Chapter 1

The bucket tipped. Dirty water spread across the marble floor in a slow, deliberate wave, soaking the hem of my dress and pooling around my knees.

I didn't look up.

"Clumsy," someone muttered above me. A woman's voice, high-ranking by the silk rustle of her gown. Her shoes clicked past, careful to avoid the mess I was already kneeling in.

I reached for the bucket. My hands — scarred silver along the forearms, the skin puckered and shiny where it had healed wrong — closed around the handle. I righted it. Wrung out the rag. Started again.

The Shadowcrest pack house woke before dawn, and I woke before it did. That was the rule now. Omega labor. Scrubbing floors, emptying trash, polishing banisters that no one but me would ever touch. The work wasn't hard. The invisibility was.

I used to walk these halls as the pack's lead Healer. People stepped aside when they saw me coming. They asked my opinion. They remembered my name.

Now they kicked over my bucket and didn't break stride.

My wolf stirred faintly in the back of my mind, a tired, muted presence. She didn't speak much anymore. I didn't blame her. There wasn't much to say.

I scrubbed in silence, my knees aching against the cold stone. The sun hadn't risen yet. The pack house was still dim, lit only by the low glow of sconces along the walls. My reflection wavered in the wet marble — a pale, thin girl with dark circles under her eyes and hair pulled back in a braid that had come half undone.

I looked away.

Footsteps on the staircase. Light, measured, deliberate.

I knew who it was before I saw her.

Ariella Perkins descended the main staircase like she was walking onto a stage. Her dress was cream-colored, perfectly tailored, her hair swept up in an elaborate twist. She paused on the landing, one hand resting lightly on the banister, and looked down at me.

She didn't say anything. She didn't have to.

Her lips curved, just slightly. Satisfaction, quiet and cold.

I kept scrubbing.

She watched for another moment, then continued down the stairs, her heels clicking softly against the stone. She passed within three feet of me. I smelled her perfume — something floral and expensive, layered over the faint, bitter edge of her wolf.

She didn't acknowledge me. She never did, not directly. That was part of it. The cruelty wasn't loud. It was a slow, steady pressure, like a hand on the back of your neck that never quite pushed you under but never let you surface either.

I waited until she was gone. Then I sat back on my heels, rag dripping in my hand, and let myself breathe.

---

The medical ward smelled like antiseptic and dying things.

I pushed open the door to my father's room and found him asleep, his breathing shallow and uneven. The monitor beside his bed beeped softly, a rhythm I had memorized weeks ago. Too slow. Too weak.

I pulled a chair close and sat down, reaching for his hand. His fingers were cold.

"Eva."

I turned. Maren Cole stood in the doorway, a clipboard tucked under one arm. She was older than me by a decade, her hair streaked with gray, her face lined with the kind of exhaustion that came from years of watching people suffer and being unable to stop it.

She had been my mentor once. Now she barely looked at me.

"How is he?" I asked, though I already knew.

Maren hesitated. She glanced at my father, then back at me. "Without the wolfsbane compound, he won't last two weeks."

I nodded slowly. My throat felt tight.

"Has the Alpha approved the treatment?"

"No."

The word landed like a stone.

I looked down at my father's hand in mine. His skin was thin, almost translucent. I could see the veins beneath, blue and fragile.

"I'll talk to him," I said quietly.

Maren's expression flickered — something that might have been pity, or guilt, or both. "Eva—"

"I'll talk to him," I repeated.

She didn't argue. She just nodded and left.

I sat there for a long time, holding my father's hand, listening to the monitor beep. My wolf stirred again, restless and uneasy.

I didn't let myself think about what Hayes would ask for in return.

---

Hayes' office was on the third floor, at the end of a long corridor lined with portraits of former Alphas. I walked past them without looking up. Their painted eyes followed me anyway.

The door was open.

Hayes sat behind his desk, broad-shouldered and immovable, his dark hair swept back, his jaw set. He didn't look up when I entered. Rowan Voss stood beside him, arms crossed, his expression flat and unreadable.

I stopped a few feet from the desk and waited.

Hayes finished whatever he was reading. Then, slowly, he lifted his gaze.

His eyes were the color of smoke. Once, I had thought they were beautiful.

"Eva," he said. His voice was low, controlled, edged with something I couldn't name. "What do you want?"

I swallowed. My hands were shaking. I clasped them behind my back.

"My father needs the wolfsbane compound," I said. "Healer Cole says he won't survive without it. I'm formally petitioning for Alpha authorization."

