneath her four-inch heels. She stumbled, her ankle twisting painfully. Her hand shot out, her palm slapping against the cold, damp brick of the corridor wall to steady herself. She took a deep, shuddering breath, fighting the wave of nausea that churned in her stomach. She just needed to find Ivan. He'd promised he'd be here, waiting for her. He would hold her, tell her it was all worth it, and the world would stop spinning.
Through the strobing, colored lights, she scanned the crowded booths. Her vision swam, blurring the faces into grotesque masks. Then she saw him. Or, she thought she did. At the far end of the corridor, in a secluded VIP booth, sat a man with his back to her. The custom-tailored black suit, the broad shoulders-it looked just like the one Ivan had splurged on, the one he wore when he wanted to impress potential investors.
A surge of weary relief washed over her. He was here. He was waiting.
With a fresh wave of alcohol-fueled determination, she pushed off the wall and started towards the booth. Each step was a precarious balancing act. The exhaustion, the tequila, the overwhelming need for comfort-it all coalesced into a single, desperate impulse.
She didn't call his name. She didn't want to break the spell. She just wanted to feel his arms around her.
She reached the booth and, without a second thought, threw her arms around the man's waist, pressing her cheek against the hard muscle of his back. The fabric of his suit was smoother, more expensive than she remembered Ivan's being.
Her nose filled with a scent that wasn't right. It wasn't Ivan's cheap, cloying cologne. This was something else entirely. Cold, sharp, and clean, like cedarwood after a winter storm, layered with the faint, expensive scent of tobacco.
The body beneath her hands went rigid. Every muscle tensed, hard as stone.
Before she could process the mistake, the man spun around in his seat. A large, powerful hand shot out and clamped around her jaw, the grip like a steel vise. Her head was jerked upward, forcing her to meet his eyes.
They weren't Ivan's warm, brown eyes. These were the color of a frozen lake, deep and piercing and utterly devoid of warmth. They sliced through the alcoholic haze in her mind, a jolt of pure, cold shock. He stared down at her, this beautiful, terrifying stranger, a flicker of something dark and amused in his gaze as he took in her disheveled state.
The tequila made its final, disastrous decision for her. Logic fled. All that remained was a raw, aching need. She rose onto her tiptoes, her body moving on its own accord, and pressed her lips against his.
His lips were thin and cool, unyielding. For a moment, nothing happened. Then his eyes, which had widened in surprise, narrowed into dangerous slits. Behind him, a mountain of a man in a dark suit-a bodyguard, she vaguely registered-took a step forward, his hand moving inside his jacket. But the man in the chair simply raised a single, dismissive finger, and the bodyguard froze.
Gwen closed her eyes, pressing herself closer, deepening the kiss. And then the strangest thing happened. Nothing. The usual wave of panic, the cold sweat, the desperate urge to claw her own skin off-the hallmarks of her crippling haphephobia-didn't come. There was only the press of his lips, the scent of cedar, the solidness of his body against hers. It was a miracle.
Then, his mouth moved against hers. It was no longer a passive acceptance. His other hand came up, fingers tangling in her hair, gripping the back of her head to hold her in place. He took control of the kiss, his mouth hard and demanding, a punishment and a claiming all at once. He was stealing the air from her lungs, and she was letting him.
A sharp crash echoed from down the hallway-the sound of a glass shattering on the floor. It broke the spell.
Gwen's eyes flew open. She shoved against his chest, her breath coming in ragged gasps. The face looming over her was not a stranger's. It was a face she'd seen on the cover of Forbes, on Bloomberg News. Kingston Crawford. The wolf of Wall Street. A predator.
A strangled sound escaped her throat. She covered her mouth with a trembling hand, her mind reeling. She didn't apologize. She couldn't. She just grabbed her purse from where it had fallen, turned, and ran.
Her heels clicked frantically on the polished concrete floor as she fled, not looking back. She could feel his icy gaze on her, a physical weight against her skin. She needed to find Ivan. She needed the world to make sense again.
She scrambled up the stairs to the second-floor VIP area, her heart pounding a frantic rhythm against her ribs. V8. That was the booth number Ivan had texted her. She saw the brass plate on the door, which was slightly ajar.
"Ivan?" she called out, her voice thin and shaky as she pushed the door open.
The word died in her throat.
In the dim, pulsating light of the private booth, Ivan was there. But he wasn't alone. He had a woman pinned against the plush leather sofa, his hands tangled in her red slip dress, his mouth devouring hers.
The strobing lights swept across the woman's face. Gwen's entire world fractured. It was Blair. Her best friend of ten years. Her maid of honor.
Gwen's fingers dug into the doorframe, the wood biting into her skin. Her nails turned white from the pressure. A tremor started in her hands and spread through her entire body. She couldn't breathe. She couldn't move.
