Chapter 1
I held the garment bag against my hip and smiled at the thought of Joaquin's face when he opened it. Brooks Brothers. Custom tailoring. The dark blue shirt with the subtle herringbone weave he'd mentioned wanting three months ago. I remembered everything he said. I always did.
Fifth Avenue was bright and cold. The kind of October afternoon that made the city look like it was posing for postcards. I walked past Tiffany's without looking at the windows. We'd been inside once, two years ago, when Joaquin promised me a ring with our initials engraved where no one else could see them. J.R. & C.P. A secret between us and the metal.
The suit boutique was just ahead. Joaquin had mentioned stopping by today for a final fitting. I thought I'd leave the shirt with the staff. A surprise for later. Maybe tonight we'd finally talk about the engagement party without him changing the subject.
I pushed through the door. The air inside smelled like wool and expensive leather. A sales associate glanced up, but I waved her off and moved toward the back where the private fitting rooms were.
That's when I saw them.
Joaquin stood behind a woman with long dark hair. His hands were at her throat. Not violently. Slowly. Carefully. The way you touch something fragile. He was fastening a necklace, his fingers working the clasp with the same unhurried precision I'd seen a hundred times before. The same way he used to fasten mine.
The woman turned her head slightly and laughed. Kennedi Carlson. Professor Carlson's daughter. The girl Joaquin had been "helping through her grief" for the past eight months.
I stood there holding the garment bag. My hand went numb around the hanger.
Joaquin said something I couldn't hear. Kennedi tilted her chin up and smiled. Then she lifted her left hand to touch the necklace, and that's when I saw it.
The ring.
Emerald-cut diamond. Platinum band. The exact ring Joaquin had shown me in the Tiffany catalog two years ago. The one he said was being resized. The one that was supposed to have our initials inside.
It sat on Kennedi's finger like it had always belonged there.
I set the garment bag on the nearest counter. My hands were steady. I didn't cry. I didn't make a sound. I just walked out.
Fifth Avenue looked the same. Bright. Cold. Posing.
I stood on the sidewalk and pressed my thumb hard against the inside of my left ring finger. The spot where a ring should have been. Where I'd been telling myself a ring would be, once Joaquin stopped postponing, once he finished helping Kennedi, once things settled down.
A cab stopped when I raised my hand. I got in and gave the driver our address. The whole ride home, I kept pressing my thumb into that empty space until it hurt.
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Joaquin came home just after eight. He set his keys in the bowl by the door and smiled when he saw me on the couch.
"Hey," he said. "Long day. You eat yet?"
I looked at him. "I saw you today."
His smile didn't move. "Yeah? Where?"
"The boutique. With Kennedi."
He exhaled and sat down across from me. Not beside me. Across. "Celeste—"
"She was wearing the ring."
He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, hands clasped. The posture of a man preparing to be reasonable. "It's not what you think."
"Then tell me what it is."
"Professor Carlson asked me to look after her. You know that. He was dying, and he asked me to make sure she didn't fall apart. She's fragile right now. The ring—" He paused. Straightened his cufflinks. "It's temporary. Just something to help her feel stable. It doesn't mean anything."
"It was supposed to be mine."
"And it will be. When the time is right."
"When is that, Joaquin? We've postponed the engagement party three times."
His jaw tightened. "I have obligations. You of all people should understand what it means to owe someone your life."
The words hit exactly where he aimed them. The old wound. The one he'd healed once. The one that made me feel like I owed him everything.
I swallowed. Looked down at my hands.
"I'm not overreacting," I said quietly.
"I didn't say you were."
But his tone said it. His posture said it. The way he was already standing up, already moving toward the kitchen, already done with the conversation.
That night I lay beside him in the dark. My hand pressed flat against my sternum. I could feel my heartbeat under my palm. Steady. Still there.
I didn't sleep.
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The next morning, Joaquin left early for a meeting. I waited until nine, then called his assistant.
"Hi, Rachel. It's Celeste. I just wanted to check on the engagement party rescheduling. Do we have a new date yet?"
Silence.
"Rachel?"
"Um." Her voice was careful. "Mr. Reed sent a postponement notice to the venue yesterday. He said there was a family situation that needed immediate attention."
My throat tightened. "Whose family?"
More silence.
"Rachel."
"I'm sorry, Celeste. I really am."
She hung up.
