: The Alpha Who Couldn't Stay Away

[KAEL]

The warriors arguing in my office were giving me a headache.

"—patrol rotation was changed without notice—"

"—your shift ended an hour before mine started—"

I cut through their bickering with one sentence. "Emrys will handle the schedule. Get out."

They left, still grumbling but smart enough not to push.

The office felt too quiet after they'd gone. Papers scattered across my desk—border reports, supply inventories, incident logs from the rogue breach we still hadn't solved. Work that should have commanded my full attention.

Instead, I kept glancing at the framed photo on the corner of my desk.

Lyra smiled back at me, frozen in time. Sun-gold hair and bright eyes that had made the whole world feel lighter. Three years gone, and sometimes the grief still hits like I'd lost her yesterday.

'Different,' Saen insisted, restless beneath my skin. 'This is different.'

'It shouldn't be anything,' I shot back.

A knock interrupted the argument with my wolf. My mother entered without waiting for permission, silver-streaked dark hair pulled back, eyes sharp with maternal concern.

"Kael." Isolde settled into the chair across from me with the kind of deliberate grace that meant she wasn't leaving until she got answers. "We need to talk about the girl."

"Rhiannon has a name."

"So, you've been paying attention." Her eyebrow arched. "The pack is asking questions. They want to know who she is and why you brought her here personally. Covered in blood. Unconscious."

I shuffled papers that didn't need shuffling. "She needed help."

"You're the Alpha of this territory. You have healers for that. You don't typically carry wounded strangers through the main hall yourself."

'Tell her,' Saen urged. 'Tell everyone. Make them understand she's ours.'

I couldn't. Saying it aloud meant making it real. Meant accepting that the Moon Goddess had given me something I'd sworn never to want again.

Meant letting Lyra go.

My chest tightened just thinking about it.

"She's under my protection," I said finally. "That's all anyone needs to know."

Isolde studied me with the kind of knowing look only mothers mastered. "And what about what you need to know?"

I met her gaze. Held it. Gave her nothing.

She sighed and stood. "Just remember—hiding from something doesn't make it less true."

The door closed behind her, leaving me alone with Lyra's photograph and a wolf who wouldn't stop pacing.

A scent drifted through the open window. Impossible because she was halfway across the territory, but Saen conjured it anyway—midnight rain and smoke, electric and haunting.

'She's hurting,' my wolf insisted. 'Find her.'

"She's healing. Mira cleared her yesterday."

'Not that kind of hurt.'

I gripped the edge of my desk, fighting the pull. Fighting the instinct that demanded I go to her, check on her, and make sure she was safe.

Lyra's face smiled at me from the photo. Patient. Understanding. The woman who'd trusted me to protect her and our unborn child.

The woman I'd failed.

The grief that had calcified into a vow sat heavy in my chest: never love like that again. Never give anyone that kind of power to destroy me.

Footsteps approached. Melissa leaned against the doorframe, blonde hair falling in waves, smile calculated to be inviting.

"You look tense." She moved closer, hips swaying. "I could help with that."

Saen snarled so violently I nearly shifted on the spot. The reaction shocked me—my wolf had never responded to Melissa with anything before. Not interest. Not rejection. Just... nothing.

Now he radiated hostility.

'Wrong,' Saen growled. 'She smells wrong. Send her away.'

"I'm working." My voice came out colder than I'd intended.

"You're always working." Melissa trailed a finger along the desk's edge. "When are you going to let yourself—"

"I'm not interested, Melissa. I've never been interested." I forced myself to soften the blow slightly. "Find someone who is."

Her expression flickered—hurt or anger, I couldn't tell—before smoothing back into that practiced smile. "If you change your mind—"

"I won't."

She left without another word.

Saen's fury didn't diminish. It crystallized into something clearer, more terrifying.

My wolf wasn't just avoiding Melissa. He was rejection-level hostile toward her because she wasn't Rhiannon.

The realization made my hands clench.

Emrys' voice cut through my mind-link, urgent and careful. 'She's training. Alone. And the comments are getting rough.'

I was out of my chair and moving before the link finished.

The training grounds spread out below the ridge—open arena, packed dirt, and weapons racks along the perimeter. Morning sun burned off the last of the fog, illuminating everything with harsh clarity.

And there—

Rhiannon stood in the center, weighted gauntlets straining her wrists, wooden staff gripped in both hands. Sweat slicked her temples. Her breathing came ragged but steady, each exhale visible in the cold air.

She moved through forms with raw determination, every strike precise despite obvious exhaustion. Her scent hit me from across the field—midnight rain turning sharp and electric, like a storm fighting to break free.

Every wolf in the arena watched her. Some amused. Some dismissive. A few openly mocking.

I noticed what they didn't.

The precision in her stance. The survivor's grit that kept her upright when her body begged to quit. The pain behind her hazel eyes that she channeled into focused fury.

'Help her,' Saen demanded. 'Stand beside her. Protect her.'

"She needs independence, not interference."

'She needs us.'

My feet carried me toward the field's edge anyway.

Emrys intercepted me with a subtle shake of his head. Through the mind-link: 'Be cool. She's doing this for herself.'

