Chapter 2
Clyde's apartment smelled like takeout and cologne. The TV was on mute. A basketball game flickered blue across his face.
He didn't get up when I walked in. He didn't even pause the game.
"You're late," he said. "I texted you about dinner."
I didn't sit. I stood by the window. Behind me, the city glowed orange in the dusk. Somewhere below, a car horn honked twice and went quiet.
"We're done, Clyde."
He finally looked at me. One eyebrow went up. "What?"
"We're done. Completely. Permanently." My voice didn't shake. It surprised me how steady it was. "There's nothing to talk about. No negotiations."
He laughed. It was a short, lazy sound. Then he leaned back on the couch and spread his arms across the cushions, like he owned the air in the room.
"Is this about the birthday thing? Or the bracelet?"
"It's about everything."
"Mara." He said my name like he was talking to a child. "You do this. You get emotional, you make a big speech, and then you come back." He smirked. "Sure. See you by the weekend. You always come back."
I looked at him. Really looked.
The tired lines by his eyes. The phone in his hand, screen lit, thumb already moving. The little smile he wore when he thought he'd won.
I waited for the anger. The heat in my chest. The tears.
Nothing came.
I was empty. Clean and hollow, like a house after the movers leave. And that emptiness felt more honest than anything I'd felt in ten years.
"Goodbye, Clyde."
I set his key on the counter. It clicked against the marble. He didn't look up again.
The door closed behind me. I didn't hear him follow.
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I called a real estate agent the next morning.
Her name was Pam. She talked fast and smiled with her whole face. "Prime location. It'll go quick."
"Good," I said. "The faster the better."
I booked movers for Thursday. Then I started sorting.
Ten years of life fits into more boxes than you think. I went room by room. Mine. His. Trash. I worked like a surgeon. Clean cuts. No hesitation.
The blender was mine. The ugly leather chair was his. The framed photo from Cabo, where he was looking at his phone and I was looking at him?
Trash.
On the third night, I sat on the floor with my laptop. The living room echoed now. Boxes stood in stacks like gravestones.
I opened my email. I typed *reservation* into the search bar.
The results loaded. And loaded. And kept loading.
Lumière. Nobu. That tiny Italian place in Silver Lake. A rooftop in Santa Monica. Every anniversary. Every birthday. Every "special night" I'd planned, hoping this would be the one.
Hundreds of them. A digital graveyard of hope.
I scrolled for a long time. Some of those dinners, he never showed up for. Some, he left early. Some, I ate alone and told the waiter he was stuck at work.
My thumb found the base of my ring finger. I pressed down. Then I stopped.
I clicked *Select All.*
The screen turned blue with highlights.
I held my breath. The room was so quiet I could hear the fridge hum.
*Delete.*
They vanished. Ten years, gone in half a second.
I waited to feel sad. Instead, I laughed. A small, cracked laugh that bounced off the bare walls.
It felt like opening a window in a room I hadn't known was locked.
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My flight to Seattle was Sunday.
On Saturday morning, I went to the café on the corner. One last iced latte. One last quiet hour before the boxes and the airport.
I'd barely sat down when the chair across from me scraped back.
Romina.
She slid into the seat like she'd been invited. Sunglasses on her head. Tiffany diamonds at her throat, catching the light on purpose.
"Mara." She smiled sweetly. "I heard you're leaving."
I didn't ask how she knew. I didn't care.
"Clyde mentioned it." She studied her nails. Pink. Perfect. "He thinks it's cute. Your little tantrum."
I said nothing.
She leaned across the table. Her perfume hit me. Chanel No. 5. Of course.
"I just wanted you to know something before you go." Her voice dropped soft, almost kind. Almost. "He never loved you, you know. You were just... comfortable."
The words hung between us.
A week ago, they would have gutted me. Today, they just sat there. Small and cheap. Like that bracelet hitting the bottom of the trash can.
I looked at her for a long moment. Her smile wavered a little. She'd expected tears. She'd expected me to beg her to stop.
I picked up my iced latte.
I stood. I held it over her head.
And I poured. Slowly. Deliberately.
Ice cubes bounced off her glossy hair. Coffee ran down her forehead, her cheeks, her neck. It soaked into her silk blouse. It dripped onto the diamonds.
She gasped. Her mouth hung open.
The café went silent. The espresso machine hissed into nothing. A barista froze with a cup in her hand. Someone's spoon hit the floor.
Romina's mascara ran in two black lines down her face.
"You—" she sputtered. "You crazy—"
I set the empty cup down on the table. Gently.
I picked up my bag.
I didn't say a word. She wasn't worth one.
The bell over the door chimed as I walked out. The sun was warm on my face. Behind me, someone started to clap. Then someone else.
I didn't turn around.
My phone buzzed in my pocket. *Clyde.*
I stopped on the sidewalk. I opened his contact. My thumb hovered for only a second.
*Block.*
Then I kept walking. Lighter than I'd been in ten years.
Somewhere north, Seattle was waiting. Gray skies. Cold rain. My father's porch light.
