Every flicker of Gioia's expression, every pout, every flash of temper, even the simple gesture of tucking back her hair, Lorenzo had captured it all in his lens.

After we married, he never touched a camera again.

Once I asked him to take a portrait of me, swollen with child, and he claimed the camera was lost, then turned around and referred me to some famous photographer the Family kept on retainer.

It was never lost. His lens simply had room for only one person, the woman he loved.

My eyes were dry, wrung out, unable to spill a single tear. I quietly put the album back where I'd found it, sliding it behind the cistern the way a soldier hides a piece he doesn't want found.

On my phone I bought passage out of the country, somewhere the Falcone reach thinned to nothing, then drafted the papers to dissolve our blood union.

If he loved Gioia this much, I would set him free.

The next morning, my eyes were swollen like walnuts.

Lorenzo fretted over me, made me a breakfast with his own hands, then boiled eggs and peeled them carefully, pressing them to my lids to bring the swelling down. A tailor's hands, precise, gentle, the same hands that signed away men's lives over espresso.

The tender, attentive picture he made almost had me doubting whether last night had been a dream.

But the hollow flatness of my belly reminded me. All of it was real.

Seeing that I hadn't touched a bite, he sighed:

"Adriana, our baby is gone. I know you're hurting, and it breaks my heart too. But you have to take care of yourself. You've lost so many these past years, your body is already so weak. Eat a little more. Don't make me worry, all right?"

"Where is the baby's body? I want to see him."

Three months. My baby would have taken shape by now, but he would never get the chance to come into this world.

And the answer I got was the same as the last seven times:

"I've already had the baby properly laid to rest. You're in a bad way right now. I was afraid seeing him would only break your heart."

He ran his thumb along the inside seam of his cuff as he said it, the way he checked a stitch, smoothing over the lie until it lay flat.

"Mamma and the old Don heard you lost another. They're devastated. We'll go back to the compound for dinner tonight, and pay our respects while we're there."

The moment we stepped through the gates of the old compound, soldiers straightening at the sight of him, I saw Gioia draped on my mother-in-law's arm, cooing and playing the darling.

When she spotted me, she thrust her belly out higher, one hand resting low and possessive over it, almost showing it off:

"Oh, Adriana, you came? Long time no see. Sit down, sit. I heard you lost another one, you mustn't tire yourself out."

Ever since the wedding, things between me and Matteo and Gioia had been beyond repair. Whenever I came to the compound, I made sure to pick times they wouldn't be there.

I never imagined I'd run into them today.

I looked at her six-month belly, and the thought that this was Lorenzo's child sent a stab through my chest.

He had never once let the child in my womb live past three months.

The instant she saw me, Margherita's face darkened. The black rosary at her wrist began to click, bead by bead:

"Useless waste, can't even keep a baby in her belly. How many times is this now? And you've got the nerve to talk about being tired? How did my son end up saddled with a thing like you?"

She was Lorenzo's birth mother, yet only Matteo's step-grandmother, and just fifty this year.

Watching the seat of the Don that should have gone to her own son get snatched away by Matteo, how could she not be bitter?

Once upon a time Lorenzo would have spoken up for me, but right now his eyes held only Gioia, brimming with longing and besotted devotion. He didn't hear a word anyone said. The room had gone quiet around his stillness, the way it always did, and no one dared fill the silence.

"Nonna, please don't be angry. Adriana just isn't fated with the blessing of motherhood, that's all. She's lost so many babies, it's not as if she wanted to."

Margherita gave a cold snort, the beads falling still in her fingers:

"A jinx, that's all she is. Nothing but a drag on my son."

Gioia made her hollow show of pleading my case, then went to pull me toward a seat, but the moment she rose her body swayed.

Even though she steadied herself almost at once, Lorenzo still shoved me aside in a heartbeat.

Heedless of his mother standing right there, heedless of the soldiers along the wall, he gathered Gioia into his arms and asked anxiously:

"Gioia, are you all right? You're carrying, why did you come out here on your own? Where's Matteo?"

