Chapter 2
I held the ultrasound printout against my chest as I walked down the corridor. The paper was still warm from the printer. I could feel my heartbeat through it.
Six weeks.
I turned the corner toward the exit and stopped.
Jolene stood in the middle of the hallway, leaning against the wall like she'd been waiting. She straightened when she saw me. Her gaze dropped immediately to the paper in my hands.
For a moment neither of us moved.
Then she smiled.
"Camryn." Her voice was bright, friendly. "What a coincidence."
I didn't answer. I tried to step around her.
She moved into my path.
"What's that?" She nodded at the printout. "Hospital paperwork?"
I held it tighter.
Her eyes narrowed slightly. Then her expression cleared, and something cold settled behind it. She tilted her head.
"Oh my god." Her voice went soft. "Are you pregnant?"
I didn't say anything.
"Congratulations." She took a step closer. "How far along?"
I stepped back. She followed.
"Does Lennox know?" Another step. "I bet he doesn't. You were going to surprise him, weren't you? That's so sweet."
We were near the stairwell now. The one that led down to the parking garage. I could see the red exit sign over her shoulder.
"Excuse me," I said quietly.
Jolene didn't move.
I tried to go around her. She shifted again, blocking me, and this time she was smiling wider.
"You know what's funny?" she said. "Lennox told me just last week that he never wanted kids. He said the idea of being tied down like that made him feel trapped."
I looked at her face. At the perfect makeup. At the smile that didn't reach her eyes.
"But I guess you didn't ask him, did you?" she continued. "You just decided for both of you. That's very like you, Camryn. Always so quiet. Always so... presumptuous."
She took another step.
I was at the top of the stairs now. I could feel the edge of the first step behind my heel.
"Jolene—"
"Do you really think a baby is going to change anything?" Her voice dropped lower. "Do you think it's going to make him love you?"
She reached out. For a second I thought she was going to take the ultrasound from my hands.
Instead she put both palms flat against my chest and shoved.
I didn't have time to catch myself.
The stairs came up fast. My shoulder hit first, then my hip, then my head. The world flipped and blurred. I heard the ultrasound printout tear. I tried to grab the railing but my fingers slid off. Another step caught my ribs. Then another.
I hit the landing at the bottom and everything stopped.
I lay on my side, cheek pressed against cold concrete. I couldn't move. Couldn't breathe. There was a wetness spreading beneath me, warm and wrong.
I curled my hands over my stomach.
Above me, at the top of the stairs, I heard the soft click of heels. I tilted my head — the right side, always the right side — and saw Jolene looking down at me.
She adjusted her coat lapel with two fingers. Smoothed her hair.
Then she turned and walked away.
I tried to call out. Nothing came.
The wetness kept spreading.
I closed my eyes.
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When I woke up, I was in a bed.
White ceiling. White walls. The smell of disinfectant so strong it made my throat close. I turned my head — right side, always right — and saw an IV line running into my arm.
A nurse was standing by the door, writing something on a clipboard. She looked up when I moved.
"Mrs. Hawkins." Her voice was gentle. "You're awake. How are you feeling?"
I opened my mouth. My lips were cracked.
"The baby," I whispered.
Her face changed.
She set down the clipboard and came to the side of the bed. She didn't touch me. She just stood there, and I could see the answer in her eyes before she said anything.
"I'm so sorry," she said quietly. "We did everything we could."
I stared at her.
"The fall caused significant trauma. By the time the staff found you, there was already heavy bleeding. We couldn't—" She stopped. "I'm so sorry."
I looked down at my hands.
They were still curled, fingers bent like I was holding something. The ultrasound printout was there, torn in half, the image barely visible through the crease.
The nurse had tried to take it from me, I realized. But I wouldn't let go.
I smoothed the torn edges with my thumb.
Six weeks.
"Mrs. Hawkins, is there someone we can call for you?"
I didn't answer.
I lay back against the pillow and stared at the ceiling. Somewhere down the hall a machine beeped. Voices blurred together on my right side. On my left, nothing.
I breathed in.
I breathed out.
I felt nothing at all.
Chapter 3
The door opened.
I didn't turn my head. I knew his footsteps. I'd been listening to them walk away from me for five years.
Lennox stopped at the foot of the hospital bed. I could see him in my peripheral vision, hands in his pockets, jaw tight. He didn't come closer.
