Chapter 4

I went back to pack my stuff.

The Luciano estate was quieter than it had any right to be at midday. The soldiers who usually flanked the foyer had been pulled to the back of the house, either on Don Luciano's orders or because someone had decided my departure should happen without witnesses. The hallway still smelled of the morning's espresso and the faint undertone of cedar that clung to every room, seeping out of the old furniture like a memory that refused to leave even when the people did.

Looking around the luxurious bedroom, it seemed untouched by my departure, unchanged. The heavy curtains, the Carrara marble nightstand, the crucifix above the headboard that Elena Luciano had hung the week I moved in, a blessing or a warning, I was never sure which. Nothing in this room had bent to accommodate me, and nothing bent now that I was leaving.

Our wedding photo was still hanging on the wall.

Looking at it now, his smile frozen in the frame seemed a bit forced. I could see it clearly for the first time, the stiffness in his jaw, the way his hand rested on my waist like it was holding a door open for someone who would arrive later. Viviana had been at the reception. I remembered that now. She had worn white too, a slip dress the color of cream, and no one had said a word.

Everything felt like it had circled back to that afternoon after I was brought before the Family. My aunt, Bellandi Bellandi, had arranged it. She had lined up her holy cards on the kitchen table, straightened every edge until the saints looked like soldiers at attention, and then told me the Lucianos would take me in, that it was the safest place for a girl with no parents and a sick Blackwood and debts that no honest job could touch. I had been suddenly thrust into this lavish estate, where I felt completely out of place, a charity case dressed in someone else's clothes, sitting at a table where the silverware had more history than I did.

Dante had just returned from a ski trip abroad with Viviana. He looked at me then like I was a sideshow attraction, something curious and vaguely inconvenient that his father had dragged home. He had not changed. He had only gotten better at hiding the look.

Now, nearing thirty, I found myself single again.

I folded the last of my clothes into the suitcase, left the wedding bracelet on the nightstand beside the lamp, and walked out without looking back. The front door closed behind me with a sound that was quieter than it should have been, as though the house itself was relieved.

That night, I ended up at a bar downtown, a narrow place on neutral ground between the Luciano and Valente territories, the kind of establishment where no crew ran tabs and the bartender forgot faces on purpose. I drank until I was utterly wasted, glass after glass of something amber and burning that I never bothered to name.

Nina set down her glass, tapped a pen twice against her knuckle, a habit she carried even off the clock, and then patted my shoulder with the frankness of an outsider who had earned the right to be blunt.

"Honestly, Dante never had a place for you in his heart. If you ask me, this severance was long overdue. But I really have to congratulate you. You've got a whole new life ahead now."

I raised my glass and downed it in one go, silently echoing her words: protect your sanity, steer clear of toxic men. The liquor hit the back of my throat like a small fire, and for one merciful second, it was the only thing I felt.

I walked away from the Luciano Family's front operations, saying goodbye to Don Luciano, who had always treated me like his own daughter. He received me in his study, rosary threaded through his fingers, and he did not try to change my mind, but his silence carried the particular weight of a man who understood that his son had wasted something valuable. He offered me a generous share, fifty percent of the shell stakes tied to the family's legitimate business holdings, as compensation.

I declined.

Who would've thought I'd run into Dante as soon as I stepped out of the study, the door barely closed behind me, his shadow already filling the corridor like something I was never meant to outrun.

Chapter 5

After a week apart, he still looked as tall and striking as ever, laughing and chatting with the younger women who worked the front offices of the Luciano family's shipping warehouse on the waterfront.

The space doubled as a legitimate import office during business hours, staffed with associates who answered phones and filed invoices that would survive a federal audit. But the back corridors led to rooms where no auditor would ever be invited, and every woman working the front desk understood that the man leaning against the oak reception counter with his easy grin was not merely an executive. He was the heir. The future of the name on the building.

He looked good. He always looked good. The charcoal suit sat perfectly across his shoulders, the signet ring catching light whenever he gestured. A week since the severance had been finalized, and nothing about Dante Luciano's surface had changed. He was still broad-shouldered, still magnetic, still the kind of man who drew laughter from a room just by walking into it.

