Chapter 1

"I came back for someone who has waited for me for many years."

The woman on the TV smiled into a crowd of cameras at JFK. Big sunglasses pushed into her dark hair. A camel coat. Red lips that looked soft even through a screen.

"Chloe! Chloe, over here! Is it a man?"

She laughed and tucked her chin. "Let's just say I owe him an answer."

I was curled on the couch in our Manhattan apartment, Adrian's gray wool cardigan bunched in my fists. I had pulled it out of the closet ten minutes ago, because his grandmother's house was always drafty, and he never remembered a sweater.

My name is Emma Carter. I have been Adrian Blackwood's wife for one year.

And I knew exactly who Chloe Bennett was.

The reporter's voice went bright and eager. "Fans have linked you to Adrian Blackwood in the past. Any comment?"

Chloe slid her sunglasses down. "No comment."

That meant yes.

I squeezed the cardigan until the buttons bit into my palm.

Six months ago, I had gone into Adrian's study looking for a pen. In the back of his desk drawer, I found an old phone. I thought it was work. I thought maybe it was a secret deal, something boring.

It wasn't.

*I miss you.*

*Please don't leave me again.*

*Say the word and I'll cancel the wedding.*

That last one was sent the night before he married me.

Chloe had answered once. *Congratulations. Be happy.*

After that, nothing.

I put the phone back exactly where I found it. I never asked him about it. What was I supposed to say? He had told me the truth before we signed anything.

"There's someone," he'd said, sitting across from me in a lawyer's office. "I won't lie to you about that."

"I know," I'd answered. "My parents' company has three months left. I won't lie to you about that either."

Two lawyers. Two copies of a prenup. Ten minutes at City Hall. No flowers, no first dance.

A temporary pass. That's what I was. And I'd just watched the expiration date walk out of an airport terminal.

The doorbell rang.

I jumped up, dropped the cardigan, and ran for the door. The hardwood was freezing under my bare feet.

Adrian stood in the hall in a black coat, phone in one hand, keys in the other. He opened his mouth to say something.

Then his eyes dropped to my feet.

His brows pulled together. "Emma."

"What?"

He didn't answer. He stepped inside, bent, and scooped me up like I weighed nothing at all.

"Adrian! Put me down!"

"No." He carried me straight back to the couch. "Where did your slippers run off to again?"

"They're... somewhere."

"Somewhere," he repeated flatly.

He set me down on the cushions. His arm stayed against mine for a second too long. He smelled like cedar and cold air, and under his coat his muscles were hard and warm.

My face went hot.

Stupid. I had just been sitting here thinking about how this was going to end. And one stupid gesture from him and I was blushing like a teenager.

He found the slippers under the coffee table and dropped them in front of me. "Wear them."

"Yes, sir."

The corner of his mouth moved. Almost.

Then he spotted my canvas tote by the door. It was bulging.

"What's in the bag?"

"Nothing."

"Emma."

"Gifts. For your grandmother."

He crouched and unzipped it before I could grab it. A family-size bag of salt-and-vinegar chips. A tin of butter cookies. Two bottles of strawberry milk tea.

He held up one bottle like it was evidence in a trial. "Her nutritionist said no added sugar."

"She likes it."

"She's eighty-one."

"That's exactly why she should get to like things!"

He looked at me for a long moment. Then he took both bottles of milk tea, set them on the counter, and put the chips and cookies back into the bag. He zipped it closed.

I let out a quiet breath.

"You saw that," he said.

"Saw what?"

"You were relieved." This time he actually smiled. Small, quick, gone. "Don't tell her I knew."

I picked the cardigan back up and held it out to him. "Then you take this. Her house is cold."

He took it without a word.

For one second, I let myself believe this could be enough.

---

Evelyn Blackwood's house sat at the end of a quiet street in Westchester, old brick and tall windows. Adrian was still on the phone in the car, so I went in first with the tote bag on my shoulder.

I hadn't even unbuttoned my coat when I heard a voice from the living room.

"Evelyn, Adrian told me once that you love lilies too."

I stopped in the doorway.

