Chapter 1

I sat at the dining table with three hundred envelopes spread out in front of me. The stamps were on. The guest list was final. I had been working on this moment for three years—longer, if I counted the mood board I started before Killian even proposed. I ran my thumb over the top envelope. Mr. and Mrs. Killian Morgan. My new name. My future.

Killian poured himself a drink at the bar cart. Scotch. Neat. He didn't usually drink on weeknights. I looked up at him and smiled. "Almost done," I said. "Just need to seal these and drop them at the post office tomorrow."

He nodded. He didn't smile back. He carried his glass to the table and sat down across from me. The light from the pendant lamp made his face look tired. He set the glass down carefully, like he was placing something fragile.

"Aviana," he said. "We need to talk."

I felt something cold move through my chest. Those words. No one ever said those words before good news. I put down the envelope I was holding. "Okay," I said quietly. "What's wrong?"

He looked at me for a long moment. Then he said, very calmly, "I have a wife."

I blinked. I didn't understand. "What?"

"A legal wife," he said. "In North Carolina. Her name is Selena Barnes. We got married when I was twenty-three. It was a family thing. Pressure. You know how those old-money families are."

I stared at him. The words were in English. I understood each one individually. But together they didn't make sense. "You're married," I said slowly.

"On paper," he said. "It doesn't mean anything. I left North Carolina right after. I built my life here. I built my life with you. But legally, yes. I never got it dissolved."

I felt like the floor had opened up under my chair. Six years. We had been together for six years. We lived together. We planned a wedding. I had addressed three hundred invitations with our names on them. And the entire time, he had a wife.

"You lied to me," I whispered.

"I didn't lie," he said. "I just didn't tell you. It's not the same thing."

I stood up. My legs felt weak. "You didn't tell me you were married, Killian. For six years. That's lying."

He sighed. He rubbed the back of his neck. "I know this is a shock. But we can handle it. We keep it quiet. No one in New York knows about Selena. We go ahead with the wedding. Everything stays the same."

I looked at him. Really looked at him. He wasn't apologizing. He was negotiating. He thought this was something we could just manage. Like a scheduling conflict.

"Everything stays the same?" I repeated. My voice cracked. "Killian, you have a wife."

"A wife I don't see. A wife I don't love. A legal formality I should have dealt with years ago." He leaned forward. "Aviana, I love you. That's real. This thing with Selena—it's paperwork. That's all it is."

I felt something break inside me. Not loudly. Quietly. Like ice cracking under weight. I turned and walked to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me. I sat on the edge of the tub and put my face in my hands.

I didn't cry. I couldn't. I just sat there, breathing, trying to understand how my entire life had just collapsed in the space of five minutes.

Then I remembered. The pregnancy test. I had bought it two weeks ago and shoved it in the back of the cabinet. I had been too scared to take it. Too scared of what it might mean. Now I pulled it out with shaking hands. I tore open the box. I took the test.

I sat on the cold tile floor and waited. Three minutes. The longest three minutes of my life. When I looked down, there were two lines. Clear. Unmistakable. Positive.

I was pregnant. With the baby of a man who had just told me he had a wife.

I sat there holding the test. I couldn't move. I couldn't think. I just stared at those two lines and felt the world shrink down to nothing.

Three days later, my phone rang while I was at work. It was Dr. Patel. My mother's oncologist. I stepped out of the office and took the call in the stairwell.

"Aviana," she said gently. "I'm calling about your mother's recent scans."

I gripped the railing. "What did they show?"

"Stage IV pancreatic cancer. Advanced. Aggressive. I'm so sorry."

I felt my knees go weak. "How long?"

"Four to eight weeks. Maybe less."

I drove to my mother's apartment. I didn't remember the drive. I just remember standing at her door, knocking, and then she opened it and she was dressed neatly, hair brushed, standing straight. She smiled at me. A small, tired smile.

"I know," she said quietly. "Dr. Patel called me first."

I stepped inside. I wanted to hold her. I wanted to fall apart. But she was so calm. So steady. She sat down at the kitchen table and folded her hands.

"I just need to see you walk down that aisle, baby," she said. Her voice was soft but firm. "That's all I need. I need to see you marry Killian. I need to know you're going to be happy."

I felt something twist in my chest. She didn't know. She didn't know about Selena. She didn't know about the lie I had been living. And I couldn't tell her. Not now. Not when she had weeks left and this was the only thing she wanted.

I swallowed hard. I nodded. "Okay," I whispered. "Okay, Mom."

That night, I went back to the apartment. Killian was in the living room. I stood in the doorway and looked at him. He looked up at me, waiting.

