- Missing Her

[Ava]

I watched as he walked in, gently coming towards me, his eyes burning with a passionate yearning , I don't know if I was seeing right or if it was my imagination.

But I wasn't ready to make him think I'm such a loose girl that is lusting over her elder brother's friend who is about eight years older than her.

I was about to tell him to leave, when his voice broke the silence, reducing the tension in the room.

“Here, Logan said he has been calling you and you're not taking his calls,” he said, handing me his phone while he unmuted it.

What was I thinking, that he would want to have a thing with me? I am such a fool

“Hey little demon, why are you not picking up your call?” My brother Logan screamed on the phone.

“Brother to a little demon, do I owe you any explanation on that, meanwhile I've warned you, Logan, stop calling me that name, I swear one day I'm going to behead you,” I screamed back at him.

I looked at Gabriel with my side eyes and noticed how his lips curved up to a smile.

“Mummy called me and said she has been trying to reach you since last night,” he said. I had forgotten I plugged my phone beside the dining area when I was eating last night and I've had this habit of always muting my phone.

“Oh, I'll go get it right now and call her back, hope everything is ok Logan, is she alright?” I asked concern edged in my tone.

“She's fine, call her and find out for yourself, bye!!!, And meanwhile, make lunch for me my little demon,” he chuckled and ended the call.

I sighed, he's not serious at all, as if he didn't know I had to go to work. Make lunch for him indeed.

“Thanks, I didn't know my phone was ringing,” I handed the phone back to Gabriel.

He smiled, showing me his sexy deep dimples and he immediately turned to leave, I took a deep breath. I know he had seen me, why didn't I fucking lock my door.

“Fuck!!! This is so embarrassing!!!!” I screamed under my pillow, making sure to let out all my frustration.

I stood up, reached for my wardrobe, and took a knee-length black gown that covered every path of my body very well. I was too embarrassed to wear anything revealing right now.

I stormed down the stairs, heading directly to the dining area, I unplugged my phone and I had just received ten missed calls, from my mum, my dad, and Remi's mother.

My heart tightened by the thought of that name, the reason I decided to relocate here in Switzerland. I had sworn to find whoever murdered my best friend, that beast he was dating that I had tried my best to find but was always met with utmost silence. I would fight with my last blood if it meant bringing him to face the consequences of his actions

I dialed my mother's number, to find out why she was calling, the first one went unanswered and by the second ring, she picked up.

“Mummy!!!!” I chuckled on the phone, as she picked up. I'm sorry mummy, I kept my phone a bit far from me.”

“My Angel, you don't scare me like that, I was worried, even Logan did not pick up his call last night, he had just picked up this morning,” her voice was filled with genuine concern

“I'm sorry mummy, it wasn't intentional,” I tried teasing her to make her laugh.

“I miss you mummy, I miss you so much,” I said to her.

“I miss you more my angel, meanwhile are you going to Remi's house today or tomorrow?” She asked, and I suddenly felt a lump in my throat.

She continued, “Is ok Mama, Remi would never be happy to see that for the past five years, you've not been genuinely happy, if there's anything she wants from you, it's for you to be happy,”

I felt tears slip down my cheeks, I scoffed, raising my head to avoid hurting my eyes this morning, I wouldn't want to go to work today with puffy eyes.

“I'm ok mummy, I'm fine, actually I'll be going to her house tomorrow, her mother already called me,” I tried sounding strong, even when I knew I wasn't.

We talked for a little while then she hung up, I called Remi's mum back and she told me to get some things for her on my way coming, the supermarket was closer to my house than theirs.

I dropped my phone on the dining table and pulled a chair to sit down. Is it so easy to forget you Remi? How can I be happy when your boyfriend who murdered you Is nowhere to be found and the whole city is keeping quiet like they have been silenced?

I clenched my fist, my mind racing with ways to uncover the truth about my best friend's death, I wouldn't rest until justice was served.

How can I possibly live without you? How can I go on without you? This was not what we planned, cupcake, it wasn't, I miss you so much Remi.

I felt my eyes blur. I was trying so hard not to cry, but how possible? Tomorrow makes it five years since my sister from another mother left me. She left me, She did. I laid my head down on the table and just in seconds sleep took over me.

I felt a hand grab me and carried me in a bridal style, I slightly opened my eyes and the person I saw was the one person I wanted to see in this condition, but I felt so bad knowing this was a dream.

