“Sir, your wife has been looking forward to this child for several years. Would it break her heart if you killed it with your own hands?”

When I heard the family doctor's voice, my mind went blank and I subconsciously stopped pushing the door.

Herschel Jones was silent for a moment and his usually gentle and doting voice seemed particularly ruthless, “I don't want Carlos to feel inferior after being adopted. 

“Besides, if she has her own child, she will be selfish. How can she take care of Carlos wholeheartedly? This child must not be kept!”

I looked at the figure with his back to me in disbelief and suddenly clenched the medical record in my hand.

Just half an hour ago, the doctor told me that the baby's heartbeat had stopped and it had become a dead fetus.

I had doubted the results of the examination and my own body, but I had never doubted my husband.

After five years of marriage, he knew how much I wanted to have a child and how cautious I was after finding out I was pregnant, but he actually destroyed my hopes with his own hands.

Just when I was angry and wanted to rush in to ask why, the conversation inside continued, “But if your wife has a child, she won't pay as much attention to your affair. 

“After all, Carlos is your child and they will look alike when they grow up. Besides, your wife's body may make it difficult for her to get pregnant again.

“That day will never come,” Herschel interrupted him coldly. “Sallie loves me so much that she would not doubt such a thing. 

“Besides, Liza will be returning to Canada soon. Carlos won't need her to take care of him anymore. It's just a transfer of identity.

“As for her health... Even without the child, nothing will change between us.”

The sun was shining outside, but I felt cold all over and could not stop shivering.

I remembered that a few months ago, Herschel and I discussed adopting a child.

At that time, he held my hand with a look of heartache on his face as he said, “Sallie, I know you have been worried about having a child for five years since we got married. 

“I don't want you to suffer the pain of having a child and I don't want you and mom to have a falling out. How about we adopt a child?”

I was angry at my stomach for not being able to grow enough, but I was also touched that he was thinking about me. After hesitating for a long time, I finally nodded and agreed.

It turned out that the child was his illegitimate child.

No wonder when I told him that I was pregnant, he had a complicated expression.

How ridiculous, my husband had a child and I was the last to know.

There was a buzzing sound in my head and I suddenly felt dizzy. I leaned against the door weakly to steady myself.

Hearing the noise, Herschel subconsciously turned around with a vigilant look. 

After seeing clearly, he immediately came forward and asked with concern, “Why are you crying? Did you suffer any injustice outside? Tell me what happened, I will avenge you.”

I stared at him for a long time and felt dazed.

From campus to wedding dresses, I had seen this pair of loving eyes countless times. When did they change?

Seeing that I did not say anything, Herschel became anxious and turned to yell at the family doctor, “What are you standing there for? Come over here and check on my wife!”

Seeing the family doctor rushing over, I shook my head and forced a smile as I responded, “Nothing, I just bumped my nose on the way back.”

Herschel was obviously relieved and tapped my head helplessly and amusedly.

“You, how can you make such a mistake when you are so old? Didn't you bring a driver with you when you went out today?” he questioned.

If I had not heard what I just heard, I really would not have doubted the sincerity in front of me.

My nose felt sore and tears instantly blurred my vision, but I still spoke with the last glimmer of hope, “Herschel, I went to the hospital today and the doctor said our child….”

When he heard me mention the child, a complex expression flashed across Herschel's eyes, but he quickly calmed down and hugged me in his arms to comfort me, “Sallie, don't cry. I promise you, we will have another child in the future.”

I swallowed the rest of the words, closed my eyes in despair and finally gave up completely.

After Herschel left, I called home in silence, “Mom, I will attend my younger sister's wedding in a week.”

The other party was obviously stunned for a moment, then happily agreed.

“You’re finally willing to see us. Okay, I will clean your room in advance. Will Herschel come with you? 

“You said before that you were pregnant and it was hard to come. Why are you willing to come again?”