I didn't know what else waited there yet.
But for the first time in a decade, I wanted to find out.
Chapter 3
Lexi Munoz drove like she wanted to kill the freeway.
Her knuckles were white on the steering wheel. The 405 was a river of red brake lights. She didn't care. She switched lanes like the other cars had insulted her mother.
I stared out the window. Palm trees. Billboards. Smog turning the sky the color of weak tea. Ten years of my life, sliding past at sixty miles an hour.
"Your twenty-fifth birthday," Lexi said suddenly. "He showed up drunk. With a gift card. To Target."
"Lex."
"No. I held this in for ten years. You're going to let me talk." Her voice cracked. She wiped her face with the back of her wrist. "Proposal number four. In Cabo. He laughed, Mara. He laughed and ordered another margarita."
I didn't argue. She was right.
"And the way he talked to you at dinners? Like you were the help?" She was crying for real now. Mascara smudged. Still driving like a getaway car. "I wanted to stab him with a salad fork. Every single time."
A laugh slipped out of me. Small and rusty.
"Don't laugh. I'm serious."
"I know you are." I reached over and squeezed her arm. "Why didn't you ever say all this?"
She was quiet for a second. "Because you would've picked him. And then I'd have lost you too."
That one landed. Right under my ribs.
At the departure gate, she grabbed me hard. Her arms locked around my neck. She smelled like coconut shampoo and road rage.
"You're free," she whispered into my hair. "You're finally free."
I nodded against her shoulder. I didn't trust my voice.
Then I walked down the jet bridge. I didn't look back.
On the plane, my phone stayed in my bag. Two and a half hours. No screen. No waiting for a text that wouldn't come. I watched the clouds turn from brown to white to soft gray.
It was the first flight in ten years I didn't check it once.
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Seattle greeted me with rain. Of course it did.
The cab dropped me in front of my father's house. I stood on the sidewalk with my suitcase and blinked.
It looked smaller. I knew houses didn't shrink. But this one had.
The hedges were overgrown. Mr. Tanaka used to trim them every Tuesday. The porch light was on, but one of the two bulbs had burned out. Nobody had replaced it.
I rang the bell.
Dad opened the door. Everett Ford, in a gray cardigan I'd bought him six Christmases ago. His hair was whiter than I remembered. His shoulders sat lower.
He looked at me. One long look. He saw everything. I could tell.
He didn't ask a single question. He just pulled me in.
His arms were warm. His heart thumped slow against my ear. We stood in the doorway while rain dripped off the roof behind me.
"Welcome home, sweetheart."
I held on longer than I meant to.
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Dinner was spaghetti. Jarred sauce. Dad never used jarred sauce.
I noticed other things too. The thermostat was set to sixty-four. The big oil painting in the hallway was gone. A pale square marked the wall where it used to hang. A stack of envelopes sat on the counter, face down.
"Dad. Where's Mr. Tanaka?"
He twirled his fork. "I let him go in the spring."
"And the painting?"
"Sold it." He said it lightly. Too lightly.
I set my fork down. "Tell me."
He sighed. He took off his glasses and rubbed his eyes. Up close, the lines on his face looked carved. Like someone had pressed them in with a thumb.
"The Harbor Point project," he said. "The commercial tower. The anchor tenant pulled out. Then the second one. The loans came due." He shrugged. "Investors got nervous. Then they got gone."
"How bad?"
"Bad enough."
"Why didn't you call me?"
He smiled. It didn't reach his eyes. "Why didn't you call me?"
Touché. We were both quiet.
I had spent ten years drowning in Los Angeles. And all that time, my father had been drowning here. Alone. In a cold house. Selling the walls one painting at a time.
"I'm not asking you for anything," he said. "I want to be clear."
"I know you're not."
"Good." He picked up his glass. Put it back down. "But there's something you should hear. From me. Before you hear it somewhere else."
My stomach tightened.
"Harrison Hart came to see me last month."
The name hit the table like a dropped plate.
"He's offered to invest. Enough to stabilize everything." Dad chose each word slowly. "His family would like the partnership to be... more permanent. You understand what I mean."
I understood.
"I'll find another way if you're not comfortable," he said quickly. "I mean that, Mara. I've already talked to bankruptcy lawyers. I'll be fine."
He would not be fine. We both knew it.
I went very still.
The rain tapped against the window. The fridge hummed. Somewhere upstairs, an old pipe knocked.
Harrison Hart. Gangly and sunburned at seventeen. Sharing my s'mores at summer camp. Teaching me to find the North Star.
And then that night in the woods. My ankle twisted under me. The dark. The cold. His voice saying *hold on*.
And then waking up, and he was gone. No goodbye. No call. Not one word for twelve years.
My thumb drifted to my ankle under the table. The little scar was still there.
Why now? Why me? What did a man like Harrison Hart want with a thirty-year-old woman who'd just been called boring by the man she loved?
I didn't know. That scared me.
But I was tired of not knowing things.
I looked up at my father.
"Set up the meeting," I said quietly.