“Gabriel, I know this is a dream but I wish you could carry me like this, I wish you could be with me,” I murmured under my breath

I felt my back on a soft surface, he was still right there In front of me.

“I'm sorry Gabriel, but since this is a dream, can I take advantage of you a bit,” I smiled, pulling him close while I kissed him, I chuckled, as I let go of his neck, and turned to continue my sweet dreams.

I felt his presence beside me, he wrapped his arms around me and slowly kissed my neck. I pulled his hands closer to my waist, wrapping it tighter on me. I prayed that this dream wouldn't end.

“Gabriel, are you so dumb to notice how I feel about you?” I murmured under my breath.

“Why do you hurt me so much by pretending that I don't exist,” I continued pouring my heart out.

_______

The sound of the loud music had me rolling on my bed from one end to the other. I tried to continue my sleep but the music was getting louder every minute.

I opened my eyes, wiped my eyes with the back of my palm, I slowly sat up, picked up my phone from the side of the bed, and looked at the time, my eyes widened at the sight of the time, 2 pm

I tried to remember how I got into my bedroom. I had fallen asleep on the dining table, I was sure of it.

I stormed out of my room, my feet storming against the stairs with frustration. I didn't see my brother in the sitting room, but I caught sight of a glass of wine that was almost finished. I shook my head wondering why Logan didn't even bother waking me up knowing I had work today, or was he not yet back?

I went to the kitchen to fetch myself some water. My head needed it at this point, I caught sight of my eyes on the refrigerator glass mirror, and I know I must have continued crying in my sleep, my eyes looked so puffy and swollen.

I took out a bottle of water and gulped it down in one go.

I moved to the spoon rack and took out a small iron spoon to massage my swollen eyes, I covered my left eye with the spoon, while I moved back to check on Logan, I wondered why he didn't bother to check up on me, it's 2 pm and I'm certain he should be back by now.

I went straight to the music and lowered it to the lowest. “Why didn't you wake me up, Logan? You knew I had work today!” I exclaimed, but there was no response. I stormed into Logan's room and slammed it open, but the sight that was staring back at me made my heart jump.

“Gosh!!” I screamed, I couldn't believe what my eyes were fixed on, no way!!!

- I want to see your lovely face

[Ava]

I shut the door immediately, staring at the door frame like a lost sheep. I felt my legs weaken. Gabriel was stepping out of Logan's bathroom with nothing on his body, his eyes locked in mine, he didn't even bother to close the monster that he had down there that was staring back at me.

I was able to put some strength back in my legs and rush back upstairs, I was still storming up the stairs when I felt footsteps following behind me, I increased my pace, my thoughts swirled in a jumbled mix of emotions, making it hard to focus

Was he mad at me that I saw him naked? Shouldn't he have locked the doors, knowing he's not the only one in this house? I would have just respected my brother when he said I should always knock on his door before barging in.

What Gabriel had down there was not what I was expecting or imagined, it looked way huge, fuck…I was about to push my door open when a hand held me back and pinned me against the wall with my hands raised above my head.

“Why are you running Ava,” he spoke gently with his husky voice, the way he dimmed his eyes, was setting my body on fire.

“Gabriel, w-why will I run,” I couldn't find the right words to comprehend what was going on in my head. My eyes were also making matters worse. He was just tying a white towel on his waist, and his broad chest which was exposed was driving me insane.

Water droplets glistened in his hair, each one like a tiny diamond that caught the light and made him look irresistibly sexy. I couldn't help but devour him with my eyes. I looked at him from head to toe, not even noticing that he had been talking all this while, he suddenly called my name making me snap out of my trance.

“Ava, you're not saying anything, why were you running,” he asked again, his voice deepening.

I tried to loosen his grip on my hands but it was to no avail.

“I'm sorry I barged in, I didn't know you were still around, I was just mad at Logan for not waking me up. I already missed work yesterday and I wasn't supposed to miss today,” I tried explaining.

“Logan is not yet back, he called and said a few meetings held him back and talking about waking you up, you cried yourself to sleep and I had to bring you upstairs,” he said, as he let go of my hands, but still left me pinned to the wall.

“You..you, were the one that carried me upstairs,” I looked at him trying to make sure I just heard right.