"So," he said. "Pregnant."
I stared at the ceiling tiles. There was a water stain in the corner shaped like a comma.
"When were you planning to tell me?" His voice had that edge I knew too well. Not quite anger. Something colder. "Or were you just going to let me find out when you started showing?"
I didn't answer.
He moved around the side of the bed, into my line of sight. His shirt was wrinkled. His tie was gone. He looked like he'd been out all night.
Maybe he had been.
"The nurse said you fell down the stairs." He crossed his arms. "That's convenient."
I turned my head on the pillow to look at him. My neck ached.
"Convenient," I repeated. My voice came out hoarse.
"You show up here. Suddenly you're pregnant. Suddenly there's a fall, and now—" He gestured vaguely at the room, at the IV line, at me. "Now I'm supposed to feel guilty. Is that it?"
I blinked.
"There's no baby anymore, Lennox."
His expression didn't change. "I heard."
Silence stretched between us. Somewhere down the hall, a machine beeped steadily. On and on.
"Here's what I think," he said finally. "I think you made this whole thing up. I think you wanted to trap me, and when that didn't work, you staged this—" He waved his hand again. "This whole scene to make me look like the bad guy."
I stared at him.
"There's no way that baby was mine," he continued. His voice was flat now. Matter-of-fact. "We haven't slept together in eight months. So either you're lying, or you've been fucking someone else."
I felt nothing. That was the strangest part. I thought I would feel something — anger, grief, anything. But there was just a hollow space where all of that should have been.
My hand was resting on the blanket. The torn ultrasound printout lay beside it, the two halves barely touching.
Lennox saw it. He picked it up.
He looked at it for a moment. Then he tore it again. And again. He let the pieces fall like snow onto the linoleum floor.
"Stop pretending," he said quietly. "It's pathetic."
I watched the pieces scatter. One landed near my hand. I could see part of the date. October. The rest was gone.
I reached for my phone on the bedside table. My fingers were steady. That surprised me.
I unlocked it. Scrolled through my contacts. Found the number I'd saved years ago and never called.
I pressed dial.
Lennox frowned. "What are you doing?"
The line rang once. Twice.
Then a voice answered. Low. Precise.
"Camryn."
"I need help," I said.
Lennox's face changed. He took a step back.
"Where are you?" Kingston Hawkins asked.
"Mount Sinai. Room 847."
"I'll be there in twenty minutes."
The line went dead.
I set the phone down.
Lennox was staring at me. His face had gone pale.
"You called Kingston," he said. "You actually—"
"Yes."
"Camryn." He moved closer, hands up like he was approaching something dangerous. "Listen to me. You don't want to involve him. He doesn't understand the situation. He'll make this worse."
I tilted my head to the right and looked at him.
"Worse than what?"
He opened his mouth. Closed it.
Footsteps echoed in the hallway. Fast. Purposeful.
The door slammed open.
Kingston Hawkins filled the doorframe. Six-foot-three in a black overcoat, flanked by two people in suits carrying briefcases. His face was absolutely still.
He didn't look at me.
He looked at Lennox.
Lennox took another step back. "Uncle Kingston. This is a misunderstanding. Camryn is upset, she's not thinking clearly—"
Kingston walked past him like he wasn't there. He stopped at the bedside table and set down a black leather folder.
"You're going to sign these papers," he said. His voice was level. Quiet. It didn't need to be anything else. "And then you're going to get out of her life. Permanently."
Lennox looked at the folder. Then at me.
I was staring at the ceiling again. The water stain. The comma.
"Camryn," Lennox said. "Tell him this isn't what you want."
I said nothing.
One of the suited figures opened the folder and held out a pen.
Kingston didn't move. Didn't repeat himself.
Lennox's hand shook when he took the pen. He flipped through the pages, not reading them. His signature came out jagged. Wrong.
He set the pen down.
"This is a mistake," he said. He was looking at me now. "You're going to regret this."
I turned my head and met his eyes.
"Get out," I whispered.
He stood there for another moment. Then he walked out.
The door closed.
Kingston picked up the folder and handed it to one of his associates. Then he looked at me for the first time.
"Can you walk?"
I nodded.
"Then let's go."
He turned toward the door.
I looked down at the floor. At the torn pieces of the ultrasound scattered across the linoleum.
I didn't pick them up.
I stood, pulled the IV from my arm, and followed Kingston Hawkins out of the room.
