Chapter 2
I spent two weeks making calls I never thought I'd make.
The first few people I contacted didn't know anything. Or they pretended not to. I kept my voice light. Asked casual questions. Where was Atticus speaking next? What events was he attending?
Finally, a girl from our old study group mentioned Katalina's birthday party. Penthouse in Manhattan. Black tie. Half the medical community would be there.
Atticus would be there.
I didn't tell Josie. She would've stopped me. Told me to let it go. Find another way. But there wasn't another way. My parents had given him forty thousand dollars. Money that should've been mine. Money I needed to leave New York and never come back.
I was going to get it.
The night of the party, I stood outside the building for ten minutes. The doorman kept glancing at me. My dress was simple. Black. The kind you bought off the rack at Macy's. Everyone walking past me wore designer labels I couldn't pronounce.
I didn't belong here.
I went in anyway.
The elevator opened into a penthouse that looked like a magazine spread. Floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the city. Crystal chandeliers. Waiters in white jackets carrying trays of champagne. Women in gowns that cost more than my rent. Men in tailored suits talking about summer homes and European conferences.
I walked through the crowd. Kept my head up. Pretended I had every right to be here.
I found Atticus near the bar.
He wore a charcoal suit. No tie. His shirt was open at the collar. Katalina stood beside him in a red dress that fit like it had been sewn onto her body. She laughed at something he said. Her hand rested on his chest.
I walked up to him. "Atticus."
He turned. His expression didn't change. "Gracelyn. What are you doing here?"
"I need to talk to you."
Katalina's eyes flicked over me. Her smile stayed in place. "We're in the middle of something."
"It'll just take a minute." I looked at Atticus. Only at him. "Please."
He sighed. Handed his drink to Katalina. "Fine."
We moved to a quieter corner near the windows. The city stretched out below us. All those lights. All those people living lives that had nothing to do with mine.
"What do you want?" Atticus asked.
I took a breath. "The money my parents gave you. I need it back."
He stared at me. "You're serious."
"Yes."
"That money was a gift. For my research fellowship."
"It was supposed to be for me." My voice stayed steady. "I asked them for help starting a new career. They gave it to you instead. I'm asking you to give it back."
He laughed. Short. Sharp. "You want forty thousand dollars."
"Yes."
"Why? So you can do what? Run away? Quit medicine because it's too hard?"
"I need it to start over."
"Start over." He repeated the words like they tasted bad. "You mean give up. Like you always do."
My hands curled into fists at my sides. "I'm not giving up. I'm leaving. There's a difference."
"Is there?" He stepped closer. His voice dropped. "You followed me to med school. You clung to me for four years. And now that you can't handle it, you want money to walk away. That's exactly what a gold-digger does."
The word hit like a punch.
I opened my mouth. Nothing came out.
Atticus reached into his jacket. Pulled out his wallet. Took out his credit card. Then he flung it at my feet.
It hit the marble floor with a sharp plastic sound.
"There it is," he said. His voice was loud now. Loud enough that people turned to look. "The gold-digger finally showing her true colors."
The room went silent.
Katalina stood by the bar. Champagne in hand. Her smile was small and satisfied.
I looked down at the card. It lay on the white marble between my feet.
Everyone was watching.
I bent down. Picked it up. My hands were shaking. I straightened.
Atticus's expression was cold. Triumphant.
I took out my phone. Opened my banking app. Entered his card information. Transferred exactly forty thousand dollars to my account. My thumb hovered over the confirmation button for half a second.
Then I pressed it.
The transaction went through.
I set the card on the nearest table. Used two fingers. Like it was something dirty.
Then I turned and walked toward the elevator.
No one said a word. The crowd parted. I kept my eyes straight ahead. My heels clicked on the marble. Each step felt like it took an hour.
The elevator doors opened. I stepped inside. Pressed the button for the lobby.
The doors slid shut.
I stared at my reflection in the polished metal. My face was pale. My hands were still shaking.
But I didn't cry.
I pulled out my phone. Looked at the transfer confirmation. Forty thousand dollars. In my account. Mine.
The elevator reached the lobby. I walked through the marble foyer. Past the doorman. Out onto the street.
The city was loud. Taxis honked. People shouted. Somewhere a siren wailed.
I got into my car. Sat behind the wheel. Stared at the confirmation screen.
Then I started the engine and drove home.
I didn't look back.
Chapter 3
I spent three weeks becoming a ghost.
