Silas was waiting for me in the hallway, a winner's smile on his face.

"So Andrew's done in there?"

I glanced at him and moved to leave without a word.

He stepped into my path.

"Andrew, the professor wants you to hand off your current projects to me. When are you free?"

He couldn't even wait.

I stopped and kept my face cold. "Whenever. As long as you've got the time."

"Oh, I've got nothing but time. The professor says I joined too late and still need to learn at her side, so she hasn't assigned me any work yet."

Silas beamed.

"Honestly, I'd love to work on projects with you and the other lab folks. But what can I do? When the professor speaks, you listen."

"Isn't that right, Andrew?"

On that last line, he suddenly leaned in close.

"Take you, for instance. Professor Gilbert says the two of you can't go public with your marriage, so you don't dare. She says you're going to the frontier posting, and even if you don't want to go, you go."

My hand curled hard into a fist.

He was flaunting it.

Just then Winona's voice came from inside the office.

"Silas, there's a data set in here. Come verify it for me."

"Coming."

Silas shot me a smug look, slammed his shoulder into mine as he passed, pushed the door open, and went in.

Click.

The office door shut, and something in me shut with it.

Before, I could still lie to myself, tell myself that when Winona called Silas into her office several times a day, she was actually teaching him.

But now.

Hah.

Verify data.

Silas had been in the group less than a month. He didn't even know which experiments the lab was running. What data could he possibly verify?

Winona had decided I either hadn't caught on, or had caught on and wouldn't dare say anything, and she was getting bolder by the day. Now she didn't even bother with a decent excuse.

I drew a breath and walked off with long strides.

The moment I got back to the lab, the junior researchers crowded around me.

"Andrew, what did Professor Gilbert say?"

"There's been some mistake, right?"

I looked at them and shook my head. "No mistake. Winona already put my name in. I leave for the frontier posting tomorrow."

That set them off at once.

"What is Professor Gilbert thinking? Doesn't she know the experiments we're running right now can't do without you?"

"Of course she knows. This is all that Silas. He must have said something to her."

"..."

They vented the anger in their chests, then turned and looked at me, all of them at once.

"Andrew, what do we do? We'll follow your lead."

"That's right. Whatever you say, that's what we'll do. These projects can't die in Silas's hands."

I had trained every one of them. From the day they joined, I'd taught them hands-on, step by step.

Winona carried the title of mentor and had never taught them a thing.

They were waiting for my answer. I looked at them one by one and asked, "Come with me to the frontier posting. Will you?"

No hesitation. One after another they spoke up.

"Yes. As long as we can keep doing research under you, so what if the conditions are rough?"

"Right. Staying behind to take Silas's crap would be worse than dying. Andrew, I'm going with you."

"I joined this group for you. Wherever you go, I go."

I looked at them, and the gloom inside me began to lift, bit by bit. I turned and looked toward Winona's office.

Winona, you were wrong.

Not every grown-up thinks only about costs and benefits.

That night I came home.

Silas's voice drifted out from the kitchen.

"Professor Gilbert, you're such a good cook. Andrew's a lucky man. I'm jealous, honestly."

"Stop it. Here, taste the fish, tell me how it turned out."

I reached the kitchen doorway just in time to see Winona lift a piece of fish with her chopsticks and hold it out to Silas's mouth.

The sight cut into me.

Three years of marriage, and Winona had never once been that tender with me.

Silas closed his eyes, chewed twice, then opened them and gushed, "It's incredible, Professor. You could go head to head with any five-star hotel chef."

Winona laughed, pleased. "Really? Let me try."

Without a second thought she picked up more fish with the same chopsticks and put it in her own mouth.

"See? I wasn't exaggerating. Professor, you're... oh. Andrew, you're back."

Only then did Silas seem to notice me.

Winona set her chopsticks down calmly and looked at me, her voice flat. "You're home. Go wash up, dinner's ready."

Silas came out of the kitchen carrying two dishes. As he passed me, his smile was all innocence.

"Andrew, the professor said tonight's basically your farewell dinner, so I begged to come along. You don't mind, do you?"

Before I could answer, Winona said, "What's there to mind? One more person for his send-off just makes it livelier. Otherwise it'd be too quiet with only the two of us."

Silas's smile spread wider at that, and the look he gave me was pure challenge.

I didn't so much as glance at him. I walked into the bathroom, my face blank.

Too quiet?

That wasn't what Winona said when she married me.

She said she didn't like crowds. She said a home was the small, warm harbor of a husband and wife, with no room to dock any other boat.

And now she'd contradicted every word of it herself.

When I came out of the bathroom, Winona and Silas were already seated, close together, closer than any teacher and student ever sat.

"Your seat's over there."

Winona pointed across from her.

I said nothing, walked over, and sat down.

She opened a bottle of red wine and poured for herself and Silas, forgetting me entirely.

It took Silas reminding her before she said, offhand, "Andrew doesn't care for red wine. It's just us."

I don't care for red wine. That doesn't mean I can't drink it.

I didn't say it out loud. There was no point.

Winona clinked glasses with Silas and took a sip, then lifted a piece of fish and dropped it into his bowl.

"If you like it, eat more."

Her tone was gentle, her eyes soft, like a wife doting on her husband.

Silas shot me a look, careless or not, and put on a show of shyness. "Professor, didn't you say this fish is Andrew's favorite? I couldn't take what he loves."

Winona waved it off. "He can't finish it all by himself. Sharing a little with you is nothing. Don't worry about it, just eat."

My chopsticks stopped. I looked at her for a few seconds, then said, my voice rough,

"So this is how you see love? Something that can be shared?"

Winona's brow creased at once. "It's one fish. How did that turn into love? If you've got nothing useful to say, just eat."

I smiled.

One fish doesn't stand for love, no. But your attitude does.

After another sip of wine, Winona turned to me. "Since you haven't handed the projects over to Silas yet, I've decided he'll stay the night. You can transfer everything to him before morning."

Silas's smile was all pretense. "Sorry to put you through it, Andrew. I really didn't want to intrude on your evening alone with the professor, but there's no choice. If the handover isn't finished and you leave tomorrow, the whole group grinds to a halt."

When he said "evening alone," he leaned hard on the words.

Seeing that I hadn't agreed, Winona frowned, then said, "I know those projects are your life's work. But you have to trust Silas."

"He came late, but he catches on well, and he's willing to put in the effort. With me overseeing things, none of your work will go to waste."

She paused, then added, "The frontier posting is hard enough. I don't want you worrying about the projects here on top of it."

Listen past the words.

Every syllable was for my own good, all concern for me, but strung together it meant one thing: stop clinging to the lab's projects and get out clean tomorrow.

I set down my chopsticks, pulled a tissue and wiped my mouth, and said evenly, "Worrying won't be a problem. Because I won't be handing over a single project."

"They're all my life's work. So I'm taking every one of them with me."