“Yes I did,” he twisted his lips and bit his bottom lip trying so hard to maintain a serious face.

So it wasn't a dream, did I confess to him? Was that why he was trying to laugh? still lost in my thoughts, I felt his hands on my hair, tucking in some strands of hair at the back of my ear.

“What are you thinking little doll,” he asked, his voice deepening more. I felt a cold shiver run down my spine, I clogged my two legs together trying to hold onto this very pussy of mine that wouldn't stop misbehaving at the sight of this man.

His eyes went down to my thighs, noticing how hard I was trying to keep myself together. He came closer to me, wrapping his hands around my waist. He pulled me closer to him and stared into my eyes. I felt a scorching sweat trickle down my forehead, pooling at my temples.

He brought his lips closer to my forehead and placed a kiss on it. My breath slowed, and my shoulders relaxed as a gentle tranquility settled within me, he stared into my eyes and his eyes went down to my lips.

He pulled me closer and took in my lips in his, his tongue tracing the outline of my lips, asking for permission to explore further, I opened my mouth a bit and he slipped his tongue inside, sending shivers down my spine, he devoured my lips, biting my upper lips, circling his tongue all over my mouth, he got hold of my tongue and sucked on it hard, making me moan on his mouth

He pushed me further to himself leaving no space between us, I could sense his arousal pressed against me, I clutched my thighs tighter, I could feel my juices flowing, wetting my thighs.

My hands roamed all over his broad chest, and I couldn't help but moan louder in his mouth. He pulled back, and I was breathing heavily as he stared deep into my eyes. He was about to say something when the doorbell rang.

I pushed him off immediately without thinking, his eyes widened in stunned incredulity, he shook his head and a sly charming smile escaped his lips, I stood frozen still staring at him.

“It must be your brother, I'll open up the door for him,” he said and walked out heading to the stairs, his eyes went down to his dick and he turned and looked at me and I was still stupidly staring at him.

He mouthed a word but I couldn't hear whatever he just said. I breathed out. I pushed my door open and walked inside, I closed it while turning the doorknob to make sure it was closed.

I didn't know what to feel at this point, happy, sad, scream or just shut up. Did he come to me because I saw him naked or was it because I confessed my feelings to him thinking I was in a dreamland?

____

I spent the rest of the evening inside my room, even when my brother Logan called me, I pretended to be asleep, I didn't know how to face Gabriel, I was wishing he had gone by now.

I was rolling on my bed from one end to the other, I was smiling and I couldn't get the thought of Gabriel's lips off me, he tasted so good, if his lips tasted this good then how would that rod he had down there taste, I shook my head, shaking off the dirty thought that had consumed me

The buzzing of my phone brought me out

of my trance, snapping me back to reality. I unlocked it and my heart sank as I saw the calendar reminder, tomorrow was the anniversary of Remi's death. Tears pricked at the corners of my eyes, just then another message bumped in and I scrolled up and it was Gabriel, this was his first time texting me, we had each other's number because my brother uses my phone to call him sometimes and I had saved it a long time ago.

My sadness vanished immidiately, replaced by a flutter in my chest. “Come down let's have dinner, I made some food for you, I want to see your lovely face before I leave,” My heart raced as I read the words, and I smiled wondering what he meant by this.

Was he missing me?

I stepped down from my bed and rushed to the mirror to check my outfit, I was putting on a blue short jeans and my favorite soccer club Red Jersey, I tucked the Jersey in a bit from the left side, I wanted to make sure my ass was showing and not fully covered, I tied my long brown wavy hair in a messy bun

I rushed out of the room and made my way downstairs, smiles still plastered on my face, I could feel his gaze on me as he sighted me, he was seated in the dining with his phone in his hands, and my brother Logan was seated beside him, I walked up to the dining and greeted my brother and greeted Gabriel too, I greeted him casually like we weren't devouring each other's lips some moments ago.

I sat down opposite Gabriel, and I took my plate and scooped out the white rice and chicken sauce that was on the dining table. I know Gabriel must have made it even if he didn't tell me because I know my brother was a very bad cook.

Gabriel's legs tickled me under the table and I couldn't help but blush, I felt my brother's eyes on me.

“Little demon, are you sick? Why are your cheeks coloring all of a sudden? Are you under the weather? He asked, a hint of amusement in his voice

I rolled my eyes at him and fixed them back on my food, the next thing he did made my pulse spike.

