Chapter 4

Mason came through the door at nine the next morning. I was sitting at the kitchen table. Still in yesterday's clothes. I hadn't slept.

He set his briefcase down. He didn't look at me right away.

"Rosalia told me something."

I waited.

"She thinks you tampered with the saddle."

The words didn't make sense at first. I heard them. I just couldn't arrange them into anything real.

"What?"

"The riding accident. She thinks you did something to the horse's equipment. Out of jealousy."

I stood up. The chair scraped against the floor. "Mason, I wasn't even there."

"I know."

"I was at work. I have a time card. I have witnesses."

"I know," he said again.

I stared at him. He was straightening his cufflinks. That little tell. That little lie his hands told when his mouth wouldn't.

"So tell her she's wrong."

He looked at me then. His face was blank. Not angry. Not anything.

"It's complicated."

"It's not complicated. I didn't do it."

"The situation is complicated. Given everything that's happening with the family, with the merger, it would be better if you maintained some distance from Carlson events going forward."

I felt something crack. Not loud. Quiet. Like ice under weight.

"Distance."

"Just for now."

"She's lying about me and you want me to disappear."

"I'm asking you to be patient." He picked up his briefcase. "I have a board meeting. We'll talk tonight."

He left.

I stood in the kitchen. The coffee pot was still on from yesterday. The apartment smelled stale. I looked down at my hands. They were shaking.

I sat back down at the table. I didn't move for an hour. Maybe longer. The light through the window changed. I watched it.

I thought about calling him. I thought about showing up at his office. I thought about a lot of things.

I didn't do any of them.

---

The post went up two days later.

I was on my lunch break. Sitting on a crate behind the fish counter. Eating a sandwich I'd made that morning. My phone buzzed. Then it buzzed again. Then it didn't stop.

I opened it.

A text from a number I didn't recognize. Just a link.

I clicked it.

The blog was called Manhattan Murmurs. I'd never heard of it. The post was titled "Carlson Heir's Complicated Personal Situation."

There was a photo of me. Outside the fish market. My apron on. My hair pulled back. I was holding a bag of ice. I looked tired.

The caption read: "Sources close to the Carlson family suggest Mason Carlson's former relationship remains a delicate matter as his engagement to Rosalia Harvey moves forward. Questions have been raised about the nature of recent incidents involving Miss Turner, including last week's unfortunate riding accident."

I read it twice. Then I read it again.

My phone kept buzzing. Messages. Notifications. People I barely knew sending me the link. People I thought were friends going quiet.

Lena came around the corner. She saw my face.

"What happened?"

I handed her my phone.

She read it. Her jaw tightened. She handed it back.

"Call him."

I did. He didn't answer. I called again. Voicemail.

I texted him. "We need to talk."

He replied an hour later. "I saw it. Don't engage. It will pass."

That was it. Four words. Don't engage.

I stared at the screen. I waited for another message. Something more. An explanation. A plan. Anything.

Nothing came.

I put my phone in my pocket. I went back to work. I filleted mackerel for three hours. My hands moved. My brain didn't.

When my shift ended, I checked my messages. Three people I'd considered friends hadn't responded to texts I'd sent days ago. A fourth had blocked me.

I walked home. I passed a newsstand. The Post had a small piece about the Carlson-Harvey engagement. Rosalia in a gown. Mason in a tux. They looked perfect.

I kept walking.

When I got home, I sat on the couch. I pulled out my phone. I opened the blog post again. I read the comments.

"Gold digger."

"Pathetic."

"She should know when to let go."

I closed the app. I set my phone face down on the table.

I looked at my left hand. The silver band caught the lamplight. It looked thin. Cheap. Exactly what it was.

Mason didn't call that night. He didn't call the next day.

He didn't issue a correction. He didn't contact the blogger. He didn't say my name.

The silence was louder than anything he could have said.

I sat in the apartment we'd chosen together. I wore the ring I'd bought for us. I waited for him to defend me.

He never did.

Chapter 5

I checked myself into the hospital on a Thursday morning. I'd been dizzy for three days. Couldn't keep food down. My hands shook when I tried to hold things.

The nurse took one look at my chart and her face changed.

"When was your last blood donation?"

"Two weeks ago."

"And before that?"

"Two weeks before that."

She didn't say anything. She just started an IV.

