Eight Years with Terence Barnes.

It took me eight years to realize that I could never compete with Pearlie Ballar, the girl he had been spoiling since forever. Her chirpy “Uncle Terry” could make my otherwise steady and composed fiancée lose his footing.

By the ninth time he ditched me to rush to her side, I’d had enough.  I yanked off my pitiful wedding ring and tossed it into the trash. I turned and walked away without looking back.

That’s when he finally panicked, probably because he didn’t expect me to fight back, let alone walk away.

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The ninth time Terence dropped everything for Pearlie, I watched his retreating back in a daze, feeling the heavy finality settle over us. There was no going back.

I pulled out the transfer request that had been collecting dust in the far corner of my closet. Without hesitation, I signed my name, sealed the envelope and handed it off to the courier.

That’s when the pain hit—sharp and unbearable, clawing at my abdomen. I collapsed to the floor, instinctively reaching for my phone. My thumb hovered over Terence’s number before I stopped myself. If I was leaving, there was no need to bother him anymore. Instead, I dialed for an ambulance.

I never made it to the ambulance. The pain knocked me out cold. By the time I woke up, I was in a hospital bed, the antiseptic smell stinging my nose.

“Good, you’re awake.” A nurse approached, checking my vitals. She frowned as she jotted something down. “You had a ruptured ovarian cyst,” she said, her tone somewhere between firm and sympathetic. “Don’t think just because you’re young, you can abuse your body like this. It’s dangerous.”

Dangerous. Her words took me back to the previous night.

Terence and I had gone to his mother’s birthday dinner. Everything seemed normal until Pearlie showed up, practically glued to the arm of some young guy with a boy-next-door grin.

Terence’s grip on his fork tightened, his knuckles turning white. His eyes were cold and sharp, fixated on her every move. When Pearlie excused herself to the bathroom, Terence couldn’t follow fast enough.

Mrs. Barnes nudged me to check on him, so I slipped out quietly, only to find him cornering Pearlie by the restroom door.

“Pearlie,” his voice was low, thick with irritation—and jealousy, “how many times do I have to tell you to stay away from guys like him?”

“Uncle Terry?” Her voice wavered, but her words were defiant, “you get to be with Brigitte, why can’t I be with someone I like?”

His response was a bitter mix of jealousy and frustration. “You’re too young. I won’t let you ruin your life like this.”

“And what do you think you’re doing, pretending you love her?” She sobbed and continue, “Do you really love Brigitte? Or are you just too scared to admit what you actually feel?”

Silence stretched between them. I leaned closer and that’s when I heard it—the unmistakable sound of a kiss.

The walls around me seemed to collapse. I pressed myself against the wall, swallowing back the bile rising in my throat. Their actions ripped my heart wide open, only to stomp all over it.

Later that night, Terence unleashed all his frustration on me in bed. It wasn’t love—it was a torment.

When it was over, I clutched my stomach and told him I was in pain. “Can you take me to the hospital?” I asked, my voice barely audible.

He didn’t even look at me. Propped against the headboard, he sighed. “It’s late. Just take some painkillers; you’ll be fine.”

Moments later, his phone buzzed. One ring and he was already out of bed, answering it. His whole demeanor changed when he saw the caller ID.

“Pearl says her stomach hurts. I need to check on her,” he mumbled, pulling on his clothes. Before I could say anything, he was out of my sight, disappearing into the hallway. The door closed behind him and silence settled in the room, leaving only my lonely, hurried breaths.

The smell of disinfectant in the air stung my nose.

The night passed and my phone stayed silent, except for a post from Pearlie, reminding me to check her social media.

Pearlie posted a picture of Terence washing her pink underwear with the caption: “On my period, but having Terry to wash my underwear and make Chamomile tea for me? Life’s perfect.”

The photo hit me like a sucker punch to the gut. Was this really the same Terence I knew? The man who couldn't stand as much as a stained sheet without gagging? Now here he was, meticulously scrubbing her underwear by hand.

I couldn’t help but remember the one and only time I stained the bed during my period. His reaction wasn’t just mild discomfort—it was outright revulsion. He packed up his things and moved into the guest room that night and he never came back. The memory left a bitter taste in my mouth.