Silence.

Hayes leaned back in his chair, his expression unreadable. Rowan shifted his weight slightly, watching me.

"You're petitioning," Hayes repeated softly.

"Yes."

He studied me for a long moment. Then he smiled, thin and cold.

"Ariella is experiencing complications with her pregnancy," he said. "Dangerous complications. She needs a full restorative healing ritual. You're still the most gifted healer this pack has, rank or no rank."

My stomach dropped.

"You want me to heal her," I said slowly.

"I want you to save her," Hayes corrected. "Do that, and I'll authorize your father's treatment."

I stared at him. My wolf snarled weakly in the back of my mind.

"And if I refuse?"

Hayes' smile didn't waver. "Then your father dies."

The room was very quiet.

I thought of my father's cold hand. The monitor's slow beep. The way Maren wouldn't meet my eyes.

I thought of Ariella's smile on the staircase.

"I'll do it," I whispered.

Hayes nodded, satisfied. "Rowan will escort you to Ariella's quarters this evening."

I turned and walked out before he could see my hands shake.

---

Ariella's quarters were on the second floor, in the east wing where the high-ranking wolves lived. The room smelled like lavender and expensive candles. She was reclining on a chaise near the window, one hand resting lightly on her abdomen, her expression serene.

She looked up when I entered and smiled.

"Eva," she said softly. "Thank you for coming."

I didn't answer. I crossed the room and knelt beside the chaise, my scarred hands hovering over her stomach.

"This will take some time," I said quietly.

"Take all the time you need," Ariella murmured.

I closed my eyes and let my gift rise. Heat spread through my palms, a slow, pulling sensation that always left me drained. I channeled it into her, feeling for the life inside.

There was something there. Faint. Fragile.

I worked in silence, sweat beading on my forehead. Ariella lay still, her breathing even, her gaze fixed on the ceiling.

When I finally pulled back, my hands were trembling. My vision swam.

"It's done," I whispered.

Ariella's smile widened, just slightly.

"Thank you, Eva," she said.

I stood, unsteady, and left without looking back.

I didn't see the servant slip into the medical supply room later that evening, a sealed vial in hand.

I didn't see Ariella's smile as she watched the door close behind me.

I didn't know, yet, what I had just traded my father's life for.

Chapter 2

The medic's voice cracked through the mind-link at three in the morning.

*Eva. Come now. Your father—*

I was already running.

The medical ward was too bright, the fluorescent lights harsh and clinical. I shoved through the door to my father's room and stopped.

He was convulsing.

His body arched off the bed, muscles locked, veins standing out dark against his skin. The monitor screamed. Two medics held him down, their faces white.

"What happened?" My voice didn't sound like mine.

Maren looked up, her hands pressed against my father's chest. "I don't know. He was stable an hour ago. Then he just—" She broke off as another convulsion ripped through him.

I pushed past her and grabbed his hand. It was burning.

My wolf surged forward, frantic. This wasn't the wolfsbane deficiency. This was something else. Something toxic, corrosive, eating through his system from the inside.

"Eva, his wolf spirit—" Maren's voice was shaking. "It's collapsing. I've never seen anything like this."

I closed my eyes and let my gift rise. Heat flooded my palms, pulling, searching. I pushed it into him, following the threads of his wolf spirit, trying to find the source.

Poison.

It was everywhere. In his blood, his organs, wrapped around his wolf like a strangling vine. Designed to mimic natural deterioration until it was too late to stop.

I fought it for hours.

My hands shook. Sweat dripped into my eyes. I poured everything I had into him, trying to pull the poison out, trying to stabilize what was left. The other medics moved around me, administering treatments, adjusting monitors. Nothing worked.

My father's eyes opened once. Just for a moment.

He looked at me. His lips moved, shaping words he didn't have breath to speak.

Then his wolf let out one final, broken howl — a sound that came from somewhere deep and shattered — and went silent.

The monitor flatlined.

I didn't let go of his hand.

Someone was speaking. Maren, maybe. Saying something about time of death, about procedures. I didn't hear her.

I sat there, holding my father's cooling hand, and felt something inside me go very, very still.

---

The morning came without permission.

I was still in the chair beside my father's bed when the pack house began to wake. Someone had covered him with a sheet. I didn't remember when.

Footsteps in the hallway. Voices, low and urgent.

The door opened. Rowan Voss stepped inside, his expression flat. "The Alpha wants you in the great hall. Now."

I looked at him. My voice came out hoarse. "My father just died."

