Chapter 4
"Seraphina, what are you thinking about?"
The memory shattered like ice struck by a stone.
I lifted my gaze to Fenris. "It's late. I should go."
I had no desire to stir old wounds, and even less to trade words with him.
He seemed thrown by the stillness in me, by the frost where fire used to be. For a long moment he just stood there, unmoving, as if the ground beneath him had shifted without warning.
I pulled my hand free from his grip. His fingers loosened reluctantly, and I caught the faintest tremor in them before I turned away. I walked home at my own pace, leaving him standing alone beneath the pale wash of moonlight, his scent of pine and iron fading behind me with every step.
The next day, I went to the finest ceremonial atelier in the Capital Territory, the one nestled on the eastern ridge where the master weavers crafted mating gowns threaded with silver and moonstone.
When I had first learned I was to be mated to Fenris, I had commissioned the most skilled weaver a full year in advance to craft my ceremony gown. Every moonstone bead, every silver clasp, every stitch of luminous embroidery along the bodice and train, I had chosen myself. I had run my fingers across the fabric samples, held them up to candlelight, imagined how the threads would catch the glow of the full moon on the night I would stand before the pack and receive his claiming bite.
Since I no longer intended to mate him, I wanted my gown back.
But the shop owner's face crumpled with unease, her hands twisting in her apron. "The thing is... Alpha Ashcroft came and took that gown two days ago. I assumed he was collecting it on your behalf, since the arrangement was still..." She trailed off, reading my expression. "I'm so sorry, my lady."
My heart sank, slow and heavy, like a stone dropped into black water.
I knew exactly why Fenris had taken it.
He was about to mate Ivy Mossgrove. The ceremony had been thrown together in haste, rushed through before the current moon cycle ended, and nothing had been properly prepared. Of course there was no gown ready for her.
So he had given her mine.
The gown I had dreamed over. The gown I had poured a year of hope into, bead by bead, thread by thread. He had draped it over the shoulders of the she-wolf who had stolen my place, as casually as tossing a cloak to a servant.
My inner wolf, who had been so quiet these past days, so still that I had almost feared she had gone dormant, stirred with a low, aching whimper that turned into something harder. Something with teeth.
The attendant beside me was so furious she stamped her feet against the stone floor. She seized my hand, her voice already thick with tears. "My lady! How dare he! We should go to the Ashcroft Den and take it back!"
But I only said, my voice steady as river stone, "I don't want something that's been dirtied by another wolf's touch. But mark my words. He'll pay it back. Every last thread."
I returned home with my attendant, and the moment I stepped through the front entrance of the Nighthollow Den, I caught an unfamiliar scent in the main hall. Sour and sharp, like overripe berries and cheap tallow. Two strangers sat on the receiving chairs, both wearing fawning smiles that showed too many teeth. The man was stocky and barrel-chested, his beard thick and unkempt, covering half his face. He reeked of low-rank musk and something greedy beneath it. My wolf's hackles rose immediately.
"Father, Mother, who are they?" I asked, bewildered.
The woman's face lit up the instant she saw me, her eyes darting over me with a calculating gleam. "So this is little Seraphina! I'm a distant cousin of your bloodline, barely connected anymore, truth be told. I heard that Ashcroft boy rejected your mating arrangement, and I was worried you'd get matched with some worthless, packless drifter, so I brought my son here to make a proper introduction!"
Every muscle in my body went rigid. I stared at her in disbelief. My wolf pressed against the inside of my ribs, snarling.
"Throw them out!" My mother was on her feet in an instant, trembling with rage. Her own wolf surfaced in the flash of amber that burned through her eyes. "Throw these shameless wretches out of my den!"
The woman panicked as the pack guards stepped forward, their shoulders squared and jaws tight. "Now hold on! Luna Nighthollow, don't get offended by plain talk. Everyone in the Capital Territory knows your daughter was promised to that Ashcroft heir since they were pups. Seraphina's reputation is already ruined. What decent Alpha would want her now? And that intended mate of hers is so brazen he's taking a secondary mate before the mating ceremony even happens! If he'll humiliate her like this before she's even received his mark, what kind of life do you think she'll have after?"
She pressed on without pausing for breath, her words tumbling out in a desperate rush. "Better to take in a mate who'll live here under your roof. My boy is honest and hardworking. After he mates Seraphina, he can stay right here at the Nighthollow Den. Your daughter stays by your side, you keep your pack whole. Everybody wins!"
"That's right!" The man leaned forward, nodding eagerly. "I'd treat Seraphina real good."
I looked into his eyes and saw nothing but lust and greed, naked and undisguised, the hunger of a scavenger circling something wounded. My wolf surged beneath my skin, and revulsion crashed through me like a wave of nausea.