But the moment he saw me, his face turned cold, just as always.

"Bianca. How much did my father give you?"

I ignored him and walked toward the door.

The front office was quiet enough that my heels on the polished concrete sounded deliberate, unhurried. I didn't look back. I didn't owe him an audience anymore. The severance papers had been filed. The church-mediated settlement had been declined. Whatever remained between us was silence and distance, and I intended to keep widening it.

That move clearly stung him. He caught up in three long strides and stepped in front of me, blocking my path to the exit. His hand didn't touch me, but his body filled the doorframe the way Luciano men were taught to fill doorframes, as though the air itself should rearrange around them. His tone was hostile, clipped, stripped of the easy charm he'd been spending on the front-desk girls moments before.

"So, who was it that put on a 'holier-than-thou' act, swearing you wouldn't take a penny from the Luciano Family?"

He sneered, and the sound had teeth. "Turns out your target was my father all along. Reeling the Don in for the big catch, are we?"

I looked at this man I had loved for fifteen years. His jaw was set, his dark eyes flat and superior, and behind the contempt sat something I had once mistaken for complexity. I could feel the old ache trying to surface, the phantom weight of the wedding bracelet that used to circle my left wrist. My thumb brushed the bare skin there, a reflex, and then went still.

"Even if you're kicking a dog," I said quietly, "there's no need to humiliate it this badly."

Dante's expression shifted. The sneer faltered, and something uncomfortable flickered behind his eyes, there and gone before he could examine it. He stepped back half a pace and rubbed the edge of his signet ring with his thumb, a quick, unconscious gesture, then forced his voice flat. "Fine. Just as long as that's the case."

Just then, his secretary approached from the corridor that connected the front office to the inner rooms, a leather folio in her hands. She held out an arrangement contract for him to sign, the kind of deal that moved money between shell companies and allied fronts. I could see the letterhead from where I stood. Years of managing clean books and front operations for the Luciano household told me immediately that this was a deal that would cost him, not benefit him. The margins were wrong. The percentages were structured to bleed, not build.

But when I saw that Viviana Conti was listed as the beneficiary, her name printed in neat serif type on the distribution line, I couldn't help but let out a bitter laugh.

"For the sake of a woman's smile, you're willing to disregard the Family's interests?" My voice was steadier than I expected. "Imagine how heartbroken your father would be if he knew."

"You don't need to worry about that."

Dante's gaze was like a knife laced with poison, sinking deep into my chest. He didn't blink. The ring-rubbing had stopped.

"We're severed now, so stop trying to get close by bringing up my father every time."

He took a step toward me, and the room seemed to contract. The secretary kept her eyes on the floor. One of the soldiers posted near the front entrance shifted his weight but didn't turn.

"Viviana is my future wife. There's no need to talk about giving her a discount. If she wanted my entire fortune, every skim right, every shell stake, every safehouse deed, I'd give it to her without a second thought. Handing it over with both hands, no questions asked."

After he finished speaking, he signed his name on the paper with a heavy, deliberate stroke and then transferred three million in laundered cash to Viviana's account right in front of me. The secretary produced a phone screen showing the confirmation. He held it up just long enough for me to see.

Before leaving, he threw in one last remark, tossed over his shoulder like something he didn't even value enough to deliver to my face.

"Love always feels like a debt. You wouldn't understand."

Chapter 6

I stood there, frozen for a long time, as memories flooded my mind like a tidal wave.

The front office had emptied. The fluorescent lights above the reception counter hummed their low, indifferent hum. Through the frosted windows I could see soldiers moving in the parking lot, the black shapes of sedans pulling around to collect Dante and carry him wherever Viviana waited. Somewhere inside the building, a phone rang unanswered. I didn't move.

When I first entered the Luciano Family, I was broke. A civilian girl from an ordinary neighborhood brought into a world of blood oaths and front businesses through a union I barely understood. At the time, my younger Blackwood Sofia was diagnosed with a serious illness and she needed three million for treatment. The kind of money that didn't exist in my world but sat in petty-cash drawers in Dante's.

