CLAIRE'S POV

By Monday afternoon, the whole city was getting ready to celebrate my husband.

From the hotel window I could see crews hanging blue-and-silver banners from the light poles on Grant Avenue. Parade route signs. Barricades stacked on the curb. The championship banquet was tonight, the parade was Wednesday, and my phone had been buzzing since breakfast with reminders from the team's family app.

The last one said: *Your access has been updated.*

I opened it. My credential was gone. Not expired, not flagged. Gone, like I'd never had one.

I called Family Services. Tess Kowalski picked up on the second ring. She'd been running the families' program for six years, and she'd held Noah on her hip at his very first game.

"Claire." She said my name the way people say it at funerals. "I was hoping you wouldn't call."

"My badge doesn't work."

"I know." Keys clicked on her end. "The primary family designation was changed. Your card was moved to secondary, and secondary access was closed out after the final."

"Changed to who?"

She didn't answer.

"Tess."

"Rachel Moreno." A pause. "I'm so sorry. I assumed you knew."

I sat down on the edge of the bed. "When did he do it? Yesterday?"

More clicking. Then she went quiet in a way I didn't like.

"It was submitted three weeks ago," she said. "April twenty-eighth. Mason signed off himself."

Three weeks ago, we'd still been in the second round. Three weeks ago, he'd kissed me goodbye in the driveway before a road trip and told me to save him a plate.

He hadn't lost his head under the championship lights. He'd put it on the calendar.

"Thanks, Tess," I said, and hung up before she could apologize again.

Mason called at four-thirty.

I almost let it ring out. Then I thought of Noah and answered.

"Hey." He sounded rushed, and I could hear a hair dryer somewhere behind him. "Quick thing. Noah's got some school event tomorrow morning. He says he needs a white shirt and his — I don't know, his nice pants? Can you swing by and drop them at the hotel before the banquet? We're at the Lexington."

I waited for the rest of it. There wasn't any.

"That's what you called about."

"It's a two-minute favor, Claire."

"Is Rachel going to the banquet with you?"

He exhaled. "Noah asked if she could sit next to him. He asked, okay? I didn't push it. He said she actually knows hockey and you—" He stopped himself.

"And I what?"

"He said you only ever tell him to go to bed early."

I laughed. I didn't mean to. It came out of me like a cough.

"So let me get this straight," I said. "Rachel gets my family seat. Rachel gets my badge. Rachel gets to sit next to my son at the biggest dinner of his life. But she can't find him a white shirt for tomorrow?"

"Don't do this."

"Don't do what, Mason? Ask a question?"

"Don't put Noah in the middle of us." His voice went hard. "I'm serious. He's a kid. Leave him out of it."

"Who asked him to keep your affair a secret for five months?"

The hair dryer stopped.

For a second I thought he might actually answer me. Then the line went dead.

I set the phone face down on the comforter and didn't pick it back up for an hour.

The texts started at seven.

The first was from Mason. *Found the shirt. What time does his school start?*

I looked at it for a long time. Nine years of drop-offs. Nine years of field trip forms, picture day, and the Thursday early release he always forgot. He'd stood in our son's bedroom tonight going through drawers, and he didn't know when to have him at the front door.

I didn't answer.

Ten minutes later: *Claire. Seriously.*

Then: *Never mind. Figured it out.*

He hadn't. School started at 7:50, and the event was at 8:15 in the gym. If he'd figured anything out, it was by asking someone who'd been listening all year.

At eight-fifteen, Dani Lund texted me. Her husband played on the third line. We'd spent four seasons together in the family box sharing bad nachos.

*I shouldn't be telling you this. But you should know.*

Then a photo. The banquet hall, round tables under chandeliers, the trophy glowing on a riser at the front. At the head family table sat Mason in a tux, Rachel beside him in emerald silk, and next to her an empty chair with a folded napkin and an untouched plate.

*Where's Noah?* I wrote.

*Under table 6. Then by the bar. Then trying to get Kuznetsov to sign his arm with a Sharpie. He won't eat. He won't put his jacket on. He's wired out of his mind.*

I could picture it exactly. He'd been awake since six, overtired and overfed on attention. I knew that look on him the way I knew the sound of his breathing through a baby monitor. You didn't argue with him when he got like that. You got down on his level, put a roll in his hand, and walked him outside for five minutes of cold air.

*What's Rachel doing?*

The dots appeared and vanished twice.

*She tried for maybe ten minutes. Then he knocked a glass of water into her lap and she turned to Mason and said, "He's your son." Loud. The whole table heard it.*

Another photo came through, blurry. Mason halfway across the ballroom in his tux, one arm out, chasing a small blur in a too-big blazer between the tables.

*He's been doing laps for twenty minutes,* Dani wrote. *I've never seen him do this.*

Neither had I. In nine years, Mason had never once had to.

I put the phone down and went to the window. The banners on Grant Avenue snapped in the wind.

At ten-forty, he called again.

"Claire." No hello. He sounded wrung out. Somewhere behind him, a child was screaming the way children only scream when they're past exhausted. "He won't stop. He won't brush his teeth, he won't get in bed, he threw his shoe at the TV—"

"Put him on."

"What?"

"Put Noah on the phone, Mason."

A rustle. A muffled argument. Then wet, ragged breathing right against the speaker.

"Mom?"

"Hi, bud."

"I want you." He was hiccuping between words. "I don't like it here. Rachel left and Dad's mad and the bed is weird and nobody did it right."

"Did what right?"

"The water by the bed. And the light in the bathroom. You always leave it on a little."

I closed my eyes.

"Can you come get me?" he whispered. "Please? You can just come get me and I'll be really good, I promise."

Every part of me already had my keys in my hand. I could be at the Lexington in fifteen minutes. I could carry him to the car, wipe his face, and drive him home, and tomorrow everything would go back to the way it was. Mason would be the fun one again, and I'd be the one who handled it.

I stood very still in the middle of the hotel room.

"Noah," I said. "Tonight is Dad's night."

Silence.

"Ask him to take care of you. Ask him to fill up the water and leave the bathroom light on. He can do it. You just have to tell him."

"But you—"

"I love you. I'll see you soon. Okay?"

He didn't say okay. I heard him breathing, and then the phone fumbled against something soft, a pillow or the comforter. I thought he'd hung up.

He hadn't.

The call stayed open. I heard it start low and then break wide open, the kind of crying he hadn't done since he was small enough to fit on my chest. Not a tantrum. Something sadder than that.

Mason's voice came from somewhere close. "Hey. Hey, buddy. Come here."

The crying went on. I pressed the phone hard against my ear.

Then, so quietly I almost missed it, Noah asked him:

"Did Mom leave because of me too?"