Naya came to see Harlan the next day. I heard them in the living room while I was in the kitchen, pretending to make tea I had no intention of drinking. Her voice carried through the apartment, soft and wounded.

"I didn't want to say anything," she was saying. "I know you care about her. But Harlan, it's been going on for months."

"What has?"

"The things she says to me. When you're not around. Little comments. About my clothes. About how much time we spend together. She called me a leech once. Said I was pathetic for always hanging around you."

I set the kettle down. My hand was steady.

"At the boutique," Naya continued, "I think she just snapped. I don't know. Maybe she's jealous. Maybe she thinks I'm trying to take you away from her. But Harlan, I'm scared of her now. The way she looked at me before she pushed me—"

"She said she didn't push you."

"I know. And maybe she doesn't even remember doing it. Maybe she's convinced herself it didn't happen. But my wrist still hurts."

There was a pause. I pressed my thumb against the inside of my other wrist. Breathed.

"I believe you," Harlan said.

I walked into the living room. They both looked up. Naya's face was pale, her eyes red-rimmed. Harlan stood beside the couch, hands in his pockets, jaw tight.

"You're lying," I said to Naya.

She flinched like I'd raised a hand to her. "Harlan—"

"Winnie." His voice was cold. Flat. "You need to apologize."

I looked at him. "For what? For something I didn't do? For things I never said?"

"You're going to apologize to her. On your knees. Or we're done."

I almost laughed. Almost. "You want me to kneel."

"I want you to take responsibility."

"For a lie."

"For what you did."

I stared at him. At the man who used to walk me home in the rain. Who used to bring me coffee during finals. Who punched someone once for calling me a name I don't even remember anymore.

"No," I said.

He pulled out his phone. Tapped the screen. Held it up so I could see. A text thread with someone whose name I didn't recognize.

"Your friend Chloe," he said. "Works at Steinberg & Associates, right? Junior associate. Up for partner track next year."

My stomach dropped.

"One phone call," Harlan continued, his tone almost conversational. "My father knows three people on their board. She'll be blacklisted from every firm in the city by Monday. She'll never work in corporate law again."

"You wouldn't."

"Try me."

I looked at Naya. She was watching me now, no tears, just waiting. Her mouth curved at the corner. Barely. Just enough.

Five days left. That's what I thought, standing there. Five more days and Kingsley would come. Five more days and I would never have to see this apartment or these people again. I could hold on. I could survive five more days of anything.

But Chloe couldn't. Chloe, who had worked seventy-hour weeks for three years to claw her way up from nothing. Who had student loans that would bury her if she lost this job. Who had no idea she was being used as leverage in someone else's nightmare.

"Fine," I said.

Harlan lowered the phone. "What?"

"I'll apologize."

Naya sat up straighter on the couch, smoothing her skirt. She crossed her legs. Folded her hands in her lap. Waited.

I walked across the living room. My legs felt far away. Like I was watching myself from the ceiling. I stopped in front of the couch. In front of her.

Harlan moved to stand behind her. Arms folded. Supervising.

"Kneel," he said.

I looked at him one more time. At his face. I wanted to memorize it. This version of him. The one I would need to remember every time some small, stupid part of me tried to soften toward the memory of who he used to be.

Then I knelt.

The hardwood was cold through my jeans. Naya's shoes were inches from my knees. Expensive. Cream-colored. Not a scuff on them.

"I'm sorry," I said. My voice came out flat. Empty. Like someone reading words off a card. "I'm sorry for pushing you. I'm sorry for the things I said. It won't happen again."

Naya tilted her head, studying me. "Do you mean it?"

I looked up at her. "Yes."

She smiled. Just a little. Just enough. "Okay. I forgive you."

I stood. My knees ached. I didn't look at Harlan. I walked past him, past both of them, into the bedroom. I closed the door. Locked it. Sat on the edge of the bed.

My phone was in my pocket. I pulled it out. Opened my messages. Stared at Kingsley's name.

Five days. I could last five days.

From the living room, I heard Harlan's voice, low and pleased. "See? That wasn't so hard."

