Chapter 4
Araceli called him that night.
I pictured it later—Dante in the Brooklyn brownstone, my coat still on the hook, my coffee mug still on the shelf. His phone lighting up with her name.
"She set me up," Araceli would have said. Voice shaking just right. "Elliott threatened me in front of everyone. Juliet just sat there and let him do it. They wanted to humiliate me."
I didn't know what Dante said back. Didn't need to. I knew him well enough to fill in the gaps. He would have believed her. Not because the story made sense, but because believing her was easier than believing what Elliott had actually said. What he'd actually seen.
My phone buzzed at eight-thirty that evening. Unknown number, but I recognized the pattern. He'd gotten a new phone. Or maybe he'd been using this one all along and finally decided to try it.
Three lines of text:
*I'm sorry for what happened at the meeting. I need to talk to you. I know you're not really happy.*
I read it twice. Then I handed the phone to Elliott.
He read it once. His jaw tightened, but his voice stayed quiet. "What do you want to do?"
"Forward it to Margaret," I said. "Add it to the file."
He typed the message, sent it, then set my phone face-down on the kitchen counter.
"You're not going to reply," he said. Not a question.
"No."
He pulled me close, one hand settling at the small of my back, the other resting gently over where the twins were. I leaned into him and closed my eyes.
Dante's message sat unanswered in my phone. I deleted it the next morning.
The appointment was Tuesday at ten. Mount Sinai, fourth floor, Dr. Patel's office. Standard checkup. Routine ultrasound. Elliott had blocked the whole morning on his calendar.
We took a cab because the subway stairs made me nervous now. Elliott held the door, kept his hand on my elbow as we walked through the lobby. The waiting room was bright and clean, full of women in various stages of pregnancy and the people who'd come with them.
I checked in at the desk. The receptionist smiled and handed me a clipboard. We sat near the windows, Elliott's knee pressed against mine.
I didn't see Dante.
He was there, though. I found out later—much later—that he'd followed us from the apartment. Stayed three cars back in traffic. Walked into the building two minutes after we did. Sat in the public waiting area on the other side of the glass partition, half-hidden behind a man reading a newspaper.
Watching.
"Juliet Armstrong?"
The nurse stood in the doorway, chart in hand. I stood. Elliott stood with me, his hand finding mine automatically.
The examination room was small and warm. I changed into the gown, lay back on the table. Elliott sat in the chair beside me, fingers laced through mine.
Dr. Patel came in, smiled, asked how I was feeling. I answered. Good. Tired. The usual.
She squeezed the gel onto my stomach. Cold. I flinched. Elliott's thumb moved across my knuckles, a small steady rhythm.
The screen flickered to life.
Two shapes. Curved spines. Tiny hands. Hearts beating fast and strong, the sound filling the room like distant thunder.
"Both looking perfect," Dr. Patel said.
Elliott leaned forward. He pressed his lips to my forehead, lingering there, his breath warm against my skin. I closed my eyes.
I didn't hear the door open.
But I felt the air change. Felt Elliott go still.
I opened my eyes and turned my head.
Dante stood in the doorway. Face pale. Eyes too bright. Staring at the screen like it was something he couldn't process.
"Sir," Dr. Patel said, standing. "This is a private examination. You need to leave."
Dante didn't move. His gaze shifted to me, then to Elliott, then back to the screen.
Elliott stood. He didn't raise his voice. Didn't touch Dante. Just stepped between him and the examination table, his body a wall.
"You need to leave," Elliott said. "Now."
"I just—" Dante's voice cracked. "I needed to see—"
"You have no right to be here." Elliott's tone stayed level, but something underneath it had gone cold. "You have no right to her medical information. You have no right to this room."
Dr. Patel pressed the call button on the wall. "Security is on the way."
Dante looked at me one more time. I met his eyes and said nothing.
Two security guards arrived. They spoke to Dante in low voices. He didn't resist. Just turned and walked out between them, shoulders hunched like something had broken inside his chest.
The door closed.
Dr. Patel exhaled. "Are you okay?"
I nodded. My hands were steady. The twins kicked, a small flutter under my ribs.
Elliott sat back down. His hand found mine again.
"Let's finish the exam," I said.
Later, Margaret told me that Dante stood on the sidewalk outside Mount Sinai for forty minutes. Just stood there in the cold, staring at the building entrance, until a cab finally stopped and he got in.
I didn't see him leave.
I was already upstairs, listening to my children's heartbeats, Elliott's hand warm in mine.
Chapter 5
The brownstone looked the same as always. Same brick. Same steps. Same door that stuck a little when you turned the key.
Dante let himself in and stood in the foyer. Dark outside. Dark inside. He didn't turn on the lights.
