Chapter 3
The flowers started arriving on Tuesday.
Twelve white roses. Same as always. The card tucked inside read: *Do you remember the night we stayed up until sunrise talking about everything and nothing? I still remember every word. —L*
Sarah brought them to my office with that same knowing smile, but it faltered when she saw my face.
"Should I... put these somewhere?"
"Disposal," I said.
Her smile died completely. She took the flowers and left without another word.
Wednesday brought peonies. *You told me once these reminded you of your grandmother's garden. I drove two hours to find them. Please call me. —L*
Thursday, orchids. *I'm not giving up on us. I can't. —L*
I stopped reading the cards. Stopped looking at the arrangements. I instructed the front desk to refuse all deliveries addressed to me.
So he switched tactics.
Friday morning, my voicemail: "Violet, it's me. I... I was going through old photos last night and I found the one from Flynn's funeral. Do you remember? You couldn't stop shaking and I held you in the parking lot for two hours. You said I was the only thing keeping you standing. I'm still here. I'm still that person. Please. Just let me explain."
His voice cracked on the last word. Real tears, probably. The kind he could summon on command.
I deleted it.
But he'd already sent it to my mother too.
---
Nancy called Saturday afternoon.
I was between patients, reviewing labs in the break room. I saw her name on the screen and almost didn't answer.
Almost.
"Hello, Mom."
"Violet." Her voice was tight. Clipped. "I just got off the phone with Levi."
I said nothing.
"He's devastated. Absolutely devastated. He told me everything—about Destiny's... episode at your party. About how you won't even talk to him."
*Episode.* Like it was a seizure. A bad dream.
"He made a mistake," Nancy continued. "Men do. But throwing away ten years over a misunderstanding—"
"It wasn't a misunderstanding."
"Don't interrupt me." Her voice sharpened. "You've always been like this. Dramatic. Cold. You did the same thing to your father when he tried to help you after Flynn—"
"I have to go."
"Violet Marie Turner, you listen to me. That man has stood by you through everything. He was there when your brother died. He held this family together when you—"
I hung up.
My hands were shaking. I pressed them flat against the table until they stopped.
Then I walked back to my office, unlocked my desk drawer, and pulled out the manila envelope.
Hotel receipts. October 12th. Six days before Paris.
Text messages. *Can't wait to see you tonight.*
The photograph. His hand on her arm. Her coral lips smiling.
I read every date. Every timestamp. Every detail.
The pull to relent—to call him back, to believe maybe I was being too harsh—died before it could take root.
I locked the envelope away again and went back to work.
---
Sunday night, Jess texted me. *Are you okay? Levi was at Marea tonight. Sitting alone at your usual table. He looked destroyed.*
I stared at the message.
Marea. The Italian place on Central Park South where we'd celebrated every anniversary. Where he proposed over champagne and lobster ravioli.
He'd gone there. Alone. At eight o'clock on a Sunday. Prime time. When half our mutual friends would be there.
Performance. All of it. Staged.
I typed back: *I'm fine. Thanks for checking.*
Deleted the thread. Blocked his number. Blocked his email.
If he wanted to play the heartbroken lover for an audience, he could do it without me watching.
---
Monday morning, my pager went off during rounds.
*Destiny Turner admitted to Mount Sinai. Severe gastritis. Room 604.*
I stopped mid-sentence. Dr. Chen looked at me.
"You okay?"
"Fine." I handed him the chart. "Finish rounds without me."
I took the stairs to the sixth floor. My legs felt heavy. Wrong.
The corridor outside 604 was too bright. Fluorescent. Sterile.
Nancy stood near the nurses' station, her coat still on, her face pale and pinched.
She saw me. Her expression hardened.
"Violet."
I stopped three feet away. "I heard Destiny was admitted."
"Yes. No thanks to you." Her voice was low but sharp enough to cut. "She's been sick for days. Vomiting. In pain. And where were you?"
"I didn't know—"
"You didn't know because you've been too busy destroying your own life to care about anyone else." Nancy's hands shook as she gripped her purse. "Just like you were too busy that night to think about what sending Flynn out in the rain would—"
"Mrs. Turner." A voice. Warm. Familiar.
Levi stepped out of room 604.
He looked at Nancy first. Placed a hand on her shoulder. Gentle. Concerned.
"She's resting now," he said softly. Then his eyes found mine. "Violet. I'm glad you're here."
I couldn't move.
Nancy turned to him like he was a life raft. "Thank God someone cares about that girl."
"Of course." Levi's voice was so tender it made my stomach turn. He looked back at me. "Violet, I know things are complicated right now. But Destiny needs family. She needs you."
The hallway felt too small. Too hot.
Nancy stepped closer. "You've always been cold, Violet. Even as a child. But this—abandoning your own niece when she's in the hospital—"
"I didn't abandon—"
"You did." Her voice cracked. "Just like you abandoned your brother."
Levi said nothing. Just stood there. Watching.
I looked at them. My mother. My ex-fiancé. The wall they made together.
And I waited.
Waited for the old machinery to start. The guilt. The shame. The voice in my head that said *she's right, you are cold, you are the reason people leave*.
But it didn't come.
I looked at Nancy. At the bitterness carved into every line of her face.
At Levi. At the calculated concern in his eyes.
And I felt nothing.
"I have patients," I said quietly.
I turned and walked away.
Behind me, Nancy's voice rose. "Violet! Violet, don't you dare—"
I kept walking.
Down the corridor. Through the double doors. Into the stairwell.
I leaned against the wall. Closed my eyes.
My hands weren't shaking.
My chest wasn't tight.
