Chapter 1
The doorbell rang. Odd—Lucas never rang. He just came in.
I opened the door. There they were: Lucas leaning on Anabella, half-drunk, barely keeping upright.
Yes, Anabella. The new hire from last year. Fresh out of college. Supposedly harmless.
“Hey, Valentina,” she chirped, steadying him. “We were out with that Atlantic City client. Mr. Corsini had a bit too much. His car’s downstairs, so I thought I’d help him up.”
Her cheeks were flushed. Her figure tight in a floral dress. She smelled of orange blossoms and lies.
Lucas collapsed onto the couch, unconscious. I took his jacket from her—her perfume clinging to it. Youthful. Tangy. Not mine.
“Thanks, Anabella,” I said evenly. “It’s late. I’ll give you a ride home.”
“Oh, no, really—I can call a cab—” she protested, sweet and innocent.
“Nope,” I interrupted. “I’m not letting you wander the city alone this late.”
In the car, she fiddled with her phone, glancing at me. “So… when’s your wedding with Lucas?”
I paused. The memory of our conversation flashed in my mind. “Maybe a year or two,” I said with a forced smile. “Once things settle at the business.”
Or once I figured out if I’d even survive that long.
She nodded quietly, staring out the window. At her door, she waved awkwardly. I returned a tight smile and watched until she disappeared inside.
Then my hand brushed against something lodged in the seatbelt slot. A torn condom wrapper.
Cheap foil, smeared with lube.
I froze.
Anabella’s tight dress, her flushed face, the fake concern, Lucas pretending to be drunk—the hesitant call earlier—and suddenly… it all clicked.
I didn’t know where to start.
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The day the doctors told me I had brain cancer, I sat on the clinic steps outside Saint Gabriel’s, holding the positive pregnancy test like it was proof the universe had a cruel sense of humor.
The doctor’s words echoed in my head. She had suggested I consider terminating the pregnancy to focus on treatment. I was young, she said, with a fighting chance. “You’ve got a solid shot, Valentina. Don’t be scared.”
Seven years. Everything we built—our import company, the real estate flips, even the Midtown nightclub—was ours. Last year, finally, we turned a profit. A decent car. A loft in Tribeca, waiting for renovations. If I hadn’t fallen sick… maybe next spring, I’d be cradling our baby in my arms.
My baby. Our baby.
But tonight, Lucas wasn’t coming home. I cooked a simple bowl of pasta, tossed in some greens, and sat silently at the kitchen table, wondering how I’d ever break the news to him. We’d promised each other last year. He’d slip the ring on my finger before spring. “Before the spring, Valentina,” he said. “I swear it on my name.”
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We’d been together since freshman year. Back then, I worked shifts at a 24-hour diner near campus, scraping together tuition one plate at a time.
Lucas? Mafia royalty. Tall. Relentless. Loaded. The first night he walked in, he gagged on the greasy lamb gyros he ordered—but kept coming back, night after night, for six months. Said it was “business.” Funny, he was just trying to get my number.
The night I finally agreed to date him, he ate three gyros like a dare—and then vomited in the alley behind the diner. To this day, the smell of tzatziki makes him retch.
He always claimed I was too proud. So instead of flaunting his wealth, he’d sit beside me in the cafeteria, slipping protein bars and fruit into my bag when he thought I wasn’t looking.
“What if my future wife passes out from low iron?” he’d grin. “Can’t let that happen, can we?”
I never understood why he liked me.
He was six-two, jaw sharp, every step exuding power. His name carried weight. Money flowed like wine.
And me? Just a waitress with no family, no status, and an abundance of pride.
But once Lucas decided on something, nothing could sway him.
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That Christmas Eve, he brought me to meet his parents. I was stiff, in a cheap wool coat, clutching a plastic-wrapped chocolate cake bought with tip money.
His parents were cold but polite—the kind of politeness that made your skin crawl.
After dinner, one of the maids whispered to his father. He tapped Lucas’s arm with hawk-like fingers.
“Come.”
I sat alone, feeling like a blemish on their marble floor. Then his voice echoed from the hall:
“She knows who you are, doesn’t she? What does a girl like that want? A gold digger! She has nothing to offer—no name, no lineage!”
It hit me like a punch to the chest.
Then—slam. A door closed.
Chapter 2
Lucas came storming back into the room, jaw locked tight, eyes burning like he’d set fire to the world if it meant getting to me. He seized my wrist with a grip that almost hurt.
“We’re leaving,” he barked.
“Lucas—” his father’s voice thundered across the hall. “You walk out that door, and that’s it. No inheritance. No calls. No name. You’re finished with this family!”
For a moment, Lucas paused at the threshold. Then, without a word, he turned, grabbed the cheap little cake from the table, and hurled it to the ground.
“Then I’ll cut myself off!” he shot back, voice rough.
Outside, the streets were silent, snow crunching beneath our boots like broken glass. The subway had stopped hours ago, and the taxis were nowhere to be found. We walked side by side across the overpass toward a run-down hotel, the city wind clawing at us, as if it wanted to pull us apart.
