Chapter 4
I drove to the old studio at dawn. The building sat on a quiet street in Burbank, brick and peeling paint, the kind of place Finnegan bought years ago and forgot about. He used it once or twice when his main studio flooded. Then he stopped. Too far from the house. Too inconvenient.
I had the key. He kept it on a ring in his desk drawer. I borrowed it three days ago and made a copy at the hardware store on Ventura Boulevard. Cash. No questions.
Inside, the studio smelled like dust and old carpet. Equipment sat under tarps. Cables coiled on the floor like dead snakes. I walked through the control room to the back office. Empty desk. Empty shelves. A window that looked out at a dumpster.
I set the metal file box on the desk. The SD card was still inside. I had checked it twice before I left the house. Once at a red light. Once in the parking lot.
I opened the laptop I bought last week. Another cash purchase. Another gas station on the edge of the valley. I uploaded the dashcam footage to three separate cloud accounts. Different passwords. Different security questions. I wrote the login information in a notebook using a code Jonah and I made up when we were kids. Then I photographed the notebook and deleted the photos from the camera roll but not from the hidden album I created in the settings.
I put the SD card back in the file box and hid the box inside a cabinet behind a stack of old session logs. Then I took out the folder I had been building for two weeks.
Inside were printed screenshots of every file I found in Finnegan's studio. Timestamps. Metadata. Song titles cross-referenced with Melina's discography. I had made a spreadsheet. Dates on one axis. Releases on the other. The pattern was clean. Surgical.
Every original composition I wrote before the accident had surfaced in Melina's catalogue within eighteen months. Some of them note-for-note. Others rebuilt but unmistakable. The bridge from a song I wrote at nineteen about my mother's death. The chorus from a ballad I hummed into my phone at midnight after a fight with an ex-boyfriend. The melody I composed on a piano in a practice room at UCLA.
All of them hers now. All of them platinum.
I added the new documents to the folder. Then I locked it in the cabinet next to the file box.
Before I left, I walked through the studio one more time. I looked at the microphone stand in the corner. The monitors dark and silent. I stood in the center of the room and opened my mouth.
Nothing came out.
I drove home and parked in the driveway. The house looked the same. White. Expensive. Quiet.
Finnegan was in the kitchen when I walked in. He looked up from his coffee and smiled.
"Where'd you go?" he asked.
I held up my phone and showed him the note I had typed. *Couldn't sleep. Went for a drive.*
He nodded. "You okay?"
I smiled and nodded back.
He watched me for a moment. His eyes moved over my face like he was reading something I didn't write. Then he set down his coffee and walked over. He put his hands on my shoulders.
"You seem different lately," he said. His voice was soft. Concerned. "Is something bothering you?"
I shook my head.
He didn't let go. "You know you can tell me anything. Right?"
I nodded.
His thumbs pressed into my shoulders. Not hard. Just enough. "I worry about you," he said. "You carry so much. Jonah. The accident. Everything."
I pulled out my phone and typed. *I'm fine. Just tired.*
He read it and kissed my forehead. "Get some rest," he said. "We have dinner tonight. With Melina and some people from the label."
I nodded again.
He let go and went back to his coffee.
I walked upstairs and sat on the edge of the bed. My phone buzzed. A text from a number I didn't recognize.
*Appointment confirmed for tomorrow at 2pm. Dr. Harlan.*
I stared at the screen. I didn't make an appointment with Dr. Harlan. I hadn't seen him in six months.
I went downstairs. Finnegan was on his laptop at the kitchen table.
"Did you schedule something with Dr. Harlan?" I typed and showed him.
He looked up. "Oh. Yeah. I thought it would be good for you to check in. You've seemed stressed."
*I'm fine.*
"I know," he said. "But it doesn't hurt to talk to someone. He's been so helpful over the years."
I looked at him. He looked back. Calm. Steady. Loving.
"It's just a wellness visit," he said. "Nothing formal. I already cleared it with your insurance."
I nodded slowly.
He smiled. "Good. I'll drive you."
That night we went to dinner at a restaurant in West Hollywood. Exposed brick. Edison bulbs. A private room in the back.
Melina was already there when we arrived. She stood up and hugged me. Her perfume was expensive. Her smile was bright.
"Naomi," she said. "It's so good to see you."
I smiled.
Finnegan pulled out my chair. I sat down between him and Melina. Across the table were three people from the label. I recognized one of them from the album launch party.
The conversation started without me. Industry talk. Numbers. Strategy. Someone mentioned the new single. Someone else mentioned the Grammy nominations.
Melina turned to me. "Finnegan says you've been so supportive through this whole process," she said. "It means a lot."
I nodded.
"The album is so personal," she continued. "Every song comes from a real place. Real emotion. That's what makes it connect, you know?"
I kept nodding.
Finnegan put his hand on my knee under the table. "Naomi understands," he said. "She used to write music herself. Before the accident."
Melina's face shifted into sympathy. "I can't imagine," she said. "Losing your voice like that. It must have been devastating."
I looked at her. She looked back. Her eyes were wide. Sincere.
The restaurant's sound system was playing something soft. Acoustic guitar. A woman's voice.
I knew the chord progression. I wrote it on a napkin in a diner when I was nineteen. The night after my mother's funeral.