Gioia laughed, sweet and cloying, her hand pressing flat against her belly:

"Matteo's away on business in the States. He's taking over the seat soon, he's swamped."

She looked at me, a taunt in her eyes, and crooned to Lorenzo in a simpering voice:

"Lorenzo, I think I turned my ankle just now. It hurts so much~"

Without a word, Lorenzo lifted her into his arms like a bride and carried her straight up to the second-floor bedroom of the compound, never once glancing at me. The soldiers along the staircase stepped aside for him, eyes lowered, as though they had seen nothing.

The Don's mother gave me a pointed look across the long table, her voice dripping with contempt. The black rosary at her wrist clicked once, bead against bead.

"Can't lay an egg, and can't even keep hold of your own man. If Matteo hadn't married Gioia first, do you think my son would ever have looked twice at you? And you still have the nerve to sit at this table. Go upstairs. The sight of you kills my appetite."

She had never liked me. I'd always known that.

To her, I was the woman Matteo had thrown away, the one who'd latched onto her son and brought shame on the Falcone name before the whole Family.

And after I'd lost so many children, her disgust only deepened.

But she was Lorenzo's mother, the matriarch of the bloodline, and I'd believed it was my own fault that I couldn't carry a child, so I swallowed the guilt.

Besides, Lorenzo used to speak up for me here and there, so every time, I let it go.

But now Lorenzo was too busy doting on Gioia. Why would he ever think of me?

For a moment, I almost wanted to tell them the truth. In the end, I let it die. Omertà had taught me that some words, once spoken at this table, could never be taken back.

I'd already decided to leave. There was no point wasting my breath.

I climbed the stairs without a word, and noticed that Gioia's bedroom door hadn't been shut all the way.

Some impulse I couldn't name pulled me toward it.

And there was Gioia, sprawled across the bed with her clothes in disarray, Lorenzo pressing down over her.

"Lorenzo, you're still the one who treats me best. Matteo can't father children, and if Adriana had a baby, he wouldn't be able to take the seat of the Family. Who knows how much I'd suffer after that." Her hand rested low on her belly as she spoke, daring the room to argue with what grew there.

Lorenzo's breath came shallow, the flush of want rising at the corners of his eyes.

"Does Matteo treat you well? Has he ever mistreated you?"

"No. Ever since I got pregnant, he can't dote on me enough. He's terrified I'll tire myself out, washes my feet for me himself, and he's even gentler with me in bed."

A bitter look crossed Lorenzo's face.

"As long as he's good to you, as long as you're happy, then I have no regrets."

"Matteo, you've done so much for me. I couldn't marry you, so the least I can do is give myself to you. Tonight, I'm yours."

Whatever restraint Lorenzo had left snapped. His movements turned harder, and the two of them tangled together in a frenzy.

I'd never known that Lorenzo, the Don who ordered men into the ground without changing his expression, always so cold and self-controlled, had a side that could come undone like this.

Tears slid down my face as I stumbled back to my room.

All night, Lorenzo never came back.

The next morning, he looked at me, apologetic.

"Adriana, I meant to come keep you company last night, but Winslow held me up talking for hours. I just couldn't get away."

I didn't expose his lie. I turned and went to wait for him by the door of the compound.

A bucket of slop, thick with leftover scraps from the Family table, came crashing down over my head. Gioia appeared in front of me out of nowhere, the bucket still dangling from her hand.

"Adriana, the way Lorenzo lost himself on top of me, wasn't it something to see?" She smiled, taunting.

So she'd left that door open on purpose.

"Miscarrying doesn't feel good, does it? But you won't have to worry about that anymore. After all, you'll never be able to have a child again."

"And you still kept getting pregnant, one after another. Did you think you could fight me for the seat as the Family's first lady? Stop dreaming. For my sake, Lorenzo not only gave up his own claim to the throne, he got me pregnant himself. And those dead babies of yours? Every one of them became my strengthening rite." Her hand pressed flat and hard against her belly, the only crack in her smile.

My head shot up, my voice shaking.

"What did you say?"

