Chapter 2
I didn't sleep that night. At three a.m. I was sitting cross-legged on my kitchen floor, laptop balanced on my knees, digging through my old email.
"Okay," I whispered. "Where did this start?"
I typed *offer letter* into the search bar.
There it was. Three years ago. *Welcome to the Mercer Arts Foundation, Ms. Cole.*
I scrolled back further, to the job posting that had brought me in. I remembered being so grateful. Someone had sent me a link, or I'd stumbled on it. I'd never been sure which.
I clicked the source.
A site called ArtsCareerBoard. I'd never heard of it.
"I didn't apply here," I said to the empty room. "I never had an account here."
But the application had my résumé on it. My cover letter. Things I'd only ever sent to two museums and a gallery in Brooklyn.
I checked the posting date. Then I opened a new tab and looked up when Adrian bought the foundation.
The posting went live three days after the sale closed.
I read the requirements out loud, slowly, like they might rearrange themselves.
"Master's in art history. Strong cataloging skills. Orphanage background preferred."
I laughed. It came out sharp and ugly in the quiet kitchen.
"Who writes that? Who puts *that* in a job ad?"
Nobody. Nobody except someone who was fishing for exactly one person.
---
The gallery came next. I didn't want it to. But my brain dragged it up anyway.
Three months ago. A rainy Thursday in the East Village. I'd stood in front of a small gray painting for almost twenty minutes, because it reminded me of something I couldn't name.
Then a voice beside me.
"You've been standing in front of this one a long time. What's so special about it?"
I'd turned. Adrian Mercer. My boss's boss's boss, holding two flutes of champagne like he'd been waiting for someone.
"I don't know," I'd told him. "It feels like a place I've been."
He'd handed me one of the glasses. "Then you should keep looking."
I'd gone home that night and called my friend from grad school, giddy as a teenager.
"He just *happened* to be there," I'd said. "Can you believe it?"
Now I pulled up the gallery's ownership records. It took eleven minutes and a public filing.
Majority shareholder: Mercer Group.
I shut the laptop so hard the screen bounced.
"Happened to be there," I muttered. "Sure he did."
---
I tried to stop there. I really did.
But on Wednesday, riding the train to work, another memory surfaced. Older. Sophomore year of college. Walking home from the library after midnight. Footsteps behind me, matching mine. Speeding up when I sped up.
Then the screech of tires. A black sedan. A man in a dark coat jumping out and slamming my follower into a brick wall.
By the time I'd turned around, the sedan was gone.
The cop who took my report had shrugged at me across his desk.
"Guy ran off. You got lucky, kid."
"Who was in the car?" I'd asked.
"Some Good Samaritan. Be grateful."
That night I searched the archives of my college paper. There was a short item, buried on page six. *Student followed near campus. Witness reports black sedan.* Someone had snapped a blurry photo of the plate.
I zoomed in. Ran it through a public vehicle registry.
Registered owner: Mercer Group.
My fingers went numb on the trackpad.
"Okay," I said, and my voice wobbled. "Okay. Maybe he's... maybe it's a coincidence. Big company. Lots of cars."
I didn't believe a single word.
---
On Friday, Adrian called me at four in the afternoon.
"I'm stuck in a board meeting until seven," he said. "There's a blue folder on my desk at home. Drop it at the office for me?"
"Your home?"
"The doorman knows you're coming." A pause. "You've been quiet this week, Avery."
"Busy," I said.
"Mm." I could hear him smiling. "Blue folder. Don't get lost."
---
His study was all dark wood and silence. I spotted the blue folder right away.
But next to it sat a brown envelope, flap open, papers spilling from the mouth.
The top sheet had a typed header.
*PROJECT AVERY.*
I didn't decide to sit down. My legs just folded, and I was on the rug with the envelope in my lap.
My birth certificate. A record from a children's hospital in California. Every evaluation St. Mary's ever wrote about me. *Withdrawn. Bright. Nightmares, recurring.* The names of every teacher I'd ever had. Every dorm, every apartment, every address. The names of the three guys I'd dated. A chart of what time I left my building each morning.