I raised my hand and slapped him across the face with everything I had.
The crack echoed through the hall. He recoiled, sputtering, a red welt already blooming across his cheek. "You, you hit me!"
"So what if she hit you?" A low, cold voice cut through the room like a blade drawn from a sheath. "She could rip the tongue out of your head and you'd deserve it."
My entire body went stiff. I turned around.
It was Fenris.
He strode through the entrance of the Nighthollow Den with a face like a gathering storm, and the air in the hall changed. It thickened. Grew heavy. His Alpha aura rolled outward from him in a crushing wave, and I watched the color drain from the strangers' faces as the pressure bore down on them like a physical weight. He closed the distance between himself and the pair step by deliberate step, his eyes blazing molten gold, and the fury radiating off him was suffocating. The woman let out a choked whimper. The man's legs buckled beneath him and he dropped to the stone floor with a heavy, graceless thud, his body folding into involuntary submission, head bowed, shoulders hunched, unable to resist the sheer dominance pouring off the Ashcroft heir.
Fenris spoke through clenched teeth, every word carved from ice. "Seraphina Nighthollow is my mate. That is a fact no one can change. If I hear so much as a whisper of you sniffing around her again, I won't be this generous."
He flicked his wrist in dismissal. The two of them scrambled over each other in their haste to flee, practically crawling through the doorway on hands and knees, the man's sour scent trailing behind him like a stain. The hall fell deathly silent.
Then Fenris turned to me, and just like that, his expression softened. The gold faded from his eyes, leaving them that deep, familiar grey. He smiled. "Seraphina. Are you alright?"
I looked at the concern on his face, and for one disorienting moment, the world tilted beneath my feet.
He looked exactly like the boy he used to be. The young Alpha who couldn't stand to see me wronged, who would have thrown himself between me and any threat without a heartbeat's hesitation. The one whose scent had once meant safety, whose presence had once meant home.
My wolf went very, very still. And said nothing at all.
Chapter 5
But in the next breath, Fenris extended his hand, and between those long, aristocratic fingers rested an invitation card. The parchment was dyed the deep crimson of a blood moon, sealed with the Ashcroft Pack's silver wolf sigil. "The eighth," he said, his voice carrying the casual authority of an Alpha who had never been denied anything. "That is the night of my Secondary Mate Moon Ceremony." A deliberate pause, his amber eyes searching her face with the patience of a predator waiting for prey to flinch. "Seraphina, if you would like to attend—"
She heard her father's sharp intake of breath behind her. Aldric Nighthollow's scent, normally a steady undercurrent of aged oak and iron, spiked with something acrid and hot. Fury. The kind an Alpha swallowed only because the political cost of releasing it would be too great. Seraphina did not turn to look at him. She kept her gaze fixed on the invitation, on the names printed side by side in moonsilver ink: Fenris Ashcroft and Ivy Mossgrove. The packless orphan. The she-wolf Seraphina herself had once pulled from the jaws of rogues and sheltered beneath her family's roof.
And yet, strangely, she felt nothing.
Her inner wolf, who had spent moons howling in anguish over this male, lay utterly still. Not a whimper. Not a snarl. Just a vast, cold silence, like the surface of a frozen lake. Seraphina did not know whether that stillness was healing or something worse, but she was grateful for it.
She reached out and took the invitation from his hand. Her fingers did not tremble. Her voice emerged flat, stripped of warmth, stripped of anything at all. "The Nighthollow household has been rather occupied of late. I am not certain I will have the time."
Fenris blinked. The faintest crease appeared between his dark brows, as though she had spoken in a language he did not recognize. "Occupied?"
"My father is arranging my mating," Seraphina said calmly.
Finding me a new Alpha. A worthy one.
The words hung between them like smoke. She watched the uncertainty dissolve from Fenris's expression, watched it melt away and reform into something almost smug. The corner of his mouth twitched. His amber eyes softened with a confidence so absolute it bordered on cruelty. He assumed, she realized with a distant clarity, that she meant she was waiting for him. That her father's frantic efforts were merely a ploy to draw Fenris back, to remind him of what he was discarding. That she would always be waiting. That she would always be his.
His wolf's scent, cedarwood and steel and moonlight, brushed against her senses one final time as he turned away. She watched him stride down the stone path of the Nighthollow courtyard, unhurried, self-assured, the Alpha aura around him settling like a cloak of absolute certainty. He did not look back. He had never needed to look back at anything he believed would always be there.
Seraphina watched until his broad shoulders disappeared beyond the iron gate, until the last trace of cedarwood faded from the air. Then she slowly closed her eyes.