I sat at the kitchen table. My coffee went cold in front of me. I didn't move to reheat it. I just sat there, staring at the empty ring finger on my left hand, and tried to remember the last time Joaquin had chosen me over anything else.
I couldn't.
Chapter 2
The receptionist's voice carried across the open-plan office like a stone dropped in still water.
"There's a Kennedi Carlson here to see you. She says she's looking for Joaquin's fiancée?"
I looked up from my laptop. The department meeting had just ended. Three colleagues were still gathering their notebooks. All of them turned to look at me.
I pressed save on the document I'd been editing and stood. My hands were steady. "I'll be right there."
Kennedi waited by the reception desk, holding a small bouquet of white roses. She wore a cream-colored sweater and jeans that probably cost more than my rent. When she saw me, she smiled. The kind of smile that looked warm in photographs.
"Celeste. I hope I'm not interrupting. I just wanted to drop these off." She held out the flowers. "A thank you. For being so understanding."
I didn't take them. "Understanding about what?"
Her smile didn't waver. "About Joaquin helping me. I know it's taken time away from you two. That must be hard."
Behind me, I heard the soft click of someone's phone camera. Or maybe I imagined it. Either way, I felt the weight of eyes.
"Let's talk in the break room," I said.
She followed me down the hall. Her heels made soft clicks on the tile. She still carried the roses.
The break room was empty. I closed the door and turned to face her.
"Why are you here, Kennedi?"
She set the flowers on the counter. Pulled out her phone. "I thought you should see these."
She held the screen toward me.
Photographs. A dozen of them. Kennedi and Joaquin at a restaurant, candles between them. Kennedi and Joaquin at what looked like a gallery opening, his hand at the small of her back. Kennedi and Joaquin on a wooden deck with a lake behind them, her head tilted against his shoulder.
I stared at the images. My chest felt tight, like someone had pulled a cord around my ribs.
"When were these taken?"
"The lake house was last weekend." She scrolled to another photo. "This one was two weeks ago. The night he bought me this necklace." She touched the pendant at her throat. The same one I'd watched him fasten in the boutique. "It's funny. That was the same night he called to tell me he was postponing your engagement party again. He said he needed to focus on me right now. That I needed him more."
I looked at her face. Her expression was soft. Sympathetic. Like she was delivering bad news she wished she didn't have to share.
"I just thought you deserved to know where you actually stand," she said quietly. "I mean, if I were in your position, I'd want someone to tell me the truth."
My hands curled into fists at my sides. "You don't know anything about my position."
"I know Joaquin hasn't set a new date for your party. I know he spends most of his evenings with me. I know—" She paused. Glanced down at her left hand. The ring caught the fluorescent light. "I know he gave me something that was supposed to be yours."
The air in the room felt thin. I couldn't get enough of it into my lungs.
"He's helping you because your father asked him to," I said. My voice sounded far away. "That's all this is."
Kennedi tilted her head. "Is that what he told you?"
She stepped closer. Close enough that I could smell her perfume. Something floral and expensive.
"My father died three months ago, Celeste. Whatever obligation Joaquin had, it ended then. Everything since—" She gestured at her phone. "That's been his choice."
I stared at her. The sympathy in her face was so practiced it looked almost real.
"You should go," I said.
She picked up the roses. Held them out again. "Please. Take them. I really do appreciate how gracious you've been about all this."
I didn't move.
She set the flowers on the counter between us. "I'll leave them here, then." She walked to the door. Paused with her hand on the handle. "Oh, and Celeste? Joaquin's taking me to the Carlyle tonight. For my birthday. I thought you should know, in case he tells you he's working late."
She left.
I stood in the break room. The white roses sat on the counter. Their smell was too sweet. It made my stomach turn.
I pulled out my phone. Opened my messages with Joaquin. The last text was from this morning. *Busy day. Don't wait up.*
I typed: *Are you taking Kennedi to the Carlyle tonight?*
I stared at the words. Deleted them. Typed again: *We need to talk.*
I sent it.
Then I walked back to my desk. My colleagues glanced up as I passed. No one said anything, but I felt their questions in the air between us.
I sat down. Opened my laptop. Stared at the screen until the words blurred.
My phone buzzed.
Joaquin: *Can it wait? Slammed today.*
I set the phone face-down on my desk. Pressed my thumb hard against the inside of my left ring finger until the pressure turned into pain.
