Sakshi:

I slept on the balcony and I felt asharp pain on my shoulder. I opened my eyes and saw Randhir infront of me. I was scared of him remembering the last night torture.

"Get ready fast. You have to prepare break fast for me," Randhir said.

I tried to stand but unable to stand with the pain. My whole body ached very badly. But I have no one to hear my pain or to help me. Randhir, the one who loved me a lot is giving me this pain which is unbearable to me. I wiped my tears and tried to stand again.

"How much time do you need to stand up? I don't have all the day to wait for you," Randhir yelled at me.

"I ..I..am...unable...to...st....stan...stand..."

Randhir lifted me in his arms and dropped me in the washroom.

"Take a quick shower and come fast. You have only five minutes or you can't imagine what would I do to you," Randhir said. I took the shower as fast as I can and came out.

I took the embroidered sari which is on the shelf as I am a new bride.

"Do you want to attract anyone? I know that you love to attract people, but I won't allow you to do so because you are my wife now," said Randhir.

His words brought tears to me as I understood how cheap my character is to Randhir. However, I didn't dare to argue with him because if I open my mouth, the only answer I would receive is a slap from him to shut my mouth. Randhir threw a full length dress at my face which has full sleeves.

"Wear it. I know that you have grown up in money and that's the reason you became blind about relationships. So, from now you are going to lead a life which has no comforts. That will make you realize what you are and kills your pride," Randhir said.

I took the dress from his hands and went to change it.

Won't he forgive me ever? I don't know how long should I bear all this. His every word, his every act is killing me. I should change him. I should bring back my old Randhir in him who loves me a lot. But is it possible? Can I ever get that love back?

I wiped my tears and got ready. Randhir came to the room and saw me.

"Go and prepare the breakfast. You have no one to help here. You will be doing all the works in this house."

I was going to the kitchen and Randhir caught my wrist tightly at the place where he injured earlier and pulled me towards him. I screamed with pain. He caught my hairs.

"Look, When I say something you should answer me. I hate silence. Do you understand?"

"Okay. Please, leave me. It's hurting," I said.

"It's meant to hurt, my dear. I married you to torture you every second. I promise you that I will make tears your permanent companion. Now go and complete the work."

I nodded and walked calmly from there. I stood in the hall and Randhir came there.

"Why are you standing here like a statue without starting your work?"

"Where is the kitchen?" I said.

Randhir showed the way to the kitchen. I was in shock seeing the kitchen. It's totally a mess. I looked at him.

" Clean it, my beloved wife. Remember I want my whole house to be very clean and neat. Now clean it and prepare the breakfast. By the evening before I return, clean the entire house. If you don't complete the work I said by that time, you will die in my hands in the evening."

"I will do everything as you said."

I went to the kitchen and sighed seeing the dishes uncleaned. I washed everything and made the food for Randhir. He tasted it and threw it on the floor.

"Don't you know to do atleast one thing properly? I never saw a girl like you who doesn't know anything except to attract boys with her looks."

I clenched hearing his last words. Nowadays saying such words became common for him. I didn't understand how could he say such words that easily to a girl especially to his wife. However I know his attitude of respecting the women, and that's the quality which I liked in him the most when we were in love. He respects everyone except me. Because he thinks I don't deserve respect.

He went off to the office throwing the plate. I felt hungry as I didn't have anything from yesterday. I went and tasted the food.

The food tasted good. It means intentionally Randhir fired at me. After all, he doesn't need a reason to hurt me. He hurts me whenever he wants without any reason.

I remembered his words to clean the entire house. I had the breakfast fastly and started working. Until the evening, I worked continuously and cleaned everything. I felt tired and laid on the bed to rest. I don't know when I slept. I woke hearing a rude voice calling my name. I opened her eyes and saw Randhir.

He caught my hair making me to stand ul. I shouted with pain but of no use.

"How dare you to sleep without my permission? You should do everything only with my permission either it's sleeping or eating.

Get ready for the wedding party. We are leaving to the party now. Wear something which suits a new bride. Remember, you should behave there as my wife keeping up my respect. If you don't, you know well what I will do."

I nodded and got ready. He took me to the party by placing his hand over my waist. His nails pierced into my skin making me unable to bear. But I can't even shout or scream as we are in the party. He pulled me more closer and whispered in her ears.

"I gave you this pain to make you remember how to behave in the party. Don't show your old behaviour here."

I nodded controlling the tears. He made these tears my companion forever as he said. Whatever I do or don't, he would torture me to enjoy my tears. How could someone enjoy the tears of their beloved, if they truly love them? Are they blinded by their hatred or love is powerless before their hatred?

