If I were the real leading actress, having a man like Russell thinking about me day and night, I’d probably be moved to tears.

Unfortunately, I’m just her stand-in. Every heartfelt word he says feels like a sharp needle piercing my heart.

Yep, I love Russell—or rather, I used to love him.

When he skipped an important board meeting because I was sick, when he planned a special trip abroad just for my birthday, when he ignored high-class women just to make my jealous self feel better…

He remembered all my preferences, but was all that affection really meant for me?

I was trapped, lost in my own confusion…

Until one night, just like tonight, he got drunk. And the only name he called out was Bernadette’s.

That was when I finally woke up—his love was never for me. I was nothing more than a substitute.

They say drunken words are sober thoughts. He only ever admitted the truth when he was wasted—he saw her through me.

And yes, there’s another reason I hate that woman. Because Russell doesn’t love me. He loves her.

When his hands started wandering, I pushed him away with all my strength. “You’re drunk.”

“Merylle, be good. Don’t move. Just let me hold you for a bit.”

‘Hold me? That’s what you call this? You’re clearly…’

His warm breath brushed against the back of my neck, sending an involuntary shiver down my spine.

“If you keep moving, I can’t promise what I’ll do next.”

“Russell, if you really wanted to, you would’ve done it already. Would you really wait until now?”

“Heh, you’re really acting like her now. Talking back to me?”

The corners of my mouth twitched. ‘So there’s always going to be someone between us, huh?’

“Merylle, just sleep. I won’t touch you.”

“Fine.”

But moments later, he turned me over and kissed me.

‘So this is what you call ‘not touching me’? You were just waiting for the right moment, weren’t you?’

His lips were cold. He didn’t notice the tear slipping from the corner of my eye—just as cold as he was.

With his eyes closed, he looked like he was completely lost in it. He must be picturing her right now, right?

‘Russell, I want to get back at you. I want to use everything I have.’

If you wake up tomorrow and realize you spent the night with a stand-in, how would you feel? Could you still face your precious first love?

I kissed him back passionately, trying to stir up the deepest desires buried inside him…

But then he suddenly shoved me away, hard, and called out her name.

“Damn… I’m not that drunk. Don’t even think about taking advantage of me.”

I coaxed him, “It’s me. Don’t you want me?”

Russell let out a chuckle. “Don’t flatter yourself.”

Then he yanked the blanket over my head, cutting me off from the world. Muffled from beneath the covers, I barely caught his voice.

“Go to sleep. Stop messing around.”

The next morning, I opened my eyes. Russell was long gone from my bed. He must’ve gone back to his own room in the middle of the night.

That’s just how he is—calculating in business, always scheming. His mind is restless, his insomnia chronic. Sleeping somewhere unfamiliar just makes it worse.

“Where is he?” I asked while eating my breakfast—cabbage, bacon, and cheese egg pancakes, specially prepared by Mrs. Dunst, the housekeeper.

Of course, this was Russell’s doing too. I was only allowed to eat low-carb meals to maintain the figure of a Hollywood star.

Speaking of which, I can’t help but complain.

That Best Actress has everything going for her, but she refuses to look ugly. Even when playing a poor small-town woman, she has to keep that hourglass figure intact. She wouldn’t gain a single pound for a role, which is why some people criticize her for being too image-conscious and unrealistic.

But she has her reasons. As she gets older, her metabolism slows down. If she puts on weight, what if she can’t lose it again?

I respect her discipline. But it’s also my suffering.

I actually haven’t touched junk food in ages!

If someone waved a roasted chicken leg in front of me right now, I’d probably do anything for them.

“Sir Russell went out for a run,” Mrs. Dunst said, handing me a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice.

“He’s not going to the office today?”

“No, ma’am, he said he’s giving himself a day off.”

“What?!” I was so shocked that my pancake slipped from my hand onto the table.

Mrs. Dunst quickly came over to clean up. “It’s okay, ma’am. I’ll make you another one.”

Internally, I was screaming. I was crying!

Russell skipping work… Did that mean he planned to stay home with me all day? His day off was my bad luck!

Mrs. Dunst had no idea how much I was suffering and even made it worse. “Sir Russell really cares about you, ma’am. He asked me what you’ve been up to here lately, and I told him you’ve been watching romance films. He even asked which one, and when I said it was the one starring Miss Bernadette, he was really happy and said he’d watch it with you.”

Oh, god, I could just die!

I was watching those films because the Best Actress was in them—I had to constantly study her acting, not because the films themselves were good!

And who asked him to join me? He should go make money instead!

I knew exactly why he was so pleased. He was happy that I was fully immersing myself in the craft, training myself to be just like Bernadette. He must feel so accomplished, turning me into the perfect obedient actress.

Just then, Russell walked in. “You’re up?”

I swallowed my frustration. “Yeah.”

“I’m cooking tonight. Sherman and the others are coming over.”

My right eyelid twitched.

Sherman—Russell’s business partner and childhood friend. A clueless rich second-gen who basically just follows Russell’s lead in everything. If Russell says east, Sherman wouldn’t dare go west. Not that it matters, since Russell’s investments always pay off.