Chloe Bennett sat on the floral loveseat by the fire. My seat. The one Evelyn always patted and said, *Come sit by me, sweetheart.*

She wore a cream knit dress, her legs crossed at the ankle. A vase of fresh white lilies stood on the coffee table. Their sweet, heavy smell filled the room.

Evelyn sat in her armchair with her hands folded. She didn't look happy. She didn't look anything. She just looked at me.

"Emma," she said quietly.

Behind me, the front door opened. Footsteps. Then they stopped.

I turned.

Adrian stood frozen in the hallway, the cardigan over his arm. His fingers locked around his car keys so hard his knuckles turned white.

Chloe rose. She smiled at him the way she had smiled at the cameras, only softer. She held out her hand.

"You're back."

He didn't move.

Chloe's gaze slid to me. She tilted her head. Polite. Curious. "And this is?"

I waited.

*This is my wife.* Three words. He'd signed papers that said it. He'd said it at City Hall in front of a clerk who was eating a sandwich.

One second.

Two.

Three.

My heart sank lower with every one of them.

Then Adrian spoke, and his voice was ice.

"What are you doing here?"

Not *This is Emma.*

Not *This is my wife.*

Chloe didn't flinch. She lowered her hand and stepped closer to him, right past me, close enough that her perfume mixed with the lilies.

"I regret it," she said. "Everything. Leaving. Not answering." Her voice dropped. "What you said a year ago. Does it still count?"

*Say the word and I'll cancel the wedding.*

I knew what she meant. I had read it with my own eyes.

The tote bag slipped off my shoulder. The cookie tin hit the floor with a loud clatter. Nobody looked at it.

I was looking at Adrian.

His eyes were red at the edges.

His jaw worked like he was about to say something. I wanted him to. I begged him to, silently, the way I'd never begged him for anything.

*Tell her no.*

He didn't.

He just stood there, staring at her, and the silence stretched until it was its own answer.

Twenty minutes ago, he'd carried me across a cold floor because he didn't want my feet to freeze.

I could still feel the warmth of his arms.

And it had never felt more like a lie.

Behind me, Evelyn's voice cut through the room, sharp as a blade.

"Adrian. I asked you a question this morning. I think you'd better answer it now."

Chapter 2

Adrian didn't answer his grandmother.

His phone buzzed in his pocket instead. He glanced at the screen, and something in his shoulders loosened, like he'd been handed an exit.

Evelyn pushed herself up from the armchair and crossed the room to me. Her fingers wrapped around mine.

"Good Lord, child. Your hands are ice."

"I'm fine."

"You're not." She tugged me toward the couch. "Sit."

I sat. I waited for Adrian to take the cushion beside me, the way he always did here. Knee bumping mine. Stealing cookies off my plate when Evelyn wasn't looking.

He walked past me.

He chose the wingback chair in the far corner, on the diagonal, as far from me as the room allowed. Chloe drifted after him and perched on the arm of the loveseat closest to his chair.

Evelyn pressed a warm mug into my hands. The white one with the painted rabbit, ears flopped over. She'd bought it for me at a craft fair last spring.

"And a fox for my grandson," she'd announced back then. "Because he's sly and she's soft."

The fox mug sat on the side table next to me. Full. Steaming. Beside an empty seat.

I used to sneak glances at those two mugs and smile like an idiot.

Now I just stared at the fox, and it seemed to stare back. *You really thought a contract came with matching cups?*

I laughed. Quietly, into my tea.

Evelyn heard it. She set her mug down hard.

"Emma, help me with dinner."

---

The kitchen smelled like rosemary and butter. Evelyn shut the glass door behind us and didn't touch a single pot.

"His father died when he was eight," she said.

I blinked. "He never told me that."

"He doesn't tell anyone." She leaned against the counter. "Two years later, his mother remarried and moved to Arizona. She didn't take him."

My throat went tight.

"He lay in that upstairs bedroom for a week. Wouldn't eat. Wouldn't talk." Her mouth pressed thin. "A little girl from down the street climbed our trellis every afternoon with a peanut butter sandwich. She sat on the end of his bed until he took a bite."

