Chapter 3
Phillip came back for me twenty minutes later.
I was still on the study floor. My cheek had swollen tight. The drug kept rolling through me in slow, hot waves.
“There are photographers on the front steps,” he said. “Someone posted a video. You can't walk out of here like this.”
“So you'll hide me in your car.”
“I'll have you driven home.” He didn't look at my face. “Get up.”
I got up. I hated that I did.
The town car waited at the service door. Braelynn was already inside, in the far corner, pink silk spread around her like a spill. She smiled at me.
“Room for one more, honey,” she said.
Phillip slid in beside her. I took the jump seat, facing them. Nobody spoke. The city slid past the glass in smears of gold and red. My heart kept time with the turn signal.
I pressed my palm to my cheek. Cold. I tried to count my breaths.
“You're staring,” Braelynn said.
“I'm trying not to be sick.”
“How tragic.” She laid her hand on Phillip's chest. Right there. For me.
He twisted his ring.
We turned onto a quiet stretch of Midtown. Dark office towers. No pedestrians. A delivery van sat crooked across the lane ahead.
The driver swore and braked hard.
My shoulder hit the door. Then both back doors ripped open at once. Cold air. Two men in black masks. One had a gun, steady and small. The other had a knife, and he was grinning.
“Out! Everybody out!”
Braelynn screamed. The knife man grabbed her wrist and yanked. Her heel caught on the sill. She wailed like a child.
And Phillip moved.
I saw his face for one second. There was no panic in it. He had already decided.
His hands closed on my shoulders. They were the same hands I'd held through a thousand shaking nights.
“Phillip—”
He shoved me.
Hard. Both palms flat. I flew out of the jump seat, straight at the blade. Behind me, I heard the rustle of silk as he pulled Braelynn into his arms and turned his back on me.
The knife came across my chest.
It didn't hurt at first. It felt like a hot wire. Then my legs folded, and the pavement hit my knees, then my hip, then my skull. A wet warmth soaked my dress and spread fast.
The men were shouting. Then I heard running, then an engine, then nothing.
I lay on my back. The sky over Manhattan was the color of dirty dishwater. No stars. Just one red light blinking on a distant tower.
Somewhere above me, Braelynn sobbed, “My darling, my darling.” Phillip murmured into her hair.
Neither of them looked down.
There had been a thread. Three years thin, and I'd kept tying knots in it. I felt it now. It didn't tear. It just parted, clean and quiet, like it had been waiting to.
I pressed my hand to my chest. It came away red.
*Okay,* I thought. *Okay. That's the answer.*
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Forty-seven stitches.
The surgeon at Lenox Hill said it twice, like I might argue. A diagonal line from collarbone to sternum. Half an inch from my left lung.
“Another half inch,” he said, “and we wouldn't be talking.”
“I know,” I said. My voice was a rasp.
I lay in the white room and listened to the monitor. Every breath pulled at the stitches. I watched the ceiling tiles and counted them. Sixty-four.
By morning the drug had left my blood. The clarity it left behind was worse.
At nine, the door opened.
White lilies. A white cashmere wrap. Braelynn stood in the doorway with her head tilted and her eyes soft and wet, like she'd practiced.
“Oh, sweetheart,” she said. “I came as soon as I could.”
A nurse looked in, smiled at her, and left.
Braelynn set the lilies on the tray table. She walked to the door. The latch clicked.
I knew what the sound meant. I reached for the call button.
She got to me first.
Her fist wrapped in my hair, right at the scalp. My neck bent back. Pain lit up my stitches. Her perfume, roses and something sharp, flooded my nose.
“Let go—”
She slammed my head against the wall.
The room flashed white. She did it again. My teeth rattled. Something warm trickled behind my ear.
“Stay away from my fiancé,” she hissed, an inch from my mouth. Her smile was gone. This was the face under it. “You pathetic little clinic rat.”
She let go. I slumped sideways against the rail, gasping, hand pressed to my chest.
She smoothed her dress. She stepped to the window and checked her reflection, then took out a lip gloss and painted it on, slow and even. She pressed her lips together.
“Get well soon,” she said sweetly.
She unlocked the door. She walked out humming.
The lilies stood on the tray. Their smell was thick and sweet, like a funeral.
I didn't cry. I sat there and let my pulse slow down. Then I pressed the call button and told the nurse I'd slipped.
I don't know why I lied. Maybe because I knew no one would believe me.
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Phillip never came.
Not that day. Not the next. No flowers. No call. Nobody asked how I was.
On the third afternoon, a courier in a gray suit knocked and handed me a thick cream envelope. He wouldn't meet my eyes.
“Mr. Wallace's counsel,” he said. “Sign where marked.”
An addendum to the NDA. Seven figures. In exchange, I'd stay silent about the carjacking and about the Wallace family, in perpetuity.
No note. No handwriting. Not even his initials.
I read every line. My hands were steady. I looked at them, because hands don't lie, and they weren't shaking.
