I am patiently waiting, like a child with the blanket up to my knees and my feet wriggling.

My brother is a big boy; he comforts his sister. I still remember him crying when Mama cannot stay by his side. As the older brother, I was by his side then.

It’s been a long time; it’s just a toy; is it difficult to shop for all the colors or sizes?

He’s smiling from ear to ear when he comes out of my walk-in closet, and I’m frowning. Why is he smiling like an idiot?

“Here.”

I almost threw my pillow at him when I took out all my collection; it was a tray! What the heck, I can’t talk. I felt like I was covered with a dildo in my bed. I look at him, but he’s at the door.

“I’ll get going.” After he closes the door, I start shouting, “Tangina!” What? I’ll put that in my pee at the same time. Then I don’t want to use a diddle. I just miss Leto.

He uses that toy before leaving me and fights with me as if we had nothing in common.

I got the toy and hugged it all of a sudden. Everything in my mind disappeared, replaced by sadness, pain, and questions. Why did he do that to me? I’m still his fiance; I can’t believe that. What if I was wrong?

“He’s loyal, Thana; stop that. It’s impossible; he got your virginity so. “He’s head over heels for you.” I nodded then closed my eyes. Tomorrow they must not see any trace of sadness or any other pain that I felt tonight.

Athanasia is a joyful and well-mannered woman. Full of wisdom, she is one of the strongest personalities in the business industry. No one can challenge me; I am the ruler of my own. And if there’s something stupid about me, that’s impossible.

When I got off, as soon as I got out of my car, Brother Mage’s staff met me. They made a fuss about taking the bag I brought and food for my brother since he always forgets to eat his lunch.

“Ma’am Athanasia, I’m here.”

“Ma’am, what can you order?”

“Ma’am Athanasia, this is—”

I sigh and roll my eyes. At least, they will cause trouble in the morning.

“Run away. Here, take my bag and take it to my office.” When Ma’am Athanasia hears something, I’ll tell you. I’ll drop you from the rooftop. Be gone!” They ran away in front of me, and I handed the car key to the guard.

I press the floor where Brother Mage is; I heard he has a new secretary. I hope she’s beautiful and sexy when she’s not dry, and she doesn’t need to be fucked every day. So what! Office sex is hot; it’s a dream come true if Leto fucks me at his office and covers my mouth to shut my mouth.

“Kyahh,” I shouted before the elevator opened. I saw Hestia talking to brother Mage. I sped up my pace to catch up and annoy Hestia even for a moment; she’s cute when annoyed.

Brother stood up, and Hestia seemed restless.

“Ma’am Athanasia, here are papers that need to be reviewed,” said Mr. Del Russo. I nodded and accepted the folder.

“Thank you; can you please give me some warm espresso for me?” Use this” I reached for my credit card, and at the bottom of the building, there was a coffee shop.

When I entered, Hestia was right out, and brother Mage’s baby girl was half-running.

Is it like I’m sick, and is the village girl avoiding me? I can hit it when I catch him or corner him.

“What’s wrong with her?” I ask my brother Mage, and he just smirks.

“Did you give me some sex toys? That probably annoyed you,” he said, sitting on his swivel chair and checking the paper on his table.

“Impossible, she will love that sooner or later,” says brother, who wears his eyeglasses. I feel a little sorry for my brother. That’s at his age. His sexual life should be active. But that’s it; focus on work in the company. He’s the one who is responsible since he’s firstborn and still male.

“Sir Mage, here’s your coffee.” I looked at the woman who came in, and I almost laughed because she was walking carefully and the coffee is close. My brother crossed his fingers and watched the coffee reach him.

“It’s good that you didn’t spill the coffee,” my brother said. I walked to his secretary, an unfamiliar face. It’s true. Brother’s new secretary is young. Where was it before?

“New secretary?” I ask and Kuya introduces her; she’s Yuki, and Yuki looks like she won’t break dishes; she’s only as far as my eyes can see; I am taller than her.

