4 - Kennedy

Walking into the gym and flipping on the lights I, at least, think to warm-up a little first. I crank some angry rock music, grab a speed rope and start jumping to get my blood flowing and my muscles warm, still letting the rampant negative thoughts run wild. Weak, Orphan, Alone, Replaced, Unwanted. Just a repeating loop every time the rope hit the floor a new word would pop up.

Once I had a decent sweat going. I moved over to the heavy bag, checked my wrapped hands and started running through our usual hitting warm-up then I just started wailing on the bag adding in kicks and full body movements, until I couldn’t feel my limbs any more. I stopped when I couldn’t push my body any further and leaned my forehead on the bag breathing hard. My weak human self doesn’t have the same natural stamina my werewolf friends do. Another wave of irritation washes over me. Not Enough, my internal voice taunts me.

Ben walks up next to me in his own workout gear and hands me a water bottle. “Did you get it all out?” I didn’t realize he stayed. He’s sweaty too, so at least I didn’t keep him from his workout today by being stuck babysitting me, again.

“For now, but that’s only because I can’t feel my arms.” I roll my eyes at him.

“You’ve been at it for three hours, I would hope so. I don’t know if I’ve ever seen you move like that. You are getting stronger and faster. Apparently your anger is your secret weapon.” He winks at me, but the amusement doesn’t last long.

“Well, I guess it’s good at least one of you noticed, finally.” I scrunch my eyes together and take a deep breath. “I’m sorry, you didn’t deserve that. I’m not angry at you, you’re just here.” I sit down on the bench next to the bag and he follows suit.

I see movement out of the corner of my eye and notice Tommy and Jason coming closer. They stayed too? I’m interrupting their night, now I do feel a little bad. They really should be getting to know their new Luna and hanging out with Jer.

“Is it safe to approach, or am I going to lose the jewels?” Tommy tries for a joke, pointing to his most prized possession.

“Shut up. You’ll be fine.” I roll my eyes and almost smile, but I'm not there yet.

“But, will you?” Ben asks and all I can do is shrug my shoulders.

“We haven’t talked for two days. We’ve never not talked for two days. What if she tells him he can’t see me or talk to me or be friends with me? What if she kicks me out of the pack house?” I take another drink. “I’m not going to make him choose, because he wouldn’t choose me. He couldn’t choose me, I know that. Mates are special and once in a lifetime.” I let the tears fall and I try to keep down the hurt and panic that has been bubbling under the surface since Jason pulled me out of class.

“He didn’t even tell her about me. I know that shouldn’t be a big deal, but I’m his human, female, best friend living in his house. That’s not normal on any level and he didn’t even tell her, you could see the surprise on her face. He's never been ashamed of me before, but it's never mattered before either. Maybe her pack isn't as tolerant of humans. And she was pissed I hugged him, pissed I was near him at all. She isn’t going to accept me in their lives and I don’t know what I’m going to do. I can’t get in between them, but I can’t just stay there and watch him pull away from me slowly. That will kill me.”

Ben wraps his arm around my shoulder and pulls me into him. I rest my head on his shoulder just letting the tears stream now, looking in front of me but not really seeing anything. Jason sits on my other side and holds my hand and Tommy kneels in front of me.

“Ken, we’ll figure this out. You are important to him, you know that. A new mate bond can be overwhelming and I’m sure he isn’t thinking totally clearly.” Tommy squeezes my other hand.

“That much I figured out on my own. What am I supposed to do in the meantime though? I can’t wait forever for him to pull his head out of his ass. And you guys will eventually find your mates and do the same thing.” A fresh wave of tears starts to fall. I close my eyes and lean my head back on the wall, willing them to stop.

“We would never leave you hanging, you know that.” Jason leans into me.

“I knew that about Jeremiah too, and look where that got me.” I take a deep breath and let it out slowly, opening my eyes to look at the ceiling. “I just need to train more, keep myself busy until I can get out of here, go to college and do the normal human thing. We all knew this was coming. I just didn’t expect it to be so sudden and suck so bad.” I move to stand up, but Ben holds me back.

“This isn’t forever, just give him some time. And stop trying to run away.”

“I’ll try, but I’m also not going to stand around being growled at. And I’m not running away, we all needed space.”

What I don’t say is that I will also be mentally preparing to cut ties with all of them, if that’s what make their lives easier.