Then aloud, quiet enough only I could hear: "And you hovering isn't going to make the rumors stop."

My jaw clenched. "What rumors?"

"You really want to know?" At my expression, he continued. "Too big for a she-wolf. Omega trash. Some are saying she faked the rogue attack to get your attention."

Rage flooded hot and immediate. My hands balled into fists, nails biting into palms hard enough to draw blood.

"Who?" The word came out lethal.

"Does it matter?" Emrys met my eyes. "You haven't told the pack the truth. About the bond. About her status. So, they're filling in the blanks themselves."

The guilt hit like a physical blow.

If I'd just claimed her publicly—told them she was my mate—she wouldn't be enduring this cruelty. Wouldn't be fighting to prove herself worthy of basic respect.

I'd caused this. Not entirely, but enough.

Because I was afraid.

Because I couldn't let go of Lyra.

Because claiming Rhiannon felt like betrayal.

I forced myself to watch as she stumbled under the gauntlets' weight, caught herself, and pushed through. Her staff connected with the practice dummy hard enough to crack wood.

Something inside me gave way. Not desire exactly. Something deeper.

Respect. Understanding. Recognition of strength most people would never see.

Saen thrashed against my control. 'Tell them. Tell them all she's ours.'

I couldn't move. Couldn't speak. Could only stand there watching her fight battles she shouldn't have to face.

Movement at the arena's edge caught my attention.

Melissa appeared, leaning against a pillar with a thin, sweet smile that made my skin crawl. She wasn't watching Rhiannon with jealousy.

She was watching with victory.

"So that's who he's been protecting." Her voice carried just far enough for nearby wolves to hear.

Whispers erupted immediately. Eyes darted between me and Rhiannon. Speculation rippled through the crowd like wildfire.

I froze—caught between instinct screaming to claim her and the political nightmare Melissa had just ignited.

Rhiannon heard the murmurs.

She turned, staff lowering fractionally. Her eyes found mine across the distance.

The hurt in them gutted me.

Confusion. Pain. And worse—distrust flickering beneath the surface like she was wondering if I'd orchestrated this somehow. If my protection was just another form of humiliation.

Her hazel eyes shifted darker, walls slamming back into place.

I took one step forward.

Melissa's smile widened.

And Rhiannon turned away from me completely, raising her staff toward the nearest warrior with deadly calm.

"Train with me."

: The Week That Forged Her

[RHIANNON]

My body screamed when I woke the next morning.

Every muscle ached from yesterday's training—shoulders burning, thighs trembling even lying still, hands stiff from gripping the staff too hard for too long. Even my legs felt like they'd been beaten with the same staff I'd wielded. Red marks decorated my wrists that looked like fresh scars.

I welcomed the pain. Physical hurt was clean. Manageable. Better than the confusion twisting through my chest every time I remembered Kael's expression from the arena.

Not anger. Something softer that I refused to examine because hope was more dangerous than rejection.

'He wanted to help,' Nyx insisted, pacing restlessly. 'Let him.'

"He didn't help. He just watched." I pushed myself out of bed, ignoring the way my legs protested. "Like everyone else."

The pack grounds were quieter this early. Dawn hadn't broken yet, just grey pre-light that made everything look washed out and cold.

I should have rested. Should have listened to my body begging for mercy.

Instead, I dragged myself out of bed and dressed in the training clothes someone had left folded on the chair. Simple grey pants and a fitted shirt that didn't hide my build but didn't apologize for it either.

Dressed, I headed for the arena before anyone else could arrive.

Before the stares could start again.

I grabbed the weighted gauntlets—heavier ones this time—and began conditioning drills before my body could protest. Was I punishing myself or pushing harder? I wasn't sure which.

Cold air bit my lungs with each breath. Pain lanced through my shoulders. Good. I welcomed it. Pain meant I was still here. Still fighting. Cleaner than the confusion churning in my chest whenever I thought about Kael watching me from the ridge.

My eyes burned from crying last night, but I blinked the feeling away and started the conditioning drills Emrys had shown me weeks ago. Strikes. Blocks. Footwork that made my thighs scream.

'Look for him,' Nyx urged. 'Our mate is nearby. I can feel him.'

'No.' I blocked her out with stubborn discipline. This wasn't about him. This was about me taking control of the one thing I could—my own strength.

Kael's cedarwood-storm scent drifted on the wind sometimes, proof he was watching from somewhere, but I never looked. Never acknowledged it.

If he wanted to watch me struggle, fine. I'd give him something worth seeing.

Hours blurred together. My vision went hazy at the edges, but I pushed through another set of strikes.

My stomach turned violently.

I barely made it behind the weapons shed before I vomited, hands braced against rough wood, body heaving. Sweat dripped from my temples despite the cold.

Wiped my mouth with my sleeve. Straightened. Didn't stop. Didn't rest. Returned to the training field.

Strange how pride could bloom in moments like this—proving I wouldn't break no matter how hard they pushed me.

A shadow shifted behind me.

I turned, expecting mockery. Expecting another sneer or comment about my weight or my scars or my worthlessness.

