Chapter 3

“Milo isn’t stable,” I told him quietly. “I need to leave for a while and stay with him. I need your signature on this travel authorization.”

He didn’t bother scanning the paper. Didn’t ask a single question. He took the pen, scribbled his name carelessly, and shoved it back at me.

“Go ahead,” he said indifferently. “Look after the boy.”

That was it.

He didn’t ask what had happened. Didn’t ask if Milo was in danger. Didn’t ask anything at all. In fact, by the time I lifted my face, he was already smiling again—relieved, even. As if my leaving solved an inconvenience for him.

I walked out of the mansion before the sun rose. The pot of soup I had made the night before still sat on the table, untouched and congealed with cold.

Just like everything else in that house.

Adrian didn’t come to see me off.

The drive to my father’s estate took more than six hours. The farther we traveled, the heavier my chest felt. When the gates finally came into view, they looked just as imposing as they had in my childhood—tall black iron crowned with the Calderon crest, guarded by stone-faced men in gray uniforms. The hedges were clipped with brutal precision. Nothing had changed.

Except me.

I was thinner now. My face sharper. My body worn down in ways no sleep could fix. I felt older than I should have been.

I stepped out of the car alone and walked toward the main doors. No maid rushed forward. No servant bowed. The massive estate lay in complete silence, watching me like a living thing.

Then the doors opened.

And there he stood.

Duke Rafe Calderon.

His silver-streaked hair was perfectly slicked back. His suit was immaculate, as always. His face carried no warmth, no surprise—only judgment carved deep into stone.

“So,” he said coldly. “The daughter who disgraced our family for love dares to return.”

I straightened my back despite the ache in my legs from the drive. I didn’t weep. I didn’t bow. I had already bled all my tears dry inside Adrian’s house.

I met my father’s gaze and said plainly, “The marriage arrangement you once offered me—eight years ago—does it still stand?”

Silence swallowed the air.

I could hear the faint whistle of wind between marble pillars. Somewhere far off, metal clanged as a gardener trimmed hedges. The staff stood hidden behind walls like shadows, listening.

At last, my father spoke.

“No,” he said. “That man is no longer available. He married into a family that did not tarnish my name.”

He took a step as if to close the door.

I didn’t move.

I didn’t beg.

I simply held his gaze.

He paused, hand gripping the handle.

“However,” he added slowly, “his younger brother remains unmarried. Your sister was intended for him, but she insists on finishing her education first.”

His eyes moved over me the same way they once assessed contracts and corporate mergers—measured, sharp, calculating.

“If you are willing,” he said evenly, “the position is yours.”

I didn’t hesitate. I didn’t pretend to bristle. I simply nodded.

I would marry whoever he decided.

Not for pride.

Not even for Milo anymore.

But for survival.

For power.

For what was coming next.

They assigned me a guest room.

It smelled faintly of dust and sharp lemon polish. Every photo I once had in this house had been removed. Even the servants avoided my eyes, as if I were no longer a living person—just a reminder of a disgrace buried years ago.

That night, after a stiff, silent dinner, I was summoned.

To meet him.

The younger brother.

The forgotten heir.

His name was Ephraim Lambert.

He waited alone in the old observatory, dressed entirely in black. The lighting was dim and muted. His features were fine yet sharp, like glass once shattered and carefully pieced back together. I had expected fragility—sickness, weakness, resignation.

Instead, he stood when I entered.

His movements were slow, deliberate—but steady. His gaze followed me closely, as if he were studying me rather than greeting me.

“So,” he said quietly, “the bride who ran away has finally returned.”

My throat locked. I couldn’t speak.

He tilted his head slightly. “Tell me—did you come back seeking forgiveness… or retribution?”

I bit my lip, not in flirtation, not in coyness—only to keep my hands from trembling.

He let out a soft, knowing chuckle and turned toward the arched windows where moonlight spilled across the glass floor.

“Go,” he said after a moment. “Return when your divorce is finalized.”

I wanted to thank him.

I wanted to explain that nothing in my life was simple anymore.

But no sound came out.

So I left.

I closed the door behind me and returned to the cold room that contained no blankets, no photographs, no trace that I had ever belonged anywhere. I sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the floor.

Breathing.

Trying to remember who I had been before love destroyed me.

Before grief carved me hollow.

Before I became this quiet, wandering ghost.

I never slept.

The sun rose, but the world still felt frozen in the same gray silence. Morning didn’t feel like a beginning—only another layer of quiet laid on top of the last.

I forced myself out of bed. My body kept functioning on instinct, the way it had every day since Milo fell ill, as though it no longer remembered what rest was.