And Naya laughed.

Harlan waited until Naya left before he said it.

He sat down across from me, elbows on his knees, like he was about to hand me a gift. "You did good today," he said. "I'm proud of you."

I didn't answer.

"So here's what I'm thinking." He smiled, the kind of smile that expected applause. "We get married in three days."

I looked up. "Three days."

"Why wait? You've been ready for years, right? Isn't that the whole point of your little confessions?" He said it like he was doing me a favor. Like he was tossing a bone to a dog that had finally learned to sit. "My parents can pull together the Hamptons house. Small guest list. We can have it done before the end of the month."

I thought about Kingsley. Five days, then four, then three. Three days meant Kingsley would already be close. Close enough.

"Okay," I said.

Harlan blinked, like he'd expected more of a fight, or more gratitude. He settled for satisfaction instead. "Good. That's good, Winnie."

That night, after he fell asleep, I got out my journal from the bottom of my drawer and opened it to a fresh page. Ninety-eight entries before this one. I wrote the date. Then, underneath it, just one line.

*Tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll make him see.*

I didn't know yet what that meant. I only knew I needed to write it down.

The gala was the night before the wedding, out in the Hamptons, in a ballroom with floor-to-ceiling windows facing the ocean. Waiters moved through the crowd with trays of champagne. String quartet in the corner. Everyone dressed like money, because they were.

Harlan kept a hand at the small of my back the whole night, steering me from cluster to cluster like I was a prize he was walking around the room. I let him. I was watching everything else instead — the way silver spoons caught the light, the way certain women's diamonds were old-cut instead of new, the particular hush that fell over a room when someone with real power walked into it.

A sommelier was pouring for a small group near the bar, frowning at a bottle he'd just opened. "I can't place the vintage," he admitted to the man beside him. "The label's damaged."

I glanced at the glass in his hand without thinking. "It's a '96 Pétrus," I said. "You can tell from the color at the rim — that brick tone only shows up after about twenty-five years. And the nose has that tobacco note they were known for that vintage."

The sommelier stared at me. Then he laughed, delighted. "You have a trained palate."

"Something like that," I said.

A circle of older guests had drifted closer, curious. I found myself talking about wine, then about a foundation someone mentioned, then about a painting hanging near the bar that turned out to be a minor Sargent. I didn't decide to do any of it. It just came out of me, the way breathing does, muscle memory from a life I'd spent three years pretending I'd never lived.

Harlan watched from a few feet away, a drink in his hand, looking pleased with himself.

A silver-haired man detached from the group and came to stand beside him. I recognized the type before I even heard his voice — old money, the kind that doesn't need to raise it. "Martin's boy," he said, extending a hand to Harlan. "Your fiancée has extraordinary breeding. Where did you find her?"

Harlan's chest actually puffed. "She's full of surprises," he said, and I watched him decide, right there, what story he wanted to believe. That I'd studied hard. Crammed vintages and painters into my head like vocabulary words, all to make him look good in a room like this. It never once crossed his mind that I might have grown up in rooms like this. That I might have been born into one.

I didn't correct him. I just smiled the smile I'd learned to wear for three years, and let him have his story.

Across the room, Mrs. Crawford stood near the windows with a glass of champagne she wasn't drinking. I felt her eyes on me before I found them. She was watching the way I held my fork. The way I hadn't once glanced down to see which one to use. The way I'd corrected a sommelier without raising my voice, without seeming to notice I'd done anything unusual at all.

Something crossed her face. A flicker. Small, quick, gone almost before it arrived — the look of a woman doing arithmetic that doesn't add up.

Then she turned away, back toward her own circle, back toward the version of me she'd already decided on three years ago. An orphan. A nobody. A girl who'd gotten lucky and was trying very hard not to embarrass herself.

She never looked at me that closely again.

I watched her go and thought, not for the first time, that people only see what they've already decided to see. Even when the truth is standing three feet away, holding a glass of wine older than their marriage, and none of them notice at all.

Tomorrow I would be married. Tomorrow, or the day after, Kingsley would be close enough to reach.

I just had to last that long.