"When did you get up?"

"Just now. When you were texting him back."

She bent down to pick up her phone, the movement a little frantic. The second she had it, she pressed the power button. The screen went black.

"I wasn't planning to go see him."

"Then why won't you reply to him?"

"I was thinking about how to answer."

"Thinking about how to keep it from me?"

Julia lifted her head and looked at me, the whites of her eyes shot through with red. "Theodore, do you have to talk to me like this?"

"Then how do you want me to talk?" I set my water glass on the coffee table. "You say there's nothing between you and him, but he texts you in the middle of the night and you don't dare answer in front of me. You say the eight million was just a favor, but every post he puts up is thanking you. What am I supposed to think?"

Julia stood up, her voice dropping low. "We've been married three years. When have I ever lied to you?"

"You're lying to me right now."

She said nothing.

I looked into her eyes. "Julia, do you still love him?"

I waited a long time.

Long enough that I thought she wouldn't answer at all.

"I'm not that fickle," she said.

I laughed.

It was a brilliant answer. Not "I don't love him," but "I'm not that fickle." Meaning she had loved him, but didn't now. Or rather, didn't love him quite as much.

But you spend eight million buying back an old estate for a man you "don't love," you stay up half the night waiting for his messages, and that's called "not being fickle"?

I didn't call her out on it. I picked up my glass and went back to the bedroom.

Lying in bed, I heard movement in the living room. She was on the phone, her voice kept low, but I still caught a few words.

"...Keep the keys. I'm not coming."

"It's fine. Don't read too much into it."

"Get some rest."

After she hung up, the living room was quiet for a long while. Then I heard her footsteps come to the bedroom door, pause, and walk away again.

She didn't come in.

I barely slept. Just before dawn, I heard the door close. I got up to look. Julia's car was gone.

Where had she gone?

I checked my phone. Oliver Simmons had posted again, a voice clip this time. I played it.

Her voice had a sob in it. "Julie, are you really not coming? I want to see you."

Posted fifteen minutes ago.

Julia had been gone fifteen minutes.

I sat on the edge of the bed, and all at once it felt absurd. Three years married, and she had never once left in the morning without a word to me. Everything strange she did came back to Oliver.

The phone buzzed again. Not mine. Julia's other phone, the one she'd left behind.

I picked it up and looked.

Over twenty unread messages flashed on the screen, all from Oliver. The latest was a voice clip. I played it.

"Julie, I was the one who wronged you back then. I shouldn't have gone abroad. I regret it, I really do. You still care about me, don't you? Otherwise you wouldn't have bought the old estate."

The clip ended, and right behind it came a text.

"Didn't you say the biggest regret of your life was not holding on to me? I'm back now. Can you... give me one more chance?"

I put the phone down.

The biggest regret of her life.

The day we married, during the wedding toast, she'd smiled and said one thing. "I have no regrets left in this life."

So that hadn't been true.

The doorbell rang.

I went over and opened it. A man stood outside, his eyes red.

Oliver.

He saw me and froze for a second, then forced out a smile. "Theo, is Julia home?"

"No."

"She promised to come help me look over the house today. I've been waiting a long time, and she won't pick up her phone." He glanced past me into the apartment. "Could I come in and wait for her?"

I stepped aside.

He came in, and his eyes swept the entryway. Julia's shoes, her coat, her car keys—all there.

"Julie didn't go out today?"

"She did."

"But her keys are still here."

I didn't answer. I watched him sit down on the couch. He took the exact spot where Julia had sat the night before.

Oliver seemed to sense something. He lowered his head and fidgeted with his fingers. "Theo, please don't get the wrong idea. There's really nothing between Julie and me. She's just helping me with the old house."

"I know."

"It's just… I only got back, and I don't know my way around anything. She's the only one I could ask for help."

"Mm."

He raised his head and looked at me, an expression I couldn't quite name in his eyes. "Julie's such a good person. If only I'd never left back then."

He said it lightly, almost in passing, but I understood it.

He was telling me that if he hadn't gone abroad, I wouldn't be the one standing in this home now.

I didn't respond. The door opened in the entryway, and Julia came in. She saw Oliver sitting on the couch and froze in the doorway.

Oliver stood up, his eyes rimming red again. "Julie."

Julia glanced at me, then looked at him. "Why are you here?"