A sharp, humorless laugh escaped me. So much for his so-called “cleanliness.” It wasn’t about that, was it? It was about something deeper—something I didn’t have. Love.

Pearlie. She’d been a fixture in Terence’s life long before I came along. The daughter of his late neighbors, she was orphaned after a tragic house fire. Terence’s family had taken her in and from that day on, she latched onto him like he was her lifeline, calling him “Uncle Terry” with a familiarity that only seemed to deepen as the years went on.

And he let her. No—he more than let her. He adored her, doted on her and spoiled her rotten. She was his fragile, untouchable rose in a glass case and every time he looked at her, it was like the rest of the world didn’t exist.

When we started dating, I genuinely tried to build a bridge. I bought her gifts, went out of my way to be kind and did my best to win her over. But Pearlie’s response was cold and calculated. She didn’t just reject me—she made sure I knew I wasn’t welcome. My carefully chosen presents ended up in the trash and her glares were daggers aimed straight at my heart.

Then came the day she bared her true intentions and she didn’t care that I was standing right there.

“I don’t want you to be my Uncle anymore,” she declared, her voice trembling with emotion. “I want to repay you—with all of me, body and soul.”

At the time, I didn’t understand the look on Terence’s face—an unsettling mix of restraint and something I didn’t want to name. But now, it was painfully obvious: desire, barely concealed and impossible to ignore.

In the aftermath, Terence tried to smooth things over with me. He bought Pearlie her own apartment and made a grand show of sending her off, swearing he was cutting ties with her, putting the effect to wipe the thought out of her.

“Now, you don’t have to worry about her anymore. Just keep your distance—she’ll cool off eventually,” he said, his tone soothing, “we’ve been together for years, do you still not believe that you’re the only one I love?”

And I believed him. Like a fool, I believed every word.

For a while, it seemed like things were back on track. Terence poured his energy into our relationship, taking me to high-end parties, introducing me to his friends and showering me with lavish gifts. He was gentle, attentive and endlessly patient. I thought we were building something real.

But then it all unraveled.

One day, 18-year-old Pearlie posted a photo of herself passionately kissing another man on social media. Terence, who was always so composed, lost his temper in a way I’d never seen before. His face darkened, and in a flash, he smashed his phone against the wall.

I froze, too scared to speak or move. He didn’t say a word to me—just grabbed his keys and stormed out, leaving me shivering in the cold as his car roared away.

That night, I realized something chilling. Pearlie wasn’t just a part of his past. She was his weakness, the one person who could shatter all his principles.

Over time, it became his go-to excuse. Whenever I voiced my frustrations, he would brush me off with the same tired refrain: “She’s young. I’m just worried she’ll get taken advantage of.”

I was caught in an endless cycle of self-doubt, spiraling deeper into despair as I raged and pleaded for answers.

After spending two days in the hospital from sheer exhaustion, I finally dragged myself home, only to be greeted by a sight that made my stomach churn. Pearlie was sprawled on the couch, watching TV as if she owned the place. When she noticed me, she let out a derisive snort before retreating to the kitchen.

And there he was—Terence, in the kitchen, fussing over her meal like some devoted chef.

I couldn’t help but laugh bitter laugh. All these years together and not once had he cooked a single meal for me, but for Pearlie it was out of question. She broke his rules effortlessly, bending him to her whims with nothing more than a pout.

Something inside me snapped. The weight in my chest that had suffocated me for so long lifted in an instant. It didn’t matter anymore. Nothing did.

Pearlie, ever the master manipulator, pulled an ice cream bar from the freezer and strolled over to Terence, waving it playfully in front of him.

“Pearl, you can’t eat that during your period,” Terence scolded, reaching to snatch it from her hands. “You’ll end up with a stomachache again.”

Terence hurriedly set down the knife and snatched the ice cream from Pearlie’s hand.

“I’ll just have one bite. Please, Uncle Terry?” Pearlie blinked her wide eyes, clasping her hands together in a pleading gesture.

Terence flashed her a doting smile but still shook his head. “No.”

Pearlie puffed her cheeks and plopped onto the floor, clinging to his leg like a stubborn child. “I just want ice cream! Why won’t you let me have it? You hate me, do you?” she whined, her voice dripping with dramatic insistence.