“I’m Athanasia Louise Del Russo, Kuya Mage’s most beautiful, delicious, and kind cousin,” I said, walking around her. She’s perfect for Kuya. Small, sexy, and virgin faces too

I have an idea!

“You’re perfect!” I said and clapped. I didn’t listen to their wimps and snatched the sexy secretary. Many people were looking at us, and we were already in the elevator, going down. Let’s see if my brother will let this secretary of his go.

“Where are we, ma’am?” she asked, and I smirked.

“You will be given a sexual life.” So don’t ask questions,” he said, turning pale. I laughed at his reaction.

“Ma’am?”

“What the hell, it’s delicious.” At first, it hurts to break it. “But when you keep watering it, it’s like you’re living in a secret paradise, a paradise in a crowded cave!”

I am very excited. I’m going to dress up. My brother Mage is my mascot.

We went down to the salon and left the handbag we bought, along with the jewelry, on the side. But when clothes, shoes, and bags are delivered to the house

“Ma’am Athanasia, welcome back!” I nodded and spoke to the stylist.

“I want a full body massage for her, a pedicure, and a manicure as well.” Please fix her hair. “Put hair extensions when needed, okay?” I stopped talking and my phone rang, and the caller was Brother Mage.

“Thana, please just please let my secretary come back; I need her.” He sounded problematic, but he needed to endure it for a day. For her sexual life

“I’ll send my secretary, brother; Yuki will come in tomorrow.” “Don’t complain, you’ll be happy with what I did,” when I’m proud of him and I feel like he’s doing a facepalm right now.

“I hired Yuki to be my secretary, not your shopping buddy.” I pouted and looked at Yuki. Lying there and massaging

“Just now, tomorrow I’ll finish what you’re asking me to do.” I was interrupted when the text that had just been delivered appeared. My heart went tight as if heaven and earth were crashing down on me.

“I want to call off our engagement, Thana. I will take care of everything. Thank you for everything.” I dropped the call of Kuya Mage and then called Leto.

My hands are shaking badly; I almost throw my phone when it’s unattended. Tangina what? Call off the engagement; what the heck is he thinking? The marriage is already settled. We’ll be married in a few months, and then he’ll leave me in a text!

“I will kill you, Leto!” I pay before I leave. I’m stuck on the steering wheel of my car, and I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t have a best friend to cry to when I’m broken or hurt; I used to be alone all the time.

I stopped in front of the bar. I need to calm down and stop the negative thoughts. But the difficulty is that everything is like a puzzle. Those ugly creatures, a woman’s voice, and all of the sudden decisions from him That’s stupid. He is the one who decided for us, so what am I doing? Just make it better.

I stopped and parked; the bar had just opened. There is only one bar here for us that opens early. A friend of mine owns this place. It is said that they met her husband here, so they bought it.

I hope everyone has a husband who is loyal and who is watered every day because I am drier than the desert. I’m dry, damn it.

“I want vodka,” I said, and I sat on the high stool. Edward is laughing next to me; he’s a friend of mine. We are all mutual colleagues; we all live the same life.

“Athanasia, you look bad right now.” I immediately swallowed the vodka and shut my mouth.

“Yes, I am, and I am not in the mood to act nice,” said a very well-mannered woman. “Don’t know, I’m not in the mood to talk to each other,” they broke up, and I took down the sunglasses that I had been wearing.

“You know that Elisha is happy now. His wife is the emperor of Tunazia. “My eyebrows raised. This is another fool.” He cheated on his wife, and when he cheated on her, he was furious. Thanks to Leto, I’ve never been crazy, even though he always teases me.

“It’s your fault too, then you know.”

“All of our colleagues know that Leto is cheating on you. “You are the only one who is blindly blind.” I felt my breath become heavy; I felt like I would cry anytime. I stood up and ran out of the bar while my tears fell little by little.

My chest was tight, and I slowly closed my eyes when I got into my car. Of course, the pain is that the things I don’t want to hear come from other people. Why are they like that?