The corridors of my father’s estate were cold and echoing. No one greeted me. No one acknowledged me. I sat at the massive dining table and ate a piece of dry toast that crumbled into dust on my tongue.

No butter.

No coffee.

Only silence.

Then my phone rang.

Adrian.

I answered before I could stop myself.

“We’re heading out,” he said casually. “Noah wants to try parasailing. Elise couldn’t refuse—you know how she is.”

He laughed lightly, as if sharing some harmless joke between spouses. As if Milo had never existed.

“My parents will stop by the mansion later,” he added. “Can you entertain them while they’re there?”

My throat tightened. “Alright.”

“Good,” he said, and disconnected.

No mention of the date.

No mention of Milo.

Today was his birthday.

Milo’s birthday.

I informed my father that I would return to the mansion. That I would come back once the divorce was complete. He gave no response—just sipped his coffee and continued reading the newspaper.

As if I had never left.

As if I had never returned.

The car carried me back to that glass palace that had never once felt like home. And the moment I stepped inside, the memory hit me like a blade.

Milo’s birthday.

My hands began to shake uncontrollably. I went straight to my room—the only place in that house that still held traces of him.

I lit a small candle beside his framed photo and the soft pink urn beneath it. His favorite dinosaur plush still leaned against the wall, as if waiting for him to return and scoop it into his arms.

No one remembered.

No calls.

No flowers.

No messages.

Not from Adrian.

Not from his parents.

They were all too busy celebrating Noah.

Chapter 4

Milo once told me that he wanted to go sailing too. He saw it in a cartoon and said he wanted to glide over the ocean like he was flying. He even picked out what he’d wear—his “pirate socks,” he called them, the ones with little skulls on the toes.

Adrian laughed at him back then and shook his head. He said it was dangerous. Said a weak child like Milo would get swept right off the rope. Said the wind would knock him away.

But now Noah gets to go parasailing.

And my son doesn’t even get a birthday.

I remained standing near the hallway until I heard the sharp electronic beep of the front gate. Moments later, the door opened. Voices entered. Footsteps echoed.

The staff ushered them inside as if welcoming royalty.

Adrian’s parents.

I stayed where I was as they came in. Not a single smile touched their faces.

His mother barely spared me a glance before curling her lip in distaste.

“So where is your sickly little boy?” she asked coolly. “Already dead—or barely clinging on?”

My lips parted in shock.

But before I could speak, his father waved the topic away.

“That’s irrelevant. How’s Noah doing? We heard Elise might be pregnant again. Is that true?”

I stood frozen. Silent. Bracing myself so I wouldn’t shatter.

“She’s a blessing to my son,” his mother continued. “Always graceful. Never dramatic. So gentle and well-mannered. Very different from some women.”

I dropped my eyes.

Then his father added casually, “Go check on the kitchen. But first, bring us tea. Also, inform Adrian that we expect him next week for our anniversary. You may come along if you wish. Bring that weak child of yours if he’s still alive.”

My fingers dug into the fabric of my skirt.

Still, I nodded. “Of course.”

I went to the kitchen. Told the chef they preferred jasmine. Prepared the tray myself and carried it out as though I had nothing left to protect.

My smile stayed smooth. Carefully set. Like porcelain.

Inside, though, I was falling apart.

As I leaned forward to place the cups down, my hand slipped. One teacup shattered loudly against the floor, breaking into cruel, scattered shards.

His mother gasped, then shot me a sharp glare.

“You’ve always been hopelessly clumsy,” she snapped. “Honestly, girl—after all these years, you still can’t even serve tea properly?”

I stared at the broken porcelain for a moment, then straightened slowly.

“I’m sorry,” I said quietly.

Not for the tea.

For the woman I used to be.

The girl who begged for their approval.

The girl who thought love had to be earned.

The girl who believed she belonged at their table.

That girl is gone now.

Just like my son.

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They didn’t stay for lunch.

Both of Adrian’s parents stood with thin expressions of irritation, as though my existence itself had offended them.

His mother set her cup down with a delicate clink, her mouth tightening.

“This is bitter,” she muttered. “Even the simplest things you ruin. Bitter tea… bitter life.”

She adjusted her gloves near the doorway—slow, precise motions. Then she turned back to me, her voice controlled and icy.

“I’ll make sure Adrian hears about your little accident. You’re unraveling, dear. Maybe this time he’ll finally realize his mistake and leave you for good. I’ve warned him for years—you were never meant to be part of our world. You’ve never been worth the trouble.”