They put me in a curtained bay in the ER. Not a room. Just a space with fabric walls and a chair that turned into a bed if you pulled a lever. The IV drip was cold going in. I watched the bag above my head. Clear liquid. Whatever I'd given away, they were putting back.

I closed my eyes. The sounds of the ER filtered through the curtain. Phones ringing. Wheels on linoleum. Someone coughing three bays down.

Then I heard his voice.

Mason. In the next bay. Maybe ten feet away. The curtain between us was thin. Institutional blue. I could see his shadow through it.

He was on the phone.

"I understand the concern," he said. "But the timeline is fixed. We move at the gala or we don't move at all."

Silence. He was listening.

"The Harvey contracts are signed. Peter's already committed. If we wait, we lose the leverage."

I opened my eyes. I stared at the curtain. At his shadow.

"No," he said. "She doesn't know. And she won't."

My chest tightened.

"Look," Mason continued. His voice dropped. Not softer. Harder. "I made the call three years ago and I'd make it again. The situation was complicated. The car accident—if I'd intervened, if I'd pulled her out of that schedule, questions would have been asked. Peter was already watching. A pregnancy at that exact moment would have compromised the entire operation."

I stopped breathing.

"It was unfortunate," he said. "But it was necessary."

The IV drip kept going. Steady. Rhythmic. I could hear it.

"She grieved," Mason said. "I let her. It was better that way. Clean."

Something in my chest cracked. Not my ribs. Something deeper.

"I'm handling it," he said. "She's not a problem. She's never been a problem. That's the point."

He hung up.

I heard him stand. Heard his footsteps. Heard the curtain pull back in the next bay. Heard him leave.

I sat there. The IV drip kept going. My arm was cold. My whole body was cold.

A pregnancy would have compromised the entire operation.

I made the call three years ago and I'd make it again.

She's not a problem.

I looked down at my left hand. The silver band. Ten years. I'd worn it every single day. Through fish markets and hospital shifts and nights I couldn't afford heat. I'd worn it when he didn't wear his. I'd worn it like a promise.

He'd let our baby die because it was inconvenient.

He'd called it necessary.

The nurse came back. She checked the IV bag. She smiled.

"Almost done. You're doing great."

I nodded. I didn't speak. I wasn't sure I could.

When the bag was empty, she unhooked me. She gave me a list of foods to eat. Iron supplements. Instructions to rest.

"Take care of yourself," she said.

I signed the discharge papers. I walked out of the ER. I took the subway home.

The apartment was empty. Mason wasn't there. He was never there anymore.

I went to the bedroom. I pulled a duffel bag from the closet. I packed one pair of jeans. Two shirts. Underwear. Socks. My toothbrush. The paperback on my nightstand.

I didn't pack the dresses. I didn't pack the shoes. I didn't pack anything he'd ever seen me wear.

I went to his desk. I opened the top drawer. The silver band was still there. The one I'd given him ten years ago. The one he'd never worn. It sat on top of a stack of business cards. Untouched. Forgotten.

I picked it up.

I walked to the kitchen. I opened the trash can. I looked at both rings. Mine. His. Matching. Cheap. The only thing we'd ever bought together when we had nothing.

I dropped them in.

They hit the bottom. A soft sound. Like something breaking that was already broken.

I didn't leave a note. There was nothing to say. Nothing he would understand. Nothing that mattered.

I picked up my bag. I locked the door behind me. I took a cab to JFK.

At the ticket counter, I asked for the next flight out. Anywhere. The woman typed.

"Miami," she said. "Leaves in two hours."

"I'll take it."

I paid with the last of my savings. Six hundred dollars. Everything I had left.

I sat at the gate. I didn't call anyone. I didn't text. I turned off my phone.

I looked at my left hand. The pale line where the ring had been. Ten years of pressure. Ten years of weight.

It was gone now.

When they called my row, I stood. I walked down the jetway. I found my seat by the window. I buckled in.

The plane lifted. Manhattan got smaller. Then it disappeared.

I pressed my forehead against the glass. I closed my eyes.

I didn't cry. I was too tired to cry.

I just sat there. Feeling lighter than I'd felt in a decade.

And I didn't look back.

Unlock Now
Show your support to inspire the writer to come up with more fantastic stories

After He Chose His Mistress Over Our Dead Baby

Chapter 4 : Avery Knox
Chapters
Customize
Next Chapter