Around us, windows glowed with the warm light of other people’s homes—tiny suns in the cold. None of them were mine.
I kept my eyes on the icy pavement and whispered, “Let’s end this, Lucas.”
He said nothing.
“Lucas, I’m serious—”
Before I could finish, he unzipped his coat and wrapped it around both of us, holding me so tightly it felt like he was anchoring me in place. His breath was hot against my ear as he murmured, fierce and low,
“Valentina Smith, I swear on everything I am—I’ll give you a home. Even if it costs me everything.”
All I could manage was a hollow smile.
When I returned to our apartment later, he was sprawled on the couch, already asleep, soft snores blending with the muted hum of the TV. The blue glow from the screen painted his face in calm, and for a moment, I almost forgot. I tucked a blanket over him, careful not to wake him. He looked so at peace.
Too peaceful for a man who had shattered me hours ago.
His phone buzzed on the coffee table. Two unread messages lit up the screen—both from Anabella.
“She made sure I got home safe, don’t worry Mr. Corsini! ”
“Goodnight, see you tomorrow! ”
My hands trembled. I told myself not to look further. That I was imagining things. But curiosity was stronger than sense.
I opened their chat.
“You left a bruise on my thigh. Still sore.”
“You liked it.”
“Of course I did. I was dripping before you even touched me.”
Then came the photo. Blurry, low lighting—but unmistakable. Her, on his desk, hair a mess, bra half off. The edge of his nameplate visible in the corner. Our office. The one we’d built from nothing.
My ears filled with static.
“Remember how I moaned when you said my name?”
“Like a song,” he’d replied.
Another message followed, dated the same day I’d been curled up in bed, sweating through a fever.
“She’s asleep. Told her not to come in.”
“Good. I want you to take your time with me tonight, Lucas.”
My vision blurred. Tears fell before I even realized I was crying—landing on the screen, smudging her face, his words.
I tried to breathe, but every inhale felt like swallowing stones. I looked at him, lying there on the couch—mouth slightly open, oblivious, peaceful. I wanted to say his name. To shout. To ask why.
But the words refused to leave my throat.
So I stood up quietly, moving like a ghost through our own home. I went to the study, opened the drawer, and pulled out the pregnancy test and the crumpled medical report—the diagnosis circled in red. My future, reduced to ink and plastic. I shoved them under the ledger, hiding them away. I couldn’t bear to see them. Not tonight. Maybe never again.
Behind me, Lucas shifted in his sleep, mumbling something I couldn’t make out. I turned to look at him one last time, my heart cracking like glass beneath a heel. And in that moment, I understood—
The man I once knew was gone.
And I would never be the same woman again.
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By morning, around seven, I heard him stirring.
Lucas came into the room rubbing his temples, looking like the hangover itself had taken human form. He was dressed sharply—gray slacks, blue dress shirt rolled to his elbows, tattoos creeping down his arms.
That face… even after all of it, he still looked devastatingly handsome.
When his eyes met mine—red and swollen from crying—he slowed his pace, his expression softening.
“What’s wrong?” he asked quietly.
I shook my head. “Nothing. Just thinking of taking a break from work.”
“You don’t need to push yourself, Sav. I got us covered.”
He reached out to ruffle my hair—something he used to do when life was simpler.
I stepped back before his hand touched me. His arm hung awkwardly midair before falling to his side.
“You sure you’re okay?” he tried again.
I didn’t reply. The truth was, I hadn’t been okay for a long time.
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Back in college, I’d worked night shifts at a 24-hour diner, serving drunks and creeps who paid in crumpled bills. Every cent went to rent and food.
When Lucas turned his back on his father’s fortune and left the Corsini empire, we had nothing. Just each other—and a shoebox apartment above a laundromat where cockroaches roamed freely, and the stove worked only when it wanted to.
He had a dream, and I made it mine.
I’d wake at five, catch the first train, juggle classes and work, then drag myself home after midnight. I kept us alive while he built connections—handling cash drops, doing quiet favors for dangerous men, taking meetings in basements where handshakes meant blood.
And now, after all that struggle, we were finally wealthy. But I was bone-deep tired. The kind of exhaustion no amount of sleep could touch.
I didn’t even realize I was crying until Lucas’s thumb brushed my cheek.
“Hey,” he murmured. “What’s wrong, baby? Why are you crying?”
I shook my head. My voice came out rough. “I don’t know. I’m just… tired, Lucas. Tired of running. Tired of pretending it’s all okay.”
He pulled me close, arms wrapping around me like he could protect me from the truth. For a heartbeat, it felt like the world had rewound—back to when it was just us against everything.
“Lucas…” I whispered against his chest. “Stay with me today. Please.”
Chapter 3
If he’d just stayed—if he’d picked me, even for one fleeting moment—I swore I’d forgive everything. I’d erase the messages from my memory, delete the photos burned into my mind, and pretend the lies never happened. I’d bury every shard of betrayal so deep no light could ever reach it again. I wouldn’t say her name. Wouldn’t mention that torn wrapper, or the office desk, or the nights he left me sick and waiting. I’d forgive him. Because loving him had always been my biggest mistake—and my only truth.