"I know." He didn't sound sorry. "The Alpha is waiting."

I stood slowly. My legs were numb. I followed him out, leaving my father behind.

---

The great hall was already full.

Pack members lined the walls, their faces curious, wary. Hayes stood at the front, his expression carved from stone. And beside him, Ariella.

She was pale, her hand resting lightly on her stomach. Her eyes were red-rimmed, as if she'd been crying.

She looked at me as I entered. Something flickered across her face — satisfaction, maybe, or triumph — gone so quickly I almost thought I'd imagined it.

"Eva Turner." Hayes' voice cut through the murmur of the crowd. "Step forward."

I walked to the center of the hall. My hands hung at my sides, still trembling faintly from the hours of failed healing.

Ariella's voice broke the silence. It was soft, shaking. "I lost the pup."

The hall went quiet.

"Yesterday," she continued, her hand pressing against her abdomen. "I started bleeding. The healers tried to stop it, but..." She trailed off, her voice catching. "It was too late."

Hayes' jaw tightened. He didn't look at me.

"The medical records show the healing ritual was performed incorrectly." Ariella's voice was stronger now, edged with something cold beneath the grief. "Eva's technique was reckless. Dangerous. She destabilized the pup's connection to my wolf."

I stared at her. "That's not—"

"Silence." Hayes' Alpha tone slammed into me like a physical blow. My throat locked. The words died before I could speak them.

Ariella produced a folder, handing it to Hayes. He opened it, scanning the pages. His expression darkened.

"These records are clear," he said quietly. "The ritual was botched. The energy transfer was uncontrolled. You destabilized a pregnant wolf's spirit."

"No." The word came out strangled, forced past the Alpha command still pressing on my throat. "I followed protocol. I was careful—"

"You killed my pup." Ariella's voice cracked, tears spilling down her cheeks. Real tears, or a performance so perfect it didn't matter. "You were jealous. You wanted to hurt me."

The crowd shifted. Whispers spread like wildfire.

I tried to speak again. Hayes' Alpha tone tightened, crushing the air from my lungs.

"Eva Turner," he said, his voice cold and final. "You are hereby charged with Healer malpractice resulting in the loss of life. You are stripped of all remaining privileges and remanded to detention pending further investigation."

I couldn't breathe. Couldn't move.

Rowan stepped forward, gripping my arm. His fingers dug into the scarred skin.

"My father," I managed, the words barely a whisper. "He was poisoned. Someone—"

"Your father's death is not relevant to this proceeding," Hayes said flatly.

Not relevant.

I looked at Ariella. She met my gaze, her expression serene beneath the tears.

And she smiled.

Just slightly. Just enough.

Rowan dragged me toward the side door. The crowd parted, silent now, their eyes following me.

I didn't fight. There was no point.

My father was dead. Ariella's lie was already truth. And Hayes — my fated mate, the man the Moon Goddess had chosen for me — had just condemned me without letting me speak a single word in my own defense.

The door closed behind me.

And I realized, with a clarity that felt like drowning, that I had never been his mate at all.

Chapter 3

They didn't take me to a cell.

Rowan dragged me through the side corridors, away from the great hall, away from the murmuring crowd. Two more enforcers fell into step behind us. I didn't recognize them. Their faces were blank, professional. They had done this before.

We stopped in a room I'd never seen. Stone walls. A single table in the center, heavy and scarred. No windows.

Rowan shoved me forward. I stumbled, catching myself against the edge of the table.

"Hands," he said.

I looked at him. My voice came out flat. "What?"

"Put your hands on the table."

I didn't move.

One of the enforcers grabbed my left arm, wrenching it forward. The other took my right. They slammed my palms down against the stone, holding them flat. I tried to pull back. Their grip tightened, fingers digging into my wrists.

The door opened.

Ariella stepped inside.

She had wiped away the tears. Her face was calm now, composed. She crossed the room slowly, her heels clicking softly against the stone. She stopped a few feet from the table and looked down at my outstretched hands.

"I didn't want this," she said softly.

I stared at her. My wolf snarled weakly in the back of my mind, too exhausted to do more.

"You're lying," I whispered.

Ariella's expression didn't change. "You brought this on yourself, Eva. You were always going to self-destruct. I just... helped it along."

She nodded once.

Rowan moved. He lifted something from the floor — a cloth bundle, wrapped tight. He set it on the table beside my hands and unwrapped it slowly.

Shattered glass. Dozens of pieces, jagged and glittering. And threaded through them, thin silver wire, coiled and sharp.