It was the only thing I could feel that made sense.
Chapter 3
I stood up from the break room counter. The white roses sat between us like evidence.
"You need to leave," I said. "Now."
Kennedi's expression shifted. The practiced sympathy melted into something wider, more fragile. Her voice lifted—not quite a shout, but loud enough to carry through the door, into the hallway where I could hear footsteps slowing.
"Celeste, please. I'm just trying to talk to you—"
She reached for my wrist. Her fingers closed around it with surprising strength.
I yanked my arm back. Shoved her away.
She stumbled backward. Her hip caught the edge of the filing cabinet. The metal drawer was open. A stack of folders tipped and scattered across the floor in a cascade of paper. Kennedi sank to one knee, one hand braced against the cabinet, the other pressed to her side. She made a small sound. A gasp. Breathy and sharp.
The break room door opened.
Diana Holt stood in the doorway. Behind her, three of my colleagues crowded the frame.
"What's going on?" Diana's voice was tight.
Kennedi looked up. Her eyes were wet. "I just—I came to apologize. I didn't mean to upset her."
"She grabbed me," I said. My voice came out flat. "I pushed her off."
Diana's gaze moved between us. The scattered folders. Kennedi still on one knee. The roses on the counter.
"Ms. Carlson, are you hurt?"
Kennedi shook her head. Pressed her lips together. "I'm okay. I just—I should go."
She stood slowly. Carefully. Like her ribs hurt. Like she was being brave.
"I'll call someone to pick you up," Diana said.
Kennedi pulled out her phone. Her hands trembled. Or looked like they did. "I already texted Joaquin. He's on his way."
My chest tightened. "Of course you did."
Diana turned to me. "Celeste. Wait in your office."
"This is my break room too," I said.
"Now, please."
I walked past them. Past the colleagues who stepped aside without meeting my eyes. Past the receptionist who stared at her keyboard. I sat down at my desk. My hands were steady. I opened my laptop. Stared at the screen.
Twenty-eight minutes later, Joaquin walked through the office doors.
I saw him before he saw me. He moved straight to the reception area where Kennedi waited on the low couch, her face turned down, her shoulders curved inward. He crouched beside her. Said something I couldn't hear. Then his hand settled on the small of her back, and he helped her stand.
Diana emerged from her office. Joaquin straightened. They spoke in low tones. He nodded. Glanced toward my desk.
Then he walked over.
He stopped three feet away. His face was calm. Controlled. The expression he used in boardrooms when someone had disappointed him.
"What happened?" he asked.
I looked up at him. "She came here to show me pictures of the two of you. To tell me you're taking her to the Carlyle tonight. When I told her to leave, she grabbed me. I pushed her off."
"She's half your size, Celeste."
The words landed like a slap.
"She grabbed me first," I said again.
His jaw tightened. "You need to control yourself."
Behind him, Diana stood with two of my colleagues. Watching. Listening. Joaquin's voice wasn't loud, but it carried. It had weight. Authority. The kind of voice people believed.
"I didn't do anything wrong," I said.
He leaned down slightly. Lowered his voice. "You put your hands on her. In your workplace. In front of witnesses. What did you think was going to happen?"
I stared at him. At the man who used to hold my hand through panic attacks. Who used to tell me I was safe.
"You weren't here," I said quietly. "You don't know what she said."
"I know what I need to know."
He straightened. Looked at Diana. Nodded once. Then he turned and walked back to Kennedi. His hand returned to her back. He guided her toward the elevator.
She glanced over her shoulder as the doors opened. Our eyes met. She didn't smile. She didn't need to.
Diana walked to my desk. Her face was professional. Distant.
"Celeste, I'm placing you on administrative leave pending an HR review. You'll need to leave the building now."
I closed my laptop. Unplugged my phone. Slid both into my bag.
"How long?" I asked.
"I'll let you know."
I stood. Pulled my coat from the back of my chair. The office was silent. Everyone pretended to work. No one looked at me.
I walked to the elevator. Pressed the button. Waited.
The doors opened. I stepped inside.
My reflection stared back at me from the polished steel. My face was smooth. Composed. Like nothing had happened.
I pressed my thumb against the inside of my left ring finger and held it there until the doors opened on the ground floor.
Then I walked out into the cold October afternoon and tried to remember how to breathe.