But then his phone buzzed against his thigh. He glanced at the screen, face unreadable, emotionless.
Without saying a word, he took a small step back. Then another. Just enough to turn that small distance into a canyon.
He answered.
And then I heard her—her voice thin and trembling through the speaker. Anabella.
“Lucas… I’ve been throwing up all night,” she whispered. “I think I might be pregnant. Can you… can you come with me to the clinic? I’m scared.”
A low ringing filled my ears, like my body was trying to drown out the sound. My vision swam. He turned slightly, maybe to see if I’d caught on, then walked farther down the hall, lowering his tone. But it didn’t matter. The damage was already done. I had heard every word.
The truth didn’t stab—it burned. A slow, ice-cold fire crawling under my skin.
When he returned a minute later, he moved with practiced ease—calm, collected, casual. He slipped on his jacket like nothing had happened.
“Got a quick meet with Santino’s crew,” he said, smoothing his sleeve like there was dust there. “Could get ugly if I skip. Don’t wait up too long, alright? Watch your shows, rest a bit. I’ll be back before dinner.”
Liar.
The word echoed inside my head, sharp and silent.
I couldn’t speak. My throat locked up, air refusing to come in.
He leaned over, tucking the blanket around me like I was fragile glass. He kissed my forehead, soft and sweet, like he hadn’t just destroyed everything inside me. Then he turned the knob, and when the door shut behind him, it wasn’t just the sound of him leaving. It was the sound of something in me being buried alive.
And that’s when I reached for the pen—and signed the damn form.
Organ donor.
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I went to the hospital alone.
Dr. Marco slid the paper back across the desk, her expression caught between worry and disbelief. She looked too refined for this side of town—light makeup, pressed blouse, the kind of woman who never had to dodge bullets or lies.
“Are you absolutely sure?” she asked gently. “If your family objects later, they can overrule this.”
“I don’t have family,” I said flatly. “No one to argue about my body. Let them take whatever’s left.”
If I was going under, at least some part of me could still be useful to someone who wanted to live.
She hesitated. Guilt flickered in her eyes, small and human.
“It’s okay,” I told her quietly. “You don’t need to soften it. I’ve been getting bad news since I was fifteen.”
She hesitated again, then said softly, “It’s… not entirely hopeless, you know. With chemo and targeted therapy, we might buy you time. And the pregnancy’s still early—we could try—”
“I know,” I interrupted, keeping my voice calm. “If it were early-stage, maybe I’d fight. But it’s not. And I’m not going to pretend, just so you feel better about this.”
She swallowed, unsure what to say next. Women like her weren’t used to people like me—people who’d cleaned blood off concrete floors and kept their heads down while the world burned.
“How big is a baby at seven weeks?” I asked suddenly, forcing a smile that didn’t reach my eyes.
“There’s already a heartbeat,” she replied softly. “Tiny, but steady.”
“No kidding?” I whispered. My chest tightened. “So it’s alive in there… for real.”
She nodded. “Little one’s got its own rhythm already.”
Something cracked deep inside me then—quiet but sharp. Knowing that something inside me was alive while I was slowly dying felt cruel and miraculous all at once.
Dr. Marco handed me a small note. “That’s my personal number. It’s connected to WhatsApp too. Message or call, anytime.”
“Thanks, Doc.”
The bus ride home was chaos. Packed shoulder to shoulder, the air thick with the smell of sweat, gunmetal, and cheap street food. I grabbed a seat at the back, pulled my hoodie up, and kept my head down. I could’ve taken the car, but I didn’t want to drive. Didn’t want to feel alone yet.
I texted her:
“Hey, Doc. How do you even tell if the nausea’s from the cancer or the baby? Haven’t been able to eat for days.”
Before she replied, a voice cut in.
“Hey,” an old man barked. “That seat’s for seniors or pregnant women. Move it.”
“She looks fine,” a woman nearby added, her tone dripping judgment. “Let the old man sit. She’s young.”
The bus murmured in agreement, eyes turning toward me like a trial.
I reached into my bag, pulled out my hospital file, and flashed it like a weapon. “I’m pregnant. And I have stage four brain cancer. So no, I’m not standing. That okay with everyone?”
Silence dropped over the bus like a gunshot.
I leaned back and turned to the window, watching the city blur past in streaks of gray and gold.
And for the first time in weeks, I didn’t feel afraid anymore.
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When I finally opened the door to the house, the silence hit first—heavy, unnatural.
But beneath it lingered a scent—wine and perfume. Sweet, expensive, and not mine.
Only one lamp was on, spilling dim light across the entryway. A wineglass lay tipped over on the console, red liquid pooling beneath it like blood.
I didn’t clean it. My body hurt too much. Every nerve ached from the hospital needles, from the weight of everything pressing on me. Still, I walked forward. Step by slow step. Numb. Empty.
The bedroom door was cracked open.
I pushed it gently.
And there she was.
Anabella.