Chapter 3
“I've already had the photo studio reschedule the session. Day after tomorrow, afternoon. And I swear, this time I won't bail on you.”
My son's hands paused over the model.
He glanced at Harry, then tipped his head up, hesitant.
And still, against everything, a flicker of hope rose in his eyes and turned toward me.
Meeting those clear, wide eyes, something in me went soft.
“All right.”
Call it granting the boy one last wish.
The words were barely out before his whole face lit up.
He scooped up his beloved model and went padding off in his slippers, racing into his room.
The living room fell quiet again.
I bent back over the clothes, sorting them, while Harry came to my side and started to speak, hesitating:
“About him calling me 'Mr. James' today……”
My fingers stilled. I lifted my eyes to him.
He set the cake aside, took my hand, and pressed it against his chest, against the smooth front of his suit.
Under my palm, his heartbeat ran a little fast.
“Deborah, I know you've been angry with me lately. Angry that I've looked after Vivien and her boy too much and left you and our son out in the cold.”
His eyes held a seriousness, a helplessness, I'd never seen in them.
“But what I feel for her is only what I owe her brother. She's raising a child alone, and in our circles that's no easy thing. I can't just abandon them.”
“Give me a little more time. Once I've got them properly settled, I'll never let you or our son suffer another moment of it.”
I stared at that handsome, sharply cut face, and for a second I drifted.
I could barely remember the last time he'd looked at me like this, with so much tenderness, so much focus.
Was it at that wedding of the century the whole city talked about, when he took my hand and spoke his vows?
Or in the delivery room, when our son was born and he kissed my forehead with shaking lips?
Whatever those scalding promises had been, they'd long since gone cold in all that waiting.
Looking at the man in front of me, I suddenly wanted to lay it all bare.
“Harry, the truth is……”
“Oh, right,”
he cut in, an edge of urgency crossing his handsome face.
“That globally limited-edition Bugatti scale model you bought our son, the original factory one. Where is it? In the display case?”
“Vivien says Howie's been begging to play with it lately. Let me take it over to calm him down. I'll bring it back in a few days.”
He didn't wait for an answer. He just turned and walked straight to the study.
Less than a minute later he came out with the model my son treasured above everything, grabbing his car keys in the same motion and pulling the front door open in a rush.
“Slam!”
The heavy security door closed completely in front of me.
I stood there staring at the empty entryway for a long time before I finally said the rest of it, softly, to no one:
“The truth is, our son and I don't want you anymore.”
Three days left before we were gone for good.
At midnight I stopped working, rubbed my aching temples, and lay down on the empty bed.
My phone screen lit up all at once. A message from Harry.
“Howie loves the sports-car model. I stayed up all night putting it together with him. Vivien wanted me to pass along her thanks.”
Ha. The middle of the night, and my husband was up keeping another woman's child company, then relaying her thanks to me on top of it.
I gave a small, self-mocking tug at the corner of my mouth. Even anger felt like a waste now.
Some endings, after all, are settled long before they arrive.
Expressionless, I typed out my reply:
“No need to thank me. It wasn't a gift from me.”
“That Bugatti model was our son's seventh birthday present. He waited three whole months for you. He wanted you to build it with him.”
Once it was sent, I powered off the phone, closed my eyes, and let myself sink into sleep.
Chapter 4
The next morning, in a rare break from routine, Harry skipped the executive meeting he usually chaired at James Group and came home to the riverside mansion early.
He pushed open the door to the dressing room, glanced down, and froze where he stood. Four silver suitcases sat lined up neatly beside the cabinet.
"It's just a short trip. Why pack all this?"
He hadn't even taken off his suit jacket, and there was a thread of panic in his voice he couldn't quite hide.
I was bent over our son, straightening his tailored shirt, and didn't look up. "It's a long way. We'll be staying a while."
His eyes went straight to Lowell, who nodded, sweet and obedient.
The tight line of his jaw eased a little.
Then he reached into his briefcase and drew out three gold-embossed VIP passes to the riding club, spreading them open slowly in front of the two of us.
"Deborah, you've been angry with me for not taking him to the club, haven't you? I pushed back my morning meeting. I pulled these from the private list especially for today. The three of us can go right now."
There was a rare coaxing note in his voice, and his dark eyes were full of hope.
For a moment I felt strangely off balance.
It had been nearly a month since he stood us up, and only today did it occur to him to make it right.