He picked up Gabriel's phone as if he had been trying to get hold of it for some time.

“Logan give me back my phone,” Gabriel's voice rang in my ears as he tried to get the phone back from Logan

“Never!!! I noticed how you were staring at your phone for close to twenty minutes before you started typing, it seems my best friend got a new catch,” he used one of his hands to block Gabriel while he turned the other side trying to go to a certain place on his phone.

Gabriel who tried dragging it with him and didn't want to push it further, gave up, he turned towards me and furrowed his eyebrows while twisting his lips, I looked at him pleading with my eyes for him to take the phone back from Logan, once Logan sees the message that Gabriel sent me, there is no way he wouldn't suspect or conclude that something is going on between us.

My spoon suddenly fell from my hand as I heard my brother gasp for air, his eyes widened and his eyebrows shot up as he stared at Gabriel, I was waiting for him to turn his focus on me but his eyes were locked on Gabriel.

I felt my heart tightening, this is bad, my brother can not find out, not when I feel my heart's desires about his best friend are about to come true. He suddenly broke the silence, putting the phone on Gabriel's face and his question made my heart twist more.

“Gabriel, what is this?”

- I want to mark this pussy

as Mine

[Ava]

“Gabriel,” what is this? Logan asked him stretching the phone to his face, his eyes scanned the item and he grabbed the phone back from Logan and then suddenly turned towards me

I'm very sure it's the test Gabriel sent me, but I was confused as to why Logan wasn't looking in my direction. I picked up my spoon which fell earlier and started picking on my food slowly while still trying to understand the situation.

“I thought you weren't seeing her again, how come you guys are still lovey-dovey on the phone,” Logan finally said.

Gabriel's eyes narrowed, his gaze fixed on him with a cold intensity that made me wonder what was going on, he turned his eyes back to his phone without responding to him, but Logan continued.

“So she was the one you were with on Friday night that made you avoid my calls huh?” he furrowed his brow at Gabriel and smirked.

I felt a knot tightening up in my chest, he was actually texting some other girl and here I was feeling excited that he kissed me, I was such a fool.

I ate the rest of my dinner in silence, a dull ache settled in my chest, a heavy feeling that weighed me down, the excitement I came down with suddenly died down and he noticed I wasn't as cheerful as I was when I came down earlier.

********

It's been a few days after my best friend's death anniversary. I visited her family and we spent some time together. I also visited her graveyard where I spent some time with her.

Meanwhile, I've been trying all I could to avoid Gabriel, since the day he called me down for dinner, I haven't set my eyes on him, whenever I noticed he was in my house I would lock myself up to make sure he doesn't get the idea of me being around.

I just got off work and it was raining. I had an umbrella but for some reason, I felt like walking under the rain. I felt at peace as the rain grazed my skin. I was shivering but I didn't care, that's just what I wanted.

I stood at the entrance of my house trying to put in the door password when the door swung open from inside, it was my brother Logan and he was holding an umbrella ready to step out.

“Ava, why are you drained, what's wrong,” he asked with concern etched on his tone.

He stepped back to the house and I made my way inside, he came back with a white towel and he wrapped it over my body.

“You're shaking Ava and your body temperature is high, what's wrong,” Logan asked me, still checking the time on his watch like he was running late

I shook my head and clutched the towel tighter to my body, I ignored him and walked over the stairs. The next name I heard from his mouth made me stop on my track, a name I didn't want to hear but I was happy to hear it, very stupid of me.

“Hey Gabe, please can you come over to my house and help me get some medication on your way here, my sister is feeling under the weather and I have a very important meeting with a client and I might not come back tonight, I can only leave her in your care and know she's safe,” he spoke on the phone.

He turned in my direction and noticed I was still standing and he walked towards me, “Ava, Gabriel will get you some medicine, take a hot shower, he will be here soon, I have to leave now,” he said while ruffling some part of my hair.

I looked at him and nodded. I had mixed emotions, I didn't know if I wanted Gabriel here or not, and I was still angry at myself for having my hopes high that he had a thing for me.

_______

I finished taking my shower and I wore my lace shorts that exposed my skin a bit and a black hoodie, it's been about thirty minutes since my brother left and I didn't see any sign of Gabriel, maybe he was still with one of his girlfriends, I thought to myself causing me to sigh loudly, it was 7 pm and my stomach was rumbling, I needed to fix myself something to eat.