I drive and buy some alcohol; I prefer to be alone; I don’t care about other people’s opinions; I’m only with myself and no one else. I don’t have to act like a perfect Athanasia. It’s tiring to be happy in front of other people; maybe it’s time for me to be alone and put myself first.

I parked and took what I needed, and when I came out, a nice breeze greeted me. As if the wind were touching me, I sat at my favorite spot where I could see all

I’m looking at the movements of trees; I’m watching from above, feeling the bitterness while I have a cigarette stuck in my right hand. I smoke when everything is fucked up.

“It’s a mess,” I whisper and smile; I don’t know how many tears I’ve shed after crying just now. Xyan has taken good care of me lately; he comforts my ass and makes me feel like I’m safe.

I didn’t think that he would hear me kicking things just now, but he changed his mind. He’s a fine and decent man. Lessiah is overly protective. Then here it is now—news from other people, especially. When you look at it

“Nothing’s going to hurt you, baby,” I smirk and remember the line he said to me when I am celebrating the 3rd anniversary with Leto.

“Nothing’s going to hurt me except you, Leto.” I close my eyes and cry without a sound. I’m afraid that someone might hear me. I gave my best, yet I am not enough for him.

The time for us to be together is gone, and he promises that he will love me and do his best to be enough for me, even if he doesn’t do anything. He’s more than enough for me, but that’s wrong. He was the one looking for someone else while I was here, tied up and unable to accept the news I was hearing.

I won’t believe it until I see it with my own two eyes, but why is it that even though many people say I am still this stupid for him? It’s like I allow myself to be foolish and left out, so I turn a blind eye to everything.

Mom and Dad will get mad if they know this. I am responsible for my stupidity.

I drink the first bottle while looking at the pictures on my phone; it seems like it was just yesterday that we had so much fun. Planning how to get her pregnant, we study the positions that shoot the egg cell. Then now, another woman is swimming with his sperm cell.

The world is unfair to me; whoever the person who is my world is, he is the one who left me and was able to fool me. How, how has it been in our time? I gave everything since I am sure that he is the person I see who will knock and shake my life, but nothing happened. Gago is married to another woman. Don’t want to freeze his small cock

A bottle is overturned, and I feel like a fool for kicking it even though nothing has been spilled. This is stupid.

“You fool, you run out fast!” I throw it away, open a new bottle, and it’s like water when swallowed. I can’t taste the alcohol anymore; it’s like water. Maybe because of my cigarettes

“I swear, you will regret what you did.”

“But why, what, and where am I missing, Leto?” I whispered to the void: “The bitterness of wine does not taste good.” But what Leto did to me was bitter. Unique

“I still love you no matter what the news is, and you don’t want me anymore; why are you like that?” I’m good,” I said between sobs and drank the remaining alcohol in the bottle. I inhaled the smoke from the cigarette and drained the contents of the bottle.

I want more; it’s running out immediately. I’ve been drinking for a while now.

I’m about to throw the cigarette when my phone rings. It’s my younger sister, Lesaiah.

I answered it and waited for her response.

“Sister, where are you?” It’s one o’clock. “Are you going home?” She’s such a sweet girl, very considerate. And I don’t want him to see his sister wasted and brokenhearted. I don’t want him to be afraid of love. Because not everyone is really stupid.

“Sorry, baby, but sister won’t go home tonight.” Maybe tomorrow,” she sighed; it was sad that she might ask something of me or need me. Maybe tomorrow

“See you tomorrow, okay? My sister loves you,” I said.

“I love you too, sister, take care.” I end the call and get into the car. I’m going home to the condo and getting drunk so that tomorrow it’s like everything is gone.

I start opening all the compartments of my car as well as my bag, but I cannot find the key to my condo unit. I want to cry. Lord, is it true? Don’t you love me? I’m very unlucky, one after another.

I try to calm down so I can drive home and rest because my stomach has turned upside down. I started puking at the window of my car.

I hate this madness, damn it!

It’s my third time coming home drunk and crawling around the house; well, I don’t want to disturb people, but why is it that I still have the key to my condo with as much as I can leave behind?