 Listening to my mother's careful concern, my heart felt sad and I choked with sobs as I answered, “Mom, I want to divorce him and stay with you abroad from now on.”

That night, I had a dream.

I dreamed that when I graduated from university, Herschel insisted on going to a big city to work hard. I was willing to break up with my family and accompany him to the struggling in City A.

At that time, my parents threatened, “If you dare to follow him, we will pretend that you are not our daughter!"

I knelt down in tears, but still chose to believe in love. From then on, I cut off all ties with my family and could not even attend the funeral of my grandmother who loved me the most.

In the first few years, he was running around outside and I was supporting two people with the lowest internship salary. 

We lived in a dark basement and survived only with bread and pickles every day. I suffered a lot but still felt happy.

After we got the marriage certificate, Herschel saved money and bought me a silver ring, but we did not have a wedding.

A grown man made a promise to me with tears in his eyes, “Sallie, I will definitely buy a house of our own in the future, buy you the most expensive diamond ring and give you the grand wedding!”

Because of this sentence, I felt that everything was worth it and nodded while crying.

Herschel did not disappoint me. With the first money he earned, he bought me a diamond ring as big as a pigeon egg and the first house he bought was also transferred to my name.

Because I had suffered physical damage in my early years, it was difficult for me to get pregnant. 

He was afraid of causing conflicts between the mother-in-law and me, so he brought me out to live with him, arranged for a chef to prepare nutritious meals every day and also hired a family doctor to take care of me.

Except for the fact that we were too busy with our career and did not have time to hold the wedding ceremony, Herschel fulfilled all his promises and I thought I was happy enough.

The scene changed and Herschel embraced Liza Moses, holding a child in his hands, with a cold look in his eyes as he said, “Liza and I already have a child, we are a family, Sallie, I have never loved you!”

The figures of Herschel’s parents also appeared one after another, looking at me with disgust as they stated, “How can a hen that cannot lay eggs be worthy of being the daughter-in-law of our Jones Family?!”

I was madly trying to chase after her to explain, but Liza pushed me away harshly with a disdainful tone, “Sallie, he is my husband and we already have a son, you are the mistress who destroyed our family!”

“No, that's not it!”

I was awakened by a nightmare, sat up suddenly, grabbed my collar tightly and gasped for breath.

“What's wrong, honey? Did you have a nightmare?”

Herschel woke up immediately and quickly pulled me into his arms, his eyes full of heartache.

Seeing the worry on his face, I was stunned. For a moment, I thought I was back to the past. I eagerly grabbed his wrist with pleading eyes as I muttered, “Our children….”

Hearing this, Herschel looked reluctant, but still burst my fantasy.

“Sallie, your body is slowly recovering and you will have children in the future,” he said, “And we’re going to the orphanage tomorrow. Don't you like Carlos too? We can take him back and treat him like our own child.”

At this moment, I just felt that the person in front of me was too unfamiliar, as if I had never seen him clearly.

My stomach was churning and I felt so nauseous that I wanted to vomit. I turned my head away from his arms, feeling powerless.

“Herschel, let's get a divorce.”

Herschel's face froze, but he quickly smiled and touched my head as he asked, “Did you get scared by a nightmare? Don't make such jokes next time. Have a good sleep and you will be fine tomorrow.”

Seeing him fall asleep alone, my heart ached, but my mind became clearer.

Why was he so sure it was just a joke? Did he think I was reluctant to get divorced, or my feelings have never been important?

When he woke up the next day, Herschel had already changed his clothes and was ready to go out.

When he saw me coming down, he subconsciously came over and kissed my forehead, giving me careful instructions as usual.

“I’ve asked the kitchen to prepare breakfast for you. I have something to do at the company so I'll go there first. See you at the orphanage later.”

Just as he finished speaking, the mobile phone rang suddenly. Herschel took a look, subconsciously turned off the phone and smiled unnaturally.

“The company is urging me to go, so I’ll go first,” he said then left without looking back, not noticing that I was unusually silent that day.