I just wore my sweaty gym clothes home, wadding up my street clothes. I didn’t come prepared so I have no shower stuff with me and the disheveled hot mess look is a good representation of how I feel right now anyway.

The guys insist on walking me back. I try to not let it irritate me, because it still feels like I’m being babysat.

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They leave me at the door though, which is a relief. I walk into the kitchen from the back patio door. I thought I was being smart and would be able to slip in and to my bedroom unnoticed, but I was wrong.

“F*ck, Kennedy!” I jump and grasp my sweaty tank top like it will slow my racing heart, then take a deep breath and compose myself. “Where have you been? I was worried. You just ran out and left your phone and everything here.” Jeremiah jumps up from his seat at the island moving to come to me. Is he angry at me? Why does he look angry? He has no right to be angry at me for putting distance in a stressful situation so everyone could calm down.

I ignore him and walk to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. I open it and take a long pull before I turn to answer him. She’s in here with him. I can smell her perfume and I will not have anything that can be misconstrued as a fight with him in front of her. I won’t give her any other reason to tell him to stay away from me.

“I was training and I had an entourage of sentinels with me. Did you not think to check in with any of the guys? They could have told you where we were. Or let’s be honest, you are my best friend and should be able to guess where I would go to blow off some steam.” I let my irritation bleed into my words.

“They all blocked me. I thought something might have happened.” He scrubs his hands over his face before looking back at me.

I look at him like he’s stupid, because he is right now. Something did happen and he completely iced me out.

“You know them better than that. If something was really wrong they would have linked you. Also, If you really thought something happened, just sitting around waiting wasn’t your best move, Alpha. As it was, you put them on babysitting duty before you left and they seem to think that since your brain is one hundred percent preoccupied, that assignment is not over. I needed to workout, that’s where I was, the gym. Now I need to shower.” And pack a bag, but I don’t say that out loud. I told Ben I would call him to come get me so I could stay with him. To his credit he didn’t argue.

I try to walk past Jer, but he catches my wrist and stops me. Another low growl from the other side of the island and I press my lips into a line, but keep my face away from both of them until I am sure I can school my features. I can’t show irritation or disrespect to the future Luna.

“Kennedy, why are your hands bleeding?” He asks softly, but his own irritation is bubbling under the surface, barely controlled.

I stop trying to pull away and look back at my hand, confused, noticing that my knuckles bled through the wraps I didn’t bother taking off. None of the other guys said anything about it and I know they noticed too.

“F*ckers, they could have warned me.” They knew he would ask. That’s why they didn’t follow me in, they knew he would stop me. “I did some work on the bags. I didn’t even notice until now.” I shrug it off, showing a calm I am nowhere near feeling. “I really need to go and clean up, I haven’t slept well the last couple days and it’s starting to hit now. And I have some injuries to bandage too apparently.”

I finally look him in the eyes and a moment passes. I try to pull my wrist free. But he holds tighter. “Let me go, Jer.” I whisper. There’s so much meaning in those four words, that tears fill my eyes again, but I don’t look away. He needs to get it. I am making this choice. I have to pull away now, quickly, not slowly and resentfuly over time.

His face falls and he pulls me into a tight hug and I wrap my arms around him, grasping his shirt because my hands don’t reach around his massive waist, and let the tears fall, soaking his shirt. If this is the last time I’ll get to hug him, I’m going to make it count. I can feel my heart breaking and pounding away in my chest. I’m sure he can too.

A menacing growl comes from behind him and I realize for the first time it doesn’t scare me like it should. She is his mate and future Luna, her growl should stop me in my tracks and I find it really just brings me back to reality, like someone clearing their throat.

I pack that thought away in the ‘figure it out tomorrow’ pile in my head and nod into his chest, taking a deep breath of his comforting scent before pulling back. I put my hands on his firm chest and looked him in the eyes.

“Jeremiah. Let. Me. Go.” I say it sternly, but not mean. He needs to let this happen, she has laid her claim, I am not wanted here and I’m trespassing. I may not be a werewolf, but I understand being territorial.

“Never.” Is all he says. His arms tighten around my waist, making this harder than it needs to be. I clench my jaw, I have to fight these tears, she won’t see me cry anymore.

“Well, it’s not only your decision to make anymore. You are now a packaged deal and you need to consult your other half before you go making promises.” I pat his chest twice, trying for light banter and a smile.