I showed up to lectures. Took notes. Nodded when professors called on me. But I wasn't really there. I was somewhere else. Somewhere quieter. Somewhere I could breathe.
I researched pharmaceutical licensing requirements at two in the morning. Sent my resume to a recruiter in Seattle who specialized in career transitions. Started selling my furniture on Craigslist. A lamp. A bookshelf. The coffee table Atticus helped me pick out sophomore year.
I didn't tell anyone.
Josie knew something was different. She'd look at me across the table at our usual coffee shop and tilt her head. "You okay?" she'd ask.
"Yeah," I'd say. "Just tired."
She didn't push. That was the thing about Josie. She waited until you were ready.
I avoided Atticus completely. Changed my route to class. Ate lunch off campus. Left the library the second I saw his navy sweater.
Katalina noticed.
I caught her watching me in the hallway outside the lecture hall one afternoon. Her eyes tracked me like I was something she needed to categorize. I kept walking. She smiled.
Two days later, I got an email about a pharmaceutical company hosting an informational session at Mount Sinai. Entry-level sales positions. No medical degree required. Just drive and a willingness to learn.
I signed up immediately.
The session was on a Thursday evening. I wore a gray blazer I'd borrowed from Josie and the one pair of professional heels I owned. The hospital was busy. People in scrubs rushed past. Visitors clutched flowers and balloons. I followed the signs to Conference Room B on the third floor.
There were maybe twenty people in the room. A woman in a pantsuit talked about quotas and territory management. I took notes. Asked questions. Felt something like hope for the first time in weeks.
When the session ended, I stayed behind to talk to the recruiter. She handed me her card. Told me to send my resume. I thanked her and walked out into the corridor.
The hallway was empty. Fluorescent lights hummed overhead. My heels clicked on the linoleum.
I turned the corner toward the elevator.
Two men stepped out of a supply room.
I didn't recognize them. Both wore jeans and jackets. One was tall with a shaved head. The other was shorter. Stocky. They didn't look like hospital staff.
I kept walking.
The tall one moved in front of me. "Gracelyn Hamilton?"
I stopped. "Yes?"
"You need to come with us."
My heart kicked hard against my ribs. "I don't—"
The shorter one grabbed my arm. His grip was tight. He pulled me toward the supply room. I tried to yank free. "Let go—"
He shoved me through the door.
I stumbled. My shoulder hit a metal shelf. Boxes of gauze and syringes rattled. The door slammed shut behind us.
The tall one stepped closer. "You've been told to stay in your lane."
"I don't know what you're talking about." My voice shook.
"Katalina Ford says otherwise."
My stomach dropped.
The shorter one shoved me again. Harder this time. I fell. My knees hit the tile. Pain shot up my legs.
"Stay away from things that don't belong to you," the tall one said.
I tried to stand. The shorter one kicked me. His boot connected with my ribs. The air left my lungs in a rush. I curled onto my side. Gasped.
Another kick. This one to my back.
I reached for the shelf. Tried to pull myself up. My head cracked against the metal edge. White light exploded behind my eyes. Something warm ran down my temple.
Blood.
The men stepped back. The tall one looked down at me. "Remember this."
They left.
The door clicked shut.
I lay on the floor. My ribs screamed. My head throbbed. Blood dripped into my eye. I blinked. The room swam.
My phone was still in my blazer pocket.
I pulled it out. My hands were shaking so hard I almost dropped it. I unlocked the screen. Scrolled to Atticus's name.
I pressed call.
It rang three times.
Then his voice. "Yeah?"
Background noise. Laughter. Music. Somewhere warm. Somewhere safe.
"Atticus." My voice came out as a whisper. "I'm hurt. I need help."
Silence.
Then he laughed.
It wasn't nervous. It wasn't uncertain. It was the sound of someone who had already decided I was lying.
"Stop being dramatic, Gracelyn. I'm busy."
The line went dead.
I lay there. Phone pressed to my ear. Listening to the dial tone.
The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead.
Somewhere down the hall, a monitor beeped.
I closed my eyes.
And something inside me went quiet.
Permanently quiet.
Chapter 4
Josie found me on the floor of the supply room.
She told me later that I'd called her first. Left a voicemail. My voice slurred and broken. She couldn't make out the words but she knew something was wrong. She drove to Mount Sinai. Asked security. Checked every floor.
I don't remember calling her.
I remember the fluorescent lights. The hum of the vents. The sticky warmth of blood on my temple. The way my ribs felt like broken glass every time I breathed.
Then Josie's face. Her hands on my shoulders. Her voice saying my name over and over.