But then I remembered the text conversation I'd cut short last night, and it all came clear in an instant.
This was nothing more than a late apology, dragged out of him by guilt.
So I said nothing and kept straightening Lowell's collar.
But Lowell suddenly lit up, gazing up at me with shining eyes. "Mommy, I want to ride a pony."
Looking at that light in his eyes, I was about to nod when Harry added, haltingly,
"Only... if we go to the club today, you have to agree to one thing for me."
"Vivien heard we'd booked the family portrait tomorrow. She's worried that if Howie finds out, he'll feel left out and act up. So the photos. Could we push them back a little first?"
He wouldn't meet our eyes as he said it, his whole face short on conviction, soft with the guilt of a man who knew he had no ground to stand on.
The smile froze on Lowell's face. The light in his eyes went out, inch by inch.
"Oh. Okay."
He lowered his small head and his hands, folded in front of him, clenched tight around the hem of his shirt.
Harry, on the other hand, let out a breath like a man set free, and went right on talking himself into it.
"It's her only worry. And I figure the portrait can be done anytime. We'll have plenty of chances later. Right, buddy?"
He had no idea that tomorrow our son and I would be gone from this city for good.
But neither of us let on.
I looked at him, my lips twisting into a cold, faint smile.
"Fine. We'll do it your way."
Harry exhaled, and at last a relieved smile spread across his handsome face.
"Then I'll let Vivien know. One o'clock this afternoon. We'll meet at the main gate of the private club."
He buttoned his jacket as he headed out, and at the door he stopped short and looked back at us.
"Deborah, buddy, thank you both for understanding."
Neither of us answered. We only watched him go, quietly.
The instant the security door clicked shut, Lowell snapped the lid closed on the supercar model's box.
He slid down off the sofa and pulled out the little suitcase he'd packed long ago.
"Mommy, I don't want to go to the club anymore. Can we just leave now?"
I crouched down and ruffled his hair.
"Yes. I've already rebooked the tickets. The two o'clock flight this afternoon."
That morning, in the riverside mansion where we'd lived together for years, I made one last simple breakfast.
Chapter 5
The layered fruit cream cake Harry had brought home the night before had already turned. My son dropped it in the trash without a word, his face giving nothing away.
At nine sharp, the Fox family attorney placed the signed divorce agreement in my hands.
The property split was clean, and in the line for our son's custody, the wording left no room for doubt.
While I read, I refreshed my feed out of habit.
Vivien had posted five minutes earlier:
【Rushed the family portrait through, and the composition is perfect. Howie says it's the best gift he's gotten all year and that it has to hang above his bed.】
The attached photo was the one they'd taken at the studio yesterday. Their “family” shot.
My son sat at the table, folding a paper airplane out of his special stationery.
He gave my screen a glance. Nothing moved in those bright dark eyes. He only said, quietly,
“Mom, put the agreement away. It's time to go.”
At noon we didn't trouble the James bodyguards or driver. We called an Uber to the airport ourselves.
The whole way there, my son held his tablet and scrolled through the album in silence.
It held the few tender moments he and Harry had ever shared.
The profile of Harry the day he was born, cradling him so carefully in the hospital.
The two of them at the company gala when he was five, Harry taking his little hand in front of all those watching eyes.
A video, from before Vivien and her son turned up, of Harry on the lawn guiding his hands through a golf swing.
He watched them over and over. He didn't cry. He didn't fuss.
But a suffocating disappointment, a quiet grief, spread through the car all the same.
I reached over and folded his cold little hand in mine.
At one o'clock the boarding call came over the airport speakers.
Harry's call landed at exactly that moment.
“Deborah, tell our son I'm sorry. Howie just fell from the stands at the riding club and broke his shin. Vivien nearly fainted. I have to get him to the hospital right now.”
“There's no way I'll make it by two. If it's windy at the club, take our son home to rest first. Tell him Dad will make it up to him another day.”
His voice was clipped and anxious, and he hung up before I could get out a single word.
“Let's go.”
I put my phone away and took my son's hand.
He nodded, good as ever.
Then he looked down, opened the album, and with one small motion of his fingertip, selected all and deleted them.
At two o'clock the great roar rose and the plane drove up into the clouds.
I fitted his noise-canceling headphones over his ears, shutting out everything outside.
Watching the city's buildings shrink to black specks past the window, I let out the long breath I'd held in my chest for so long.
Goodbye, Harry.