Then she heard Ivan's voice, thick and breathless. "Just wait," he panted against Blair's lips. "Once I gift-wrap Gwen for that big shot at Crawford's firm, my seed funding is a done deal."
Blair let out a breathy laugh, her hands sliding down his back. "You're terrible. But can she even handle a man like that? With her... you know. Her little problem about not being touched."
The nausea Gwen had been fighting all night came roaring back, hot and acidic. It wasn't just tequila. It was betrayal. It was the sickening realization that her entire life was a lie.
She shoved the door open. It slammed against the inside wall with a deafening crack.
The two on the sofa sprang apart, their faces a comical mask of shock and guilt. Ivan fumbled with his pants, his face draining of all color as he stared at her.
Gwen's gaze was cold, empty. The tears she thought would come had been burned away by a white-hot rage. She looked at Ivan, then at Blair, the two people she had trusted most in the world.
Slowly, deliberately, she pulled the cheap silver ring from her left hand. The one Ivan had given her six months ago, promising it was just a placeholder for the real thing.
She didn't say a word. She just walked forward and threw it. The ring arced through the air, striking Ivan squarely on the cheek with a soft thud.
Then she turned her back on the wreckage of her life and walked out.
Chapter 2
The frigid Manhattan air hit Gwen's flushed cheeks like a slap, a welcome shock to her system. She stumbled out of the Neon Club's entrance, the heavy bass fading behind her, replaced by the distant wail of a siren and the hum of city traffic. She just wanted to disappear, to melt into the anonymous shadows of the city.
"Gwen, wait!"
A hand grabbed her wrist. Ivan. His touch was clammy and desperate. The familiar revulsion, the precursor to her haphephobia, coiled in her gut. For years, she had tolerated his touch, endured it. Now, it felt like being grabbed by something unclean.
She ripped her arm away with a strength she didn't know she possessed. The motion was fluid, primal. Her hand swung in a wide arc, and the crack of her palm connecting with his cheek was sharp and satisfyingly loud in the night air.
Ivan staggered back, his hand flying to his face. The feigned look of remorse he'd been wearing vanished, replaced by a snarl of pure, ugly rage. "You bitch!"
Blair came clattering out of the club behind him, her red dress askew. She rushed to Ivan's side, playing the part of the concerned peacemaker. "Gwen, don't! You shouldn't have hit him."
Gwen let out a harsh, broken laugh. She pointed a trembling finger at Blair. "You can have him," she said, her voice dripping with contempt. "Enjoy my leftovers. You seem to like picking up my trash."
Ivan's face contorted. He raised his hand, ready to strike back.
But before his hand could move, a shrill, piercing ring cut through the tension. It was Gwen's phone, buried deep in her purse. The sound was frantic, insistent.
She took a step back, her hand fumbling inside her bag. She pulled out the phone. The screen glowed with a name: Mr. Hayes. Laura's high school English teacher. Why was he calling her at this hour?
She swiped to answer, her thumb clumsy and shaking. "Hello?"
"Ms. Morrison? This is Mark Hayes from Northwood High." His voice was tight with panic. "There's been an incident. It's Laura. She collapsed during drama rehearsal. An ambulance is taking her to Metropolitan General Hospital. She had some kind of... cardiac event."
The blood drained from Gwen's face. The sounds of the city, Ivan's angry shouts, Blair's fake whimpers-it all faded into a dull, distant roar. The phone slipped from her grasp, and she barely caught it before it hit the concrete.
Laura. Her little sister. The only family she had left.
She didn't look at Ivan again. She didn't even register his existence. She turned and ran, sprinting toward the street, her arms waving wildly at the river of yellow cabs.
A taxi screeched to a halt inches from her. She yanked the door open and threw herself inside.
"Metropolitan General Hospital! Now! Please, hurry!" she screamed at the driver, her voice cracking.
The cab lurched into the congested flow of traffic. Gwen stared unseeing at the blur of city lights. Her hands were clenched so tightly in her lap that her nails bit into her palms, drawing blood. She could feel the faint, crescent-shaped scars from a hundred other moments of panic.
After their parents died in that horrific car crash, it had just been the two of them. Gwen had become a parent at nineteen, working two jobs to put herself through accounting school while making sure Laura never missed a meal, never felt the true weight of their loss. Laura was her reason for everything. Her weakness. Her entire world.
The taxi slammed to a stop in front of the emergency room entrance. Gwen threw a fifty-dollar bill onto the front seat. "Keep the change!" she yelled, scrambling out of the car before it had even fully stopped.
The ER was a chaotic symphony of beeping machines, hurried footsteps, and hushed, anxious voices. She ran to the triage desk, gasping for breath. "My sister. Laura Morrison. She was just brought in."