Don Luciano and Elena, already doing more than enough by accepting me into the household, had no obligation to do more, and I couldn't bring myself to ask for anything else. The blood-bound union was supposed to be my contribution, my silence, my obedience. I had given all three. To ask for money on top of it would have been to admit I was exactly what Dante's mother already suspected: a girl who had married above her station and intended to drain the family dry.

Dante, raised in privilege with a soldier's escort and an underboss's pocket money since he was sixteen, learned of my situation. He nodded, agreeing to lend me the money. For one brief, desperate night, I believed he was the man I had convinced myself he could be.

But the day before Sofia was scheduled for surgery, Dante suddenly backed out.

I still remembered his exact words. "Sorry, I bought a gift for a friend's birthday, so I don't have the money to lend you right now."

He'd said it casually, the way someone might mention a change in dinner plans. He didn't look at my face. He didn't need to. In his world, three million was a gesture, not a sum, and my Blackwood's life was a problem that belonged to a world he had never been required to notice.

Later, I ended up selling my blood to raise part of the money for Sofia's treatment. Twice, three times, until the nurse at the Catholic hospital under family watch told me I couldn't come back for at least a month without risking organ failure. It was while I was working a double shift as a waitress at a restaurant on the edge of Luciano territory that I ran into Dante.

He was proudly wearing an expensive diamond watch, all smiles as he wished Viviana a happy birthday.

The restaurant was one of the Family's neutral-ground spots, the kind of place where soldiers brought dates and capos held quiet celebrations. Viviana sat across from him in a white dress, her laugh bright and easy, and Dante's face held an expression I had never once seen directed at me: open, unguarded pleasure. He hadn't noticed me standing by the kitchen pass with a tray of dirty glasses. Or perhaps he had, and it simply hadn't mattered.

To Dante, I had always been nothing more than a tool to get back at his family. My Blackwood's life wasn't even worth considering.

Don Luciano and Dante had grown distant over the years, and whenever they tried to talk, it would end in a fight after just a few words. The Don's rosary beads would stop moving. Dante's jaw would lock. And the household would hold its breath until one of them left the room.

Years ago, Dante had entered my room in the middle of the night, sweet-talking me into sleeping with him, and afterward, he begged me to marry him. All part of his plan to sabotage Don Luciano's intention to take me under his protection as a daughter of the house. The Don had seen something useful in me, some steadiness or quiet capability that Dante could not tolerate being given to an outsider. So he had claimed me first. Not out of love. Out of spite.

In the end, he succeeded.

But I was the one who became trapped, desperately struggling in his hollow, elusive love. Fifteen years of setting tables for a man who ate elsewhere. Fifteen years of pressing my thumb to the inside of my wrist where the wedding bracelet sat, telling myself that the weight of it meant something.

At least now, it was still not too late to let go.

I left the front office without looking back. The parking lot smelled like diesel and the faint salt tang of the waterfront. I walked to my car alone, no soldier holding the door, no driver waiting with the engine running. That was what freedom looked like in this world: no one watching, no one reporting, no one caring where you went.

I was about to leave for interviews with several legitimate businesses across the city, looking for a new position. Clean work, clean books, a desk that didn't sit inside a building owned by a crime family.

Nina arrived just in time to stop me. She was leaning against the hood of my car when I reached the lot, arms crossed, a pen tucked behind her ear. She tapped it twice against her knuckle before she spoke.

"Why work for someone else when you could be the boss of your own front?"

I looked at her. The sun was low, throwing long shadows across the pavement. Somewhere behind us, the Luciano shipping warehouse continued its quiet double life, phones ringing, invoices filing, soldiers circling.

I thought it over carefully. After more than a decade of being controlled, of having every decision filtered through Luciano hierarchy and Luciano permission, I had long forgotten what true freedom even felt like.

My thumb brushed the bare inside of my wrist one more time. Then my hand went still.

Love Is Wrong, Only Letting Go Is Right

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