"I'll do it," I said. My voice was steady. Flat. "I'll go through with the wedding."

Relief flooded his face. "Aviana, thank you. I promise—"

"I'm not doing it for you," I said quietly. "I'm doing it for my mother."

I turned and walked to the bedroom. I closed the door behind me. I sat on the edge of the bed and pressed my hands together to stop them from shaking. I didn't cry. I didn't scream. I just sat there in the dark, feeling the weight of everything I was carrying, and wondering how much longer I could hold it before it crushed me completely.

Chapter 2

The flight to North Carolina was two hours. I spent it staring at the seat-back screen without seeing anything. Killian had booked the ticket. He said it was important. He said I needed to "properly understand the situation" before the wedding. He made it sound reasonable. Like a business meeting.

I rented a car at the airport. The address he gave me was in a neighborhood with old trees and wide lawns. Big houses set back from the road. The kind of place where families had names instead of just money. I parked in front of a white colonial with black shutters. Everything about it looked perfect. Maintained. Controlled.

I walked up the brick path and rang the bell. The door opened. Selena Barnes stood there in a cream cashmere sweater and tailored slacks. She was smaller than I expected. Delicate features. Dark hair pulled back neatly. She smiled at me. A soft, practiced smile.

"Aviana," she said warmly. "Please, come in."

The house smelled like lavender and lemon polish. The furniture was antique. The kind you inherit, not buy. She led me to a sitting room with pale blue walls and poured tea from a china pot into matching cups. She handed me one. Her nails were perfectly manicured.

"Killian will be here soon," she said. "He's just finishing a call."

I nodded. I held the teacup but didn't drink. I didn't trust my hands not to shake.

She sat across from me and folded her hands in her lap. "I know this must be difficult for you," she said gently. "But I think it's good we're meeting. It's important we understand each other."

"I'm not sure what there is to understand," I said quietly. "You're his wife. I didn't know."

"Well, now you do." Her voice was still soft. Still kind. But something in her eyes had changed. "And we can all move forward like adults."

I heard a door open somewhere in the house. Footsteps. Killian's voice on the phone, low and businesslike. Selena glanced toward the hallway. Then she leaned forward. The softness dropped from her face like a mask coming off.

"Let me be clear," she said. Her voice was quiet. Precise. "You've been playing house in his apartment for six years, sweetheart. I've been his wife the whole time. Legally. Financially. In every way that actually matters. You're the other woman in your own love story. And if you think a wedding ceremony in Manhattan is going to change that, you're even more naive than I thought."

I stared at her. My chest felt tight. I opened my mouth but nothing came out.

She sat back. The soft smile returned. She picked up her teacup just as Killian walked into the room.

"Sorry about that," he said. He kissed the top of Selena's head absently and sat down beside her. "Work emergency. You know how it is."

I looked at him. Then at her. She was sipping her tea like we'd been discussing the weather.

"Killian," I said. My voice sounded strange. Thin. "She just—"

"She just what?" Selena's eyes widened. Concerned. Innocent. "I was just telling Aviana how glad I am that we can all handle this maturely."

Killian looked at me. "Aviana, I know this is a lot. But Selena's been incredibly gracious about everything. I need you to meet her halfway here."

I felt something cold settle in my stomach. "Meet her halfway?"

"This is a complicated adult situation," he said. He rubbed the back of his neck. "We all need to be reasonable."

I stood up. The teacup rattled when I set it down. "I need some air."

I walked out of the room. Down the hall. Out the front door. I stood on the brick path and pressed my hands against my thighs to stop them from shaking. I heard the door open behind me.

"Aviana." Killian's voice. Tired. Irritated. "You're being emotional."

I turned around. He was standing on the porch with his hands in his pockets. Selena was visible through the window behind him, watching.

"I'm being emotional," I repeated.

"Yes. You are. I asked you to come here so we could all be on the same page. Selena is trying. I need you to try too."

I looked at him for a long moment. At the man I had loved for six years. The man I had built my entire future around. And I understood, with perfect clarity, that he would never choose me. Not when it cost him something. Not when it required him to actually stand up to someone. Not ever.

"I'm leaving," I said.

I got in the rental car and drove back to the airport. I didn't cry. I didn't call anyone. I just drove. And the whole way, I felt something inside me harden. Something that had been soft and trusting and open. It closed. Locked. And I knew it would never open again.

Back in Manhattan, the wedding preparations kept moving. Flowers. Music. Seating charts. My mother called every day to ask about details. Her voice was getting weaker. I could hear it.

Two weeks before the wedding, I took her to the bridal boutique for a dress fitting. She had lost weight. Her clothes hung loose. But she smiled when she saw me step out in the gown. A real smile. The kind that reached her eyes.