"I couldn't reach you, so I came over myself." His voice was thick with congestion. "I wanted to see the renovation blueprints for the old house. You said you'd show me today."

Julia pulled a file folder from her bag and held it out. "The blueprints are here. Take them with you."

Oliver took them, but he didn't leave. He stood there, looking at me, then at Julia, and bit his lip. "Did the two of you fight? Because of me?"

Before Julia could say anything, I spoke first. "No. We never fight."

It was the truth. Three years, and we'd never even raised our voices. I used to think that proved how good we were together. Now I knew it was only because she'd never cared enough to.

After Oliver left, the living room was unbearably quiet.

Julia stood there, arms folded over her chest, not moving for a long time.

In the end I was the one who spoke. "You left your other phone at home. Oliver sent some messages. I saw them by accident."

His fingers twitched. She said nothing.

"Why did the two of you break up back then?"

A long silence.

"His family wouldn't allow it. They sent him abroad."

"Did he leave you any word?"

"He did." Julia's voice was low. "He told me to wait for him."

"You didn't wait."

"I waited. Two years. He didn't come back."

So you settled for me.

I didn't say it out loud.

Julia raised her head and looked at me. "Theodore, what happened with him is over. I'll make it clear to him. I won't be in contact again."

I looked into her eyes. "Have you really thought this through?"

"I have."

"Then tell me—when you bought the old house, were you thinking of helping him, or of keeping something to hold on to?"

Julia opened her mouth, but nothing came out.

I had my answer.

"Let's get a divorce."

Julia stood frozen.

"What did you say?"

"Divorce."

She stared at me for a few seconds, then suddenly let out a small laugh. "Are you joking with me?"

"Do I look like I'm joking?"

Julia set down what she was holding and walked up to me. "Just because of Oliver?"

"It's not because of him." I lifted my head and looked at her. "It's because of you."

"What about me?"

"You haven't let him go."

Julia frowned. "I said I'd make it clear to him—"

"You said." I cut her off. "You said it last night too, and you're still saying it this morning. But you sit up half the night waiting for his messages, you drive off at dawn to find him, and you've got the transfer record for the old house saved in your phone, labeled Oliver's House. Julia, how am I supposed to believe you?"

Her jaw tightened.

"I'll handle it."

"Handle what?" I looked at her. "Handle him, or handle me?"

Julia said nothing.

I turned and walked into the bedroom, pulled open the closet, and took out a suitcase. Three years of marriage, and I didn't have much. A few clothes, some everyday things. Not enough to fill one case.

Julia followed me in and watched me pack.

"Where are you going?"

"My mother's place, for now."

"Theo, don't do something rash."

I ignored her and zipped the suitcase shut. She put her hand down on it. "Let's talk this through."

"Talk about what?"

"About us."

"There's nothing complicated about us." I looked at her. "You don't love me. You love Oliver. You married me because he hadn't come back. Now he's back. I'm stepping aside. Happy?"

Her hand pressed flat on the case, the knuckles white.

"There's really nothing between him and me."

"Then do you have the nerve to tell him to my face that you feel nothing for me?"

She didn't move.

I waited ten seconds, twenty, half a minute.

"You don't, do you?" I pulled her hand off. "Then don't get in my way."

I carried the case to the door. Julia caught up and blocked it.

"Theo, listen to me—"

"Move."

"No. You can't leave today."

I looked up at her. Her eyes had gone red, her voice a little hoarse. "I know I was wrong, but you can't just walk out like this. Three years of marriage, and you call it off, just like that?"

"Three years of marriage, three years of you carrying someone else in your heart, and did I say a word?"

Julia opened her mouth and nothing came out.

I pushed past her and pulled the door open.

Oliver was standing outside.

He still had that folder in his hands. He hadn't left at all.

He looked at the case in my hand, then at Julia behind me, and put on a worried face. "Theo, where are you going?"

I didn't answer him and dragged the case out.

Oliver turned to Julia. "Julie, what's wrong with you two? Is it because of me—"

"It's none of your business," Julia said.

But her eyes had already given her away.

I saw it clear as day. When she looked at Oliver, there was a light in her eyes. A light that had never once been there when she looked at me.

The elevator doors opened and I stepped in.

Julia rushed over and, in the last second before the doors closed, threw out her hand to stop them. "Theo, give me three days. I'll get everything sorted out."

"No need."