I said nothing.

I didn’t bow.

I didn’t argue.

I only held onto the edge of the table, my fingers curled tight beneath it, as though gripping something solid might lessen the sting of her words.

She turned away without waiting for a response.

No farewell.

No courtesy.

The front door opened… then shut.

A few moments later, tires hissed softly against the driveway as their car disappeared. And then the silence returned—deep, hollow, familiar. The kind of quiet that lived in every corner of that glass mansion.

I exhaled slowly and turned toward the maid.

“There’s no need to prepare lunch,” I said in a low voice. “They’ve already left.”

She nodded without speaking.

I went upstairs one step at a time.

My body felt heavy. Detached. As though it no longer fully belonged to me.

Halfway up the staircase, voices drifted up from the kitchen below—whispers, hushed and quick.

“She didn’t even cry when they left,” one murmured.

“I think that little boy… Milo—he’s already gone. I saw the urn in her room.”

“Poor thing. Mr. Adrian only ever talks about Noah now.”

“He showers Elise with gifts. He hasn’t even visited Milo’s grave. I doubt he even knows where it is.”

“Even if he did… I don’t think he’d care. Milo was too gentle. Too soft. That kind of child never survives in their world.”

“She used to be the lady of the house,” another whispered. “Now she’s just… existing.”

I kept walking.

I didn’t stop.

I didn’t scold them.

I didn’t defend myself.

Maybe none of them were entirely wrong.

I reached my room and closed the door behind me.

Then my phone rang.

Adrian.

The screen lit up with his name as it rang once… then twice.

I stared at it until the sound stopped.

No voicemail followed.

No message.

I stood there for a long moment, letting the quiet settle over me again.

Then I changed my clothes.

I chose the soft blue dress Milo loved—the one with tiny white clouds scattered across it. He used to say it looked like the sky. Said it made me look like a storybook mother—the safe kind. The happy kind.

I lifted his urn.

Cradled it in both arms as if I were holding him again. The porcelain was warm from the sunlight slipping through the curtains.

I left the house without telling anyone.

And I went to Ocean Park.

The place Milo had begged me to take him every year for his birthday.

“Just once, Mama,” he used to plead. “I just wanna see the dolphins. I’ll behave, I promise.”

But Adrian always refused.

Said the sun was too harsh.

Said the crowd was dangerous.

Said it was too risky for a fragile child.

So we never went.

Until now.

I bought one ticket.

But I paid for two seats.

One for me.

One for him.

We watched the dolphin show together. I lit a small candle near the railing and shielded it from the wind as the flame trembled. I talked to him quietly—told him how proud I was, how much I missed him. I even laughed once.

The sound startled me.

People nearby probably thought I was insane—sitting alone, whispering to a tiny pink urn like it could answer me.

I didn’t care.

That day wasn’t for them.

It was for Milo.

I looked up at the sky and watched sunlight break through drifting clouds.

“Happy birthday, my love,” I whispered, my voice barely steady.

Tears slipped down my face, but I wiped them away.

Not today.

Today was his.

All his.

Chapter 5

By the time I stepped back into the house, night had already swallowed the sky. Only a few weak lights glowed along the hallway. I had just crossed the middle of the foyer when I saw him standing there.

I didn’t even get the chance to speak.

His hand came out of nowhere. The impact was sharp and violent, snapping my head sideways before I could flinch. My shoulder slammed into the edge of the doorway, and a flash of white exploded behind my eyes. A heavy ringing filled my ears.

But my arms didn’t loosen.

I don’t know how they didn’t. Maybe muscle memory. Maybe instinct. All I knew was that I couldn’t let go. That fragile ceramic urn carried the last pieces of what I still was.

“Have you completely lost your mind?” Adrian shouted. His voice was so loud it made the glass by the staircase tremble. “How dare you disgrace my parents like that?”

I looked at him, stunned and silent.

“They told me every ugly detail,” he went on. “Said you spat in their tea. Said you threatened their lives under this roof. What kind of twisted woman does something like that?”

I didn’t even manage to shake my head before his palm struck me again. This time it landed harder. My neck jerked sharply to the side, and warm iron flooded my mouth. Blood. Still, I didn’t cry.

My skin burned.

My heart barely reacted.

“Adrian…” Elise called softly, her tone coated in false concern. “Please stop. She’s not worth hurting yourself over. Let her cool off. She’s probably just exhausted or emotional.”

He turned to her instantly, his expression shifting as if someone had flipped a switch. “Baby, don’t bother. She’s always been like this. Playing the victim. Twisting every situation so she looks innocent.”

