No More Darkness, Only Light

At the class reunion, Jack Brown who my girlfriend Anna Taylor liked in college was also there.

He was very attentive to my girlfriend and even wiped her mouth.

My classmates looked at me, thinking I would be angry.

But I just said calmly, "You two are a good match and should be together!"

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When I was on annual leave, Anna wanted to go on a self-driving tour. And on the day of departure I found out that Jack was also with us.

Along the way, I drove and the two of them sat in the back talking and laughing.

When I woke up the next day, they had left on a plane.

After driving home alone, I was unable to suppress the anger in my heart and asked her why she had left me behind.

She said, "You make a fuss about it. I just had to do something on the spur of the moment, so I forgot to tell you."

Because of the incident, we had given each other the silent treatment for a long time.

Until the day before, Anna took the initiative to talk to me.

"I know you're definitely not angry anymore. To make it up to you, let's go fishing this weekend."

Over the years, because I loved her, Anna had been trampling on my feelings with impunity. Now she gave in, not because she really thought that she was wrong, but because after a while, her mother would have surgery, and the doctor in charge of the surgery was my old classmate.

Every time we quarreled before, I was always the one who gave in. Anna never felt that she was wrong. I cherished the relationship more than she did, and I was really afraid of losing her. So whenever we quarreled before, I would send gifts and make delicious food to seek forgiveness.

But it would often take many days before Anna would give me a smile.

Gradually, she seemed to be accustomed to my lowliness, so that every time, she waited for me to give in.

And I loved her by magic so much that I lost myself and my soul.

Now, I realized that I couldn't get love of her by giving in all the time, so I might as well let go.

In response to Anna's invitation, I just replied indifferently, "Ok." Then I went to take a shower.

I liked fishing. I invited her to go fishing with me many times before, but she always refused. While when Jack invited her to go fishing, she immediately prepared and dressed up carefully. And Jack deliberately talked about going fishing with Anna in our friends group. I was angry about it for a long time.

But they thought that I was too narrow-minded and overthinking.

When I came out of the shower, Anna was gone. She had not shown up at the agreed time for fishing. I did not call her, took my tools and drove to the destination by myself.

The fishing spot was beautiful. The owner of the fish pond had planted flowers all around. I found a secluded corner and sat down. Then I took a photo and posted it on my Moments with the caption "Beautiful scenery, good weather, and good mood!".

Jack also posted a picture on his Moments at the same time. The picture showed him being put on a drip, and Anna was taking care of him, holding the needle tubing for him with thoughtfulness.

I put down my phone without any emotion and continued fishing. They were always like that and I was used to it.

After a while my phone started vibrating constantly, but I didn't want to answer it.

In the past, I would have called to question Anna, but there was no need now.

After all, people who were not in love were the most free and easy.