Eventually, Terence sighed, defeated. “Fine. Just one bite,” he relented, handing the ice cream back to her. She took a small nibble, then he casually finished the rest himself, as though it were the most natural thing in the world.

When his eyes met mine, his expression froze for a fleeting second before returning to normal. It was brief, but enough for me to notice the hesitation before he masked it with indifference.

“Terry, my stomach hurts!” Pearlie suddenly complained, cutting through the tension as she pressed a hand to her abdomen. She didn’t even glance at me before demanding, “Help me massage it!”

Terence immediately turned his full attention to her. Scooping her into his arms, he carried her to the sofa. “You little glutton. I told you not to eat cold things. Now look what happened,” he scolded gently, his voice full of affection as his hands rubbed her stomach in soothing circles.

As Pearlie basked in his undivided attention, she threw me a triumphant smirk—the same smug grin she always wore when she managed to outmaneuver me. Her childish tricks never failed to get under my skin.

“I’m hungry. Do you have food?” Pearlie asked, glancing up at him with a pout.

Terence, still focused on her, finally spoke. “Brigitte, go make some food. I’ll keep rubbing Pearl’s stomach.”

His words hit me like a slap. After all these years together, this was the first time he addressed me directly—and it was to ask me to cook for her.

“Ask Imogene to do it. I’m tired,” I replied coolly, heading toward the bedroom.

Apparently, that was the wrong answer. His face darkened and he slammed his palm against the table, sending a cup flying to the floor with a loud crash.

“You vanish for two days and come back with a sour face. I ask you to make some food and you act like I told you to move a mountain. What’s your deal?” His glare cut right through me.

“You disappeared for two days and suddenly appeared with a scowling face. I asked you to make a meal and all you did was act like I asked you to build a skyscraper. What's wrong with you?” His glare pierced through me. “Pearl isn’t feeling well, why can’t you see that?” Pearlie chimed in, her voice soft and trembling. “It’s okay, Terry. Looks like Bridgitte doesn’t want me here, maybe I should just leave…”

Pearlie chimed in, her voice soft and trembling. “It’s okay, Terry. Looks like Brigitte doesn’t want me here. Maybe I should just leave…”

“No, you’re not going anywhere,” Terence reassured her firmly. “I don’t care what she thinks. You’re not feeling well and who’s going to take care of you if you leave, silly girl?”

Watching the two of them, so wrapped up in their little world, I didn’t bother arguing. Instead, I retreated to my room, shutting the door behind me.

I used to fight back, accusing Terence of having an unhealthy relationship with Pearlie. But every time, he dismissed me, saying my thoughts were twisted and dirty. Our arguments always ended in tears and frustration, leaving me drained and hopeless.

Desperate, I once suggested we get married, thinking it would force Pearlie to back off. Yet Terence always had an excuse. “Not the right time,” he’d say.

When I finally gave him an ultimatum—either we marry or break up—he reluctantly agreed. But on the day we went to the registry office, he left me standing outside. Pearlie had called him and without hesitation, he rushed to her side, leaving me humiliated in front of strangers.

Friends told me I was a fool, that Terence never intended to marry me. But I stubbornly clung to the hope that things would change, trapping myself in this farce of a relationship.

Not anymore. I’d had enough.

That night, Terence came into the bedroom with a glass of warm milk. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he placed it on the nightstand and leaned in close.

“Is everything okay? Are you upset about what happened earlier?” His voice sounded tired.

“No, I’m just tired,” I said, turning away from him.

“I don’t believe you.” He sighed, slipping an arm around my waist. “Look, Pearl’s just a kid. She’s always been headstrong and even I can’t put too much pressure on her. Don’t be upset because of her, okay?”

Terence softened his tone as he pulled me into a tight hug. My response was silence and I gently pulled away from his embrace. But my coldness didn’t sit well with him. His jaw tightened as he muttered through gritted teeth, “Brigitte, I’m doing this for you. Pearl is here! If she finds out we’re sleeping apart, it’ll reflect badly on you.” His voice was low, probably to avoid waking Pearlie, but the frustration in his words was unmistakable.