A nurse with tired eyes checked her computer, her expression grim. She led Gwen down a long, sterile corridor to the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit. "She's in here. The doctor will be out to speak with you shortly."
Through a large glass window, Gwen saw her. Laura. She looked so small and fragile in the oversized hospital bed, a tangle of wires and tubes connecting her to a bank of monitors that beeped and flashed in a terrifying, life-sustaining rhythm. Her face was pale, her chest unnervingly still.
Gwen's legs gave out. She sagged against the wall, a raw, guttural sob tearing from her throat. The tears she hadn't shed for Ivan and Blair now came in a hot, blinding flood.
A man in a white coat, his face etched with professional concern, approached her, holding a clipboard. "Ms. Morrison? I'm Dr. Evans."
She wiped her eyes, struggling to compose herself. "Is she... will she be okay?"
Dr. Evans's expression was somber. "Laura's congenital heart condition... there's been a severe rejection of her previous valve graft. Her heart is failing, Ms. Morrison. She needs a full transplant and reconstructive surgery. Urgently."
"Then do it," Gwen begged, grabbing his sleeve. "Whatever it costs, just do it. Now."
He sighed, his gaze softening with pity. "This is a highly complex procedure. The best person in the country, arguably the world, for this kind of surgery is Dr. Colt Turner. He's affiliated with this hospital."
Hope flared in Gwen's chest. "Then call him! Get him here!"
"I'm afraid it's not that simple," the doctor said gently. "Dr. Turner's surgical schedule is booked solid for the next two years. There's a waiting list a mile long."
Just then, a nurse approached and handed Gwen a sheaf of papers. It was a preliminary estimate of costs. Gwen's eyes scanned the page, her vision blurring as she tried to count the zeroes. The number was staggering. Obscene. Enough to buy a house.
Her hand trembled as she read the fine print. Because Laura's condition was pre-existing, her insurance would cover only a tiny fraction of the total.
She pulled out her phone, her fingers fumbling as she opened her banking app. The balance displayed on the screen was a cruel joke. It wasn't even enough to cover the first line item on the bill.
The hope that had flickered moments before was extinguished, plunged into an abyss of absolute despair. The weight of it was crushing, a physical pressure that stole the air from her lungs. She slid down the cold, sterile wall until she was sitting on the floor, her head in her hands.
She had no one. No family to call, no savings to fall back on. Ivan had drained their joint account for his stupid startup. Blair was... gone. She was utterly, completely alone.
And then, a memory pierced through the fog of her despair. Ivan's voice, in that dark, sleazy booth. gift-wrap Gwen for that big shot at Crawford's firm...
Gwen's head snapped up. Her tears stopped. An idea, terrible and desperate, began to form in the ruins of her mind. She didn't know who this "big shot" was. She didn't care.
She knew what Ivan had intended to sell. And in this moment of total desperation, she realized it was the only asset she had left.
She wiped her face with the back of her hand, a new, chilling resolve hardening her expression. She got to her feet, her movements stiff but steady. She was going to find him. She was going to make a deal.
Chapter 3
The first rays of dawn were streaking the sky in shades of grey and pink as Gwen emerged from the hospital. She didn't go home. She walked to the nearest subway station, the city slowly waking around her.
In the grimy public restroom, she stared at her reflection. Her eyes were red and swollen, her makeup smeared. She looked like a victim. She couldn't afford to look like a victim.
She splashed her face with icy water, the shock of it helping to clear her head. From her purse, she pulled out a tube of concealer and meticulously began to repair the damage, layering it under her eyes until the dark circles of grief and exhaustion were masked. She reapplied her lipstick, a bold red that felt like armor. When she was done, she looked less like a heartbroken woman on the verge of collapse and more like what she was: a professional tax consultant on her way to a meeting.
The subway rattled its way downtown, spitting her out at the Wall Street station. She stepped onto the street and tilted her head back, her eyes tracing the sleek, imposing lines of the Crawford Group headquarters as it soared into the sky, a monument of glass and steel that seemed to scrape the heavens.
She took a deep breath, the air tasting of exhaust fumes and cold ambition. Then she pushed through the revolving glass doors and into the lobby.
The space was cavernous and cold, all polished marble and brushed chrome. It was designed to intimidate, to make you feel small and insignificant. It was working.
Gwen walked to the massive reception desk, her heels clicking an unnervingly loud rhythm on the floor. She placed her business card on the marble countertop.
"I'm here to see Mr. Kingston Crawford," she said, her voice steady, betraying none of the terror churning inside her.