The song was called "Bones." Melina released it two years ago. It went platinum.
She was still talking. Something about vulnerability. Something about truth.
I reached for my water glass. My hand was steady.
Finnegan squeezed my knee.
I took a sip and set the glass down.
Across the table, someone laughed.
Melina's ring caught the light. White gold. Three diamonds.
I looked at Finnegan. He was watching me. Smiling.
I smiled back.
Under the table, I pressed my thumbnail into my palm until I felt the skin break.
Chapter 5
I made the account on a Tuesday. A random username. A random profile picture. A blank grid.
I sat in the car outside a coffee shop in Silver Lake and typed the first post into the drafts folder. I didn't publish it. I just needed to see the words outside my head.
*Five years ago I stopped speaking. I thought I was protecting someone I loved. I was wrong.*
I deleted it. Wrote it again. Deleted it again.
Then I started uploading screenshots. The surveillance app Finnegan installed on my phone three years ago. The one he said was for emergencies. For my safety. I had found it six months ago when my phone started dying too fast. I didn't confront him. I just started backing everything up to a separate cloud account he didn't know about.
Every text I sent. Every location I visited. Every call I made.
All of it logged. All of it watched.
I uploaded the screenshots to the drafts folder and wrote captions I didn't publish.
*This is what control looks like.*
*This is what love isn't.*
I added more. The pattern of Jonah's payments. The correlation between my questions and my brother's bills. I made a graphic. Clean. Simple. Dates on one side. Delays on the other. The pattern was a noose.
I wrote the caption: *He used my brother's spine as a leash.*
I didn't publish that either.
I just needed to build it. Brick by brick. Word by word. Until I knew exactly what I had.
Then I opened a new note and typed a single sentence.
*He kept the footage. Did you know?*
I saved it. Closed the app. Started the car.
When I got home, Finnegan was in the living room. He looked up when I walked in. His face was soft. Concerned.
"Hey," he said. "Can we talk?"
I nodded and sat down on the couch. He sat next to me. Close but not touching.
"You've seemed disconnected lately," he said. His voice was quiet. Careful. "I'm worried about you."
I pulled out my phone and typed. *I'm fine.*
"Are you?" He leaned forward. His elbows on his knees. His hands clasped. "Because you seem different. Distant. Like you're somewhere else."
I looked at him. He looked back. His eyes were searching my face.
"I think it would be good for us to see Dr. Harlan together," he said. "Just to talk. Just to make sure we're okay."
*We're okay,* I typed.
"I know," he said. "But I want to make sure. I want to protect you."
He signed it. Slow. Deliberate. *I only want to protect you.*
I signed back. *I know.*
He smiled. Relieved. He reached over and took my hand.
I let him.
Under the table, my other hand was a fist. Nails digging into my palm.
"Thank you," he said. "For trusting me."
I nodded.
He kissed my forehead and stood up. "I have a session tonight. I'll be back late."
I watched him leave. Watched him pick up his keys. Watched him walk out the door.
Then I went upstairs and opened the burner tablet. I pulled up the note I had written.
*He kept the footage. Did you know?*
I found Melina's address. Public record. Easy.
I printed the note on plain paper. No signature. No return address.
I drove to a post office in Glendale and mailed it.
Then I went home and made dinner.
Melina got the note on Thursday. I know because Finnegan's mood changed on Friday.
He was quieter. Sharper. He checked his phone more. He took calls in the other room.
On Saturday he told me he had to go to the studio. The old one. In Burbank. He said he needed to pick up some equipment.
I nodded.
He left at noon.
I waited an hour. Then I drove to the studio.
I parked down the street and walked. The building looked the same. Brick. Peeling paint. The dumpster still overflowing.
I unlocked the door and stepped inside.
The air was different. Disturbed.
Someone had been here.
I walked through the control room. The tarps were still in place. The cables still coiled on the floor.
But the back office door was open.
I had closed it last time. I was sure.
I walked in slowly. The desk was empty. The window still looked out at the dumpster.
I opened the cabinet.
The file box was there. The folder was there.
I pulled out the SD card and checked it. Still intact.
But the dust on the cabinet shelf had been wiped clean.
I stood very still.
Someone had been here. Someone had opened this cabinet. Someone had looked.
I put the SD card in my pocket. I put the folder under my arm.
I turned to leave.
That's when I smelled it.
Gasoline.
Faint. Recent.
I walked back through the control room. The smell was stronger near the door.
I looked down.
There was a wet line on the floor. Leading from the door to the hallway. To the back exit.
I followed it.
The back door was propped open with a brick. The deadbolt had been flipped.
From the inside.
I stepped outside. The alley was empty. A car engine started somewhere close. I couldn't see it.
I went back inside and locked the door behind me. I walked to the front.
That's when I heard the click.
Metal on metal.
I turned.
The front door was closing. Slowly. Deliberately.
I ran.
The door slammed shut.
I grabbed the handle. Locked.
I pulled. Nothing.
I looked through the window.
Melina stood on the sidewalk. She was holding a red gas can. She set it down. She pulled out a lighter.
Our eyes met through the glass.
She didn't smile. She didn't frown.
She just flicked the lighter.
And dropped it.