Another growl and this time a huff. It’s possible she’s agreeing with me, but I’ve only heard her say about five words all together so I’m not sure.

I push off of him and this time he lets me step away. “I’ll see you tomorrow at school, I guess. Unless that’s not a thing you do anymore. I don’t really know how this works... I guess I’ll just see you around.” I rub my hand across my forehead. I’m rambling at this point and don’t even know why I keep trying to talk. We have never been awkward, and that’s all this is right now.

I walk into the common room to grab my bag from where I dropped it earlier. My phone on the floor near it, just dropped haphazardly. No one touched it, another feeling of sadness washed over me. Discarded and overlooked like my phone. Man... I hate this whole thing.

I grab my stuff and make it to my room quickly before another wave of tears hits. I shower in record time. I pull on a sports bra and a pair of my comfy sweats. Out of habit I reach for Jeremiah’s t-shirt where it stays on my pillow. I stop halfway through putting it on, take a deep breath and pull it back off. I close my eyes, steel myself, fold it and set it on top of my dresser across the room. I have to start doing this without him.

While I’m there I pack a change of clothes for school tomorrow and a set of workout clothes for training. I will just spend as little time here as possible until we figure this out.

Once I’m set I text Ben to come pick me up.

5 - Kennedy

Of course a text isn’t enough, Ben has to call with his response. “Are you sure? Have you talked to Jer about this. He’s going to be pissed if you leave and don’t say anything. I do like living you know.”

“He doesn’t get a choice, Ben. I don’t want to be here right now and I need a place to go. If you won’t help me I will call someone else.” I’m getting angry the longer he tries to stall.

“I’m on my way, just do me a favor and talk to him. You are important to him.”

“Um, sure, whatever. I’ll see you in a couple minutes.”

“I mean it, talk to him.”

“Or what, Ben?” I’m back to being angry. Great. Adding mood swings to the list of new emotions.

“I’ll make you.” He grunts and I just hang up on him too irritated for this right now.

I walk my two bags downstairs and set them by the front door and grit my teeth. I need to say something to Aunt Beth or she will tear this whole pack apart looking for me. Come to think of it, I didn't see her when we got here to meet Rayna today. Weird. She probably would have made the whole introduction so much smoother.

I follow sounds to the common room. It doesn’t cross my mind to make myself known before I walk in.

A moan and grunt and then “WHAT THE HELL?!” A female screech pierces my ears.

“Oh sh*t! Sorry. Didn’t mean to interrupt.” I shield my eyes. “I was just looking for Aunt Beth before I head out.” I start to back out of the room as quickly as possible.

“Ken, wait! Come back.” I hear a ton of cloth rustling and I move faster.

“Nope! Not a chance. Continue, I will find her on my own, sorry for the interruption.” I continue down the hallway heading for the door fighting tears. It took less than an hour for him to be distracted enough to forget I’m even here. ‘Important’ is no longer a word anyone gets to use when it comes to how Jer feels about me.

“Ken, stop.” He’s so fucking fast and right in front of me now, blocking my way to the front door. I slam my eyes closed. I’m not going to have his mate try to beat me up for looking at him naked. “Where are you going? Why do you have a bag packed? And why are you looking for Mom?” Now he’s worried? I mentally roll my eyes.

“I was going to tell her I was heading out. Are you dressed? I like my eyes where they are in my face. I don't need them ripped out.” I squeezed my eyes tighter and ignored his other questions.

“Yes.” He laughs. “Now look at me and tell me where you are going. What’s going on?”

“I told you, I haven’t been sleeping well. I’m going to go stay at Ben’s so I’m not a problem.”

“What are you talking about? I left you my shirt, that usually works when I’m gone. And since when have you ever been a problem?”

“Really? Are you that dense? The shirt isn’t working anymore.” I lied. “And It became a problem when you found your mate, who you very obviously forgot to say anything to, cause she didn’t expect me based on the welcome I got when you brought her home. She doesn't want me here and you aren't going to choose.”

“I’m right here, you know. Don’t talk about me like I’m not in the room.” Her voice comes up close behind me. I close my eyes and take a deep breath in, then out.

Don’t get an attitude, don’t get an attitude, don’t get an attitude. I have to keep repeating to myself. This is not her fault, she’s just as much a victim here as I am and she has just as much if not more right to be angry than I do.