Even though he moved quickly, I could still see the name clearly, ‘My love Liza.’

My heart ached so much that I closed my eyes, grabbed the car keys and followed him.

When the car drove into the orphanage, I saw Herschel dragging Liza out angrily and questioning her in a cold voice, “Didn't you say you would return in a month? Why are you back now?”

Liza cried out in pain in a delicate voice, then said with tears in her eyes, “I just wanted to give you a surprise, don't you really want to see me?”

“That’s not what I meant.” Herschel felt a little guilty when he saw the red marks on her hands. He rubbed his eyebrows and sighed.

“You've disrupted my plan. Carlos has not made any arrangements yet. Your presence is a variable. Once Carlos's identity is transferred, I will make arrangements for you and your son.”

Liza refused to give in. She covered her ears and shook her head, looking extremely sad.

“I don't want it. You clearly said you would marry me. Why do you want my child to call someone else his mother now? 

“I have no status and no position. Do you still want me to lose my only son?”

Herschel's heart softened and he forcibly held the person in his arms to comfort her, “I love you too, but Sallie has been with me for so many years, I cannot let her down. 

“I can give you everything except the status. Don't you want to have a wedding? Let's go abroad at the end of the month, okay? Let Carlos be our witness.”

Dissatisfaction flashed across Liza's face, but she quickly concealed it, just cried and gave in in the end, “Herschel, I'm just afraid that you don't want me anymore. The last time you came to see me was a year ago. Do you love me less now that you have a child?”

“How could that be? I just wanted you to rest assured during the confinement period. Didn't I ask your mother to take care of you too? If I go on business trips more often, Sallie will inevitably become suspicious.”

As he spoke, he had already lifted Liza's head and kissed her, his hands also wandering around her waist and he could not wait to tease her.

“Not only do I miss you, my body also misses you, do you feel it?”

Watching the two of them kissing and flirting with each other and then hiding in a nearby room, I clenched my hands on the steering wheel suddenly and the string of reason in my mind completely broke.

It turned out that every time he went on a business trip, he would find an excuse to see Liza and even her mother knew about it.

Then what was I in the eyes of their family?

Was this a joke?

I looked at the rearview mirror and realized that I had tears streaming down my face without knowing when. I could not help but let out a miserable smile.

It turned out that five years of living together day and night and taking care of the in-laws was not as good as a romantic encounter after knowing each other for a year.

Since they were going to hold their wedding abroad, I would help them make their fake wedding come true!

After contacting my assistant to prepare the divorce agreement, I turned around and drove to the embassy without looking back.

Applying for Australian permanent residence was not difficult, especially for a family like mine.

In the past, I was willing to endure hardships with him for love. That time when I did not love him anymore, I naturally would not put myself in a difficult position anymore.

I got the documents that afternoon and was about to go home when I received a call and rushed to the orphanage.

“This is Carlos's information. He just turned one year old. I don't know which parents are so cruel. The child is obviously fine. 

“Fortunately, he is lucky to meet a good person like you. He will only have a good life in the future.”

I looked at the information and my hand unconsciously went up to my stomach, feeling a little dazed.

I remembered when we just got married, we were lying in a small rental house and Herschel caressed my belly with his eyes full of love.

“Sallie, can we name our child Hensley from now on? I hope he will have great ambitions and inherit my career.”

At that time, I smiled and said, “I hope he can pursue the freedom of mountains and rivers and not suffer like us.”

“Okay! Then let’s call him Carlos.”

He knew clearly how much I wanted a child and how much love I had in welcoming him, but he still managed to cut off my hopes with his own hands and even gave the name to that illegitimate child.

I found it ridiculous to think that the child I had been waiting for five years died at the hands of his father.

I blinked back my tears and pushed the photo back as I said, “Sorry, it may take a week to complete the formalities.”

“What in a week?”

The door was pushed open, Herschel and Liza walked in side by side, with traces of joy on their faces.