The silence he left behind was not empty. It was full of everything she refused to feel.
Time was brutally short. The Blood Moon deadline pressed against the Nighthollow household like a blade at the throat. An unmated Omega of noble blood, past her third Blood Moon after coming of age, with a shattered mating arrangement and the whispers of every pack in the Capital Territory trailing behind her like wolves scenting weakness. Aldric Nighthollow worked with a ferocity Seraphina had never seen from her father, calling in favors owed across decades, sending moon-sealed letters to every allied pack within riding distance. Elara, her mother, vetted each response personally, her sharp eyes scanning for any hint of cruelty or dishonesty in the correspondence.
In the end, her father secured a match, though the Alpha did not reside in the Capital Territory. Seraphina would have to travel far from home, deep into the ancient forests of Ashford Territory, a region known for its towering pines and mist-shrouded valleys. The Alpha in question was Kael Thornwood, heir to a respected old-blood pack of scholars and healers. Word carried through the pack networks painted a complicated portrait: he was kind-tempered, well-read, gentle in manner. But his inner wolf was said to be dormant, weakened by a childhood illness that had never fully released its grip. He was, by all accounts, frail. Some whispered he might not survive another winter.
By some twist of fate that felt less like coincidence and more like the Moon Goddess's dark humor, Seraphina's mating ceremony night fell on the very same evening Fenris Ashcroft was to claim Ivy Mossgrove as his secondary mate.
A light rain was falling that morning, the kind that turned the forest trails to silver and muffled the world in grey. Seraphina was helped into the mating procession convoy, her ceremonial cloak of white wolf-fur heavy on her shoulders, the traditional moonstone circlet cold against her brow. As the convoy lurched forward, pulled by the steady rhythm of the pack runners flanking its sides, the muffled sound of her parents' grief reached her through the rain. Her mother's weeping, raw and broken. Her father's silence, which was somehow worse.
Then she heard it.
Another set of ceremonial horns, rising from a different direction entirely, their notes bright and triumphant where hers were mournful and measured. She knew, with a certainty that settled like stone in her chest, that it was Fenris's procession. And she knew the she-wolf riding in that convoy was wearing the ceremonial gown that had been made for her. The one Elara Nighthollow had spent three moon cycles embroidering with silver thread and moonflower blossoms, the one that still carried the faintest ghost of Seraphina's scent in its folds.
The two processions passed each other on the forest trail between territories. Through the rain-streaked window of the convoy, Seraphina caught a flash of crimson and gold, the Ashcroft colors, moving in the opposite direction. An omen, the old wolves would have said. Two fates crossing like rivers that would never merge again.
It felt like something from another lifetime. Like watching a story that had once been hers play out for someone else, through fogged glass, at a great distance.
But it did not matter. She was leaving.
The convoy rocked gently over the root-tangled path, and the steady rhythm, combined with the whisper of rain against the wooden frame, pulled Seraphina down into a hazy, exhausted sleep. Her inner wolf curled tight within her, silent and still, guarding nothing but the hollow space where a bond had once tried to take root.
On the night of Fenris Ashcroft's Secondary Mate Moon Ceremony, the Alpha stood at the entrance of the Ashcroft Pack's great hall for a long time. The torches flanking the doorway guttered in the wind, casting his shadow long and restless across the stone steps. His amber eyes scanned the arriving guests, the pack wolves filing in with their heads respectfully lowered, the allied families taking their seats beneath the vaulted ceiling hung with crimson banners. He searched every face. He breathed in every scent that drifted through the open doors.
He waited so long that the ceremony officiant, a grey-muzzled elder she-wolf who had overseen Ashcroft bondings for forty years, finally approached him with a tight smile. "Alpha Fenris, if you do not proceed inside soon, you will miss the auspicious alignment. The moon waits for no wolf."
Fenris's jaw tightened. His gaze cut past her, still searching. "Why haven't I seen Seraphina Nighthollow?"
The officiant stared at him. "What?"
Fenris's dark eyes glittered with something restless, something that flickered between hunger and a strange, unhinged certainty. His wolf paced behind those eyes, agitated, ears pricked for a scent that was not there. "She cares about me that deeply," he said, and the words carried the absolute conviction of a wolf who had never questioned his own gravity. "Once she learned I was taking a secondary mate, she would come to witness it herself. She is probably hidden somewhere nearby right now, drowning in her own grief."
The officiant's face drained of color. The scent of her unease sharpened, sour and unmistakable. She stammered, her voice barely above a whisper. "But the Nighthollow girl's mating ceremony was held today. Her procession departed the Capital Territory hours ago. She is bound for Ashford, Alpha. She is gone."