Sakshi:

I sat on a chair as Randhir left me there. I couldn't find where he is. I felt tired and what all I need is just a good sleep. However, I can't go without informing Randhir because if I do so, this would be my last day. Randhir came there with two glasses of wine.

"Have it, I brought it for you," Randhir said, shocking me.

"I quit wine," I said.

"Is it so Mrs. Randhir? Did you quit drinking before our marriage or after the marriage. I know well that you love having wine. Stop faking and have it. I am not going to say anything to you," Randhir said.

I remembered the past where I loved to have wine and how many times Randhir requested me to stop drinking as I lose the control over me after having the wine.

"I stopped drinking before our marriage," I said.

"No problem. Restart it now. I know how this party environment makes you crazy and happy. Do whatever you want, baby. Enjoy the party. I know well that you have no happiness with me. So, atleast be happy here," Randhir said.

I remembering my words which I said to Randhir in the past. I thought to reply him but a girl came to him asking for a dance. Randhir went with her and started dancing with her. I felt possessive seeing their dance. Randhir didn't like parties and his priority is always me and then, his business. However, he never stopped me from partying but always warned me to be cautious and he used to take lot of care about me and my safety. My eyes were about to rain but suddenly stopped hearing someone's voice.

"May I take the seat, Mrs. Randhir? By the way I am Randhir's former business partner, Nandagopal. You can call me Nandu."

"Hello," I said.

My eyes are on Randhir dancing with someone else but still observing me with anger. I was frightened but didn't understand what to do. I know he hates me talking to any guy whoever it is. Randhir stopped dancing and came to me.

"We are leaving," Randhir said.

"Hey, why are you leaving so early? After all it's your wedding party, Mr. Randhir," Nanda Gopal said.

Randhir gave a death glare to him and then, caught me hand dragging me to the car. We reached home and he dragged me to the room, throwing me on the floor.

"You will never change. If I am not with you for a few minutes, you have started flirting with another guy. How dare you to do that even after warning you to be in your limits?"

"I am sorry but I didn't talk anything with him. He just came and introduced himself. Trust me," I said.

"Shut up, you bloody bitch. I am not going to trust you. I will give you the punishment so that you would never do it again. Come with me," Randhir said.

I followed him silently praying to the God to save me. He took me to the kitchen and turned on the burner of the stove. I didn't understand what he is doing. He took a steel spatula and burnt it.

"Open your mouth," Randhir said, and I shivered listening his order. I tried to walk back but he grabbed my hand and squeezed it hard making me scream. As soon as I opened my mouth, he burnt my tongue with the hot spoon. I shouted out loud and fallen down on the floor sobbing.

"Remember, this is a very small punishment for now. Next time if I find you talking with any man other than me, you will face even more. Now get up and arrange the bed. Your second punishment will start there."

I got up slowly and did as he said. He laid on me and started torturing me. My body became an instrument for him to let go off his anger. He bit me and grazed my skin making me to shout more and more. He left me after 2 two hours. My entire body has marks of either his teeth or nails. I tried to get up but I couldn't. He left me in the room and went off downstairs. After sometime, I heard his car sound and understood that he went out.

I cried for the whole night feeling the pain on every part of my body. I tried and got up slowly. By catching the wall, I went slowly to the washroom and took a hot shower. I couldn't walk but slowly searched for Randhir in the house. I didn't understand where he is. Maybe he didn't return to the house the last night.

I tried calling Randhir but his mobile was swiched off. Two days passed off but he didn't reach home. I called to his office and they too said that they don't have any information. I gave a police complaint finally praying that Randhir should be b safe.

I got a call from the police and I went to the hospital which they told me. I saw him there. His legs and head has bandages.

"Someone admitted him here when he met with an accident. We recognised him as a great entrepreneur Mr. Randhir. We asked him to whom should we inform about his accident. But he told that he has no one to worry or care for him. So we appointed a nurse to take care of him," the doctor said to me and the police.

"Doctor, please discharge him. I am his wife. I will take care of him. You can provide the treatment at our home," I said.

Ok, Mrs. Randhir. Incase if you need a nurse, inform us."

"No, doctor. It's the time for me to pay back what he gave to me in the past. His love, his care and his affection, now it's time to show him. I will take care of him."

I went to Randhir and saw him sleeping. My eyes filled with tears and I caressed his hairs, placing a kiss on his forehead. He opened his eyes and saw me. Immediately he became angry.

"Why did you come here? Who told you that I am here? Get lost from here," Randhir said.

Why didn't you inform me? I am your wife and I should to take care of you," I said.