I didn't have to ask who.

"Twenty years, Emma. You don't just pull that out of a person like a splinter."

Through the glass, I could see Adrian's back. He stood by the window with the phone at his ear, spine straight as a fence post. I'd always thought that posture meant he didn't need anyone.

Now I saw a boy holding himself up so nobody would notice he was falling.

It hurt. For him.

And it terrified me. Because I knew what came after an explanation like that.

*So you understand why he'll choose her.*

The door slid open.

"Can I help?" Chloe stepped in, already pushing up her sleeves. "Please. I'd love to."

"You're a guest, dear," Evelyn said.

Chloe hooked her arm through the old woman's and leaned her head against her shoulder. "Evelyn. I've always thought of this place as home."

Evelyn's smile didn't reach her eyes. She nodded at my tote bag on the counter. "Then pour Emma's chips into a bowl."

Chloe pulled out the family-size bag. She studied it. Then she stepped on the pedal of the trash can, the brand-new liner bright and clean, and dropped it in.

Unopened.

"I brought organic vegetables," she said brightly. "Kale chips are so much better for her. Adrian worries about her heart."

She said his name like she was the only one allowed to know what he worried about.

I didn't say anything. I just looked at the bag lying in the bottom of the bin.

"Evelyn, go sit," Chloe cooed, steering her toward the door. "Let us girls handle this."

Evelyn shot me a look over her shoulder. I gave her a small nod. She went.

The door slid closed. Chloe turned around, and the brightness dimmed into something smooth and practiced.

"I wanted to say thank you," she said. "For taking care of Adrian this year. For me."

I bent down. I reached into the trash and pulled out the bag. Still sealed. I tore a paper towel off the roll and wiped the outside, slow, one side and then the other.

Then I held it out to her.

Her eyebrows rose.

"I understand him," I said. "That doesn't mean I understand you." I set the bag on the counter between us. "Evelyn isn't a meal plan. She gets to want things too."

Chloe's lips parted. For a second, she had nothing.

Then she recovered. "You don't know the whole story. Me leaving, it was a misunderstanding. A big one." She smoothed her dress. "I'll explain it to him. Slowly. He'll understand."

I folded the top of the chip bag down neatly. My fingers needed something to do.

"He told me about you," I said. "Before we ever signed anything. He said there was someone."

She went still.

"So I'm not going to make his choice for him." I met her eyes. "If he wants to go back to you, I'll step aside."

I walked out before she could answer.

---

Adrian was still on the phone. He didn't turn around.

Evelyn had dozed off in her armchair, a blanket over her knees. I didn't wake her.

I pulled the front door open, and the cold slammed into me. My coat was the thin one. The pretty one. I'd picked it because I thought he might notice.

I almost turned back.

Instead, I started walking.

The driveway curved down past dark hedges. No sidewalk. Just wet asphalt and the occasional porch light far back from the road. I pulled out my phone to call a cab.

Black screen. Dead.

My wallet was on the kitchen island in Manhattan. I'd been so busy packing chips and milk tea that I'd forgotten it.

I laughed again. That was twice tonight. Something was wrong with me.

At the end of the drive, I stepped down onto the curb. My heel skidded on the slick edge. My ankle rolled, and pain shot straight up my calf.

I bit down on a cry and grabbed a mailbox post.

Headlights flooded the road behind me.

A big black SUV slowed and stopped. The window slid down.

"Emma?" A man leaned out, dark hair messy, a flannel collar showing under a quilted vest. "You planning to walk back to Manhattan?"

I squinted. Then I knew him.

Jack Mercer. The charity gala in October. He'd stood next to me at the dessert table and argued that mini cheesecakes were a crime against full-size cheesecakes. He ran a horse farm upstate. He'd made me laugh twice.

Then he'd asked for my number, and Adrian had appeared at my elbow like a storm cloud.

"She doesn't need it," Adrian had said. And walked me away.

Now Jack's grin faded as his gaze moved over my shaking shoulders and the way I was holding my foot off the ground.

He didn't make a joke.

"Get in," he said quietly.