“I still don't understand the problem?” Jeremiah looks from her to me and back again.

It’s my turn to glare and growl and I don’t even have a wolf. Jer’s eyes go wide and he takes a step back from me. Hands up in a surrendering gesture. At least he’s smart enough to know we are both pissed, even if he doesn’t understand the problem.

“Why are boys so stupid?!” I don’t yell, but my temper is getting harder and harder to control. I let out another sigh and decided to get this over with. I turn around. “Rayna, I’m Kennedy, Jeremiah’s best friend, his female best friend. I live here in the packhouse.” I gesture around me. “I’ve been here for the last three years. My mom was his mom’s best friend and I’m here because my parents died three years ago. I still have nightmares from that day and Jeremiah usually sleeps in my room with me…”

I get nothing else out when she launches herself at me snarling and grabbing for my hair. She’s strong but I don’t know if she trains much, her movement is clumsy. We both fall back and I take the brunt of both our weights before flipping us both over trying to gain the advantage. I don’t want to hurt her, but I also don’t want to get hurt by her. She’s clawing at everything she can and her legs are kicking wildly underneath me. She’s snarling and growling but having a hard time getting words out.

“You b*ch! You can’t have him!” She yells as she swipes at my face with her nails and distracts me enough to shift our positions and move on top of me. I can feel the blood trickle down my face.

She thinks I’m just a rando girl trying to claim her man. With all the time he has spent with her even since she found out about me, he still never explained who I was. Jackass. Now I understand her frustration, I would find that shady too, and I’m fighting to get words out to reassure her while not letting her hurt me. I can only get a few choppy syllables uttered here and there while trying to hold her off.

“I don’t f*cking want him you crazy ass. He’s like my brother.” I grunt as she gets a good punch to my stomach. “But you would know that if you two spent just as much time talking as you do f*cking! Now stop trying to claw my eyes out!” That made her pause long enough for me to thrust my hips and flip her on her back.

I have her wrists in my hands and finally get them pinned above her head. She’s still flailing as I’m straddling her torso leaning in almost nose to nose. We are both panting, but she’s slowly stopped fighting me. Maybe she realized I’m not trying to hurt her back or my words are sinking in. Whatever, it’s working.

“Stop trying to kill me. He’s like my brother.” I say again, breathing hard, now that I seem to have some of her attention. “He should have told you about me and to be honest a heads up about you would have been nice. But sometimes these boys aren’t the brightest.” I rolled my eyes and finally looked up at him just staring at us and noticed we have a whole audience.

“Oh Goddess! That is so f*cking hot! How did you get so lucky?” Tommy slaps Jeremiah on the back and bites down on his lower lip. Such a perv.

“So all four of you assholes just stood there and let us fight? You weren’t concerned for your best friend or your future Luna hurting each other? We should beat the sh*t out of all of you instead.”

Ben and Jason roll their eyes, then Ben walks over.

“You two get it out of your system?” He reaches his hand out to me.

“Maybe.” I raise an eyebrow looking back at her, slowly releasing her arms and sitting back, straddling her waist, waiting for her to take a cheap shot. Nothing comes so I take his offered hand. Jason helps Rayna up.

I fix my clothes and run my fingers through my hair, not looking at anyone.

“I’m ready Ben, let’s go.” They need to talk and decide if this is something she can deal with. I don’t want to walk away, but an Alpha needs his Luna. In this case she is more important. My friendship with Jeremiah is solely in her hands. If she says no, then that'st it, for now at least.

I start walking toward the front door. I set my jaw, I will not cry again. I have said my peace and I can only hope she believes my words. This is for Jeremiah to explain and fix if he wants to keep me in his life. He has to make her see what he and I are, and she has to believe it’s not romantic.

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“Wait, don’t go.” Her voice is sweet but confident and I don’t know if I can do this. I shake my head and keep moving. “Please, we should talk.”

I keep looking at the door. “I really do need to try and sleep, that wasn’t a line. Don’t make this any harder for me. Please. I need to go.” My plea came out barely audible to my own ears, but I know they can hear me. It is getting harder to breathe.

“But you live here…” She’s right behind me whispering. I know the guys can hear us though.

