Two months ago, while coming from my work place in human world to my pack I faced a rogue attack. I had faced these type of incidents since childhood and was good at fighting. This time too I survived the attack. However, it caused me miscarriage.

Today was the routine checkup in the pack’s infirmary. Erick took me there in his car. But he suddenly disappeared from outside, only leaving a text to me which read [Lizzy, I got some urgent work to take care of. I can't pick you up today. Please manage it yourself. See you at home]

In the past, I would feel ignorant and nag at him for leaving me alone. I would have called him back and asked him not to leave me alone. I would ask him to accompany me more. However, it didn't matter to me anymore. Complaining him for his ignorance or seeking attention from him was pointless. I only texted him [Okay] and put my phone back in my purse. I thanked the healer and came out of the infirmary.

I hired a cab outside the infirmary. While sitting in the cab, my gaze fell on Erick’s car that was parked outside the infirmary.

Didn't he say he had some urgent work to take care of? Then, what was he doing in the same infirmary I came to?

These were the questions that came first in my mind but soon I shook my head and got inside the cab. After all, it was not the first time when I had caught Erick lying to me. It had become his usual habit of excusing himself with some ‘urgent work’ that turned out to be a white lie. I should have left caring about these stuff, shouldn't I?

I came back to the home that belonged to Erick and I. However, most of the time it was only me living in it. He would visit the home only in the night and sometimes seeing him at night was also not possible. In the beginning I would complain to him and he would always tell me how hectic his days were in handling his job as well as the pack’s chores.

I had just laid on my bed and my phone beeped with a notification. It was ‘Sweet Angel’ who tagged Erick in a post which read [ Just had a scratch. He insisted on taking me to the infirmary and accompanied me all this time. After all these time, You are still the best, Alpha]

This person with the username ‘Sweet Angel’ was none other than Christine, Erick’s childhood sweetheart and his true mate. She had also posted pictures of two hands holding each other. I couldn’t make a mistake in identifying Erick's hands. He was wearing our wedding ring. How could I not identify him?

Christine belonged to White Moon Pack that was our pack's enemy. Her father didn't agree to marry her to Erick, nor did Erick's father who was then the Alpha of the pack. Despite being each other's true mate and being in love with each other, Erick and Christine couldn't get married. She had to marry someone else. Her husband was the beta to one of the high class packs. However, the pack she was married into suffered a heavy defeat in an ongoing war, leading them to go under slavery. She was an Alpha’s daughter. How could she accept slavery like her beta husband?

Thus, she left her husband and came to our pack with her four years old cub.

In Erick's eyes I was nothing more than a substitute. He married me after Christine left him. I was just a replacement to fill his empty heart. However, to me he was everything. I once loved him with all of my heart and wanted to bear his child, thinking the child would bring us closer. But, it seemed like we were never destined to be together.

In the middle of the night I heard Erick's footsteps. He entered the room and walked by my side. He gently stroked my hair while asking, “ What did the doctor say?”

I smelled another she-wolf's smell from him, making me feel ridiculous. I had sniffed this smell from Erick every time he came late at night. The smell troubled me so much that I always wanted to vomit. It reminded me of my husband’s betrayal to me.

I just moved to the other side and said in a tired voice, “Nothing serious.”

“Are you okay?” He asked hesitantly.

“Hmm… Everything is fine.”

“I’m sorry I couldn't pick you up. Suddenly, I got so much work to handle and couldn't manage my time."He apologized, which is another lie.

I didn't expose his lies and rolled on to the other side of bed before saying, “Take rest then. Don't forget to take a shower. I don't like the strange smell coming out of you.”

I could feel the pause in his hands that were coming at me. He hesitated to say anything further and went straight to the bathroom to take a shower.

He knew why I mentioned the strange smell to him yet he didn't bother to give any explanation to me and calmly went to take a shower. If it was in the past, I would have streamed tears. However, I was surprised that not a drop of tears rolled down my cheeks. Maybe, all my tears were dried up and had nothing left to shed. Maybe it was good for me. I should have stopped crying a long time ago.

I took a deep breath as I said to myself, “No more crying, Lizzy.”