I limped to the passenger door. Warm air hit my face the second I climbed inside. He reached over and cranked the heat higher, then shrugged out of his vest and tossed it into my lap.

"Put that on."

"You'll be cold."

"I've got a whole barn of jackets. Put it on."

I slid my arms in. It smelled like hay and pine soap.

"Where to?" he asked.

I opened my mouth.

My parents' house? My mother would ask what I did to upset Adrian before she asked if I was hurt. My father would ask about the financing.

Lily? She was in Chicago until Friday.

The apartment? His apartment.

I sat there with my mouth open and realized I didn't have a single address to give him.

Jack waited. He didn't push.

"Just..." My voice cracked. "Just drive toward the city."

He nodded and shifted into gear.

The dashboard lit up. An incoming call rang through the car speakers.

**ADRIAN BLACKWOOD.**

My stomach dropped.

Jack's thumb hovered over the button. He glanced at me.

I shook my head, but he'd already pressed it.

Adrian's voice filled the car, low and hard.

"Put my wife on the phone."

Jack looked at me for a long beat. At my red eyes. At my hands clutching his vest closed.

Then he turned back to the road.

"She's not here," he said calmly.

The line went dead silent.

And then I heard something I'd never heard from Adrian before.

He was breathing like he'd been running.

Chapter 3

"Don't lie to me, Mercer."

Adrian's voice came through the speakers flat and cold.

"Tyler Reed was leaving my grandmother's street. He saw her get into your car. Black Escalade. New York plates." A pause. "So I'll ask once more. Give her back."

*Give her back.*

Like I was a watch he'd left on someone's nightstand.

I leaned toward the dashboard. "Adrian, it's not what Tyler thinks. My phone died and I twisted my..."

"She has someone with her, right?"

A woman's voice. Soft. Close to his phone, like she was standing right at his shoulder.

"Adrian, I'm so cold. Can we go back now?"

*We.*

My mouth stayed open. Nothing else came out.

I was his wife. I had the paper in a drawer at home with both our signatures on it. And I had no idea what that paper was supposed to mean if another woman got to say *we* into my husband's phone.

Jack's hands tightened on the wheel. He gave a short, ugly laugh.

"Sounds like you've got company, Blackwood. Busy keeping someone else warm tonight?"

Silence.

Five seconds. Six.

When Adrian spoke again, his voice was lower. Almost gentle.

"Emma. Go home first."

Jack jabbed the button. The call cut off.

We rolled up to a red light. The engine hummed. Jack turned in his seat and fixed his eyes on me, not the road.

"Listen to me. You can go back. Or you don't have to." He said each word slowly. "Nobody gets to decide that for you. Not him. Not me."

I stared at him.

My whole life, someone had decided for me. My mother picked my college. My father picked my husband, more or less. Adrian picked my slippers.

*You decide.*

It sounded like a language I'd never learned.

"I..." I picked at the zipper of his vest. "He sounded worried. Before she said anything. He was breathing hard."

Jack didn't answer.

"I just want to know if that was for me." My voice came out tiny. "Can you take me to the apartment?"

The light turned green. He nodded once and drove.

---

Adrian was waiting outside our building.

No coat buttoned. No phone in his hand. Just him, alone on the sidewalk, wind pulling at his hair.

My heart gave one stupid, hopeful kick.

Jack rolled down his window before Adrian reached us. "Your wife is wearing a coat thinner than a napkin. And she hurt her ankle. In case you were wondering."

Adrian didn't look at him.

He opened my door, bent over me, and unbuckled my seatbelt himself. His jaw was locked tight. He caught my wrist and pulled me out of the car, steady but firm.

"Emma." Jack leaned across the passenger seat and held out a card. "Mercer Charity Gala. November twenty-third. Come."

Adrian's grip on my wrist tightened.

I took the card anyway.

"Next time you need help," Jack said, his gaze sliding to Adrian and back, "call me."

The SUV pulled away.

---

The lobby was warm. Adrian walked me toward the elevator, his hand still around my wrist.

"Don't run off like that again," he said. "We were all worried."

*We.*

That word again.

"Who's 'we'?" I started. "Adrian, who exactly..."

