Ariana POV

I looked at my reflection in the mirror which showed my whole posture wearing a beautiful white dress. My mind is still thinking about Sean’s sensational kiss at the villa, for some reason I enjoyed it and didn’t refuse it, so far I have never let my body be touched by any man, but when I was with Sean I couldn’t move, and his charm made me sink deeper. Who wouldn’t be attracted to a man like him? I exhaled through my nose a little loudly.

When I arrived at Ranila’s bridal boutique, my mother and aunt Ramia were already there, they all looked at me in amazement with my current appearance. Ramia’s mother and aunt left the fitting room after we decided which dress I would wear on my wedding day, Ranila also helped me take off the wedding dress I’m currently wearing after Aunt Ramia and my mother left us alone.

“I don’t want to see red marks like this again when you wear this dress on your wedding day,” she snapped which made me confused, Ranila rolled her eyes then she let me look in the mirror, I was surprised when I saw the red marks on my neck that were so obvious because of my white skin , I don’t know what color my face is now which is clear at this time I’m very embarrassed, Sean cursed with swearing in my mind. He casually kissed me and tagged me.

“I’ll warn Sean not to pounce on you before he becomes your husband, that child does need to be tamed.” Ranila looked annoyed, I smiled awkwardly in response to her annoyance.

When Ranila and I came out of the fitting room to meet Mama, Aunt Ramia and Sean, Ranila quickly approached Sean and asked him to talk privately in the dressing room. Me, mom and aunt Ramia were immediately busy choosing wedding accessories.

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Sean POV

“YOU! WHAT DID YOU DO TO ARIANA??!!” Rani snapped which made me confused with her current attitude.

“Me?? Doing what???” I asked confused and didn’t understand at all, Rani chuckled and showed me her annoyed expression.

“You dare mark her while she’s not yet your wife!” Rani’s todong which made me look at her without any guilt at all. Rani knows my habits very well, since breaking up with Atika, I have often been seen dating different women, not infrequently I do One Night Stand with the women I date.

“She does not-“

“I don’t care if he refuses or not, but just watch out if you hurt her you’re not only dealing with me but Mama and Dad too, do you understand, Mr. Arrogant??” Rani looked at me with her horrible look, I nodded with a frightful expression that I made up, apparently Ariana managed to captivate my whole family, just look now everyone is defending her.

I sighed when Rani left me in the dressing room, I remembered my fondling of Ariana, I touched my lips again and then tried to remember her intoxicating scent and her chewy mound that seduced me, she was very seductive, even just thinking about it made me excited. I rushed out of the dressing room before Rani caught me daydreaming, she was like a psychic. He can guess what I’m thinking and it’s really annoying, you seem to have no privacy even in your own thoughts.

When I came out of the dressing room, my eyes fell on Ariana who was currently laughing with Rani, the girl had her own charm in my eyes. She always showed her natural face and her appearance as it was, except for his nervous attitude that she always showed me like I was his first man, but I don’t think it’s possible, considering she’s a famous singer there must be a series of men who have been her boyfriend. Imagining that makes me not willing, just seeing her fans hug and kiss her makes me feel like I want to turn into the Hulk let alone have to see her with another man.

While I was daydreaming, our eyes met and he gave me a beautiful smile before turning his attention back to the magazine that Rani had shown her. I want that smile to be mine forever.

Ariana POV

Caroline looked at me with a serious face. Right now, we were in one of the cafeterias which was quite quiet. The woman urged me to talk privately and seriously about my relationship with Sean.

“Ana, marriage is not an experiment, don’t be reckless, you don’t know her let alone love her.” Caroline started, I could tell she was holding back her emotions right now, I could feel the aura of real annoyance she was emitting. I can only stare.

“I don’t have the balls to argue, everything was what my parents wanted and this seems to have been planned since I was little, well, before I was even born,” I said honestly and resignedly, Caroline chuckling in disapproval.

“Where’s your assertiveness?? Where’s the independent Ariana?? Do you guys love each other??” Caroline bombarded me with questions, I shook my head.

“I don’t know, but I didn’t hate him the first time I found out, if he’s my future husband, it’s not like most people would immediately refuse.”

We were silent for a while, then Caroline broke the silence between us. My mind is full.

“If one day you start to love him be honest with your own feelings, don’t hurt yourself.” Caroline took my hand, I nodded.

“And I hope you don’t experience unrequited love again.”

I also remembered Phillip, you could say he was the first person to make me feeling have boyfriend, but my feelings were not reciprocated. Phillip only thinks of me as his younger brother and he likes another girl. Since then, I became traumatized to start new feelings for other men, I was afraid of being rejected. I put my chin on my palm, I’m still confused about my decision to have a relationship with Sean who will soon enter the stage of marriage.

My cell phone rang, Sean’s name was on the screen, I just stared at my cellphone lying on the table without wanting to answer it, I needed time to think about all of this, finally the phone went silent again.

“Why wasn’t it picked up?” asked Caroline, I took a deep breath.

“I need time to think.” That’s all I can say, and it’s true, I need some time to think, I don’t know how much time is left for me before I let everything go according to fate(?) that has been determined for me, I’m not sure.

My phone rang again with the same caller, I decided to turn it into silent mode.

“What if he doesn’t love me?” The question just came out, because right now I was thinking the worst.

“You guys are just getting started, why do you always think of the worst first?”

Shrugging my shoulders. Sometimes it becomes a habit of mine, thinking the worst so I can be prepared if it happens but Caroline always raves about it and defies me to always think that way, she says it dampens my optimism, I’m just getting ready instead of wanting to give up.

“Live this to the best of your ability, if he is toying with you, I will kill him myself.”