My stomach dropped.

"No," I said. My voice cracked. "No, please—"

Rowan didn't look at me. He gathered the glass and wire into his hands, the edges cutting into his palms. He didn't flinch.

"Hold her steady," he said.

The enforcers pressed down harder. My hands were pinned, fingers splayed, completely exposed.

I looked past Ariella, toward the door. Hayes stood there.

He was watching.

Our eyes met. Just for a moment.

I didn't beg. I didn't plead. I just looked at him, my fated mate, the man the Moon Goddess had chosen, and waited for him to stop this.

He looked away first.

Rowan brought the glass down.

The pain was immediate, white-hot, obliterating. The shattered edges tore into my palms, my fingers, grinding deep. The silver wire burned, searing through skin and muscle, burrowing into tendon and bone. I felt something snap in my left hand. Then my right.

I didn't scream.

I bit down on my tongue until I tasted blood. My vision blurred. My wolf howled, a sound that came from somewhere deep and broken, and then went silent.

Rowan twisted the glass, pressing it deeper.

I heard bone crack.

The enforcers held me down. Ariella watched, her expression serene. Hayes stayed in the doorway, his face carved from stone.

When Rowan finally pulled back, my hands were unrecognizable. Blood pooled on the table, dripping onto the floor. The silver contamination was already spreading, a dark, creeping stain beneath my skin.

My gift — the thing I had spent my entire life building, the only part of me that had ever mattered — was gone.

The enforcers let go. I collapsed forward, my ruined hands cradling against my chest. I couldn't feel my fingers. I couldn't feel anything except the silver, burning.

"Take her to the compound," Hayes said quietly.

Rowan hauled me upright. I couldn't stand. He dragged me toward the door.

I looked back once.

Ariella was smiling.

---

The vehicle was dark, cold. I sat in the back, my hands wrapped in blood-soaked cloth. The motion made me sick. I pressed my forehead against the window and watched the pack house disappear behind us.

We drove for hours. The roads grew rough, unpaved. Trees closed in on either side, thick and lightless.

When we finally stopped, I was barely conscious.

Rowan opened the door and pulled me out. I fell to my knees in the dirt. He didn't help me up.

The compound loomed ahead — a low, concrete structure surrounded by chain-link fencing. Guard towers at each corner. Floodlights cutting through the dark.

A rogue detention facility. I'd heard of them. Places where Alphas sent wolves they wanted to forget.

Rowan handed me over to the guards without a word. They didn't ask questions. They just took my arms — careful to avoid my hands — and dragged me inside.

The halls smelled like mildew and old blood. They threw me into a cell at the end of the corridor. The door slammed shut. The lock clicked.

I lay on the floor, my hands throbbing, the silver burning deeper with every heartbeat.

I didn't know how long I stayed there. Days, maybe. Weeks. Time stopped meaning anything.

The guards came occasionally. They brought water, sometimes. Food, rarely. They asked questions I didn't answer. When I didn't speak, they left me in the dark.

The silver exposure was deliberate. I could feel it suppressing my wolf, pushing her further and further down. My hands didn't heal. The wounds festered, the bones knitting wrong, the tendons severed beyond repair.

I stopped counting days.

---

My wolf spoke to me in the isolation cell.

I had been moved there after I stopped responding to the guards' questions. It was smaller than the first cell, windowless, the walls pressing in. I sat in the corner, my hands cradled against my chest, and stared at nothing.

*Eva.*

Her voice was faint, threadbare.

I didn't answer.

*Eva, listen to me.*

I closed my eyes. "Go away."

*The bond,* she said. *It feels wrong.*

I opened my eyes slowly.

*It's hollow,* she continued. *Like a door that was locked from the other side. A long time ago.*

I didn't move. Didn't breathe.

*He did something,* my wolf whispered. *Before the fire. Before the tribunal. He did something to us, and we didn't feel it because we were already breaking.*

The realization settled over me, cold and clarifying.

Hayes had rejected the bond.

Not publicly. Not formally, in a way that would have let me feel it, fight it, survive it.

He had done it quietly. Secretly. Months ago, maybe. And he had let me go on believing the bond still existed, let me suffer under the weight of a connection that was already dead.

I had never been his mate.

I had been his mistake.

I sat there in the dark, my ruined hands throbbing, my wolf barely breathing, and felt something inside me finally, irrevocably break.

And in the breaking, I found something else.

Clarity.

My Alpha Rejected Me and Gave Me to Rogues

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