Chapter 3

Salvatore went rigid.

Disbelief flashed across his eyes, dark and quick, and the furrow between his brows cut deeper than before, the way a man's face changes when the script he has written in his head refuses to play out. The drawing room of the Gilberti estate held its breath around him. The soldiers stationed at the doors did not move, but I felt the shift in them, that animal stillness made men acquire who have learned to read their Don's silence the way other people read weather.

Vittoria froze too. She even forgot to keep crying. Her wet lashes hung suspended, her painted mouth half open on a sob that had nowhere to go now that the audience had stopped watching her. Her fingers had already drifted up to the Jade Ring on her hand, twisting it a beat too soon, reaching to confirm her prize before the room had even finished deciding who had won.

I pulled out a handkerchief and wiped the wine from my hands. The silk came away pink, the color of a thing freshly bled. Then I crouched down.

I picked up the shards of glass from the floor one by one, bare-handed, and dropped them into the brass bin beside the marble pillar. The crystal bit into my fingertips, small clean stings I did not let reach my face. I pressed my thumb, just once, against the faded scar on my forearm, and the feeling I refused to show went down quiet, swallowed whole the way I had swallowed seven years of them. Around me no one offered to help. In this house, a woman on her knees gathering broken glass was simply a woman who had finally found her place.

When I was done, I stood and looked at Salvatore.

"My clothes are stained. I'm going upstairs to change." My voice was even. Polished. The voice of an associate excusing herself from a sit-down she was no longer welcome at.

I turned and walked toward the grand staircase, my spine perfectly straight. The obsidian floor threw my reflection back at me, a pale figure moving through a house built on tribute and fear, and I did not let my steps hurry, did not let them drag. His gaze stayed glued to my back the entire way, I could feel it, that heavy possessive weight he had used for years to keep me in orbit. For the first time, it slid off me like water.

Back in the bedroom, I shut the door.

I leaned against it and closed my eyes. The wood was cool against my shoulder blades, and somewhere below me the party went on, the low murmur of made men and their painted women, the clink of crystal, the rules of a world I had served without ever belonging to. Seven years of devotion. Seven years of bending, of smiling, of making myself smaller so his temper would have less to catch on. Today, that chapter was finally over.

The phone on the nightstand lit up.

An encrypted message from Lorenzo Frost. The screen glowed in the dim room like a coal.

"Adriana. The route is cleared. The Castellano motorcade reaches Harbor Bay in three days. Whatever the Gilberti owe you, sister, I will collect it tenfold. A hundredfold. They will learn whose blood they spat on."

I stared at the words. My brother's voice rose off the screen, low and certain, the voice of a Don who did not threaten because he had never once needed to. My eyes burned with heat, and I let them, because there was no one here to see it.

The bedroom door swung open without warning.

Salvatore strode in on those long legs, the air changing the instant he crossed the threshold, that pressure he carried into every room narrowing down to a single point. His sharp gaze locked onto the phone in my hand before I could so much as turn the screen.

He crossed the room in three steps and snatched it away.

The screen went dark at that exact moment, the message swallowed back into the encryption like a stone dropped into deep water. He did not try to unlock it. He turned it over once in his fingers, weighing it, and then tossed it onto the soft carpet like it was nothing, like it was a thing beneath the dignity of his attention. His hand pressed briefly, flat, against his stomach, the old impatience I had watched move through him a thousand times.

Then he reached out and gripped my chin, forcing my face up toward his. His fingers were warm and unhurried, the touch of a man who had never once doubted his right to handle what he believed he owned.

"Downstairs just now." His thumb moved along my jaw, slow. "Why didn't you put up a fight?" His tone was probing, almost suspicious, the suspicion of a man who has thrown a stone into a pond and heard no splash come back.

I met his eyes. My voice was flat, without a single ripple of emotion.

"You've always said my temper is too much. That I should learn to be more generous." I let the words come without weight, each one set down clean, like the glass into the bin. "I gave her the jade ring and the necklace. Isn't that exactly what you wanted?"

Something complicated flickered through his gaze, there and gone, a shadow crossing the face of a man too proud to name what unsettled him. For a heartbeat the certainty in him faltered, and I watched it falter, and I felt nothing move in me at all.

He released my chin. Then he wrapped both arms around my waist and pulled me against his chest, the gesture possessive, familiar, the embrace of a man reclaiming a thing he had not yet realized was already gone.

Chapter 4

He smelled of faint Turkish tobacco and Vittoria's perfume.

The two scents tangled together in the close air of the study, and my stomach turned. There was something obscene about the way they mixed, the smoke he carried like a second skin and the cloying sweetness she had pressed into him, as if she had already begun marking what she intended to own.