I keep my eyes locked in the door. Each breath is controlled in and then out. “Yep… for now… and soon you will too. I need to learn how to work through the nightmares and bullsh*t on my own anyway, but this was kind of a shock.” I bend over and grab my bags, my hands still sore from my impromptu workout earlier. She stops me, her hand on mine. The first tear falls. I shake my head side to side, my heart is breaking.

“Let’s go put these away and we can get to know each other. It seems like we will be spending a lot of time together.” She pulls on my hand holding the strap to my duffel bag. It wasn’t anything harsh or controlling, but something in me just snapped, and I don’t have the energy to fight her anymore.

There go my tears again, stupid emotions. She takes my bag and slides her gentle hand on my upper arm turning me around. I sling my backpack on my shoulder, eyes down just focusing on putting one foot in front of the other. We both walk up the stairs to head back to my room, Rayna right behind me without a backwards glance at the guys.

“Ken…” Jeremiah breathes. I just shake my head and keep walking.

“I think your girls just left you hanging, I hope you finished whatever you started in here brother otherwise you’re going to sleep with some blue balls.” Tommy is always the charmer. But the rest of the guys laugh as well.

We get to my room and I drop my bag by my desk and take a deep breath before I turn around.

I move to take my duffle from her and drop it next to my school bag.

“Were you really just going to leave? No fight at all?” She seems appalled.

“He’s my brother, not my boyfriend.” I’m kind of getting tired of saying that. “There’s never been anything like that between us. I may be human, but I’ve known him my whole life and we are tight. I understand how mates work, how integral they are. He’s an Alpha and an Alpha needs his Luna. There is nothing more important than that for the future of the pack. I’m not getting in the way of that out of selfishness. So yes, I was going to leave, because you don’t want me near him. You don't want me here.”

I rub my face and go to sit on my bed and pat the place next to me.

“I have never once run at my brother like that. I’m usually more inclined to throw something at him.” This has the effect of breaking the tension as I let out a strangled laugh.

“But how close are you and your brother? In age, I mean?”

“Six years difference. He’s 26, I’m 20”

I nod. “ Jer and I are the same age, literally. We were born on the same day in the same hospital. That’s how close our mom’s were. My mom was visiting and they both went into labor at the same time. We are more like twins, basically raised that way.”

She nods. “That explains a few things then. Not why he sleeps in your room, but we’ll get to that. What about the other guys?”

“What about them?” I am trying to get my breathing under control now that she isn’t growling at me. I have a headache from all the crying too.

“Oh, come on. There’s no way you left all of them alone! That much hotness and no mate yet. And they are all so protective over you. You are close with all of them, anyone can see it.”

“What are you talking about ‘no mate yet?’ I’m human, do you know the odds of me being mated to someone? I can’t even be inducted into the pack, because the elders think it will kill me. I’m sure being marked would be just as bad.” I chose to skip her other statement. I don’t know her that well.

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard that before. We don’t have any humans in our pack right now though, so I’m not sure how that works.”

“No idea, but Aunt Beth won’t even entertain the idea. So I’m a human in a werewolf pack with no actual connection to the pack, living with the Alpha’s family, but not blood related.” I say darkly.

“So…I believe you’ve never had any romantic interest in Jeremiah. It’s written all over your face.” She giggles, like an actual little girl. “But, you avoided my other question, that means you have given the other guys a test drive.” She winks and I look at the door, sure someone is probably listening.

“Test drive is a strong phrase.” I try to dodge.

“Oh give it up! I need to know these guys and I will get some of that in my own time here, but I want to know what kind of team the Goddess put around my Alpha. How they treat a woman can be a big indicator of the type of people they are.” She giggles again.

‘My Alpha.’ Her brain has already made the switch.

“They are all great, but I might be biased.” I shrug and smile.

“So which one are you dating right now? I feel like each one would bring something different. Who was your first?”

6 - Kennedy

My eyes go wide. “First what?” Still dodging, I’m sure they all talk but it’s not something we talk about out loud as a group.

“Yes!! I knew it! Who was your first kiss?”

“Huh?!”

“Don’t play dumb, any red blooded non-mated woman would be a complete moron for not taking whatever they were offering. And you are beautiful, and they have definitely noticed. Who. Was. Your. First. Kiss?”

“Jason.” I covered my face. I don’t know why I was embarrassed to tell her. It was nice and he was so sweet with me and everyone was around for that one. “But just the one, during a game of spin the bottle. Not something any of us talk about really.”