"You?? caring for me?? I still remember you leaving me when I need you the most. Don't act assuming that I will trust you again and will change my way of treating you. It never happens. I will surely kill you everyday for your betrayal."

I didn't answer him anything. I went out and asked doctor to discharge him. I brought him to the home. I tried to feed him but he jerked my hand and plate fell down of my hands.

"Randhir, please understand. You are not well. You need someone's help. Please take my help."

"Call to the hospital and inform them that I need a nurse," Randhir said.

"Nurse can't do everything which a wife can do. Why don't you understand that? Let me help you to recover fast. I am not asking you to trust me or forgive me. But please let me help you."

Randhir became calm listening to me. I brought the food again and slowly fed him. I gave tablets to him. In the mid of the night, Randhir started coughing continuously. I woke up immediately.

"Randhir, what happened to you? Please take this water."

I helped him to drink water and made him to sleep again. For one month, I treated him like a baby with utmost care and love. He recovered completely and started walking. The doctor came to test him.

"You have recovered completely, Mr. Randhir. You are very lucky to have a wife like Mrs. Sakshi. She is the only reason for your fast recovery," the doctor left saying this.

"Sakshi, Come here and sit near me. I want to talk to you," Randhir said.

I went to him with fear and sat near him.

"Thank you for helping me to recover fast. Do you really love me or you did everything only to pay me back," Randhir said.

"I did everything only to repay you and as your wife, it's my responsibility to take care of you. That's it. I don't love you."

Randhir laughed which showedhis pain and hopelessness. I controlled my tears as I don't want him to see my tears.

"I know about you. You don't love me. I know you will never change."

Saying this, he caught my hair and pulled it.

"I won't leave you easily till the truth comes out. How many times are you going to hurt me saying that you don't love me? However whether you love me or not, you should stay with me forever. Don't forget that."

He left the hold over my hairs and I immediately went out of the room to another room. I sat on the floor crying.

Randhir:

I love you, Sakshi. I love you so much. Why don't you understand that? Why do you hurt me always saying that you don't love me? Your eyes show love for me but why don't you accept it? I just want to know the truth behind you leaving me? If you love Ajay, then you didn't you marry him? Where is Ajay? Why did you agree to marry me? Is Ajay alive or dead? or did he betray you?

Sakshi:

I remembered Randhir's words asking me whether I love him or not.

Randhir, I love you. I love you so much. But I know even if I say that you won't trust me. I left you when you needed me the most and that was my biggest mistake. Please, forgive me once. I need just one chance.

I heard the sound of the drizzling and went out to the garden. Randhir stood on the balcony and seeing me from there. Rain drops fell all over me as if to comfort me from my sorrow. I closed my eyes and raised the head feeling that these rain drops cleanses my heart forever. My tears mixed with the rain and started flowing down. I sat on my knees and palmed my face crying. I cried heart fully I am holding these tears from a very long time.

Suddenly, I felt everything blank before me and fell unconscious.

Randhir:

I immediately went to Sakshi seeing her falling unconscious while crying in the rain. I brought her to the room and placed her on the bed. I tried to wake her up and she came into conscious after sometime. But, she looked at me with fear.

"Please, I am so tired. Please give me rest for today. I beg you," Sakshi said

She pleaded me with tears. I got angry but felt pity too at the sametime. What happened to me? Why did I become that worst where my wife fears for me even if I care for her?

"You are drenched in the rain. Change your dress. Otherwise you will fall sick. I woke you up for that," I said.

I noticed a small smile appearing on her lips.

"Didn't you hear me?" I said, raising my voice.

"Yes, I am going. I am sorry."

Sakshi said and went to change her dress.

Am I really that harsh towards her? She frightened seeing me. She is fearing with my touch. I didn't wake her up to fulfill my wish. But she thought that I am going to force myself on her. No, How can I do this to her? But no. She deserves the treatment I am giving to her. She is the one who changed me into a rude and cold hearted person. Hence, she is the one who has to face the consequences of my transformation.

Silent tears dropped from my eyes. Seeing her coming to the room, I turned another side.

"I will prepare the dinner for you," Sakshi said, but I pulled her towards me by holding her wrist.

"Why did you faint? I didn't even touch you all these days as I am on thebed. So it is not because of my torture. Then why did you faint? Are you not having food properly?" I said.

She didn't respond to me and tried to get free from my hold. I tightened the hold and pinned her to the nearby wall.

"Answer me, baby "

She frightened with the change in my voice and calling. I understood that she remembered that I calls her as baby only when I get angry with her.

I moved my finger from her forehead to the lips touching her cheeks and nose.

"I...am...on...fasting.."

"Today?" I said.