"Seven-forty," I read aloud. "Seven-forty-five on Fridays."
It was right. All of it was right.
This file knew me better than I did.
At the very back, tucked behind a paper clip, was one more photograph.
A young man with his arm around a young woman. The Golden Gate Bridge behind them. Both of them laughing like the world had just told them a joke. His face was smooth and unmarked. She held a baby against her chest.
The baby was wrapped in a blanket with tiny blue flowers and a thin gold border.
I knew that blanket.
Every nightmare I'd ever had, there was a piece of that cloth. Torn. Wet. Slipping out of my hands.
"Mom," I said. Just that. Just once.
Tears rolled off my chin and hit the photo, one after another, beading on the glossy surface. I didn't make a sound. I didn't think I could have if I'd tried.
The door opened.
I didn't jump. I just lifted my head.
Adrian stood in the doorway, still in his meeting suit. Three hours early. He looked at me. At the papers fanned across his rug. At the photograph shaking in my hands.
No surprise crossed his face. No panic. His shoulders didn't even shift.
He just watched me, quiet, almost gentle, the way you'd watch someone wake up from a long fever.
"You knew," I said. My voice scraped out of me like gravel. "You always knew who I was."
He didn't deny it.
He walked in, stepped carefully around the scattered pages, and crouched down in front of me until our eyes were level. Close enough that I could see a faint tiredness at the corners of his mouth.
"Avery," he said softly. "I've known you since you were five years old."
Chapter 3
He didn't explain. That was the worst part.
After those words, Adrian stood, set his car keys on the desk beside me, and walked out of his own study. I sat on his rug until midnight, waiting for him to come back.
He never did.
For three days, he didn't come to the foundation either. His office stayed dark. His parking spot stayed empty.
"Is Mr. Mercer sick?" Priya from accounting asked on Tuesday, leaning over my cubicle wall.
"Traveling, I think," I said.
"You think? You're the one he drives home."
"He drove me home once."
She raised an eyebrow and walked off. I went back to lot fifty-two. A silver tea set, minor dents on the lid. I typed it twice because my hands kept hitting the wrong keys.
At night I lay awake and stared at my ceiling. Every time my eyes closed, I saw the flipped car. The rain. Then Adrian, crouched in front of me, his voice so soft.
*I've known you since you were five years old.*
---
On the fourth night, I stayed late again. Pretending was easier with work in front of me.
At ten-forty, a door opened down the hall.
Voices drifted out of the small conference room next to the copy machine. One of them froze me in my chair.
Adrian.
I slipped off my shoes and crept closer in my socks. The door stood open an inch. I pressed my shoulder to the wall and held perfectly still.
"She doesn't remember anything," Adrian said.
His voice was low. Flat. Cold in a way I'd never heard from him, not even when he fired someone.
"Nothing about what happened back then. Not a single piece."
"You're sure?" A second man. Deeper, rougher. I knew that voice from board meetings. Marcus Hale, Adrian's business partner. "Because if she's digging, Adrian..."
"I'm sure."
"How sure?"
"The medication has never stopped. The orphanage is still watching her file." A pause. Papers shifting. "Once the Havilland document is in our hands, we send her back."
Havilland.
My heart stuttered, like it had missed a stair in the dark.
I'd seen that name once. Only once. On a faded line in my St. Mary's file. *Mother's maiden name: Elena Havilland.*
"And if she doesn't go quietly?" Marcus asked.
"She will."
"You've gotten soft on this one."
"Careful, Marcus."
"I'm just saying. Driving her home. Tucking her hair behind her ear. People talk."
Silence. Long enough that I thought they'd heard me.
Then Adrian spoke again, quieter. "She'll go back. That's the plan. It's always been the plan."
My fingernails dug into the wooden doorframe. A splinter slid under one of them. I barely felt it.
*Send her back.* Back where?
I pulled away from the door one inch at a time. My knees wobbled the whole way to my desk. I dropped into my chair and wrapped my arms around myself, but the shaking only got worse.