Salvatore lowered his head, his lips brushing the shell of my ear. The gesture would have looked tender to anyone watching from the doorway, where his soldiers stood like statues against the dark paneling, eyes forward, hands folded. They knew better than to witness too much.

"Adriana, I know today was hard on you." His voice was low, intimate, the voice of a man who had ordered men's throats cut in the same gentle register. "Vittoria's older sister took a bullet meant for me. She'll never walk again because of it. I owe a debt to that blood. Looking after Vittoria is how a man of honor pays what he owes."

I pressed my thumb against the faded scar on my forearm and said nothing.

"As long as you behave yourself and stay in line, there will always be a place for you in the Gilberti house." His thumb traced an idle circle at my hip, possessive, careless. "You'll still be the woman who's stood beside me the longest. No one takes that from you. Not even her."

He was making me a promise. Delivered from on high, the way a Don tosses a coin of mercy to a beggar kneeling outside the social club, expecting the kneeling to continue forever.

He actually expected me to be grateful. To press my lips to the back of his hand for the privilege of being kept like a piece of furniture he hadn't yet decided to discard.

A frantic knock came from outside the heavy oak door. The two soldiers in the hall shifted, one of them reaching instinctively toward the lapel where his piece sat hidden, then stilling when no threat followed.

Vittoria's delicate voice drifted through the wood, pitched to carry, pitched to wound. "Salvatore, my chest hurts all of a sudden. Can you come be with me?"

His arms dropped from my waist instantly.

Not a second of hesitation. The warmth, the whispered debts of honor, the promise of a place at his table, all of it evaporated like breath off cold marble. He turned to leave, and the soldiers parted before him without a sound, the way water parts for the hull of a ship.

At the doorway, he paused and looked back. For a moment the lamplight caught the hard planes of his face, and I saw nothing in his eyes that had ever belonged to me.

"There's a sit-down tomorrow night. A charity gala, all the families under one roof, every Don pretending his hands are clean." His tone was flat, the matter already settled in his mind before he spoke it aloud. "I'm bringing Vittoria. She's only just come back to Harbor Bay and she has nothing fit to wear in front of those people." His gaze swept over me, utterly matter-of-fact, the way a man takes inventory of stock he no longer prizes. "That Starlight piece in your closet. Have the housekeeper bring it to Vittoria tomorrow. Tell the seamstress to take it in until it fits her."

I stared at him in disbelief, the cold of the obsidian floor seeming to climb through the soles of my shoes and into my chest.

That Starlight gown.

Five years ago, when he first claimed me before the whole of his organization and called me his, he had flown in the finest couturier in Paris to create it. Tailored to every line and measure of my body, made for me and no woman else alive.

Nine hundred and ninety-nine crystals, each one set by hand along the hem, so that when I walked they caught the chandelier light and threw it back like a slow fall of stars.

I had treated that dress the way the old families treat a relic. I wouldn't even let the housekeepers lift it from its hanger. It hung in the dark of my closet like something sacred, like the one thing in that house of borrowed loyalty that had been truly mine.

Once, a new associate's daughter, a girl brought in to serve at table, had slipped it out and tried it on before the mirror when she thought no one would know. The instant I learned of it, I had her dismissed and sent out of the Capital territory entirely, her family quietly told never to seek work under the Gilberti name again.

Salvatore had praised me for it then. He had taken my chin in his hand and said that what was mine was mine, that no one in his world had the right to lay so much as a finger on what belonged to me, and that he would break the hand that tried.

I pressed my thumb harder against the scar, and felt nothing move in my face at all.

Chapter 5

Now he had asked me, straight to my face, in that flat voice that left no room for refusal, to surrender that gown to Vittoria.

My fingers curled inward, nails digging so deep into my palms they nearly drew blood. The pain was a small, private thing, the only sound I allowed myself in a house where every wall had ears and every silence was a kind of testimony. Outside the tall windows the snow had begun to fall over the Gilberti estate, soft and patient, swallowing the iron gates and the dark shapes of the men who patrolled them. Somewhere below, in the smoke-warm parlor, a record turned low. None of it touched the cold that had taken up residence in my chest.

I looked at Salvatore's expression, so utterly matter-of-fact, as though he had asked me to pass the salt rather than hand over the one beautiful thing in this world that had ever been made for me alone. He pressed a flat palm to his stomach, the gesture I had once mistaken for impatience, and waited. I pressed my thumb against the faded scar on my forearm, the way I always did when I swallowed something I refused to let him see, and I slowly nodded.

"Fine. I'll have someone deliver it tomorrow."

