Raina Williams

That blinding moment when you believe in love. The moment you fall in love you know he is the one you want to spend the rest of your life with because he whispers sweet nothings in your ear. He tells you the right things you want to hear, showers you with compliments and gifts. Your heart takes a leap of faith saying you know what maybe he is the one I have been waiting for my whole life.

Sadly.

That was me six years ago, I had just finished my last year of college and I was working on my internship at a international Law firm owned by the Le roux family originally from Netherlands. I was twenty and ready for the beginning of my career as a criminal Lawyer...my passion. Mr. Richard Le Roux was my boss, very easy to work with, although he was in his early fifties he had a lot of experience and was very enthusiastic about everything to do with law. Everything was going smoothly at my internship for five months until the horror started, yes the horror itself. Angelo Le roux the so called heir to the multi-million company had just returned from London to summon his father's request. That was initially the death of me, Angelo was a well know bachelor in Los Angeles by vogue and various magazines only twenty four at the time, with jet black hair, tanned skin, beautiful forest green eyes that were irrisistable... I fell fall him. I know what you are thinking how cliché right?

When we had meetings with the board including his father, Richard...he would hold his gaze on me the entire time until it got to a point where he would show up in my office and enjoy each other’s kisses for a while well at that moment I wasn't thinking and I loved the danger and excitement of almost getting caught each and every time until I finally gave in and he broke my virginity from there it’s true what they say Once you pop you can’t stop.

Mr. Richard Le roux was quite fond of me, and he would invite me to family brunches and venues because he said he saw his young self in me so I became a family friend and that was effective for Angelo and I as we would fuck in the mansion, my office, at his penthouse, in his office, boardroom, conference room well everywhere. It was all fun and games until I got pregnant...

with twins.

Raina Williams.

I was pregnant with twins, well why was I surprised it was something that was normal in the Le roux family. Angelo himself had a twin sister Alma Le roux, a very nice outgoing woman she became a good friend as time went by.

*Flashback*

"Angelo I can't , not today." I panted as Angelo unbuttoned my blouse while kissing my neck, it felt so good but I needed to get something off my chest first...it had been two months already and I couldn't hide it anymore. The morning sickness wasn't taking it easy on me especially during office hours and minor mood swings. My colleagues were stating to question what was going on.

"Come on, Raina." He continued kissing me all along, I avoided him telling him things like it was that time of the month or any excuse possible but knowing Angelo he never backed down, he would still insist-

knowing due to our lust, we had fucked while on my period multiple times mostly in their shower... that's how intimate we were, like a married couple.

"Angelo, I'm pregnant." I blurted out and he immediately stopped and my heart hammered against my chest for his reaction. He walked back and forth around my office frustrated he racked through his black hair and I started crying while buttoning my blouse. Damn these hormones.

"We always use protection !!" He said more as a way of convincing himself, Yes we did and I was always on the pill. Somehow I didn't want to admit that there where times I had forgotten to take them. I always pressured him to use a condom but he always insisted, he was sleeping with anyone else and I could trust him. Also because he wanted to feel me.

"Yes, but we didn't have them so you said you would pull out." I sobbed hiccuping on my words.

"How long are you?" He strayed from the conversation.

" 6 weeks." I said stropping.

"You can remove it." He said coldly and I gasped.

"I can't." I said sniveling.

"Raina, listen to me... You will remove that thing because I don't want it." I cried even more standing in my corner and he was sublime about the whole situation.

"Don't worry I will pay for it." He said in a low voice.

"But Angelo, I love you and we could be together and we won't have to abort our baby." I sobbed my eyes becoming red.

"Raina, listen it's not Ours that's your responsibility and secondly I'm sorry I can't return those feelings...we fucked that's all there was to it." He spat coldly and my heart broke it a million pieces making me cry even more when he left banging my office door.

*End of Flashback*

As expected Angelo didn't want the baby, so I asked Mr. Richard for a leave from work...concerned he asked what was wrong but I lied through my teeth Angelo was already mad as it is but one thing I knew was I wasn't going to kill my babies, so I left Los Angeles and went back to Ohio to be with my family. I was broken and all I wanted was to be with my family. I surly explained to my parents the whole ideal, my father Marco Williams a pastor in our small town was disappointed but being raised as a preachers kid, I knew abortion was not an option. My parents promised to help me whenever I needed help. For the rest of the nine months, I went out every Sunday for my father's church service as expected but the other days I would be curled up in bed crying my eyes out while watching Love Rosie over and over again with a bucket of ice cream. I craved chocolate and vanilla ice cream more than anything. Then I thought you know what maybe I can do this without him. I will take care of my twins, love them more than anything, life would continue. I was already in love with my babies, from the first ultra sound. The first time they kicked....

I couldn't help but think you should have been here.

In those nine months Angelo only contacted me once to ask if I removed it, his exact words and I replied with yes and with that I never heard from him again. I was so easy to forget.

Twenty second of September, twenty eleven, my two beautiful Angels were born. The most beautiful beings, on this living earth. My mom, Sarah Williams was there with me in the delivery room while I almost broke her knuckles. My father was outside praying in the hospital corridors with my little brother Karl Williams playing video games.

My second day in hospital, I decided to name them Ashley and Ashton suddenly the person I thought I would never see again walked in and my heart froze. How did he know ? I was shocked more than relieved, he didn't have the right. He had abandoned me. A part of me jumped with joy that he would apologise, kiss me, propose to me then we could the happy family I always thought about ever since I got pregnant.

"Raina, I called him we both know you can't do this alone." My mom wheedled.

"Mom, you know he doesn't want them." I said my eyes becoming blurry.

