I threw out every piece of the alliance ceremony I'd gathered with my own hands.

This safe house had never really been mine, and now not a single trace of me remained inside its walls.

The last thing left was the slips from our covert sit-downs across the water, the ones I'd kept folded like a diary of our love.

I hesitated for half a moment, then fed them into the fire one by one.

Every slip the flames swallowed was a version of me that had loved Lorenzo.

When the burning was done, all that remained was a basin of ash and a choking column of black smoke.

It looked exactly like these ten years of love.

The next morning, the smell of cooking woke me.

"Adriana, hurry and go freshen up. I've already made breakfast."

"Eat first. I'm going to bring Vittoria her breakfast, so you don't need to come along."

"Mm."

Lorenzo's hands paused over the thermal container.

"Don't feel guilty. Vittoria doesn't blame you."

"After we eat, we'll go pick out a new stone for the pledge ring. There was a problem with the one I had cut, and it won't arrive in time for the union."

"Fine."

He liked playing his little drama, so I'd just play along.

Maybe it was because I seemed so cold, but Lorenzo, his face heavy with guilt, brought over the kit to clean the cut on my knee.

"Adriana, we've loved each other for years. Everything I do is for your sake. I don't want you standing at our union without a single soul of your blood beside you."

"You said you couldn't find anyone to stand for you, didn't you? I've already taken it on myself to have Vittoria stand at your side for the ceremony."

"Fine."

Lorenzo said it carefully, and when he saw how readily I agreed, his eyes filled with disbelief.

Then he took my hand and pressed a warm, wet kiss to it.

After he delivered Vittoria's breakfast, he didn't come back.

I was scrubbing my palm raw when he called.

"Adriana, when you're done eating, come straight down to the garage. I'm waiting in the car."

When I got to the garage, I reached for the passenger door out of habit, only to find Vittoria already sitting there.

Without a word, I got into the back seat.

Lorenzo glanced at me a few times, pleased that I knew my place.

"Adriana, Vittoria has an eye for stones. With her here, she's sure to help you choose one you'll love."

I nodded and closed my eyes, pretending to doze.

When I opened them by chance, I saw Lorenzo give Vittoria's cheek a gentle pinch.

In the rearview mirror, our eyes met, and he smoothed the lapel of his too-perfect suit with his palm before he spoke.

"Vittoria had something on her face. I was just wiping it off for her."

I closed my eyes again and kept them shut until we got out of the car.

The three of us walked into the jeweler's, a quiet front near the heart of Castellano territory, and the clerk, all warmth, addressed Vittoria, who was pressed close to Lorenzo.

"What would you like to buy your sweetheart today, sir?"

Vittoria and Lorenzo both flushed at the same time.

Lorenzo pulled me over by the arm.

"What are you standing so far away for? Come pick out a stone!"

The clerk turned bright red with embarrassment and hurriedly brought out the diamonds for me to choose from.

But Vittoria took the lead, inspecting them and offering her opinions.

"This one isn't big enough."

"This one's poor quality."

…

Set against the stone already on her own hand, not a single one met her standards.

The clerk glanced at me awkwardly, hesitating to speak.

Vittoria pretended not to notice, and in the end picked out a rather ordinary one.

"Adriana, just take this one. It'll do for the ceremony. Later I'll design you something with my own hands, prettier than mine."

The clerk awkwardly complimented her on her good eye.

But Vittoria, not without smugness, thrust her hand in front of my face. Her fingers found the pendant at her throat and twisted it.

"Of course it's prettier. My intended designed and had this one made just for me."

Beside us, Lorenzo just stood there quietly watching her show off to me, neither stopping her nor looking the least bit guilty, the smile at the corner of his mouth all but melting into the spring air.

"Then we'll buy the one Vittoria picked!"

He didn't even bother letting me try it on. Lorenzo had already paid.

He took out the stone and slid it onto my finger, his face blank.

No bended knee, no roses, no words spoken over a pledge.

This time the ring wasn't big. I had to force it on.

I knew Vittoria had done it on purpose.

She had an eye for stones. She could gauge a size precisely at a glance. There was no way she'd make such a glaring mistake.

I couldn't be bothered to call her out. I just pulled the ring straight off.

The girl behind the velvet counter offered, kindly, to show me another setting. I declined.

"I'll take this one. It's only a formality. No need to fuss."

Lorenzo caught the edge in my voice, and he didn't like it. A made man notices when a knife is hidden under calm words.