"Oh, baby," she whispered. "You look beautiful."

The seamstress pinned the hem. My mother stood beside me in the mirror. She reached up and smoothed my hair back from my face. The gesture she had made my whole life.

"Your father would have been a fool to miss this," she said softly.

I looked at her reflection. At the woman who had raised me alone. Who had sacrificed everything. Who had weeks left and only wanted this one thing.

I smiled. I squeezed her hand. I said nothing about the lie we were both walking toward.

Because what else could I do?

Chapter 3

Diana Cho cornered me after the bridesmaid dinner. The restaurant had cleared out—Megan and Sarah left together, laughing about something I hadn't heard—and Diana stayed. She sat across from me at the empty table, still holding her wine glass, and just looked at me.

"What?" I said. I tried to smile.

"You tell me," she said.

I straightened a fork on the tablecloth. Lined it up with the edge of my plate. "I don't know what you mean."

"Aviana." Her voice was quiet. Careful. "I've known you since sophomore year. I know what you look like when you're happy. And I know what you look like when you're pretending."

I felt something tighten in my chest. I kept my eyes on the fork. "I'm just tired. The planning has been—"

"Is everything okay with Killian?"

My hand stopped moving. I looked up at her. She was watching me the way she always did when she thought I was lying. That steady, patient look that said she would wait as long as it took for the truth.

I opened my mouth. The words were right there. He has a wife. I'm pregnant. My mother is dying. I'm walking toward an altar built on a lie and I don't know how to stop. But if I said them out loud, they would become real. And I couldn't make them real. Not yet. Not when my mother had two weeks left and this was the only thing holding her here.

I closed my mouth. I laughed. It sounded thin even to me. "Diana, I'm fine. Really. It's just been a lot. You know how weddings are."

She didn't look convinced. She set down her wine glass and leaned forward. "If something's wrong, you can tell me. You know that, right?"

"I know." I reached across the table and squeezed her hand. "I promise. Everything's fine."

She held my gaze for another long moment. Then she nodded slowly. "Okay," she said. "But I'm here. If you need me."

"I know," I said again.

She left. I sat alone at the table for twenty minutes after she was gone. I didn't move. I just sat there, feeling the weight of everything I hadn't said, and understanding that I could never let it slip again. Not to Diana. Not to anyone. Because the moment I said it out loud, the whole thing would collapse. And I couldn't let it collapse. Not until my mother had seen what she needed to see.

I straightened the fork one more time. Then I stood up and walked out.

The morning of the wedding, I woke up at five. I hadn't slept. I'd been lying in the dark, staring at the ceiling, counting hours. The venue was booked. The flowers were arranged. Three hundred guests had confirmed. My dress was hanging in the bridal suite. Everything was ready.

I got up. I showered. I put on the robe the bridesmaids had given me—white silk with "Bride" embroidered on the back in gold thread. I looked at myself in the mirror. My face looked pale. Hollow. I put on makeup to fix it.

My mother arrived at the venue at seven. I heard her voice in the hallway before I saw her. Quiet. Steady. She was talking to someone—maybe the coordinator—giving instructions about something. She sounded exactly like herself. Like she wasn't dying. Like this was just a normal day.

The door opened. She stepped inside. She was wearing the dress she'd chosen two months ago—pale blue, carefully pressed, with a delicate beaded collar. She had lost more weight since the fitting. The dress hung a little loose at the shoulders. But she stood straight. She refused the arm the coordinator offered and walked to me on her own.

She stopped in front of me. She looked at me for a long moment. Then she reached up and cupped my face in both hands. Her palms were warm. Soft. I felt the slight tremor in her fingers.

"You look exactly the way I always imagined," she said softly.

I felt something crack inside my chest. I covered her hands with mine and held them against my cheeks. I memorized the warmth of them. The weight. The way her thumbs brushed gently across my cheekbones. I knew, with absolute certainty, that this was the last private moment we would ever have. Just the two of us. Before everything shattered.

"I love you, Mom," I whispered.

"I love you too, baby." Her eyes were bright. She smiled. "Now let's get you married."

She stepped back. She smoothed the front of her dress. She turned toward the door, and I watched her walk out into the hallway, moving carefully, her head held high.

I stood alone in the bridal suite. The dress was behind me. The veil was laid out on the chair. In three hours, I would walk down an aisle toward a man who had lied to me for six years. I would stand in front of three hundred people and pretend everything was fine. I would do it because my mother was dying and this was the only thing she wanted.

I pressed my hands together to stop them from shaking.

Then I turned around and started getting ready.

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