"Why? She's bold enough to sit on your lap in front of the whole crew, but too shy to bare her shoulders?"

"Don't talk nonsense. The girl's just modest."

Gianna Rossi, emboldened by the shield of his arm around her, slid me a glance that was all smug venom. The gems at her throat caught the low amber light of the private room, and her fingers drifted up to brush them, the way a soldier might check the weight of a piece tucked under his jacket. The necklace Lorenzo had clasped on her tonight. The one meant for me.

"Mrs. Castellano, it's the New Year." She let the name sit in the air like a coin tossed onto a table to insult a beggar. "Out with the old, in with the new. New blood replaces the old. You understand how it works."

Around the room, the others moved to smooth it over the way men always do when they sense blood in the water and don't want it on their own hands. They winked at me, half-pleading, half-amused, asking with their eyes that I give Lorenzo his way out, his step down, his clean exit from the thing he'd been caught doing.

"Mrs. Castellano, we were only playing a little game, that's all. Everybody's had too much wine, things got loose. We'll take three shots apiece as our penance, eh? On our honor. Just let it go for Lorenzo."

Their voices were warm and oily, the practiced charm of men who'd lied to wives and federal agents alike and never once broken a sweat. The cigar smoke hung low over the table, blue and thick, curling around the crystal decanters and the half-empty glasses. Somewhere a record turned, a crooner's voice drowning under the laughter. It all carried on around me, easy and ordinary, as if I were nothing but a draft of cold air that had slipped under the door.

I said nothing.

Lorenzo remained composed at the center of it all, the way a made man learns to be composed, expression carrying that faint edge of reproach, as though I were the one who had wandered somewhere I had no business being. "Why are you here?" His voice was low, even, almost bored. "I told you to stay home and mind the baby."

His words went through me like glass ground into the skin.

I could not make the two men fit in my mind. The one who had once sat on the floor of an empty room with me, sketching out where the crib would go, where the window should face so the morning light would fall soft on a sleeping child. And this one, standing with his hand resting at the small of another woman's back, looking at me the way you'd look at a stranger who'd interrupted a sit-down she had no rank to attend.

The tears came down my cheeks before I could stop them. But I bit down hard on my trembling lip and dragged my voice up out of the wreck of myself, steady, almost calm. "Lorenzo Castellano. You once told me that a man who betrays his own meets a miserable end."

His face darkened. For a half-second the easy charm drained out of the room, and I watched two of his crew go very still, the way men go still when they hear a thing said aloud that should only ever be thought. In this world there were words you did not speak at a man, not in front of others, not unless you were ready for what came after. Betrayal. The miserable end. I had laid them on the table like a knife between us.

His palm came up and smoothed back over his slicked hair, slow, deliberate, the gesture of a man buying himself a breath. I knew that motion the way I knew my own pulse. He only made it when he was about to lie to me, or save his own pride, and tonight he was doing both.

"Catherine, watch your mouth." The reproach hardened into something colder. "Gianna and I are nothing serious. A diversion. Besides." His eyes traveled down over me, over the swollen weight of my body, and his lip curled. "Look at what you've let yourself become. You've gone as fat as a sow carrying this child. I've done you a kindness, stomaching the sight of you, still putting myself in your bed at all."

The wine glasses caught the light. Gianna's fingers tightened on her necklace.

"And spare me the act, the wounded saint. No man in our circle keeps to one woman. You know that. It's the way of the thing." He spread his hands, magnanimous, performing for the room now, for the soldiers and the hangers-on who watched their boss with careful, deferential eyes. "At least I had the decency to mean to come back to you. To the family. After you've had the baby and made yourself fit to look at again."

My hand moved without my willing it, pressing flat against the swell of my belly where the child turned, oblivious, while a storm of grief and fury rose in me with nowhere to break.

After the child had taken root in me, my body had become a thing I no longer governed. The weight had come on. My legs swelled until they looked like roots dug out of cold ground. The cramps woke me in the dead black hours of the night, and the sickness rose in my throat at dawn and stole what little sleep was left. My skin, that he had once cupped in both hands and called the finest thing he owned, had turned rough and sallow under the long months.