Then I folded the pages in half and slid them under my untouched dinner tray.
Outside, it started to rain.
I watched it run down the glass, and I made a plan.
Chapter 4
They sent a car for me when I left the hospital. Black. Tinted windows. The driver didn't speak. We drove east for two hours, and the city fell away behind us like a bad dream.
The Wallace estate sat behind iron gates and old trees. White columns. Gravel paths. A stable with copper weather vanes that caught the afternoon light. Beautiful, in the way a cage can be beautiful if you build it expensive enough.
"For your recovery," Phillip's assistant had said on the phone. Her voice was careful, like she was reading a script. "Mr. Wallace insists. The staff will attend to your needs."
I didn't argue. I had forty-seven stitches and nowhere else to go. My apartment lease ended while I was bleeding on Midtown pavement. My bank account had three hundred dollars. I'd already decided to leave the country, but I needed a week to heal enough to sit on a plane.
Seven days. I could survive seven days.
The room they gave me faced the ocean. Cream walls. A four-poster bed. Fresh flowers every morning that I never asked for. A maid knocked twice a day and wouldn't meet my eyes.
I slept fourteen hours at a time. When I was awake, I sat by the window and watched the waves. I didn't think. Thinking was dangerous. I just breathed and counted the stitches pulling with every inhale.
Phillip never came.
On the fifth day, Braelynn arrived.
I heard her voice downstairs, bright and loud. "Where is she? I brought soup!" Footsteps on the marble. Laughter. The staff loved her. Of course they did. She tipped well and remembered birthdays.
I stayed in my room. I locked the door.
At sunset, someone knocked. Soft. Polite.
"Miss Palmer?" A young maid, maybe twenty. "Miss Kennedy requests you join her in the stables. She says the evening air will do you good."
I looked at the girl's face. She believed it. She thought this was kindness.
"Tell her I'm resting," I said.
"She was very insistent, miss."
I went.
The stables smelled like leather and hay and expensive horses. Soft gold light came through the high windows. Braelynn stood in the tack room in white linen, her hair pulled back, her smile wide and warm.
"There you are, sweetheart," she said. "I was worried."
She closed the door behind me. The latch clicked.
My pulse kicked. I stepped back. My spine hit a saddle rack.
"You're healing well," she said. She walked toward me slowly, examining me like a painting. "That's good. I'd hate for anything to scar."
"Braelynn—"
"On your knees."
I stared at her.
"I won't ask twice."
She didn't raise her voice. She didn't need to. Her hand went to the riding crop hanging on the wall. She lifted it off the hook and tested the weight, bending it between her palms.
I should have run. I should have screamed. But my body was so tired, and some part of me—the part that had held Phillip through a thousand nights—just wanted it to be over.
I knelt.
The floor was cold concrete. Bits of straw stuck to my palms.
"Blouse off."
My hands shook. I unbuttoned it slowly, one by one, and let it fall. The bandage across my chest was still white. The stitches pulled.
Braelynn circled me. Her heels clicked.
"Every mark," she whispered, "is a reminder of your place."
The first strike came across my shoulders.
It didn't hurt at first. Then the burn spread, hot and sharp, and I bit down on my tongue until I tasted copper. The second came lower. The third split skin.
She worked in silence. Methodical. Almost meditative. She wasn't angry. She was teaching.
I pressed my forehead to the concrete and tried to breathe through it. I counted. One. Two. Five. Ten.
Somewhere past fifteen, the door opened.
I lifted my head.
Phillip stood in the doorway. Navy sweater. Dark jeans. His face was carved from stone. His eyes found mine. Then they found the crop in Braelynn's hand. Then the blood on my back.
His knuckles went white on the doorframe.
I waited. I don't know what I waited for. An order. A shout. Anything.
He twisted his ring. Once. Twice.
Then he turned and walked away.
The door swung shut behind him.
Braelynn smiled. "See? He doesn't care, honey. He never did."
She dropped the crop. It clattered on the concrete. She stepped over me, careful not to let her shoes touch the blood, and left.
I knelt there until the light died.
Then I stood. I pulled my blouse back on. The fabric stuck to the cuts. I walked back to the house, up the stairs, into my room. I didn't cry. I didn't shake.
I took nothing.
I called a taxi from the landline in the hall. I walked down the gravel drive in the dark and waited by the gate until headlights came.
"JFK," I said.
The driver looked at my blouse. The back was soaked through, dark and wet.
"You okay, miss?"
"Just drive."
I bought a one-way ticket to London Heathrow with my last four hundred dollars. I boarded at midnight. The seat was narrow and hard. Every time the plane shifted, the cuts on my back screamed.
I didn't sleep. I sat very still and watched the dark Atlantic through the window.
Somewhere over the ocean, I pressed my palm flat against my chest, over the forty-seven stitches, and I felt it.
The thread was gone.
I wasn't his anymore. I wasn't anyone's.
I was free.