“What about Tommy? He doesn’t seem like the type to stop at kissing. But I also don’t get the feeling you slept with him.” I shake my head no. And she smiles like the Cheshire Cat. “Yes! How far did you let it go?”

“What are you, a mind reader?” I sit there and she just looks at me expectantly. It must be the alpha blood, she’s just used to getting her way. I finally cave. “Far enough. Look, the guys and I really don’t talk about this stuff. I don’t know how much they’ve said to Jer, and I don’t want him to get weird with me if he doesn’t know and finds out. Or getting in a fight with them, he’s super protective, if you haven’t noticed.” I stare again at her and she just stares back, lifting an eyebrow. She just waits, damn patience. “Fine. It was during a seven minutes in heaven game and didn’t mean anything…” I look down at my lap, twisting my fingers together.

“Oh, but it did! Look at your face!! How many times did he make you orgasm? He seems like a more-than-one kind of guy. Were they your first ever?”

“Seriously, this is so weird.” I scrub my hands over my face. She shoves me playfully and I almost fall off my bed.

“How many times?” Her smile is infectious. I can see why Jeremiah would love her even without the mate bond.

“Twice…”

“In seven minutes? Using what?!”

“Just his hand.” I shrug again, giving up on holding out on her. She’s clearly going to push for information until I give up anyway and it’s nice to have a girl to talk to. “Also my first from someone who is not myself. And yes I had s*x with Ben. I didn’t want to give my ‘V’ card to just anyone and I wanted to have some kind of idea of how it all worked. He was super gentle and patient with me. He’s not a small guy. And again, I don’t know if Jer knows. He probably does, but it’s not something I discuss.”

“So hot!” She rubs her hands together.

“Not nearly as hot as what I walked into downstairs a little bit ago. Did he forget other people live here or is that like a mate bond thing where you get horny all of a sudden and have to f*ck right where you are?”

I was kind of joking, but it’s her turn to blush.

“Maybe a little of both. I mean I didn’t know you lived here and his parents are still at the meeting. They'll be back in the morning so I didn’t see anything wrong with it. And it is kind of hard to keep my hands to myself when he’s around, you’ve seen him. Do you really talk to him everyday?” She’s blushing, but there’s a little tone of disbelief in her voice.

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“Yeah we have for as long as I can remember. Always checking in before school and before bed back, well before. Now we are at the same school and I train with them, so I’m with almost all the guys everyday.”

“Knock, knock! Is it safe? I would like to be able to have kids someday, Ken.” My door cracks open and my best friend stands in the frame, but waits for me to give him the okay.

“We’re fine Jer. We just had to fill in some gaps you missed because you are a moron and let your d*ck take over thinking for you.” He huffed a laugh and walked in with two mugs, set them down on the side table and climbed on my bed behind Rayna. “I brought tea, thought it might help. We have an early start tomorrow, we all need to sleep.”

He can’t keep his hands to himself either and it’s really cute watching him wrap her up in his arms. Her dark hair frames her heart shaped face contrasting with his light blonde hair. She leans back into his embrace.

“What’s tomorrow?” I ask, confused, grabbing for the cup of tea. It’s a blend that the healer made when I told her I was still having nightmares and nothing else is working.

“We are traveling to my pack so Jeremiah can meet my brother. He’s the Alpha, but was dealing with another urgent matter so my dad and I went to the meeting in his place.”

“I'm glad you did.” He nuzzles her neck and I can hear his wolf purr.

“Okay please don’t have s*x in my room. You have your own for those extra curricular activities. Jer,” I slap his leg. “Thank you for the tea, I should be good. Did the guys leave already? I didn’t even think to say goodbye.” I’m trying to rush them out. As cute as it is, I have heard that new mates escalate from light touching to f*cking quickly. And that isn’t something I want to see, no matter how hot my best friend and his new mate are.

“Nah, they're all in the Media room. We figured it would be easier for everyone if we all just left from here in the morning.”

“Why do you all have to go?” I’m still learning all the nuances of pack politics, but the thought of all of them being gone makes my heart sink.

“We are all going, you included. When an Alpha travels for more than just a couple days, usually his team goes as well as long as someone is here to run the pack and Beta Daniel is still here and my parents will be back tomorrow too.”

“What does any of that have to do with me?”