The ambulance came. They put me on a stretcher. Asked questions I couldn't answer. Josie answered for me. She rode with me. Held my hand the entire time.
Two cracked ribs. Laceration above my left eye. Seven stitches. The doctor said I was lucky. That it could've been worse.
I sat in the waiting room afterward. Josie beside me. A thin hospital blanket wrapped around my shoulders. I stared at the wall. White paint. A poster about hand hygiene.
I wasn't crying. I should've been. But I wasn't.
"I'm going to Seattle," I said.
Josie didn't ask why. Didn't tell me to think it over. She just nodded. "I know. I've already been looking at apartments."
She pulled out her phone. Showed me a listing. Small studio. Affordable. Available immediately.
"I'll wire you money tonight," she said. "Emergency funds. You don't have to pay me back."
I looked at her. "Josie—"
"Don't." Her voice was firm. "You'd do it for me."
She was right. I would.
I nodded.
We sat there until the sun came up.
The next three days passed in a blur of mechanical precision.
I packed one suitcase. Clothes. Toiletries. The battered notebook I'd started keeping. Nothing else. Everything I owned fit into fifty pounds.
I went to the bank. Withdrew my remaining cash. Counted out forty thousand dollars in hundreds. My hands didn't shake. I felt nothing.
I found an envelope in my desk drawer. Plain white. I placed the money inside. Sealed it. Wrote a single note on a torn piece of paper:
*Consider every debt—emotional and financial—paid in full. Don't look for me.*
I folded it. Slid it into the envelope.
Then I drove to Atticus's apartment.
It was Tuesday afternoon. He'd be at the hospital. Rounds until six. I still had his key. The one he gave me sophomore year. *Use it when you want to surprise me*, he'd said.
I unlocked the door. Stepped inside.
The apartment smelled like his cologne. Coffee. The faint scent of Katalina's perfume.
I walked to his desk. Set the envelope down. Centered it perfectly on the leather mat.
I looked around the apartment one last time. The couch where we used to watch movies. The kitchen where I made him breakfast before exams. The bedroom I would never see again.
I felt nothing.
I walked out. Locked the door behind me. Went downstairs to the mailbox. Dropped his key through the slot.
It clinked as it hit the metal bottom.
Done.
I booked a red-eye flight to Seattle. Josie drove me to the airport. She didn't ask if I was sure. Didn't tell me to reconsider. She just hugged me at the curb. Hard. Long.
"Call me when you land," she said.
"I will."
"I mean it, Grace. The second you land."
"I promise."
She pulled back. Her eyes were wet. Mine weren't.
I walked into the terminal. Checked my suitcase. Went through security. Sat at the gate and stared at the departures board.
Flight 247 to Seattle. Boarding at 11:45 PM.
I didn't look at my phone. Didn't check to see if Atticus had found the envelope. Didn't care.
When they called my boarding group, I stood. Walked down the jetway. Found my seat by the window.
The plane took off at midnight.
I pressed my forehead against the glass. Watched the lights of New York shrink below me. All those buildings. All those people. All those years.
I didn't look back.
Seattle was raining when I landed.
I called Josie from baggage claim. She answered on the first ring.
"I'm here," I said.
"Good." Her voice was thick with relief. "You're going to be okay, Grace. I promise."
I wanted to believe her.
The apartment Josie found was in a neighborhood I didn't know. Small. Clean. Affordable. But I couldn't move in for three weeks. Lease issues. Paperwork.
So I stayed in a budget motel near the airport. Forty dollars a night. Thin walls. A bed that sagged in the middle. A card table I bought at Goodwill.
I set up my laptop. Printed resumes at the FedEx down the street. Made a list of every pharmaceutical company in the Seattle area.
Then I started calling.
The first office hung up after fifteen seconds.
The second told me they weren't hiring.
The third let me talk for a full minute before saying no.
I called forty-seven prospects that first day. Got three callbacks. I wrote it down in my notebook.
*Called 47 prospects today. 3 callbacks. Progress.*
I ate instant noodles for dinner. Fell asleep with my laptop open.
The next day, I called sixty prospects.
Four callbacks.
I wrote it down.
The day after that, seventy-two calls.
Five callbacks.
I kept going.
Every rejection felt like a door slamming. But I didn't stop. I couldn't. Because stopping meant going back. And I was never going back.
I stared at my reflection in the motel bathroom mirror. Stitches above my eye. Bruises on my ribs. Circles under my eyes.
I looked like someone who'd survived something.
I was.