Looking at his face, the tragic scene of Isaiah's death kept appearing in front of my eyes and I wished I could die with him.

But the next second, Isaiah's last words in the Emergency Room rang in my ears, “Mom, Isaiah just cried out in pain. Will Dad blame me for not being brave enough? Will Dad come to see me? I miss him so much.

“Mom, please don't quarrel with Dad. It's Isaiah's fault. Next time, I will be braver. I'm sorry.”

I closed my eyes, trying hard to suppress the dull pain in my heart and turned around to leave, but was grabbed by Shaun.

He winked at Kathryn and Kathryn left reluctantly.

Shaun frowned, his voice full of dissatisfaction as he asked, “What do you mean by this? I haven't even investigated why you didn't come back all night, how dare you put on airs in front of me? 

“If you go out and have fun, don't blame others for occupying your bed. How can you say you are a loyal person? You are just a lowly bitch in front of me.

“Why, which rich young master have you fallen for again? Do you want to trick him into sleeping with you again? It's shameful for Isaiah to have a mother like you!”

Seeing that I was expressionless and silent, Shaun completely lost his patience.

He threw me onto the bed, which even had traces of his and Kathryn's lovemaking.

Shaun rushed over and ripped my clothes roughly, cursing non-stop, “Isn't he just a child? I'll give you another one, so stop pretending!

“Grandpa's eyes are dim and I can't tell what kind of person you are. Only I know that you are a bitch who is greedy for wealth and fame. If you hadn't taken the credit for Kathryn and said that you were the one who saved me, do you think I would marry you?

“I already owe Kathryn too much. The future heir of the Howard Family can only be mothered by her. Hurry up and hand Isaiah over. A woman with your character can't teach a child well anyway.”

I finally could not stand it anymore and slapped him in the face.

“Carmen, you dare to hit me? Have you forgotten who made you today, huh?”

I sneered at him, “You want to find Isaiah, right? Okay, then go find him underground.

“Isaiah is dead!”

Shaun was stunned for a moment, then suddenly laughed and pushed me away fiercely as he snapped, “Carmen, you are even more shameless than I thought.

“Don't you know that Grandpa only recognizes Isaiah as his heir and you are afraid that passing him to Kathryn will affect your interests, so you deliberately hide him with Grandpa.

“For money, not only did you cheat me in the first place, but now you're even cursing your own son. It's really disgusting!”

He pulled out a dozen tissues and wiped his hands vigorously, as if touching me was something dirty.

Shaun crumpled the papers into a ball and threw them at my face as he scolded, “If it weren't for you, Kathryn and I would have been married long ago and have many children. 

“Carmen, you have taken away her credit and position. Now I only ask you to compensate her with a child, which is already a bargain for you!”

Shaun turned and left angrily.

The time he had passed on to me gradually decreased along with his curses and the Howard Family's fortune also began to decline.

At that time, the Howard Family suffered a devastating disaster. Not only did the family business face bankruptcy, but Shaun and his family of three were also hunted down by their enemies.

In order to protect their son, his parents died on the spot. Even though Shaun was rescued, he was unconscious all day and when he was woken up, he got into depression.

It was me who had learned as a psychologist who helped him to be him now. I helped him with the prescription and session, so that he could live again as usual.

Because of that, he was grateful to have me at that time and our marriage was full of love in the end.

For me, who was an orphan, having a family was something I had always dreamed of.

Moreover, Mr. Howard had paid for my college education, so I felt that I would never regret coming to the Howard Family.

I even always calmed Shaun down every time he had a panic attack and every time he had a nightmare saying the name ‘Kathryn,’ I woke up and hugged him, telling him that everything was okay.

From that moment, he made a promise, "Carmen, I will never let you down in this life."

So, I thought it was such a gift. I also was no longer sad that I gave up my dream of becoming a psychologist.

Later, when I had Isaiah, Shaun took care of me like crazy and even wanted to bear the pain of pregnancy for me.

At that time, my heart, which had been silent for a long time, beat so vigorously for the first time and it was also the first time that I tasted the sweetness of love from others.

It was not until Kathryn returned to the country that Shaun's eyes changed when he looked at me.

He believed that it was me who made Kathryn break up with him and had to go abroad to leave him.

So, I became the villain who took advantage of the situation, claimed credit and coveted wealth and fame.

Every time Shaun got drunk, he would have pushed me down on the bed, stripped off my clothes and cursed, “Is it this body who seduces me easily? How dare you make Kathryn heartbroken and dare not come back to my side just because you are married to me, huh?

“Your status is indeed Mrs. Howard, but you need to know, you can get that status because you are married to me. If we divorce, you are nothing.

“Mrs. Howard will only be suitable for Kathryn forever, you are just a person who likes to steal other people's things. You are the cheapest thing in the world. If Kathryn suffers, you must bear it a hundred times more!”

As soon as Shaun left, the butler beside him pushed open the door.

He held a barbed iron rod in his hand and looked at me with contempt, “Mrs. Howard, Miss Wilkerson and Mr. Howard are fishing in the garden while enjoying the rain. But Miss Wilkerson's feet are swollen and uncomfortable during pregnancy. 

“Mr. Howard said that you have experience in giving birth, so he asked you to show up within ten seconds and massage Miss Wilkerson's feet.”

I frowned and looked out the window. I did not know when it started to drizzle.