"If you don't like it, don't buy it. Vittoria can have one made for you later."

I shook my head.

"This one's fine."

But Vittoria's face crumpled, all guilt, her eyes welling up on cue. Her fingers found the pendant at her throat and twisted it.

"Adriana, I'll go to the workshop right now and stay all night on the design. I promise you'll have a perfect ceremony."

With that, she hurried out, past the man at the door who shifted aside without being told. She wouldn't stop no matter how Lorenzo called after her.

"Adriana, what is wrong with you? It's just a ring. What are you making a scene about?"

I couldn't help staring at him.

"What scene am I making?"

His lips pressed thin. He pulled me out of the shop, his hand at my elbow like a man steering cargo.

"There's something at the club I have to handle. We'll sit for the portraits when there's time."

"Or go ahead and take yours alone. I'll have someone paint my dress in beside you for the ceremony."

"Fine."

Whatever explanation Lorenzo had been about to give caught in his throat. He looked at me a long moment, then pulled me into a light embrace.

"Adriana, once all this is settled, I'll take you away somewhere. We'll have the portraits done then, somewhere far from the famiglia."

The escape he dangled now was nothing but an insult to me.

He'd never once found the time to cross the water and see me where Don Lombardi had given me a place at his table. Yet he'd had time to take Vittoria to the bottom of the world to watch the penguins, to the top of it to chase the northern lights.

I watched his pin drift across the map on my screen, his little marker heading straight for Vittoria's workshop. I went back into the shop and handed the ring back to the girl.

Just as I expected, Lorenzo didn't come home for two days.

Because he was at the shore, sitting for wedding portraits with Vittoria.

And he really had paid someone to paint our two faces together into a bridal portrait.

Set on running from this union, I figured I'd only come back now for my parents' death anniversaries.

I carried two bouquets to the cemetery to visit them. I added the caretaker's number too, so it would be simpler to have the plot tended from across the water from then on.

"From now on I'll pay my parents' upkeep. Refuse it if Mr. Falcone ever tries to cover it."

The caretaker checked his ledger and went still.

"Miss, your parents' plot is already six months overdue. We tried to reach the family, but the number was dead."

I remembered I'd changed my number after I left. The carelessness of it turned my stomach. To leave the dead untended is a blood-debt no man of honor lets slide. Failing it is a disgrace that follows you down into the ground.

Lorenzo didn't even love me anymore. Why in God's name would he think of my dead parents?

I settled the balance and paid ten years ahead, then walked out, hollow.

But the moment I stepped through the cemetery gate, I heard the one voice I'll never forget as long as I live.

"Lorenzo, caro, how good of you to remember today's the anniversary of Vittoria's real father passing. If the old man knew you came to share a glass with him, he'd be floating with joy down there."

I turned stiffly and saw Lorenzo climbing the steps, Vittoria on one arm and Rosa Frost on the other.

"It's the least I can do," he said.

"Silly boy, what's this stiffness? In a few days you'll be calling me Mamma."

Lorenzo laughed warmly and obliged her. He smoothed the lapel of his too-perfect suit with his palm, then called Rosa Frost Mamma.

My eyes burning, I slipped away to keep my word to my friends.

The moment we met, I said it straight out. The union was off.

They exchanged a glance, then asked me, careful as people stepping around a wired door.

"Adriana, so you already know?"

But I was confused how they knew at all.

Bristling, they laid out photographs in front of me. Lorenzo and Vittoria, walking in together to seal the pact, the paperwork already filed between them.

"Adriana, we're behind you running from this. I want to see what a joke it'll be when Vittoria tries to steal a wedding that doesn't even have a bride."

The way they put it, I almost started to look forward to it.

The day before the ceremony, Lorenzo came home with a brand-new pair of running shoes.

I asked him flatly, "Don't you hate running shoes?"

He blanked for a second, then patted my head.

"So I can run fast carrying the bride tomorrow."

The bride he meant wasn't me.

And the smile that spread across his lips wasn't for me either.

So it seemed that having me robbed of my own union in front of every family that mattered, just to prove he loved Vittoria, made him very happy.

The next day, I walked through the venue once.

The enormous poster blew up every trace of that painted portrait, my borrowed face beside his.

I took out a pair of scissors and cut my own face from it, that bright young face full of life. Then I pressed my thumb against the bare band of skin where my mother's ring once sat, and I hailed a car to the airport.

When the attendant told me it was time to silence my phone, Lorenzo's calls came flooding in.