He moved through the rooms by memory. Kitchen first. Her mug on the third shelf, handle facing out. He'd washed it once, three years ago, then put it back and never touched it again. The coat closet. Her winter coat on the second hook, navy wool with the torn pocket she'd kept meaning to fix. Upstairs. The bathroom. Her shampoo bottle in the shower, maybe a quarter full. He'd bought the same brand twice, kept the new bottle under the sink. Just in case.
He walked into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed. His side. The sheets were clean. He washed them every two weeks. Kept everything exactly how it was.
Except it wasn't how it was. It was how it looked. There was a difference. He was starting to understand that.
His eyes went to the wedding photo on the wall. Silver frame. Her in white. Him in charcoal. Both of them smiling like they believed it.
He stood and crossed to the frame. Lifted it off the nail. It was heavier than he remembered.
He turned it over. The backing was cardboard, held in place with small metal tabs. He pressed one tab up. Then another. The backing came loose.
Something slid out and hit the floor.
A journal. Small. Leather. Dark blue.
He picked it up. The cover was soft, worn at the edges. He opened it.
Her handwriting. Careful. Slanted slightly to the right.
*March 14th*
*He asked me again today why I don't get jealous when he talks about Araceli. I told him I do. He said I don't show it enough. He said if I really loved him, I'd be more upset. So tonight when she texted him, I threw his phone across the room. I've never done that before. He looked at me like I'd finally said something true.*
Dante's throat went tight.
*April 2nd*
*I'm so tired. He keeps testing. I keep performing. Last night I told him I couldn't handle him seeing her for coffee. I said it made me feel crazy. I wasn't lying about feeling crazy—I am. But not because of her. Because I'm trying so hard to be the version of me he says he needs, and I don't know who I am anymore underneath it.*
He flipped forward. Page after page. Entries documenting every fight, every manufactured scene, every calculated moment of possessiveness.
*May 18th*
*He said he needs to know I'll fight for him. So I fought. I yelled. I cried. I told him I couldn't breathe when he wasn't here. He held me after and said, 'This is what love looks like.' I didn't tell him I'd rehearsed the whole thing in the car on the way home from work.*
Dante sat down on the floor. The journal open in his lap.
*June 9th*
*I think I'm pregnant. I haven't taken a test yet. I'm afraid to know. If I am, maybe it will fix this. Maybe he'll stop needing me to prove things. Maybe we can just be real.*
*June 11th*
*I am. Eight weeks. I'm going to tell him tonight.*
The next entry was the last one.
*June 11th—later*
*He's leaving again. Going to her place because she called crying about something. I asked him to stay. I asked him to just stand still for five minutes so I could tell him something important. He said we'd talk when he got back. I grabbed the knife off the counter. Not to hurt him. Not to hurt anyone. Just to make him stop moving long enough to hear me say I'm pregnant. I thought if he knew about the baby, everything would be different. I thought a child would give him something real to hold onto. I am so tired of performing. I just want to be real with him.*
Dante's hands were shaking.
He read it again. Then again.
She'd been pregnant. She'd been trying to tell him. She'd grabbed the knife to make him stop walking away.
And he'd had her committed the next morning.
He pressed his palms against his eyes. The journal slid off his lap onto the floor.
He didn't move for a long time.
When he finally stood, his legs felt unsteady. He left the journal on the floor. Left the frame face-down on the bed. Walked downstairs and out to his car.
He sat in the driver's seat and pulled out his phone.
Araceli answered on the second ring. "Dante. Hi."
"I need to ask you something," he said.
"Of course."
"The night before I had Juliet committed. What do you remember?"
A pause. Small. Precise. "I remember you called me. You were upset. You said she'd threatened you with a knife."
"What else?"
"You asked what you should do. I said you needed to protect yourself. That she wasn't safe."
Her voice was smooth. Symmetrical. Every word in exactly the right place.
"Did you ever visit her?" he asked. "At the facility?"
Another pause. "I sent flowers."
"That's not what I asked."
"I wanted to give you both privacy. It felt like the right thing."
"You never went."
"No. I thought—"
"Did you call? Check on her? Ask how she was?"
"Dante, I don't understand why—"
"Answer the question."
Silence.
"No," she said finally. "I didn't."
He hung up.
He sat in the car outside the brownstone and stared at the dark windows. Tried to see the last three years from Juliet's perspective instead of his own.
She'd been pregnant. She'd grabbed the knife to make him listen. He'd signed the papers without visiting her. Without calling. Without checking if she was safe.
And Araceli had never once asked how Juliet was.
He started the engine.
He needed to know what happened inside that facility. He needed to know everything.