I was fine.
I was fine.
Chapter 4
I was halfway down the sixth-floor corridor when I heard it.
"Dana Wells?"
I stopped.
Two nurses stood at the station. The younger one held a tablet, scrolling. "Yeah. Flagged for incomplete follow-up documentation. Four entries. All from Dr. Turner's clinic."
The other nurse shrugged. "Probably just moved. Changed insurance. You know how it is."
"Should I close the file?"
"Ask Dr. Turner when she's back."
I stood there. People moved past me. A gurney. A resident with coffee. Someone's pager going off.
Dana Wells.
Destiny.
She sat in my exam room. Four times. I looked into her eyes across the table. Asked her questions. Explained the procedure. Held her hand while the anesthesia took effect.
She looked at me and said nothing.
The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead. Too bright. Always too bright.
I pressed my palm against the wall. The paint was cool. Smooth.
I had touched her. Cared for her. With my own hands.
And she let me.
"Dr. Turner?" One of the nurses was looking at me now. "Are you okay?"
I nodded. Pushed off the wall. Kept walking.
But my legs felt strange. Like they belonged to someone else.
---
The text came Thursday night.
*Can we talk? Please. Just once. I made us a reservation at Aureole. 8 PM tomorrow. I'll be there either way. —L*
I stared at the message.
Aureole. The restaurant where he proposed. Where the waiter knew our order before we sat down.
I should've deleted it.
But I didn't.
---
I walked in at eight fifteen.
The hostess recognized me. Her smile faltered. "Dr. Turner. Mr. Harrison is waiting for you."
She led me through the dining room. Past tables of couples leaning close. Past the bar where we used to sit when we were too young to afford the wine list.
Levi stood when he saw me.
He'd chosen the corner table. The one with the view of the city lights. Our song was playing. Something soft and old that I used to love.
On the table: a bottle of the Châteauneuf-du-Pape from our first date. Two glasses already poured. And a small silver frame.
I looked at the photograph. Me and Levi at twenty-four. His arm around my shoulders. Both of us laughing at something I couldn't remember anymore.
"Hi." His voice was quiet. Careful. "Thank you for coming."
I sat down.
He sat across from me. Hands folded on the table. No sudden moves.
"I know you don't want to hear this," he said. "But I need to say it anyway."
I said nothing.
He took a breath. "I've been thinking about the night Flynn died. Do you remember? You called me at three in the morning. You couldn't breathe. I drove to your apartment and you were on the floor in the hallway. You couldn't get the key in the lock."
I remembered.
"I carried you inside," he continued. His voice cracked. Just slightly. "You didn't cry. You just kept saying his name. Over and over. I held you until the sun came up."
He reached across the table. Stopped just short of my hand.
"Every trip we took. Every letter I wrote. Every time I showed up at the hospital at two in the morning with coffee—" His eyes were wet now. Real tears. "That was real, Violet. That was love. The only real thing in my life."
He pulled a small box from his pocket. Velvet. Blue.
Opened it.
A new ring. Different from the first. Simpler. More expensive.
"I made a mistake," he said. "The worst mistake of my life. But I'm not giving up on us. I can't."
The pause was perfect. Three seconds. Long enough to let the words settle.
Then he looked up. Met my eyes.
I watched him.
Watched the exact moment his voice would crack again. Watched his hand tremble just enough. Watched the tear slide down his cheek at precisely the right time.
It was flawless.
Choreographed.
Rehearsed.
"I need a little more time," I heard myself say.
Something flashed behind his eyes. Fast. Bright.
Triumph.
Then it was gone. Replaced by hope. Relief.
"Of course." He closed the box. Slipped it back into his pocket. "Take all the time you need. I'll wait."
He smiled.
I smiled back.
And felt absolutely nothing.
---
She was waiting in the stairwell Tuesday morning.
I'd just finished rounds. Was heading down to the parking garage. Pushed open the door to the stairs and there she was.
Destiny.
Sitting on the landing between floors. Mascara streaked down her face. Coral lipstick smudged.
She looked up when she heard me.
"You're really going to take him back, aren't you?" Her voice was raw. Shaking.
I stopped on the top step.
"He told me," she continued. "About the dinner. The ring. He said you just need time." She stood up. Unsteady. "You don't deserve him. You never did. You're cold. You're—"
"Destiny—"
"No!" She stepped closer. "You think you're so perfect. So smart. But you don't know anything. You don't know him. Not really."
Her hands were shaking. Her breathing too fast.
"He loves me," she said. "He's always loved me. You were just—" She stopped. Swallowed. "This was always going to happen."
I looked at her. At the girl I used to read bedtime stories to.
"Go home, Destiny."
"You think you know everything." Her voice cracked. Rose. "You think you're the victim. But you don't even know what really happened to your brother."
The stairwell went silent.
Completely silent.
Destiny's eyes went wide. Her hand flew to her mouth.
"I didn't—" She backed up. Hit the railing. "I didn't mean—"
She turned and ran.
Down the stairs. Her footsteps echoing. The door on the ground floor slamming shut.
I stood on the landing.
The fluorescent light buzzed overhead.
My heart was beating. Steady. Slow.
I pulled out my phone.
Scrolled to a name I hadn't called in over a decade.
Felicity Webb.
Flynn's widow.
I pressed dial.
She answered on the third ring.
"Violet?" Her voice was surprised. Cautious. "Is everything okay?"
"No," I said quietly. "I need your help."
Silence.
Then: "Tell me what you need."
I looked down at the empty stairwell. At the scuffed linoleum. At the place where Destiny had been standing.
"I need to know how my brother really died."