“I fucking hate you, Le-ack!” You fell on the Bermuda grass in front of the main door. I’ve thrown out everything I’ve eaten, but I’m still vomiting.

“God, I swear to god. I will not drink more tequila, and I will not mix it with vodka!” My stomach turned upside down; I vomited semen from Leto, but that was a long time ago. I’m amazed. I called all the saints and gods to get me up until I recovered, and finally, I grabbed the doorknob.

I will reduce the wages of the helpers; they are not there when I need support.

After I opened the door, I fell and hit my forehead on the floor. Really stupid, Thana! You are one of a kind in the whole world, awarded with golden stupidity and bad luck.

“Really, oh gosh.” I groaned because of irritation. Why is there no condo key in my car?

“FUCK!” I didn’t notice that Xyan was there, holding a glass of water, showing his bench body that could be attributed to Alden Richards when he didn’t even know the word diet.

“What happened to you?” It squatted to get level with me.

“Swimming, see this. It’s freestyle,” I promised angrily, knowing that when I fell, I would be asked what happened to you. Once this is my brother, I feel like I missed the moon.

Xyan ignored it. Xyan helps me sit on the sofa, he’s so sweet and handy when he knows that his help is needed, and I am sure that he is my baby brother.

“I’ll just grab some water.” I immediately opened Xyan’s hand to stop him from taking my water.

“Why water? Do I look haggard as-ack!” and I cannot hold back my puke, I’m going to throw up my intestines now, holy gracious!

He caresses my back and when I stopped vomiting, he immediately held a glass.

I looked at him and said thanks, such a sweet baby boy of mine.

“Thanks, tell mom to reduce the wages of the servants. They are all slacking, it’s early!” I pout and sip the water. Warm water feels good on the stomach, it’s refreshing.

“Ahm. It’s 2 AM. Maids do sleep too, Sister.” I frowned at him and my grumpy brother facepalmed, the fuck? 2 AM?!

“Okay fine, I’ll go up and rest” I stood up but was out of balance and my hip hit the edge of the table, this is bull shit!

I’m about to shout because of the pain of Xyan covering my mouth

“Shhh. Don’t shout. Just don’t.” It was said calmly to me and I nodded like a child. He picked me up like paper and ran to the second floor.

I wanna cry out loud because of the pain. When you look at me oh.

He opened the door of my room, and the door of my bathroom then opened the shower, Xyan was catching his breath while lying in front of me and I was getting wet from the splash of the shower

“I’ll just leave you here for a while. Just call me if you need something.”

I nod like a lost puppy and pout “Okay brother,” I mock him and smirk, sometimes I wonder who is the oldest among us.

I watch him walk out and close the door.

I start removing what I wear and feel the coldness of the water, it’s annoying to think that I have nothing to go back to.

I’m too gorgeous to abandon and then leave me unreasonably angry, what is he? Always angry? Now he wants to end the engagement. Of course, he still has the strength to do that. It’s good to be trampled by a crocodile, I get the shampoo and soap. I want to go to the US but I don’t have the courage, I don’t know what will be my next move.

I rinse all the soap on my body and brush my teeth, I open the door of my walk-in closet and wear my night ware.

Xyan is still standing there, holding a bottle of Brandy and a glass. Shit, I’m thirsty.

“Thanks for this.” I grabbed it and smiled, but it takes five seconds before the alcohol disappears from me.

“I’m planning to drink this since I cannot sleep.” I raised an eyebrow at him and then pushed him out.

“Thank you, go to sleep. I have work tomorrow.” I said and I closed the door. I remembered something so I opened the door and took my wallet with me, got my spare credit card, and handed it to Xyan.

“Treat yourself, thanks again.” I give a quick kiss to his cheeks before going back to the room, I will bribe him. Maybe later I will report to mom. It’s hard, even with Leto.

I threw myself on the bed and my phone lit up, it was a mail from Hestia. I didn’t check the mail. But there is a text immediately following.

It’s like she wants to meet me and have a date, just now she didn’t want to talk to me and now she has a meeting.

“The org?”