*Medication.*
I took a pill every morning. A small white one. St. Mary's had started me on it when I was six. *For your nightmares, sweetheart.* When I aged out, a clinic kept refilling it. I'd never once asked who paid.
I shut my eyes and reached for anything before age five. A face. A song. A kitchen.
There was only the wall. Thick and smooth. The second I pushed at it, pain split my skull from temple to temple, so sharp I bit my tongue.
I tasted copper.
And suddenly, I understood.
I hadn't built that wall. Somebody built it for me. Brick by brick. Pill by pill. For twenty-one years.
I grabbed my bag, shoved my feet into my shoes, and ran for the stairs instead of the elevator.
---
"Avery? It's almost midnight..."
Tessa barely had the door open before I threw my arms around her.
Tessa Grant. My college roommate. We'd split a cramped apartment after graduation until she moved across town last spring. Every secret I'd ever been too scared to say out loud, I'd said to her.
"He's been lying to me," I gasped into her shoulder. "Adrian. He knew me. He knew me from the very start, Tess."
She rubbed slow circles on my back. "Okay. Okay, breathe. Come inside."
"He has a file on me. My whole life. Where I lived, who I dated..."
"Hey." She pulled back and cupped my face in both hands. Her eyes were wide and warm. "Slow down. Tell me everything. I'm right here."
So I told her. The photo. The safe. The job posting. The sedan. The conversation I'd just overheard.
She listened with her lip caught between her teeth. When I reached the part about the pills, she squeezed my hand hard.
"That's insane," she whispered. "That's actually insane, Avery."
"I know."
"Who's Marcus?"
"His partner. Marcus Hale."
Something flickered across her face. Gone in a blink.
"Go wash up," she said gently. "You've got mascara down to your chin. I'll make tea."
---
The bathroom light buzzed. I splashed cold water on my face until my cheeks stung. In the mirror my eyes were red and swollen, but at least I'd stopped shaking.
*Tessa's here,* I told my reflection. *You're not alone.*
When I stepped back into the living room, she was in the kitchen, her back to me, filling the kettle.
Her phone lay on the arm of the couch. The screen was lit.
I wasn't snooping. The message was just so short. It landed in my eyes before I could look away.
**To: Marcus Hale**
*She found out. Keep her calm.*
The room tilted.
Cold poured down my spine like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my head. My fingers went numb. My toes went numb.
Behind me, the kettle clicked on.
"Avery?" Tessa called. "You okay? Want honey in yours?"
I didn't answer.
"Hey." Her slippers whispered across the floor. "Honestly, don't go home tonight. Stay here. I'll sleep next to you, like old times."
I turned around slowly.
And I smiled.
It surprised me how easy it was. Like my face had been waiting years for this exact lie.
I crossed the room and wrapped my arms around her. I pressed my cheek into her shoulder, right where I'd cried ten minutes ago.
"Okay," I said. "Thank you, Tessa. I don't know what I'd do without you."
"You'll never have to find out." She hugged me tighter.
My eyes were dry. So dry they ached.
---
She fell asleep at one-fifteen, curled on her side of the bed, one hand resting on my arm. Like a guard.
I lay still and listened to her breathe. In. Out. Even and calm.
And one by one, I went through every person who had ever been kind to me.
The St. Mary's nurse who handed me my pills each morning. The professor who wrote my glowing recommendation. The landlord who knocked a hundred dollars off my rent for no reason. The stranger in the dark coat who saved me on that sidewalk.
Tessa, who found me crying alone in our dorm the first week of freshman year and asked if I wanted a roommate.
Had any of them been real?
I had never been lucky. I had been hunted. Herded. Kept.
And my best friend wasn't my safe place.
She was the lock someone had put on my cage.
At four a.m., Tessa's phone buzzed on the nightstand.
She didn't stir.
I leaned over, slow as I could, and read the new message glowing in the dark.
**Marcus Hale:** *Adrian's on his way. Don't let her leave.*