In the beginning he had played at concern. It hadn't lasted. The patience wore thin fast, the way thread wears where it's pulled too often, and then he was gone, buried in the rackets, the late counts and the longer nights, every evening another reason to be anywhere but the rooms where I waited for him with our child growing heavier inside me and his name still on my hand.

The disgust in his eyes was unmistakable, sharpened to a blade's edge when his gaze dropped to the swell of my belly, to the stretch marks that mapped the months I had carried his blood. He looked at me the way a man looks at a debt he resents paying.

For the sake of the life I carried, I had taught myself to look past these things. I had swallowed every flinch, every cold turn of his shoulder in the dark, and told myself the same lie on a loop: everything will settle once the child is here. Everything will be fine. In a world where a made man's woman learned to keep her silence as faithfully as any soldier kept Omertà, I had made my peace with smaller and smaller pieces of myself.

But now, in this private room thick with cigar smoke and the sour-sweet reek of spilled liquor, he was using the very sacrifice I had made to grind me down. I had bled my body into shapes I no longer recognized to bring his heir into the world, and he turned that suffering into a punchline for the men lounging on the leather banquettes.

I understood, suddenly and completely, that I could not keep bartering away my dignity for a man who placed no value on his own child.

"Lorenzo Castellano, let's dissolve the union."

His indifferent expression froze. Whatever heat the wine had put in his face drained out of it, but his arrogance never so much as flickered. He smoothed his palm down the slick of his dark hair, once, slow and deliberate, the way he always did when he meant to salvage his pride. "And where would you go, cara, swollen with my child and cast out of my house? No family would touch you. No man would have you. Behave yourself and the name Castellano stays yours."

Then he caught the grief carved into my face, and something in him recalculated. His tone gentled into the velvet he used on men he wanted to disarm before he buried them. "Be obedient. I give you my word. The Castellano bloodline will come from no womb but yours."

His word. The only currency that meant anything in our world, and he spent it like a counterfeit bill, smiling as he did it.

Beside him, Gianna twisted at the waist in a slow, theatrical curve, her crimson gown catching the low light. Her fingers drifted up to the diamonds at her throat, the necklace he had fastened there not an hour ago, and she stroked the stones like a charm against everything she did not yet possess. "Lorenzo," she purred, voice thick with false reluctance, "don't quarrel with the lady of the house over me. She's still carrying your baby, after all."

He pinched her bare waist, playful, possessive, a man marking what he believed was his. "That one?" He didn't even look at me. "Pregnant or not, she's only being dramatic. She always is."

The two of them flirting in the open, in front of me, as though I were a piece of furniture too old to throw out yet, was more than my body could hold. The room tilted. Heat surged up from my stomach in a wave I could not stop and did not want to.

"Ugh. Blergh."

Everything I had carried in me came up at once, and the two of them standing closest were caught in the splash. Gianna most of all. The pale fabric of her coat went dark with the sour mess of it, the gleam of expensive wool ruined in an instant.

She tore the coat off her shoulders, her eyes gone red and wet with rage, and spat at me, "You wretched bitch. Did you do that on purpose?"

Something that had been wound tight in me for seven months snapped clean.

I struck her across the face, hard enough that the crack of it cut through the laughter in the room. "Who are you calling a bitch?"

For one breath the men on the banquettes went still, glasses paused halfway to their mouths, the way a crew goes quiet when something has shifted and no one yet knows which way the boss will turn. Gianna staggered, her hand flying to her cheek, and then she shoved me back with everything she had, both palms slamming into my chest.

"Lorenzo, you have to stand up for me!" she shrieked, clutching at the diamonds again, knuckles white around the stones as though they alone could anchor her in a place she had never earned. "My New Year's coat, your gift to me, it's ruined!"

A waiter materialized at the edge of the room with a hot towel and the careful blank face of a man who had learned that in rooms like this you see nothing, hear nothing, remember nothing. He moved toward the mess with his eyes lowered.