The receptionist, a woman with perfectly coiffed hair and a dismissive smile, glanced at the card and then back at Gwen as if she were something unpleasant stuck to the bottom of her shoe. "Do you have an appointment?"
"No, but—"
"Mr. Crawford does not take unscheduled meetings," the woman said, her tone final. She had already turned her attention back to her computer screen.
Gwen wasn't leaving. She turned and walked directly toward a bank of private elevators, cordoned off by a velvet rope. A sign in polished brass read: EXECUTIVE FLOORS - AUTHORIZED PERSONNEL ONLY.
"Ma'am! You can't go over there!" the receptionist called out.
Two security guards, built like refrigerators, immediately moved to intercept her. They each took one of her arms, their grips firm and impersonal.
The touch was electric. A jolt of pure panic shot through Gwen's nervous system. Her breath hitched. The marble floor seemed to drop away beneath her. The sounds of the lobby warped and faded. Cold sweat prickled on her skin. Her haphephobia was kicking in, a full-blown panic attack. She was going to scream.
Just as a strangled cry was about to tear from her lips, a soft ding echoed through the lobby. The doors to the central executive elevator slid open.
Out stepped Kingston Crawford.
He was flanked by his assistant and a retinue of executives in dark suits, all of whom fell silent as he emerged. He wore a charcoal grey suit that fit him like a second skin, his expression one of bored, untouchable power. His gaze swept across the lobby, a king surveying his domain, and then it stopped, snagging on the commotion by the elevators.
His eyes locked onto Gwen's. A flicker of recognition. He tilted his head slightly, a slow, predatory smile touching the corners of his mouth. He remembered her.
He lifted his hand and made a small, almost imperceptible flicking gesture with his fingers.
Instantly, the guards released her.
Gwen's legs, which had turned to jelly, gave out. She crumpled to the floor, landing hard on the cold marble. She gasped for air, her lungs burning, her body trembling from the aftershocks of the panic.
A pair of gleaming, hand-stitched leather shoes entered her field of vision, stopping just inches from her. She looked up, past the perfectly creased trousers, up the imposing height of him, to the face that had haunted her since last night.
Kingston Crawford looked down at her, a silent predator observing its fallen prey. His voice, when he spoke, was a low, velvet rumble that cut through the cavernous silence of the lobby.
"Well, well," he said, a note of cruel amusement in his tone. "Are you here for after-sales service?"
The blood rushed to Gwen's face. The executives behind him shifted uncomfortably, trying to pretend they hadn't heard.
Shame warred with desperation, and desperation won. This was her only chance. Laura's only chance.
She reached out, her hand closing around the fabric of his trousers. She clung to him like a drowning woman to a piece of driftwood.
"Please," she whispered, the word raw and broken. "You have to help me. My sister... she needs Dr. Colt Turner. They say you're the only one who can... please, I'll do anything."
A collective gasp went through the executives. They stared, horrified, at this woman groveling at their boss's feet.
Kingston's gaze flickered down to her hand, clutching his leg. He looked surprised, she thought. As if he'd expected her to flinch away from him. He didn't know. He couldn't know.
He crouched down, balancing on the balls of his feet. His fingers, cool and firm, gripped her chin, forcing her to look at him. His icy eyes bored into hers, searching for something.
"A businessman never makes a bad deal," he murmured, his voice so low only she could hear it. The scent of cedar and clean linen filled her senses. "What, exactly, can you offer me?"
Gwen bit her lip, the sharp pain grounding her. She tasted blood. "Anything," she said, her voice shaking but resolute. "Anything but my life."
A slow, dangerous smile spread across his face. He seemed pleased with her answer. He released her chin and stood up, towering over her once more.
He turned to his assistant, a man with a perpetually neutral expression. "Jenson, contact Dr. Turner's office. Clear his schedule. My treat."
The tension in Gwen's body snapped. A wave of dizzying relief washed over her, so powerful it felt like a physical blow. She slumped forward, her forehead touching the cold floor, silent tears of gratitude and humiliation tracing paths through her carefully applied makeup.
Kingston turned to leave, his entourage parting before him like the Red Sea. He walked toward the main entrance where a black Maybach was waiting. Just before he stepped outside, he paused and looked back at her over his shoulder.
"The Plaza Hotel. Eight o'clock tonight," he commanded. "Don't be late."
The car door slammed shut, and the vehicle pulled away, disappearing into the chaos of Wall Street. Gwen pushed herself up, her body aching. Her purse buzzed on the floor beside her.
She picked it up and looked at the screen. A text from Ivan.
Hey, you back to your senses yet? I can forgive you for last night if you're willing to be reasonable.
A cold, bitter smile touched Gwen's lips. She deleted the message, shoved the phone back in her bag, and walked out of the building, her head held high. The deal was made. The devil was waiting.