"Raina, I'm sorry." He said standing on the side of my hospital bed then Richard and his wife Martha Le roux walked in with flowers and teddy bears.

"Oh my Raina they are so cute." Alma, Angelo's twin sister squirmed looking the twins who were peacefully asleep.

"Raina thank you for not having an abortion, you know you are like a daughter to Martha and i. Why didn't you tell us?" Richard genuinely said.

After that everything was settled Angelo said he would take responsibility, we would be going back to Los Angeles. If it wasn't for my parent's calling Angelo, things would be a lot complicated. I forgave Angelo but even in my pain of after giving birth he still reminded me that there absolutely nothing between us... and that hurt because I loved him.

After a year, I went back to the gym, back to work, moved out of Angelo's place into my own modern apartment with four bedrooms, huge kitchen, lounge, two bathrooms and a balcony with the most beautiful view. I basically got my life back on track and no one would even think I gave birth a year ago because my body was on fleek.

I went back to taking clients as a criminal lawyer, it was hard being a full time mom to twins and working on my cases of cause Angelo would help out and his parents too. I was grateful.

Present time.

"Mommy, Ashton removed the powerpuff girls." Ashley snuffles into my office with her blonde hair up to her shoulders and blue eyes staring sadly at my own brown eyes.

"Baby, go tell him to put it back okay?" I smile and she nods going back to the lounge as I turn back to my lap top trying to crack this case of my client Derrick Collins charged with homicide.

"Mom, Ashley removed teen titans." Ashton stormed into my office for five year olds, these dumplings are quite voluble. His blonde quiff messier than ever and his green eyes looking at mine for attention.

"Anyways its time for bed... so no one will be watching any cartoons." I stand up leading both of their grumpy faces to their rooms. Once they are both asleep, I head back to my office. The past four years haven't been easy but Angelo and I managed to give our babies whatever they needed and they absolutely understand that mommy and daddy are not together so every weekend they spend time with their father then I have them for a full week well only in the evening because they go to kindergarten through out the day otherwise everything is perfect.

not perfect.

perfect would be you and Angelo raising your kids as a family. - my subconscious mocked me. Deciding that it is late and I should get some sleep, I head to my bedroom suddenly Angelo calls and I'm forced to answer.

Forced to answer because if it were up to me I would ignore but it might be important.

"Hey..." I vaguely greet through the receiver..

"Hey Raina, just wanted to remind you that tomorrow I will be taking the twins out." He says enthusiastically, he loves the twins, you could tell from a mile away.

"Uhm okay." I say with a yawn, its midnight I need to sleep.

"They will be meeting my girl friend, Yaya." He gabbles.

"What ?!?" I say vociferously.

"She isn't replacing you Raina, you will always be their mother." I could literally picture him rolling his beautiful green eyes, clenching his jaw while saying this.

shut up.

"I can't believe you right now." I frown at the thought of them playing happy family with this Yaya.

"I'm sorry but at least now you know."

He isn't sorry.

"Wow like that actually makes things any better." I say sarcastically.

"It does because I don't want you to get any hopes up." He says confidently. A part of me weeps because I know it's true. No matter how many girls I see Angelo with, there is always that hope that it's temporary and one day we will be a family.

hopeless romantic.

"What do you mean ?" I frown.

"I know you are inlo-" I cut him off.

"Actually I'm happy for you Angelo at least you will stop being a male little whore sticking that dick anyone that fits and get settled down." I gush out before hanging up. I quickly receive a text.

you forget you used to accommodate this dick. - Angelo

what an Asshole.

I think to myself before closing my eyes. Hopefully my babies don't get introduced to a strumpet (prostitute). Yaya is a stupid name.

***

Woke up early and got ready for work wearing my black pencil skirt and white blouse tucked in, as well as my black heels then added light make up and tying my hair into a bun, I was ready to run the day.

"Morning Miss Raina." Maya greeted me in the most sincere way.

"Morning Maya." I smiled walking into the kitchen sitting on the kitchen island stools. Maya is in her late forties, she occasionally takes care of the twins when I'm busy or when Angelo is busy. She is very nice and friendly and her advises are always the best.

"So Angelo will be picking up the twins later on..." I frown.

"Oh, Raina why do you seem unhappy ?" She says wiping the island with a white cloth, she doesn't have to but she just loves tiding up. She is like my second mother here in Los Angeles.

"He is going to introducing them to his girlfriend." I muttered.

"That's wonderful is it not ? " she gushed.

"I guess." I shrugged more Ike rolled my eyes.

"You always wanted him to stop being a play boy so he could be a good example to his kids." She convinced.

"Yes but now that its finally happening I don't know how to feel about it."

That should be me, this is so sad.

"I understand but just be happy he is changing for them." She assured me with a smile.

"Well you are right, thank you Maya." I hugged her. "Let me get going, Derrick Collins is not going to be happy about the news I have for him." I stood up grabbing my laptop bag and car keys from the counter.

"He deserves what ever news that are coming for him, Raina don't forget he is a murderer." Maya spat.

"Everyone is innocent till proven guilty." I flounced out of the kitchen heading out before Maya continues arguing.

"Bye Maya." I yelled as I went inside the elevator that went down to the basement.

Maybe Maya is right, Angelo has been wild and unsettled...the media knows him for all the wrong things but at least he is making the effort to change maybe just maybe this woman is exactly what he needs to become a better person.

You couldn't do that.

Maybe I wasn't the person for him, my feelings never faded he was my first love and I don't think its easy to try and move on from that even though he reminds me all the time that there will never be a us. I always assumed the twins would bring us together but not really.

Its quite sad, the things we do for love.