I smiled as I looked at Caroline, she is my cousin who is very understanding and is like my own sister.

“He wants me to quit Entertainment,” I tell him, and Caroline looks at me in disbelief, she almost jumps out of her chair. I know this news must have shaken him too.

“What??? And you accept it???”

I nodded, Caroline plodding languidly into the back of her chair.

“Are you okay if I stop?” I asked worriedly, Caroline smiling lightly as she waved one of her hands.

“I’m not a nameless manager, Ana, even without looking for artists those artists come to me,” he concluded arrogantly, I pressed my lower lip to mock his arrogance, but what Caroline said was true. He is one of the experienced artist managers and the most sought after by artists out there.

“I’d better take you home, I also want to meet Aunt Alina,” said Caroline, we left our seats. Just as we were about to pass the cafe door, Sean’s figure blocked our path and I could clearly see that the man was holding back his emotions.

“I want to talk to you, Ariana,” he said with a slight hiss, I’m like a rabbit that will be eaten by an anaconda now.

“I’ll wait at home.” Caroline left without trying to help me. When Caroline’s figure was out of sight, Sean grabbed my wrist and then slightly dragged me to his car. Luckily I didn’t bring my Audi here, I went with Caroline after the launching of my second single.

Today, Sean came to my house to ask for my guest list. After yesterday we measured the ring and ordered the invitation, today he and I had to take it to the printer to complete the printing request. We sat on the couch in the living room looking at the list of names we were going to invite to the wedding.

I handed him my list of names, he frowned.

“Why only a little?” he asked to which I shrugged nonchalantly.

“I don’t really have many friends,” I mumbled, Sean narrowing his eyes suspiciously.

“Are you ashamed of this marriage?”

I was surprised and a little offended by the question. What does she mean by saying ‘I’m ashamed of this marriage?’ Instead, I feel like the luckiest woman to be married to a billionaire.

“No, I don’t really have many friends, they’re all just acquaintances, unlike you.” I glanced at the guest list he made.

“Why most men?” he asked again. Oh, God! What’s wrong with this guy??

“Isn’t that right? Isn’t that great? They can tell I’m yours now,” I commented, looking at him, trying not to upset him. Sean put my guest list on top of his guest list, then unexpectedly he kissed me a little harshly and passionately.

I was getting used to his treatment, I wrapped my arms around his sturdy neck, one of his hands squeezed my breasts, my passion sped up and my groin throbbed. Sean’s kiss moved to my neck and continued down to my chewy mound that was wrapped in a bra, I shamelessly sighed his name, this was so delicious, my stomach was tickled by millions of flying butterflies. Sean unhook my bra which was in front of me without realizing it when my shirt button was fully open. My position is now lying on the sofa and Sean is fondling my chewy mound, I squeeze his hair while enjoying the caress, my groin is throbbing and my body wants more, then I hear the sound of a car entering the garage, my eyes open in surprise.

“Sean, aaahh.” I tried to fight this pleasure, Sean’s kiss went down to my stomach.

“Sean, Mooom.” I stifled a sigh, Sean’s kiss stopped in front of my groin which was still covered in hotpants, I heard the sound of a car door closing, and we hurried to fix our appearance, Sean kissed the top of my breasts before he hooked my bra back on.

“Mine,” he whispered sensually in front of my twin mountains, I held my breath for a moment then exhaled again when Sean re-attached my bra and helped button my shirt, mama came after a few seconds we finished cleaning.

“Wooooww, who’s being intimate, Mama’s jealous...,” Mama mocked, I took a deep breath and then chuckled, I glanced at Sean who was smiling holding back his laughter.

“How was the invitation? Is it done?” asked mom.

“Today will be, Mom.” I answered.

“Yes, Mama, go to the room first, I want to rest for a while,” said Mama, then left in front of us, I breathed a sigh of relief.

“Can I continue with that?”

One hit landed on Sean’s arm, the man groaned in pain.

“Feel it! Who told you to be perverted,” I snapped, squinting my eyes in disgust.

“But you want?!” Sean giggled, I pouted my lips, he’s annoying when he’s in his annoying mode like this. He tucked my hair that was hanging down from my face behind my ear. He grabbed my chin and made me look at him for a moment then kissed me again like a few moments ago. I tried to push his body but it had no effect at all, I was afraid mama would see us. When the kiss returned to my neck I tried to make Sean stop.

“I’ll see you later, Sean!” I said trying to hold back my sigh.

“I want you now, Ariana,” Sean pleads against my neck.

“Not now,” I said, and Sean pulled his face away from my neck and looked at me.

“Why??”

I bit my lip nervously, I’m not ready to do it anyway, he will be my first man if he will do it later after we get married.

“I’m… not ready yet,” I admitted embarrassed, I looked at Sean nervously mixed with embarrassment, I knew for sure he had often had sex with women.

“Have you ever had sex with a man before?”

I don’t know what color my face is now, hearing that vulgar question, I’m definitely embarrassed. Shaking my head while looking down, Sean lifted my chin, he looked at me with a look that I couldn’t understand.

“Is that true??” he asked as if he didn’t believe me. I turned my head and tried to shift my thoughts and attention to our guest list. I’m feeling embarrassed right now, this is the first time a man has asked so openly about my sex life. Sean grabbed one of my hands which was currently holding the paper, he put the paper I was holding on the table, he kissed my fingers which were in his grip.

“I want to be the first for you,” Sean said while looking at me with his sincere gaze, I was stunned. I suddenly hesitated to make a decision.

“Not now, I’m not ready.” That’s all I can say, and it’s a fact. Giving up one’s virginity is not like giving up a packet of candy, but it’s about the dignity and honor of a woman.