“Oh? That’s sudden.”

“Yeah, he said it’s been a while. He’s bringing his new girlfriend too.”

I smiled faintly. Another one. Rich boys either play with cars or women—at least those two are manageable. It’s when they get into worse things that it becomes a real problem.

I glanced at Russell wiping sweat off his face with a towel. He’s in his 30s, but his body is way better maintained than most men his age—broad chest, abs, the whole package. How many women must be throwing themselves at him? If he had a normal relationship, his kid could probably be running around by now.

But he has no idea what’s coming tonight.

I remembered the way Sherman looked at me at the last gathering. No doubt about it—men are men; they want food and sex. And Sherman? He was definitely thinking something he shouldn’t. He never made a move, though—partly because I never gave him the signal, and partly because he’s still a little afraid of Russell.

Tonight would be my chance. If I played my role right and appeared exactly how Sherman liked, he could be another stepping stone in my escape plan.

Yeah, I had to make this happen.

And I couldn’t let Russell suspect a thing. I can't let him know about my escape plan at all!

“What are you thinking about?”

I snapped out of it. “Oh, nothing. You’re cooking, so what should I do?”

“Eat. What else?”

“Isn’t that a bad idea? I need to lose weight.”

Mrs. Dunst handed me another steaming cabbage, bacon, and cheese pancake. I was already sick of this kind of breakfast, but I forced myself to take a bite.

“It’s fine. If I say you can eat, then eat.”

That was always how it was with Russell. His word was law. My will had to revolve around his.

“See, ma’am?” Mrs. Dunst beamed. “Sir Russell is so thoughtful. He knows how hard your diet is.”

I gave her a pitiful look. Was this diet my choice? No, it was her boss who forced it on me. He made sure my weight never exceeded the Best Actress’s by more than a pound.

Russell chuckled. “Tonight, you can eat back everything you lost this month.”

I stared at Russell in disbelief. “You’re setting me up again! In a few days, you’ll definitely question me—why can the Oscar-winning actress be so disciplined, but I can’t resist temptation?”

I put down my egg pancake and cautiously walked over to him. “Are you serious or just messing with me?”

Russell replied, “I can’t exactly mistreat you in front of Sherman, an outsider, now, can I?”

Of course. The cunning old fox always has to keep up his gentlemanly image in front of others. So he does know he's mistreating me, huh?

I turned to leave, but suddenly, Russell wrapped his arms around me from behind. “Too skinny. Doesn’t feel good to hold.”

Mrs. Dunst, seeing this, awkwardly turned away. “Um… sir, ma’am, the romance film is ready. Would you like to watch it now in the basement theater?”

Russell answered casually, “Sure.”

Then he leaned in and whispered into my ear, his breath warm against my skin. “Time to level up your acting skills.”

I pulled his hands away uncomfortably. “Do I get a bonus for a good performance?”

Russell gave me a knowing look. “I remember she once played a Republican-era spy, seducing enemies in a dimly lit theater.”

I raised an eyebrow. “You’re not expecting me to seduce you, are you?”

“Hmm. Try it. If you succeed, there’s a reward.”

He must have watched that actress’s films over and over to be able to quote her lines even before she said them.

In the dark glow of the projector, I sneaked a glance at his expression. For the past two years, he had always looked at her this way—with deep admiration.

Whether in films or trending topics on his phone, as long as it was about her, his eyes never strayed.

“How long do I have to wait for you to start?”

His tone was laced with impatience. “I told you, act like her. The film has a 20-minute stretch without her—use that time to give me your performance.”

I had my pride. “Can I not? I’m not feeling well today.”

Since breakfast, my lower belly has been aching faintly. It must be… that time of the month.

“Not feeling well? Where?” His voice was cold, completely devoid of concern.

“I… um… my period.”

Russell let out a mocking laugh. “In the dead of winter, when it was minus five degrees, she still managed to film underwater scenes during her period. And you? I ask you to act a simple indoor scene, and you refuse because of cramps? Merylle, you’re making money way too easily. You’re not even worth a fraction of her.”

With that, he yanked me up angrily and grabbed my throat, roaring, “Act! Right now! And don’t stop until I’m satisfied!”

The grip on my throat tightened. Panic and suffocation consumed my mind. For a moment, I had no idea how to act.

He loosened his grip slightly and shouted, “Speak!”

My icy fingers gripped his wrist tightly. Then, forcing down the nausea rising in me, I delivered my line—seductive, just like she would.

“Sir, are you always this ruthless to women?”

I was mimicking her dialogue, adding a teasing lilt to my tone.

“Yeah. So what?”

“If you’re going to get rough, I’d rather it be in the bedroom.”

“Oh?” Russell released me. I staggered back, coughing violently.

His turn to get into character.

“Or,” I smirked, yanking at his collar, “we could do it right here.”

“What do you want? I’ll follow your lead.” Russell smiled, spreading his arms as if waiting for my embrace.

I leaned in, close enough that our lips almost touched, but I didn’t kiss him. Instead, I murmured in the most sultry tone I could muster.

“I want to be yours.”