His phone rang.

He glanced at it, then held it out to me. I thought it had to be Evelyn. She'd woken up and found me gone.

I pressed it to my ear. "Grandma, I'm fine, I'm sorry..."

"Adrian?" My mother's voice. Bright and nervous. "Oh, Adrian, we're so sorry about tonight. Emma's always been dramatic, you know how she..."

"Mom. It's me."

A rustle. Then my father took the phone.

"Emma." Richard Carter didn't yell often. When he did, it shook. "Do you know why your mother and I are calling your husband at eleven at night, groveling like servants? Do you think we enjoy it?"

"Dad, I hurt my..."

"Don't you dare ruin this partnership with your temper. Do you hear me?"

My mother came back on, softer, which was worse. "Sweetheart, just apologize to him. Whatever it was. Just say you're sorry."

The call ended.

Not one of them asked where it hurt.

I handed the phone back. As Adrian took it, the screen lit up.

**Chloe: Milo's not feeling well. He keeps whining. I don't know what to do.**

Milo. The Pomeranian. I'd seen him in old photos in a shoebox in the closet, a fluffy orange ball sitting between two teenagers.

Their dog.

So they'd already started texting again.

"Sorry," I said automatically. "I didn't mean to read it."

He wasn't listening. His thumb moved fast across the screen. His brows drew in, and his whole body tilted toward the door.

Something in me snapped loose.

I reached out and caught the cuff of his sleeve.

He looked down at my fingers. A small frown.

I opened my hand.

"She has an emergency over there," he said, already turning. "Whatever you want to say, we'll talk tomorrow."

He never looked at my ankle. It had swollen so badly my shoe barely fit.

The door swung shut behind him.

---

I sat on the couch with a hot-water bottle against my foot.

At midnight, it was warm.

At one, lukewarm.

By two, it was a cold rubber sack in my lap, and my phone hadn't buzzed once.

At three, I opened Instagram.

Chloe had posted a video four minutes ago. Milo trotted under a streetlight, tail high, bouncing on his tiny paws. Not sick at all.

The leash stretched up out of frame. At the top, a man's wrist.

A watch with a brown leather strap.

Yesterday morning, I had stood in our bedroom and fastened that strap for him, because the clasp was stiff and he was late.

The comments were flooding in.

*WHO IS THAT HAND??*

*Chloe are you dating someone?!*

Chloe had replied to the top one.

*Just friends. For now.*

I read *for now* until the letters blurred.

I thought about my fingers on his sleeve. How fast he'd frowned.

He hadn't seen a wife asking him to stay.

He'd seen something in his way.

---

The next afternoon, my phone exploded.

A gossip account had posted a voice recording. The voice was distorted, pitched low and robotic. The caption read: *Adrian Blackwood's close friend speaks out.*

I hit play.

"Look, he never got over her. Never. The marriage? He did it to... spite her. That's all." A pause. "And the wife's not exactly innocent. Last night she hopped into Jack Mercer's car. While still married. So."

That pause. Right before *spite.* Right before *so.*

Tyler Reed talked like that at every dinner party. Like he was waiting for applause.

I scrolled down.

*Adrian and Chloe were ALWAYS endgame 😭*

*Broken mirrors CAN be fixed. So happy for them.*

*The wife needs to get out of their love story.*

*Gold digger found a backup. Shocker.*

I called Adrian.

It rang. And rang. Voicemail.

I called again.

Voicemail.

When I went back to the app, Chloe had posted something new. Two plates on a white tablecloth. Grilled salmon, steamed greens. A second hand at the edge of the frame, holding a fork.

*Poor someone has to eat diet food with me tonight.*

The top comment had eleven thousand likes.

*Mrs. Blackwood looks happy 🥹*

I stared at the screen until it went dark on its own.

My name was gone. Not crossed out, just quietly replaced, like I'd never been there at all.

And the only man in the world with the right to say *she's my wife* still hadn't said a single word.

My phone buzzed in my hand.

Not Adrian.

An unknown number.

*Mrs. Carter, this is a reporter from Page Six. Is it true you're filing for divorce?*

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