And Lorenzo turned to me at last, his voice dropping into that low, level register the whole crew knew to fear, the one that came right before someone learned the cost of crossing him.

"Catherine. That's enough."

Thrown off balance, I went down hard against the cold parquet, the weight of my swollen body folding beneath me like something discarded. The fall knocked the breath from my lungs. I tried to rise, to gather what was left of my dignity, but my body had become a stranger to me. Every motion was slow, pitiful, the struggle of a creature too heavy for its own limbs. The private room of the social club closed in around me, all dark velvet and gold sconces, the air thick with cigar smoke and the sweet rot of spilled wine.

The room erupted into laughter at my expense. It rolled through the men lounging on the leather banquettes, soldiers and hangers-on, made comfortable by liquor and by their boss's permission to be cruel.

"Lorenzo, doesn't your wife look like a turtle flipped on its back?"

"A fat turtle, at that. Hahaha." Glasses clinked. Someone slapped a knee.

My eyes burned with unshed tears. Embarrassment surged through me, hot and total, a humiliation that lived in the marrow. But before I could even name the feeling, a sharp pain shot through my stomach, low and deep, a blade twisting where no blade was.

A warm, wet sensation spread beneath me and I looked down in alarm.

The carpet under me was soaked, dark and spreading.

This can't be...

Panic seized me, swallowing the shame whole. I instinctively reached out for Lorenzo, my fingers grasping at the empty air between us, at the man who had once sworn his protection over my body in front of an altar.

"Lorenzo, please take me to the hospital right now!"

"My water broke!"

The haze of liquor seemed to lift from his eyes all at once, the drunken sheen burning away under something colder, sharper. The room fell quiet by degrees, the laughter dying as the men read the shift in the air the way they'd been trained to. He stood up in a sudden, ungainly panic, and for one fragile instant a flicker of regret crossed his expression, the ghost of the man who had married me.

"Don't be afraid, tesoro. I'll take you to the hospital right away." His voice cracked at the edges, almost human.

But before he could move, before that mercy could harden into action, Gianna's mocking voice cut through the tension like a wire pulled taut across the room.

"I really envy Mrs. Castellano." She let the name drip from her painted mouth like poison. "No matter what lies she tells, Lorenzo always believes her without question."

Lorenzo shoved off the white hands she had wound around his waist, his voice gone cold and sharp as a thrown knife. "Get away from me. If anything happens to my wife, it'll be on your head."

Gianna collapsed onto the sofa with exaggerated delicacy, a wounded little performance for an audience that adored her. Despite his harsh words, she persisted, undeterred, her foot clad in red silk sliding up to brush against his calf with a slow, deliberate flirtation. Her fingers drifted to the diamonds at her throat, the necklace he had given her, and she clutched them as she spoke, a talisman for a status she clutched at and never truly owned.

"Lorenzo, don't you see?" Her voice softened into something sweetly reasonable, the most dangerous thing in the room. "Mrs. Castellano just got overexcited and wet herself. How could her water break at only seven months? Her due date isn't even close."

The words settled over the men like a verdict, and one by one they took up the song. They clicked their tongues and shook their heads with theatrical disgust, the cruelty contagious now that someone had given it permission.

"I've heard pregnant women have incontinence. So that's what it looks like."

"She can't even control her own water. No wonder Lorenzo found someone else."

Lorenzo, who had just reached for me, who had half-bent toward the woman bleeding her child onto his floor, froze. I watched it happen. I watched the calculation move behind his eyes, the way he weighed my pain against the laughter of these men, against his own pride sitting exposed in front of his crew. His initial panic gave way to a long, slow exhale of relief, as though Gianna had handed him a reason not to care, and he had seized it gratefully.

His hand drifted up and smoothed his slicked hair back from his brow, palm pressing flat against it, salvaging the dignity she had threatened in front of the room.

The pity in his eyes curdled. It turned to anger, and the anger curdled into disgust, the contempt of a man looking at something beneath him. Without a single word, he reached for a nearby pillow and hurled it at me where I lay broken on the wet floor, the soft impact somehow worse than any blow, the casual dismissal of it landing harder than a fist ever could.