The next day, I had an early meeting at my workplace. I woke up early in the morning. Erick was still sleeping. I left him sleeping, made a coffee for myself and then left for the office. I attended the meeting with my seniors and after it ended, I received a call from Erick. His voice seemed irritated as he asked in a complaining voice, “ Lizzy, Why didn't you wake me up? I overslept for two hours. Now, I’m getting late because of you.”

I used to wake him up in the morning because he didn't like getting late for his office nor did he like the sound of an alarm. So, I would wake up early in the morning just to wake him up on time even though my shift started very late. It was my act of love and care for him. However, he took it for granted and regarded it as my duty. He was thinking that I was obligated to do these chores for him.

I then replied in a calm voice, “You shouldn’t waste your time in talking to me when you are already this late. You should better hurry up.”

“ Lizzy, you-” I could feel him chewing his lips in annoyance as he continued, “ Fine! Have you selected the suit I'm going to wear today?”

I used to select the suit from his wardrobe every morning before he went to take a shower because he was not good at selection. He would remain confused wondering which dress would look good on him. So, I helped him out. Another act of love which he took as my obligations.

“I had urgent work at my office. I didn't have time for this. Just choose the suit on your own.”

“Lizzy, how could you be so careless? You left me in a mess.”

I didn't reply to him and hung up the phone. However, just a second later my phone beeped with a notification. It was Erick’s message which read [Why are my suits wrinkled? How am I supposed to wear it in my office?]

I sighed before replying, [You are supposed to iron them before wearing. Simple!]

He texted again with a confused emoji [Iron?]

It seemed like he wasn't aware that I used to iron his clothes every morning. After a few minutes my phone started beeping again. Erick was sending me messages continuously. [Where is my red file? I can't find it.] [You haven't prepared breakfast for me? What am I going to eat?] [Can you come back home for a few minutes? I need help.]

I used to do everything for him. From cooking meals three times a day to taking care of his belongings, I handled everything for him even when he didn't ask me to. Now, he got used to getting served everything on his table and didn't bother himself in appreciating my efforts.

I was going to reply to him. Just then my senior called me and I couldn't continue chatting with Erick. I put the phone back and went to my senior’s cabin.

“Lizzy, Good news for you.” My senior greeted me with a smile before adding, “ The idea of your project is passed by the manager. But, this time he wants you to lead the project yourself. I heard you have recovered now. If that’s true, start planning to go abroad to handle this project because this time our boss will not trust anyone else except you.”

I had suggested many projects to the company before but I couldn't lead them on my own because I was busy taking care of Erick and his pack’s chore. I was planning to leave this project as well because I wanted to bear a child for Erick. However, God has another plan for me. There was no reason for me to refuse.

“I’ll take this project.” I replied. My senior was overjoyed as he said, “ Good decision, Lizzy. This is a good opportunity for your career. Our boss is in a hurry. So, prepare all your documents as soon as possible. We will leave everything on you. You are free to choose your team before leaving. So, evaluate the performance of our employees as well and choose the people you want to work with in this project.”

I planned to prepare all the documents on the same day. After that, only evaluation of employees would be left. I didn't want to delay myself anymore. I was so lost in my work that I didn't notice when the outside world turned dark and it was already very late at night. I started packing my stuff and suddenly my phone rang. It was Erick's call.

“Why are you not home yet? It's too late.”

I changed my mind after listening to Erick's voice. I liked the idea of seeing him irritated as I was once. I then replied, “I got some urgent work. I have to stay at my workplace tonight to complete the work.”

He sounded anxious as he asked, “You aren't coming home tonight. Then, how would I manage tomorrow? What about my breakfast and clothes?”

“Manage it the way you managed today.” I replied flatly.

“I can't wear wrinkled clothes everyday or stay hungry.”

Turned out he didn't eat the whole day just because I didn't cook for him. Usually, I used to prepare meals for him and even have them delivered to him on time. He didn't like eating outside. Turned out, I had spoiled him more than it was necessary.

“You should probably hire a maid to take care of you, Erick.” I replied indifferently.

“Is there anything wrong?” He asked.

“No.” I replied casually. He hesitated for a while before he asked, “Lizzy, are you angry at me?”

Was I angry at him? I think I had passed that phase of my life long ago when I used to get mad at him. I felt no emotion towards him.