Then, with a nod like he’d proven a point, he added, “You’ve always been too gentle with her. That’s why she thinks she can keep crossing lines.”

Elise shrank back like a delicate porcelain doll, pressing against the wall. But her eyes kept darting toward me with quiet satisfaction, like I was something stuck to the sole of her shoe.

Noah sat sprawled on the couch, his headphones hanging loosely around his neck, one side slipping off. His music still played faintly in the background. He didn’t mute it. He didn’t ask a single question. He just grinned, like this scene was free entertainment.

None of the servants moved.

They lingered near the dining room entrance, whispering behind their hands.

“She’s still clutching the urn…”

“She didn’t even fight back…”

“Look at her… she’s barely alive anymore.”

“I heard she went to the ocean today. Alone. With the boy’s ashes.”

I didn’t respond.

I didn’t have the strength left.

Then Adrian’s gaze dropped to my arms. To the pale urn cradled like a newborn.

“What is that?” he asked flatly, as if it were nothing more than a grocery bag. Before I could step away, he yanked it from my grasp.

“No,” I said, too slow to matter.

He examined it with open disgust. “You seriously carried this around in public?” he scoffed. “What is wrong with you? Another one of your pathetic little stunts for attention?”

He gave it a small shake.

My stomach twisted violently. My fingers curled tight at my sides.

“An urn?” he mocked. “Who died this time? Your pride?”

Behind him, Elise let out a soft, hidden laugh, turning her face as if she were trying to conceal it. Noah snorted quietly, still watching like a bored spectator.

My lip throbbed. Blood had dried there. My face burned. But my voice came out steady.

“Give it back to me.”

He lifted it higher. “Why?” he taunted. “Who is it supposed to be? You collecting ashes now?”

I met his stare without blinking.

“It’s Milo,” I said.

The air vanished.

The room fell dead silent.

Adrian’s cruel grin vanished.

Elise froze.

Noah blinked once and turned his eyes away.

Nobody spoke.

Adrian stared down at the urn in his hands again. His grip loosened slightly—but no apology followed. No word came out.

I just stood there.

Hollow.

Shattered.

Waiting to see whether he would return my son to me…

or destroy the last thing I had left.

Then the urn hit the floor.

I didn’t even get time to move.

I heard the crack first—that sick, sharp snap of breaking ceramic. Then came the burst. Ash exploded outward like dust caught in sudden wind. But it wasn’t dust.

It was Milo.

My child.

What was left of him scattered across the marble as if he had never been loved, never been cradled, never been mine.

I screamed.

The sound tore out of someplace deep inside me, from a part I thought had already died. My knees buckled. I collapsed to the floor. My hands moved on their own, desperately gathering what they could—ashes, fragments of bone, broken pieces of the urn—all mixed beyond separation.

My fingers shook so violently they didn’t feel like mine anymore. My nails scraped against the tile, cut into the sharp shards. I didn’t feel the pain yet.

Only the void.

I heard him behind me—Adrian—breathing calmly. Watching me like I was something broken he regretted stepping near.

“Stop screaming like someone just murdered you,” he said coldly. “You’re not the victim here.”

I couldn’t lift my head. My hands kept scooping blindly. Tears drowned my vision. Something inside me fractured again.

He kept talking, loud and merciless.

“The hospital sent an update this morning,” he said. “Milo’s fine. Awake. Sitting up. Smiling in his bed. The doctor even sent pictures.”

I stared down at my palms. Ash clung beneath my nails, smeared across my skin, packed into the cracks of the floor.

“You lied,” Adrian accused as he stepped closer. “You actually pretended he was dead just to get sympathy? You’re more twisted than I ever imagined.”

“H-he’s gone,” I whispered. “I was holding him… I felt him stop breathing.”

It was like speaking into stone.

Elise drifted around from behind him, soft and gentle like a dying flower that had learned how to poison. She crouched beside Adrian and rested her hand on his arm, her voice low and trembling with fake sorrow.

“Maybe she hates me, Adrian,” she said quietly. “Maybe she wanted me to hurt. Maybe that’s why she said he died—just to frighten me.” Her eyes slid toward the ashes. Her lips tightened in a practiced shiver. “Maybe someday that’ll be me,” she whispered. “Dust on the floor. Forgotten. Thrown away.”

Then she began to cry.

Loud, dramatic sobs that felt more like a performance than grief. She clutched her chest and leaned against the couch as if her heart were breaking. Noah watched in silence—until she reached for him.

He Wanted Me Dead, Now He Pleads

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