Salvatore held my gaze for a long moment, dark eyes searching mine for some crack, some tremor, some last appeal he could refuse the pleasure of denying. He found nothing. The stillness in the room thickened until I could hear the grandfather clock ticking in the hall, each stroke landing like a coin dropped on marble. Then he pushed the door open and walked out, and the cold air of the corridor moved past him into the room.

From the hallway came the soft murmur of his voice, gentle and soothing, the voice he had never once in seven years turned on me. He was comforting Vittoria, whispering reassurances I could not make out and did not need to. Then the click of the neighboring room's door shutting behind them, soft and final as a lock turning on a vault. The Don of the Gilberti Family had made his choice, and the whole house had felt it, the way men in a sit-down feel a verdict pass before a single word is spoken.

I turned and walked to the desk. The carpet drank my footsteps. I pulled open the drawer, the brass handle cold against my fingers, and took out a desk calendar, its leather cover worn soft at the corners from years of my hands.

I picked up a red marker and drew a heavy X over today's date. The ink bled at the edges, dark as something spilled. My hand did not shake.

Two more days until Lorenzo came for me.

I peeled off the wine-stained gown, the silk sliding from my shoulders like shed skin, and stepped into the bathroom. The tile was cold beneath my bare feet, the air still carrying the ghost of Vittoria's perfume that clung to everything in this house now, sweet and cloying as a lie told too often.

Warm water streamed over my body. I let it run until the cold in my bones loosened its grip, until the steam fogged the glass and softened the world into something I could bear to stand inside.

I stared at the pale face in the mirror, half-lost behind the mist, a woman I was only beginning to recognize again.

Salvatore Gilberti, seven years ago you pulled me from that burning wreck on the coast road and gave me a second life. You wiped the blood from my face with your own handkerchief and told me I was safe now, that no one in Harbor Bay would dare touch what belonged to the Gilberti name.

For seven years, I took knives meant for you. I stood between you and the men who came in the dark, and I have the scar to prove it. I handled the things you could not let see the light of day, the debts and the bodies and the whispered arrangements that kept the Family standing while you played the gentleman. I ran the Gilberti household so you never had to think of it, so your soldiers ate and your secrets stayed buried and your enemies found only locked doors.

We stopped owing each other a long time ago.

The next morning came gray and silent, the snow still falling, the estate hushed under its white weight. I followed Salvatore's instructions and had one of the house associates carry the Starlight couture gown down the corridor to Vittoria's room, folded in tissue as if it still deserved that care.

Vittoria made a point of having her door left wide open. She wanted to be seen. In this world, where respect was the only currency that could not be laundered, she had decided that taking what was mine in plain sight was its own kind of coronation.

As I passed through the hallway, I saw her in front of the gilt mirror, twirling in the gown that clearly did not fit her, the fabric bunching and pulling in all the wrong places, gaping where it had been cut to my body and no one else's. The crystal beadwork caught the morning light and threw it back at her, and she smiled at her reflection like a woman trying on someone else's life.

She picked up a pair of scissors. Her fingers brushed the diamond drop at her throat first, twisting it a beat too soon, the way they always reached for the loot before she had earned it. Then, without a second's hesitation, she cut away the most intricate panel of crystal-beaded tulle from the hem, the very piece that had taken a master's hands three months to set by candlelight. The fabric fell to the floor in a glittering ruin.

"This design is so dated. It'll look better shorter." Vittoria pouted at the maid standing beside her, her voice light and careless, performing the spoiled darling for an audience of one frightened woman.

The maid stole a cautious glance toward me in the doorway and said nothing. In this house, silence was not just manners. It was survival. Omerta did not only protect the men.

I didn't stop. I didn't let my eyes linger on the wreckage of the only thing in this world that had been made for me. I pressed my thumb once more to the scar on my forearm, held the feeling down where it could not betray me, and I walked straight to the kitchen.

Salvatore had drunk heavily the night before. I had heard the decanters move in the study long after midnight, the low laughter, the clink of crystal. He had a serious stomach condition, the kind that doubled a lesser man over and that he hid from everyone but me, and after every night of heavy drinking he needed a bowl of the specially prepared herbal stomach-healing soup. I knew the recipe by heart, the way I knew the location of every safe in the house and the name of every soldier who would lie for him.

I reached for the pot. Old habit. Seven years of it, steeped into my hands like the scent of the herbs themselves.

Then I stopped, my fingers resting on the cold copper, and I stood very still in the silent kitchen while the snow came down outside the window and the whole of the Gilberti estate held its breath around me.

Seven Years Lost, A Lifetime of Vengeance

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