He was too late to ask me this question. Now, I would no longer bother myself explaining to him how I was feeling towards him.

I remained silent while he continued in an apologetic voice, saying hoarsely, “ Lizzy, I know you are mad about Christine. Try to understand me. She is alone with her child. She knows nobody except me.”

Christine had only him. He didn't hesitate while saying this as if I had the whole world with me. I belonged to the Silver Wing Pack. My parents were omega and so was I. My father had once helped Erick's father. This way they became friends. After my father died in assisting Erick’s father in a battle, he took me to his pack with him.

I have lived in the same pack house as Erick since childhood. Erick’s father assured me that I would be treated equally as his daughter. But, he was wrong. I was an omega. How could I be compared with Alpha blood?

In his absence, Luna would often hand me several household works to do. All the pack members believed I was a maid in Alpha House. I remember Erick once introduced me to his friends as his personal maid. I had a crush on him. So, I was always eager to do his work. I thought he would take a fancy to me this way. Didn't expect him to actually take me as his maid.

That night, I cried so much. Alpha came to know this and scolded Erick. He later apologized to me. I instantly forgave him and the very next day began running after him to do his chores. I was really foolish.

“Yeah, you are right. She and her child have only you while I have the whole pack with me. You should spend more time with them. Take care of the family. I’m happy on my own.” I replied flatly.

“What do you mean?” He seemed angry while saying this.

“What do you think I mean by saying that? I said you are right. That means I’m agreeing with you. Do you have any problem with that?” I asked.

“Then what's this tone for? Why are you showing so much attitude?” He snapped.

“In which tone should I talk to you then?” My voice lost all the calmness and it felt quite rude. He remained silent for a while before adding, “Do as you wish.”

The phone was hung up. I threw my phone aside in anger. Earlier, he expected me to understand his closeness with his childhood sweetheart. I couldn't. Then I was labeled by him as a jealous wife who didn't understand her husband. Now that I was trying to understand him, he still had problems with it. I sighed and then shook everything out of my mind. I had much more important things to do, my paper work.

I stayed awake the whole night and when the sun rose, my work was completed. However, I didn't like the idea of going back home. After purposely delaying myself, I went back home. Erick had already left, as expected.

I took a shower, prepared breakfast for myself and after filling my stomach I went to my bed for a nap. I had just laid on the bed and my phone rang. It was Erick’s call.

“Lizzy… I got in an argument with the Alpha of our neighborhood pack. I have got scratches everywhere.”

“Hmm… ” I mumbled in a tired voice and went back to sleep. Through our mate bond, I could hear Erick's wolf's voice calling out for me. He seemed moaning in pain. But, I was too sleepy to open my eyes.

After some time, I opened my eyes only to find Erick standing by my bedside, looking coldly at me. Finding me completely awake, he snapped at me with a loud voice, “Lizzy, Why are you unaffected by everything?”

He was indeed right. I was not getting affected by anything which used to be a big thing for me earlier. I remember once Erick was wrestling with another Alpha. I saw a few scratches on his arms and couldn't hold myself. I jumped into the fight only to get beaten by the other Alpha. I became a laughing stock for everyone and Erick, instead of coming to check my wounds, shouted at me. He said I was foolish. He forbade me from coming to see his fights in the future. In his words, I was an embarrassment.

I ignored his words as I said in a casual voice, “ How are your wounds now? Are they healed? If they are not healing on their own, you would have to bring potion from the infirmary. We don't have them at home.”

Erick was easier to get offended from childhood and always got into arguments with others. Sometimes, his wounds would heal on their own due to his Alpha blood and sometimes it would take time. To take care of him, I took training in the pack’s infirmary of making potions for healing the wounds so that we don't have to go to the infirmary every time he gets into a fight. I used to brew potions myself and apply them on his wounds.

That's why my words surprised him. He was speechless at my response. I could see his eyes turning red in frustration. He then pulled me up in anger and yelled, “ Lizzy, how long are you going to fight me about Christine? I have told you many times there is nothing between us.”

“Oh, okay.” I replied in a calm voice and again fell on my bed to sleep which infuriated him. In anger, he chewed his lower lips and said nothing. Then, walked out by stomping his feet. Probably going to Pack’s infirmary to get potion for his wounds.