After giving birth and breastfeeding Shaun, I had lost a lot of calcium in my body, so I had difficulty running. 

If the weather is cold, all my bones would hurt so much, so I always locked myself up when it rained outside. 

But that time, Shaun just told me to go to his place quickly?

The butler smiled and waved the whip in his hand as he ordered, “Mr. Howard said that if Mrs. Howard is even a second slower, I will give you a beating. You better hold on tight."

By the time I limped to the pond in the back garden, my back was covered in blood and a long trail of blood was winding behind me.

Shaun hugged Kathryn and lay on the chaise lounge. A huge umbrella covered them. Afraid that Kathryn would be cold, he even asked someone to turn on the heater.

Seeing me soaking wet and covered in blood, he paused for a moment, then said in disgust, “You really did everything you could to act. The person who suffers here is obviously Kathryn. Why are you pretending to be pitiful?

“Don't just stand there, kneel down and give Kathryn a massage!”

I knelt down despite the pain in my knees and back. As soon as my hands touched Kathryn's feet, she exclaimed, “It's so cold! Mrs. Howard, even if you don't want to give me a massage, there's no need to hurt me on purpose, right? Pregnant women are very afraid of catching a cold."

Shaun was so anxious that he kicked me in the chest and I fell into the mud.

“Carmen, you have given birth to a child, don't you know that pregnant women should not catch a cold? You claim to be Mrs. Howard and even make my grandpa adore you, but you have no compassion at all? You are simply a vicious woman with a snake heart, aren’t you?!”

Shaun picked up his Princess Kathryn and left in a hurry without even looking at me.

I could not hold on any longer and fainted in the rain.

When I opened my eyes again, I was already lying in the bedroom.

I left out a set of clothes for Isaiah and burned all the other things belonging to us mother and son.

Since everything had come to this, there was no need to leave any traces.

Just after the burning was finished, the door was kicked open by someone and Shaun saw the urn in my arms and the ashes in the brazier.

Soon, he angrily slapped me and barked, “Carmen, you deliberately massaged her after you drenched in rain and caused her to catch a cold, which caused Kathryn to have a miscarriage, right?”

Without waiting for me to say anything, Shaun grabbed my hair and dragged me and the urn into the yard.

In addition to Kathryn with red and swollen eyes, there was also a man dressed as a doctor.

He gave an explanation about Kathryn's miscarriage, everything he explained made no sense at all, but stupidly Shaun just believed it.

I was sure the doctor was forced to say all those things and used them to blame me, slandered me like I was the villain in their lives.

"Ms. Wilkerson's pregnancy is already weak, so even the slightest mistake could cause her to miscarry."

Kathryn immediately looked at me with tears in her eyes as she whined, “Mrs. Howard, I know you don't like me and think I'm not worthy of being Isaiah's mother, but how can you be so cruel to do this to my child? That's Shaun's flesh and blood too."

Shaun slapped me again and cursed, “Carmen, I was worried that you would catch a cold from the rain, so I had someone drag you back to your room to rest. I didn't expect you to be so cruel.

“Just because I want to give Isaiah to Kathryn, you want to take her child away? You must pay the price!”

He asked the housekeeper to bring a bowl of medicine and forced it into my mouth.

In less than two minutes, I felt a severe cramp in my lower abdomen and curled up on the ground with a pool of blood under me.

Shaun looked at me coldly and said, “From now on, you can't even think about giving birth to my child and Isaiah must be adopted by Kathryn. You owe her this!”

Kathryn winked at the doctor and asked in a weak tone, “Doctor, in your opinion, can I get pregnant again after this miscarriage? I am very sad because I lost the child I was carrying. I also want to give Isaiah a sibling, so he won’t be lonely anymore.”

The doctor immediately understood and said, “You can get pregnant again if you throw away all the dirty things in this house, including this ash. Because you are very sensitive, so this house must be clean from dirty things like this, Ms. Wilkerson.”

Such a nonsense, but Shaun immediately snatched the urn and said to the butler, “Throw all of this away, don’t let me see dirty things like this in my house again. If necessary, search Carmen’s closet and see if she still has a lot of dirty things that could harm Kathryn in the future.”

“Yes, Sir.”

I immediately begged, “No, no, please. I will throw all of this away myself, so don’t ask the butler to pick it up. I promise I won’t take any of the.…”

My mouth felt heavy as I tried to say ‘dirty stuff’ with my own mouth. But Isaiah’s soul has passed away, so I would not allow his ashes and his remains to be destroyed like this.

I continued, “I will clean this stuff up. Let me clean it up.”

As soon as Shaun showed a look of hesitation, Kathryn immediately knelt on the ground and kowtowed to me crying, “Mrs. Howard, how can you lie with your eyes open? I know you would just get rid of it and bring it back if Shaun wasn’t home, right? 

“Do you hate me so much that you stopped Shaun’s butler from following his orders? You have already killed one of my children, do you want to kill the second one?

“Please let me go. I don't want my future child to be killed. At worst, I will stay away from you and never get in your way. Can you not be so stubborn?”

Shaun's face immediately turned cold and scolded, “Carmen, you are really stubborn about this. You are not willing to give Isaiah to Kathryn, but you took the only child she has.

“Now you even want to kill the other child by not letting my butler throw away your things. Do you really think I'm a fool?”