She didn't reply. I pressed myself towards her. There is no gap between me and Sakshi. She is breathing hardly as I placed my whole weight on her. She bent her head to avoid the eye contact with me. I made her to see me. I grasped her lips and started kissing it. I licked her lips and Sakshi clutched her fist. Though I hurt her with my touch but I still feel that she loves my touch as she feels my love rather than anger. I bent towards her neck and started kissing her all over the neck.

"Why are you on fast?"

I took the pin of her sari and took it from her blouse. She unknowingly answered me.

"For u. I prayed that I will be on fast for one month taking only liquids if you recover fast".

I looked at her. Her eyes were closed and her hands were on my shirt holding my collar tight. I pinned her sari to the blouse again and left her.

"I got my answer."

She came into this world and released what she said just before. Actually how I made her to say the truth. She is looking at me

"Do you love me?"

Sakshi nodded in no. I smiled at her. She didn't understand why am I smiling instead of being angry at her answer. I again went near to her and started kissing her on the forehead, eyes and cheeks.

"Ple....please...lea...leave....me.."

I kept finger on her lips. I then turned her back and touched her back slowly with my fingers. She clutched her fist again. I kissed her.

"Do you love me, darling"?

I licked her back and placed kisses in between and caught her by placing my hand on her bare belly removing sari aside. I pinched it a bit romantically but not to hurt her.

"I love you so much. I can't live without you. Forgive me, please."

She said in a trance created by me by touching her romantically. I hugged her tightly from the back.

"This is what I want to hear from you. Why did you lie to me saying you don't love me? Answer me, Sakshi."

Due to my shouting, she opened her eyes and pushed me away. She went to the washroom and locked it.

I sat on a sofa remembering what she said just before and smiled for her confession. After sometime, I went to the room with a glass of milk for her. She is on the bed and looked at me.

"Have it. This is the milk with turmeric powder. You won't catch with cold. Fasting for one month and taking only liquids is really a bit too much of loving a person. Thank you. I love you too," I said.

I gave milk to her. She drank it in one go.

"Hey, it is hot. How could you drink like that? Falling in love with the one whom you loved once is strange yet a good feeling because he is none other than your husband. Today I understood how to make you confess the truth. Don't worry. Soon I will know the whole truth."

I placed a kiss on her forehead and laid beside her. She looked at me with surprise and shock.

"Won't you sleep, cutie?"

Sakshi immediately laid on the bed beside him and closed her eyes. She turned other side to hide her smile. I smiled and placed my hand on her and went close to her. I started breathing deeply near her back. I made shapes with my finger on her back. Sakshi shivered and clutched the fist. I kissed on her back.

"Good night, dear."

I left her and slept in my place. Sakshi smiled unknowingly.

"Good night."

"Tell me the truth, Sakshi. Why did you leave me?"

She didn't reply and I found her sleeping. I slept quietly.

"I know that you are not sleeping, Sakshi. I even know the reason behind you leaving me without even informing me. I can't trust you and never forgive you. You are not the one whom I loved. If I know your true colours before, I would never waste my love and emotions for you.

But whatever I want you and I just made you mine. Even if you beg me I won't forgive you. But it's true that I love you and now you love me too. Whatever, you can never fix a broken heart. Though you try, you will find only heart with cracks."

Next day, I got ready to the office. Sakshi came to me.

"Did you come to call me for the breakfast?"

"Ye...Yes."

"Don't you dare to lie to me, Sakshi. I know you didn't come for that."

"I..I..want to.....go out...to meet a friend. I will come soon."

"Ok. You can go. But only after completing all the household chores. Don't use the car. Give me your wallet."

She gave her wallet to me. I took all the money and cards from that wallet.

"Take this hundred rupees and go," I said.

"What?"

"You will understand the value of everything in life and the behaviour of your circle too when you have no money," I said.

She took the money calmly. I left to the office after having the breakfast. I didn't say anything to her and had it silently. Sakshi went out to meet her friend. I was going in my car and saw Sakshi near a ice cream parlour with Ajay. Ajay held her hands and both are talking and smiling. I clenched my fist and went to the home. I waited for her to come home from the afternoon. She came home at 8 PM. She was scared of me.

"You came so early?" I said.

"Tell me, dear. Did you meet your beloved friend? Do you mean that this is reaching home soon?"

"I...am...sorry."

"Shut up. Tell me where did you go? Who is your friend?"

"She is my childhood friend. Her name is Pinky," Sakshi said.

I smiled seeing her and kissed her on the forehead. She stood startled.

"Come, let's go to our room. I need to discuss a lot with you today, baby."

Her body started sweating but she silently followed me to the room.