A young girl stepped into view instead. Maybe fifteen, small-framed, with nervous eyes and brown hair pulled into a messy braid. She held out a water container, hands trembling slightly.

"You look strong today," she whispered.

"You look strong today," she whispered.

I froze. Waited for the punchline. For the cruelty disguised as kindness.

It didn't come.

I froze. My first instinct screamed pity—she felt sorry for the pathetic stranger who couldn't earn respect.

Then I saw her eyes. Genuine admiration shining there, not sympathy.

"Thank you." The words stuck in my throat.

She smiled, quick and bright, then hurried away before I could say anything else.

Something loosened in my chest. Small. Fragile. Almost like hope.

'See?' Nyx purred. 'Not everyone hates us.'

"One person doesn't erase the rest."

By midday, more wolves were at the training grounds. I moved to a corner, trying to stay invisible while working through the forms I'd memorized. My arms shook. My legs threatened mutiny. I moved to the stretching area to work the tension from my muscles before they seized completely.

Three she-wolves clustered near the weapons rack, voices low but carrying.

"—Melissa will be Luna. Everyone knows it."

My hands tightened on the staff.

"She's perfect for an Alpha. Beautiful, strong, from a good bloodline."

"Then why is he keeping that oversized omega around?"

Laughter followed. Sharp and cutting.

Nyx snarled in my head—not with hurt, but with possessive fury. 'They lie. He is ours. Make them understand—'

'Stop.' I clamped down hard on her instincts. If Kael had someone—this Melissa person they kept mentioning—then none of this mattered. The bond didn't matter. His protection didn't matter.

I refused to be someone's second choice. Someone's secret. Someone's burden.

'He hasn't claimed her,' Nyx protested.

"He hasn't claimed us either."

The walls I'd built after Laziel's rejection rose higher—stronger—reinforced with fresh hurt.

The week blurred into routine. Wake before dawn. Train until my body gave out. Force down food alone in the manor's kitchen. Sleep fitfully. Repeat.

Kael appeared at the training grounds sometimes, always at a distance, always watching. I never looked back. Couldn't afford to. Every glance felt like giving him power I couldn't spare.

A blonde woman appeared often at the arena's edge. Athletic build, attractive features, and eyes that studied me with calculation hidden behind a smile. She had to be Melissa. The one everyone said would be Luna.

The one Kael had supposedly chosen.

Seeing her made my stomach turn, but I used the nausea as fuel. Pushed harder. Trained longer. Proved I didn't need anyone's approval to exist.

The physical toll mounted. My hands developed calluses. My shoulders broadened from the constant work. The scars on my wrists seemed less prominent somehow—overshadowed by new evidence of survival.

In the fifth week, I walked through the pack grounds after training. Tried greeting wolves I passed with polite nods. Most ignored me. Some whispered when they thought I couldn't hear.

The river became my refuge. Cold water rushing over smooth stones, the sound drowning out thoughts I didn't want to examine. I sat there for hours sometimes, just breathing.

Always feeling eyes on me. Always knowing it was Kael.

I didn't know if I should feel hurt or disgusted that he watched while keeping his supposed mate hidden. Maybe both. Maybe neither. Maybe I was just tired of caring.

By day twenty-one, my body was breaking down. I stumbled mid-strike, knees buckling, the staff clattering from my grip.

The young omega girl rushed over to help.

I held up a hand, stopping her. "I'm okay."

"You don't look okay." Concern wrinkled her forehead.

"I'm doing this for me." The admission came out softer than I meant. "Not for them. For me."

Her eyes widened with understanding. She nodded and stepped back, but she didn't leave. Just sat nearby while I caught my breath, silent support without pressure.

When I stood again, my legs held.

Something shifted that day. Younger wolves started watching me differently. Not with ridicule—with curiosity. A few began imitating my drills. A few omegas stopped avoiding eye contact when I passed. The mockery decreased—not gone, but quieter.

Kael approached the training field twice that week. I saw him from the corner of my eye, conflict written in every line of his body, but I turned away before he could reach me. My heart did something stupid and painful. Nyx cried out every time, desperate and confused.

'He is ours.'

"Not if he chose someone else."

'But he didn't—'

"Then why hasn't he said so?"

She went silent. No answer for that.

By the end of the week, something fundamental had changed.

I stood at dusk, finishing my forms. Sweat drenched my clothes. My muscles trembled with exhaustion, but I was still standing. That felt like victory.

The sky burned amber and violet above the mountains.

I was still standing.

My reflection in the weapons shed window showed someone different than the broken wolf who'd arrived a month ago.

Scarred. Stronger. No longer hiding.

I breathed deep, night air cold on my tongue, and whispered aloud, "I won't hide anymore."

A presence shifted behind me.

I turned, expecting Kael. Hoping despite myself that he'd finally explain. Finally, either claim me or reject me properly so I can stop existing in this horrible limbo.

Blonde hair caught the fading light. Athletic frame leaning against the arena entrance in a way that screamed confidence. Eyes studying me with a smile that made my skin crawl.

Melissa.

She smiled.

Not friendly. Not welcoming.

Predatory. She looked like she'd been waiting for this moment.

"We should talk," she purred, taking a step closer. "About Kael."