I headed downstairs and went over to the kitchen where I quickly made some waffles and warm milk. I sat on the kitchen dinning table and ate until I was full. I checked the time and it was 7:45 pm, I was just continuously looking at the entrance door.

I cleaned up my plates and was about to head upstairs when the doorbell rang, I felt a flutter in my stomach, and at the same time heaviness settled in my chest, weigning me down, he must have finished with the important ones before heading over, a frown plastered on my face while I quickly reached for the door and pulled it open.

Gabriel walked in, he was dressed casually in a pair of blue jean trousers and a black shirt, he held a small bag in his hand and a little basket of fruit in the other hand.

He stared into my eyes, and our eyes locked for a moment. I didn't realize that he was still standing at the door and I was blocking the entrance.

“Can I come in,” he said, bringing me back to reality, his gray eyes piercing through my soul.

“Sorry,” I mouthed, I shifted and he made his way inside. I locked the door and watched as he went to the kitchen and came back with a bottle of water.

I was now sitting in the dining room trying as much as I could to avoid eye contact with him. He moved to where I was and asked if I had eaten. I said yes and he handed me some medication which was for fever and flu, I went ahead and took the medicine.

“Thank you,” I said to him, still trying to avoid eye contact.

“How are you feeling now? I got scared when your brother called me, I was in the middle of an important meeting but I had to reschedule,” he asked, staring into my eyes

“I'm much better now, you know my brother can be dramatic, It was nothing serious, after a hot shower I'm a lot better, maybe because I walked home in the rain,” I said to him trying to hide the bitterness in my heart every time I remember he had some girl he was having fun with

“Why did you have to walk under the rain, little doll,” he came closer to me and caressed my forehead, he raised my head which I bent down, I flung his hand away and bent down playing with my pinky finger.

“Look at me,” he commanded.”why do you always deny me the sight of your beautiful eyes,” he spoke in a gentle tone.

I ignored him, I stood up and wanted to make my way back upstairs when he pulled me back, and made me sit on his lap.

I widened my eyes, staring at him, but I couldn't utter any word, his gray eyes locked on mine, and he grazed my hair and shifted some strands of hair off my face.

“Why have you been avoiding me,” he asked, his hands still holding my waist tightly.

I ignored him and tried to stand up from his lap but his grip was so tight that after trying twice I had no option than to give up and just sit.

“Let me go, I want to rest,” I finally found my voice and rolled my eyes at him

“I don't think I can do that my little doll, I've missed you and I didn't know how to ask your brother about you,” he said, his hands caressing my exposed neck.

I felt a jolt of electricity pass through my body, I looked at him with a frown on my face, “you must have been occupied with your girlfriends, so I doubt you missed me,”

“Girlfriends,” he repeated after me and chuckled, he came closer to my ear and bit my earlobe, “were you jealous because of what your brother said the other day,” he whispered in my ear, a sultry heat rose up from my core, wrapping around me like a velvet embrace.

I rolled my eyes at him, even when he couldn't see me, he was still all over my neck caressing and kissing my earlobes.

He pulled back and locked his eyes on mine again, his eyes went down to my thighs which I was trying to press together, he used his hands to pull them apart and caressed my lap, his eyes still locked on mine, his hands slowly came up to my thighs, biting his bottom lip, I was holding my moan with all the strength in me.

He slid his hand into my shorts, and a smile escaped his lips when he noticed I wasn't putting on any panties, “seems you were ready for me.” He whispered and dug his hands further into me

My moan betrayed me and rushed out of my mouth, I saw myself throwing my head back, he made me stand up a bit and pulled my shorts off, his eyes were dark and filled with lust. He carried me over to the couch without saying anything, he sat on the couch and carried me up making me sit with my wet and naked pussy on his face.

My eyes widened by what he was about to do, I shifted my waist from his face and sat on his lap, “what are you trying to do?” I asked him, my brows furrowed in confusion.

“What does it look like I'm doing, my little doll,” his deep voice sent shivers down my spine, his eyes shone with warmth that made my heart skip a bit. “I want to mark this pussy as mine, and I'm going to eat it out till I see you squirt all over my face.”

My eyes widened in shock, What? How would he even feel when he finds out I'm still tight down there and haven't even felt a guy's tongue on me?