"Why else do you think Lorenzo told you, every time you lost the child, that the baby was already buried and wouldn't let you see it? Because I told him eating that was good for my body, of course."

Despair, fury, and disbelief flooded my mind all at once. The world went very still around me, as if even the soldiers in the courtyard had stopped breathing.

So this was why Lorenzo never let me see my children?

For Gioia's sake, how could he have gone this far?!

Gioia smiled, savoring every second of it.

"Drop the wounded act. Who's there to blame? Blame yourself for being useless. With a mother as worthless as you, your babies were only ever good enough to nourish mine."

Something in me snapped. My hand shot up and swung straight for her face.

Crack.

The slap never landed. Lorenzo yanked Gioia behind him and took the blow himself, the sound flat against the marble of the Falcone compound's east hall.

He shoved me to the floor, his voice a snarl.

"Adriana, what the hell do you think you're doing?!"

Gioia wept, one hand sliding low and protective over her belly, the picture of injured innocence.

"Lorenzo, all I wanted was to comfort her, to tell her not to break her heart over the baby."

"But she actually envied me for carrying. She said I stole her place as the Family's first lady, and she tried to dump the slop water all over me. I pushed her back on instinct. I didn't mean to. I already apologized, and she still came at me, screaming that she'd make me lose the child." Her hand pressed harder against her stomach as she said it.

Before I could get a word out, Lorenzo looked down at me, his face dark.

"Adriana, how did I never see this side of you? When did you become such a vain, grasping woman?"

"You couldn't keep your babies because you weren't capable of it. So why take it out on Gioia? Why throw her kindness back in her face? Stop coveting things that were never yours. Apologize to Gioia. Now."

I wasn't capable of it. Heh...

I stared at his face, and all at once it was like looking at a stranger.

"Lorenzo, tell me. My babies, the ones who died. Where did you really send their bodies?"

Lorenzo frowned. His thumb moved along the inside seam of his cuff, slow, the way a tailor checks a hidden stitch.

"I had them buried, of course. I already told you that, didn't I?"

His acting was flawless. Truly. A man who fronted a couture house and laundered the syndicate's blood through silk could lie without a single thread out of place.

"You're right, Lorenzo. I shouldn't covet things that aren't mine. Don't worry. I'll never cross Gioia again."

With that, I turned and walked away without a moment's hesitation.

Lorenzo watched me go, and a sudden unease tightened in his chest. He started to call me back, but Gioia caught his arm.

"Lorenzo, the slop water splashed all over me. I feel sick. Will you take me to the Family physician? Please?"

He hesitated for two seconds. In the end, he didn't come after me.

Back in our wing of the compound, I dug out everything Lorenzo had given me over the years and threw it all into the fire bowl.

I'd just pulled out the blood union papers when my phone chimed. I opened the message and glanced at it.

"Adriana, I only said I felt a little sick, and Lorenzo got so worried he flew in the best physicians from every territory for me."

"Even the ones across the country. He chartered a plane just to bring them in. Aren't you so jealous?"

I didn't bother answering her. I watched the flames swallow the marriage pact and reduce it to ash.

I wasn't the least bit worried Lorenzo would see.

Because I knew he wasn't coming home tonight.

Sure enough, his call came.

"Adriana, Gioia's having some trouble with the pregnancy, and Matteo's away handling Family business. As her husband's blood, I have to look after her for him. Don't be upset."

I thought of the photo Gioia had just sent, her cheeks flushed and rosy as she ate the fruit Lorenzo had sliced for her himself. Not a trace of distress anywhere.

"Mm. Got it. The pregnancy comes first. Take good care of her."

Lorenzo paused, then softened his voice.

"Adriana, I didn't mean to snap at you today. I know losing the baby has you in a bad place."

"But Gioia is carrying a child, and that child is Falcone blood. You and I can't carry on the bloodline anymore. If something happens to Gioia, I'm afraid the old Don and my mother won't survive it."

I found it almost funny. Why bother with all these excuses?

"Just stay home and be good. Tomorrow's your birthday. I booked the finest suite the Family owns and put together a surprise for you. I'll come get you first thing in the morning."