“I’m sure that Rayna would like to have another female along. Traveling with all males all the time, can’t be fun. Besides, you’re one of my warriors and my best friend, I would like you there when I have to meet Rayna’s brother.”

“Is that code for you’re afraid of my brother?!” Rayna laughs at him.

“Umm, yes Luna!” He growls in her ear. “No sass from you. She’s always the buffer when there’s too much testosterone in the room. Kennedy has actually been to several meets with me. She’s really good with all the small talk and she remembers everything. It’s very handy. It doesn't hurt that she's beautiful and typically earns attention quickly. And your brother has the biggest pack territory and is one of the most notoriously dangerous Alphas, not to mention I’m about to take his sister away. I need all the help I can get.”

I ignore the backhanded distraction comment and ask, “Wait, what pack are you from?”

“Dark Moon.” My eyebrows shoot up. Even I have heard of them. I can’t remember the Alpha’s name, but he is ruthless from what I have heard. He takes over weak packs and eliminates Alphas like I go to school and turn in assignments. “Relax, He’s not that scary.”

“Maybe for you, he loves you, for the rest of the world he’s intimidating. If the situation was reversed and someone came and told me they were Kennedy's mate and she’s packing her stuff and leaving today. I would probably try to beat the sh*t out of them. Mate bond or not.”

I laugh with Rayna and then stop and stare at him. A thought just occurred to me, “Is that why no one here tries to date me? Cause you told them you’d beat the sh*t out of them?”

“Uh…no…not exactly.”

“But pretty close to being accurate?”

“We may have insinuated that you could handle yourself and we would take care of whatever was left over.”

“Good to know there’s a ‘we’ to yell at.” I look at Rayna. “How far is the drive to your pack? I need to make sure I have enough topics to yell at them for over the whole drive.” She giggles again and Jeremiah blanches, knowing I’m not lying. He only calms when she turns her head and gives him a kiss on the cheek. “Okay go, you two are making me nauseous. I will see you in the morning.”

They both get up to leave and make it to the door when Jer turns, “Do you need a shirt? I can grab one.”

“I still have the one you gave me a couple days ago, I should be good. I have to start weaning sometime.” And just like that, we’re back to being weird. Even with a little history I don’t know how Rayna will feel about him giving clothes that smell like him to me.

“Let me know if you need me, alright?” I just nod my head. There’s no way I’m yelling for him with his mate here.

I fall asleep more quickly than I have in the last 3 nights. But, I’m not sure if that’s from him being back in the packhouse or being so tired I had no choice.

That was where the good night ended though. Screeching tires rattle my ears, acrid burning rubber singes my nose, blood slicked everywhere, screams from all around me… This time it’s not my parents with me though. It’s Jeremiah and Ben and Tommy and Jason. I’m screaming for them, but no one is answering, they are all looking at me, eyes wide open, but not seeing me. Then I’m screaming, I’ve lost them. They shouldn’t even be here. They weren’t supposed to be in the car. Why were they here?

“Kennedy!! Wake up! Ken!! Come on girl, come back to me! KENNEDY!!”

My eyes fly open and I blink slowly to focus. It feels like I’m moving through wet sand, my whole body is limp and I can’t seem to control my muscles.

“Kennedy, we’re here, you’re safe now, stop fighting.” A calm washes over me the familiar sandalwood scent registers. Jeremiah. I breathe deep again, this time a sweet floral note mixes with the sandalwood making the calm feeling deepen, until I realize it’s not familiar.. Who else is with me? No one can see me like this. It’s bad enough Ben was subjected to it. A part of my brain is being logical, but then it’s all foggy and slow.

“Mmmokay!” I slur out. “Be okay. Go bed.”

“Why does she sound drunk this time? She’s never sounded like that before.” Ben, I think.

“Jus tire, Ben. Back sleep.” I can’t move my body but I can feel myself collapsing backwards. I think arms are trying to hold onto me.

“Kennedy, wake up for us, please. Just for a few minutes, then you can sleep.” It’s that soft voice again. Someone is brushing hair out of my face. The floral scent is really nice. The hands are gentle, like my moms.

“Nice hands.” I mumble. I can feel my brain working, but everything is all disjointed and confusing.

I try to blink and I think I can feel something moving. There’s tightness around my arms, but it doesn’t hurt. I breathe in again, it seems to be the only thing I have control over. I feel a squeeze on my hands and my eyes finally open.