Chapter 4
I found him three days later.
The bar was called something pretentious. Altitude, maybe. Or Apex. They all had names like that — words that meant high up, untouchable. It sat on top of a converted warehouse in the Meatpacking District, all exposed brick and Edison bulbs and bartenders who looked like models.
I'd never been here before. But I knew Lennox came here. I'd seen the charges on our joint credit card. Every Thursday. Sometimes Fridays too.
I stood in the doorway holding the divorce papers. They were bound in a blue folder, official and final. Kingston's lawyers had worked fast. All that was left was Lennox's signature on the last page.
The bar was loud. Music pounded through speakers I couldn't see. Voices layered over each other until they became just noise. I tilted my head right, trying to pick out individual words.
Then I saw him.
He sat at a corner table surrounded by five or six people. I recognized most of them. Dominic Reyes. Marcus Chen from the hedge fund. A couple of others whose names I'd forgotten. Jolene wasn't there yet.
Lennox had his sleeves rolled up. His tie was loose. He looked relaxed in a way I hadn't seen in years. He was laughing at something Marcus said.
I stayed in the doorway. No one had noticed me yet.
Dominic leaned back in his chair, drink in hand. He said something I couldn't hear from this distance. The whole table laughed.
Then Dominic's voice rose, cutting through the noise.
"She actually went *deaf* saving you?" He shook his head, grinning. "That's pathetic."
The laughter got louder.
Lennox didn't correct him. He just smiled and took a drink.
Marcus leaned forward. "Wait, seriously? She lost her hearing pulling him out of that car?"
"Left ear," Dominic said. "Completely gone. And now she does this—" He tilted his head to the side in an exaggerated way, mouth hanging open slightly. The table erupted.
I stood very still.
Lennox was laughing now too. Not politely. Really laughing, head thrown back, one hand on the table.
"She does do that," he said when he caught his breath. "Every single conversation. It's like talking to a confused puppy."
More laughter.
I felt nothing. That hollow space in my chest had spread until it filled everything.
The elevator doors opened behind me. Heels clicked across the floor.
Jolene walked past me without a glance. She wore black tonight. Her hair was pulled back. She looked like she owned the place.
She walked straight to Lennox's table. He saw her coming and stood. She didn't slow down. She wrapped both arms around his neck and kissed him.
Not a polite kiss. Not a friendly one.
The kind of kiss that made a claim.
The table cheered. Someone whistled. Dominic raised his glass.
Jolene pulled back just enough to smile at Lennox. Then she kissed him again, deeper this time, her fingers in his hair.
I watched.
When they finally broke apart, Jolene slid into the seat beside him. Lennox's arm went around her shoulders automatically. She leaned into him like she'd always been there.
Dominic was still grinning. He glanced toward the bar, scanning for a waitress.
Then he saw me.
His grin widened.
"Well, well." He raised his voice. "Look who decided to show up."
The table went quiet. Heads turned.
Lennox's arm slipped off Jolene's shoulders. His expression didn't change, but something tightened around his eyes.
I didn't move.
Dominic stood, swaying slightly. "Mrs. Hawkins! Come join us. We were just talking about you."
"Sit down," Lennox said quietly.
Dominic ignored him. He took a step toward me. "What's wrong? Can't hear me?" He cupped his hands around his mouth like a megaphone. "I SAID WE WERE TALKING ABOUT YOU."
Someone at the table snickered.
I looked at Dominic. Then past him, at Lennox.
Jolene had her hand on his arm now. Possessive. Comfortable.
I stepped into the bar.
There was a high-top table near the entrance. Three empty glasses sat on it beside a half-full bottle of whiskey. I walked over, set the divorce papers down, and picked up the bottle.
It was heavier than I expected.
I walked to the bar and swung the bottle down against the edge.
The crack was sharp and clean. Glass exploded across the polished wood. Amber liquid splashed onto the floor. The music kept playing, but every conversation in the room cut off.
I set what was left of the bottle down carefully. Then I turned and walked to Lennox's table.
No one moved.
I placed the blue folder in front of him. It landed with a soft thump.
Lennox stared at it. Then at me.
I didn't say anything. There was nothing left to say.
I looked at him for one more second. At Jolene's hand still on his arm. At the faces around the table.
Then I turned and walked back toward the door.
Behind me, the silence held.
I didn't look back.